Agony.

prod. @audioabomination x @coilwound
cover art by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics: 
im broken and stomped
my wounds feelin open
and soon this is over
i know i deserve it
i still feelin hopeless
enough of their gossip
my thoughts like in moshpit
dont know why im holding,yeah 

oh fuck
mental disorders that put me in mud
they like parasites turns the brain into mold
and i feeling so strange like have blade in my mouth, i feeling so cold

have enough, bitch
scratches on my wrist
oh my god, why the fuck
why i cant resist

all of my thoughts that was made me amorphous
are turning my nerves into their rotten corpses
I living my life waiting for when i collapse
because of my own thoughts about my own worthless

mutilation. [prod. abxminvtixn x coilwound]

•Vocals by HOLLOW MIND & NEKROHEAD.
•Produced by ABXMINVTIXN & CXNTRITIXN.
•Released May 28, 2021.

•Lyrics

Laugh when you cry, i enjoy your fucking pain.
Pile up the bodies when you desecrate the dirt.
Pissing on your grave and that is all youre worth.
Don't even deserve that but ill do it anyway.

Ripping your life into flames when im digging through all of your mahfucking graves.
Banishing you to the dammed and im making damn sure you will never be saved.

Ripping the flesh of the land, then i watch your soul decay.
Never to see you again, leaves a smile on my face.

Wasted, my colorless life that changed me.
Controls my own thoughts so strangely.
They're like parasites that fake me and swallow my soul.

Scratching down the lines of my own pain on my own hands.
Im feelin dead when im alone, this feels just make me gnaw my veins.
There's whole my apathetic life that full of my indifference.
And even though that I'm still here, it doesn't make here any sence.

•apathyzed 2021.

APATHYZED

APATHYZED feat. NEKROHEAD

prod. by @cxntritixnsounds
cover art by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
(i can not think) any words
that explains what i see
i felt alone but the sunshine they bring
to my grey empty life is the light that i see, bitch

now i will fight as i can
without harming people i have and myself
i see that i had to make something disguise
so that people don't see the hatred in my eyes

i
disappointed of life
but the way that i find
heal my wounds and my mind
i hope i will save my life

dissapointed. [prod. cxntritixn]

prod by @devd-hxllxw
cover by @audioabomination

lyrics:
i can see no fucking light tonight 
there is something like a way out but i can not find 
life is restless but it seems like shit should go on like that 
and we just staying on the side and we are can not pretend 

i can see no fucking light tonight 
there is something like a way out but i can not find 
i felt disgusting but the art and other reasons to live 
just bring some colors to my gray and apathetic empty life 

i can see no fucking light tonight 
there is something like a way out but i can not find 
life is restless but it seems like shit should go on like that 
and we just staying on the side and we are can not pretend 

i can see no fucking light tonight 
there is something like a way out but i can not find 
i felt disgusting but the art and other reasons to live 
just bring some colors to my gray and apathetic empty life...

i see no light... [prod. devdhxllxw]

prod by @svrviiive
cover by @audioabomination

(the lyrics are pretty bad but many people have asked for them)
lyrics:
im overdosed by emotions and my pain 
i feel im wasted of my mind and all my lyrics in my head 
do you really think that I'm just pretending and i am playing a game?
i'd want to talk about my money like you all  but i'm not the same 

im not a kid who needs to prove you that im here to be a little noticed 
Instead i'm talking bout how now i feel, bypassing these narcissists
you think my shit's so boring and all the same, but i am the same in life 
I'm still feeling really bad, and as long as that i'll forever remember that knife

i can spit on all your faces when you look at me 
i'd like to stay in the shadows and shallows 
im digging me to six feet deep 

i was taking all the bullshit with patience 
but patience is dead so im vacant  
i swallow my blood and im faking it 
i faking like i was happy yeah  

so im taking  
to faking 
to make it
no questions 
don't feel 
so elation  
it's like 
a depression 

against all the pressure  
im walking a messed up
my skin is so wasted
i cant holding on! 

i fucked up, im still fucking wasted now

i cant fucking holding on now 
i'd like to have a gun to shoot my stupid brains out 
i dont give a single fuck about you with me or you not 
if you we're not with me that time when i was need to see a little hope

exhaustion. [prod. svrviiive]

prod by @svrviiive
cover by @hollowmindisdead

another shit lyrics but many asking.
lyrics:
why the fuck you staring
on my scars, i was despaired 
cuz you fuckers tries to blame me 
now i don't feel any scaring  

to break up with hate that flaming 
but you fuckers tryna test me   
and my nerves that now impairing  
to break up your spine and kill you, bitch 

fuck this cemetery 
i refuse to being buried 
on the ground that now in hatred 
i don't want to rot and stay here  

wasted and faded goddamn nature 
filled with hypocrisy of faggots 
she would die of shame to herself bruh 
if she knew she made a garbage 

burn their churches, cut them rape them 
fuck their feeling, start the mayhem  
how you smart to come with a weapon 
but you can't just find the pleasure 

in your ordinary life  
that's why we are so fucking wasted 
and of all of you im vacant  
to this day i can't get better then i was 

blow your fuckin brains out  
and ressamble them again  
i wanna cut you deep inside   
to see your all humanity 

fuck this empty promises    
your bodies just a carcasses  
supposed to rotting under the ground 

the whole human history
is as bloody as their essence
i'd like to end all of that 
there's no more fucking common sense 

i want to see the decline of this world

hypocrisy. [prod. svrviiive]

prod by @trauma-6-6-6
mix & cover by @hollowmindisdead

DEVDHXLLXW - APATHY [PROD.ŦR∀UM∀]

prod by @svrviiive
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
bitch i get you rest in peace
breaking your skull, never felt so bliss  
i fuck it all up? i deserve this shit? 
they breaking my heart but i let them quit

wow, fuck
never gave a fuck about scars 
but i feel it like a trauma first of all to my own nerves
im disgusting piece of shit and you just fuckin on my thoughts?
that's what you believe in, that's what you've been taught

how much was said of this cold empty words?
what had to happen to make me the worst?
i'll never let these crows peck at my corpse
yeah im tired of all the black cats going cross 

yuh 
never seen the point of this shit
when you lying to my eyes. you was right, disappear 
i will never miss again all this worries you bring 
when you look at me this time, what the fuck do you see? 

i cant stay. but yeah i wanted... 
i dont feel the same...
i dont feel it like i should  
survive again this hurricane...

i dont feel the way of living 
with this shit i grap...
but it's not your only fault 
i know i fucked it up...

i just want to feel some better cuz i feel
i fucked it up
i cant stay here for too long because i know 
i fucked it up 
i dont want to see your eyes again, i see 
i fucked it up 
but you will watch me how i start decay because 
i fucked it up 
(x2)

betrayed. [prod. svrviiive]

prod by @audioabomination 
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
i was cold in past four years of my own suffering
i dwelled my room for nothing every time i woke alive again
i lost a part of myself, in the walls of mental hospital
i still remind these days and why the fuck im digging in my brain

im dig into my brain
now it's not the same
i dont feel like that
but in the depths i feel my pains

dig into my brain
my question is the same
am i really health
or is it the new one self deceit

yeah i don't give a fuck of my past
i just wish i'll never back again to this state

yeah, i felt stucked,i felt brain is up in mud
and yeah i felt like world is stopped
so what's for now? and now i thought

yeah im better be away
yeah im better be health
yeah im better be straight
yeah im better be dead

yeah i fucked up things
and they fucked up me
i was blind as fuck
but i learn to see the fuck i live?

i dont ever back to all these wards
i wish i'll never felt this pains as before

selfdeceit. [prod. abxminvtixn]

prod by @audioabomination
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
bitch stop
you talkin dumb i have enough
i never fucks with these cunts that always broken my trust
all emotions down, there's a mental scars

this shit just got me weep
yeah i used to cry i used to be sick
but god, i've already have to seen so much shit
so your fucking betray didn't hurt me so deep

so i don't give a fuck what you say about me
oh i don't give a fuck what you think about me
i seen so many fucking bullshit, now u see my cutted limbs
but i pulled out your black nails that pierced right under my ribs

i met you in the stage of resist
you said we can handle but raped my feels
to be honest i glad that i got you to leave
when this bullshit is gone i became kinda free

fucked up
i felt fucked up with my thoughts
this time when i was in psychical ward
when the stranger was closer than people i loved

and i know you can hear what i'm talking about
what i sing, bitch, what i shout
you thought i miss you but i don't
emotion passed, this stage is gone

but these other fuckers still blame me for cold
but why should i be warm with you? bitch we are both
why you wasn't around when im feeling im scorn
when my music i made was a suicide note

now my mental instable has opened my eye
i see what is wrong with you and what is right
i won't closing my eyes when i seeing the light
and i still going thru, i keep holding on life

catharsis. [prod. abxminvtixn]

prod: @trauma-6-6-6
cover: @audioabomination
mix by: @hollowmindisdead

Atimia [prod.ŦR∀UM∀ ]

prod by @audioabomination
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
bitch i pull up to my memories its cold like in a mortuary
i used to slit my skin its like a suicidal surgery
i see dystrophic body in the corner and there's nobody
the tears are like a needles make it feel so fucking suffering

but i also see the times of how i feel
like when i was a fucking child and when im walking thru the fields
i was so happy but years later i feel i just wanna leave
the ones who used to love and cover are just watching how i sink

come it back and see this shit and how it comes
go see the fuck bitch i got so cray and why i trapped in a mental ward
i felt a lot of painful shit and they just said its by my fault
but bitches stop, fucking drop, you know you wrong at all your words

and when i drop me out of all this pit they ripping on my nerves
this fucking whore was acting shit and made me feel like im cursed
yeah i had a fake friends but for now i glad they gone
you should forget my fucking face, my fucking name, my fucking songs

the pain is gone and i won't lost in all this pit
all can i do is make me prove myself i'll never feel this shit, again, again
im gonna show the ones who see no fucking light
you always bout to find a way out, and im here to help you find

cuz i remember all those times when i was gon to shoot my brains
when im the one in my own room, when i was losted in the space
but now i feeling so much better and im going just to help
all can i do with all the past is make it never was in vain

not in vain. [prod. abxminvtixn]

prod by @svrviiive
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
im traumatized
by the shards of life
that makes me gnaw my veins
and bite my lips and jowls to the ulcers

it breaks my mind.
and im still dwell this cage
it makes me feel so vile
and i swallow my nails like blades

ashes of my dreams
yeah it settled in my lungs and it break my ribs
yeah i fuck with this shit and i feel it like a burden of me
like i'll never escape i will never be free

sleeves up, and im back, to the scars on my hand
to my burns that i made, like a mark of my hate
to myself and the past, that is piercing my chest
hit the heart end - to -end, and im feel like im dead

I'm still breathing, spitting blood
and now im walking on the blade
to lose my hope and fall,
or hold and maybe see the light again?
the pain is gone, the wounds are healed
but i feel trapped in my own cage
which holds me back, it's like a prison
built of my own mental state

i used to wake up from my faintinings with my sleeves are fucking up
Im in a pool of still wet blood that flows like wine from my own wounds

and I dont want this shit to happen in my life again, no
and I just want to break this prison in my head to end this cold

mental prison. [prod. svrviiive]

prod by @svrviiive
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
all my lyrics and shit
wouldn't make any sense if i wasn't a whin
but even if it is, at least ima real.
and i'm not a fucking pussyboy, not a fucking bitch

i don't give a fuck, i don't give a shit
if you think that ima low cuz i never was heard
try to make some sense of this pile of my scream
and you'll see the truth, you will see me bleed, you're just a bitch

sometimes i feel like piece of trash
and im tear on my lungs and my morbid flesh
i repeat it often like its my prayer
but it's my own life, i've never played

my creativity is self-medication
not a money counter , or love motivation
for me this commerce like a decapitation
i curse this shit and i will never make it

i curse this time when i was sick and doesn't know where i go
and while these motherfuckers think its an image im tryna cope
and my life is a record, ima needle on a gramophone
which draws new scratches everywhere until it comes to abrasion
(x2)

where will my fate take me this time i want to know
i feel so sick but if i've come this far, it means that i can't stop

i am feeling like erased
and i got no trace
so i hurt myself
like it's just in case

you can see it in my face
i am got in impasse
and i hate this place
and i hate my space

and i keep on fucking trying
all the motherfucking ways
how to love my flesh
how to love my face

and i'm really fucking try
win this goddamn hate
and i'm really trying
to win this hate

abrasions. [prod. svrviiive]

prod by @pieruun
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
did i dropped to my sins?
did i losted all my feels now?
and when we all fall asleep
how you see me in your dreams?

maybe i am feel healthy and im enjoying everything?
im spending time with my close friends and we are still a fucking clique
or maybe im suicidal again and bleeding on my knees?
and im still sitting in motionless state like i am fucking freeze

but my whole life is constant duality
so every fucking dream that about me is can be prophetic.
it maybe looks like obvious garbage, a shitty tragedy
but im even got no hope to once decide the only side of me
(x2)

and now my thoughts are taking shades of empty houses and the crows
that pecking colors of my feels but i can't even let em go
they feed on brightness, but they never ever touching to my dark
and that's remains inside the wounds
and toxify me to my soul

but i'm still fighting them again
and i keep coloring my days
and trying not to touch my veins, bitch

and this is the answer to this shit
my ego conflict is a gift
that has become my fucking burden for my feels bitch

my duality concerns everything
should i run, should i stay, should i leave?
it is helps me, but it's like i'm weak
cuz i feel like im going to split 
(x2)

egoconflict. [prod. pieruun]

prod by @svrviiive
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
i feel the pus in the deep of my throat
i see my nails eaten while im still mope
i swear my head's going burst of my thoughts
im so much wasted while thinking of worse

but i'll never be affected, im suspecting im gonna stop
one day i'll heal, at least i have big amount of hope
i open my scars again to see what im gonna lost
if i will fall one day of my suicidal lust

i keep staring into my scars
i still suffering just because
of my mind and my feelings of gross
im stone as troll in the sun, in the moss

oh fuck, i can say a lot of smart words
to describe my state of sadness and scorn
i am aim for the joy but get sad, no scope
i won't lacking of piece of love from the world

i can't stop right now, but i hope...
i can die, but i can't leave this world...
with no trace, i should leave my own
you'll see i did, and i will help you all

dismayed. [prod. svrviiive]

the lyrics were written back in January but recorded only recently.
thanks for all the expectations, glad to be back<3.

prod. by @svrviiive
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:

bitch i keeping back to this shit
someone think that ima died or now im healthy to quit
or I'm wandering my ward in my own suicidal dreams
or maybe now i feeling happy as i wanted all these years

but fuck, bitch, stop it i ain't used for this shit
all my life is like a balance but on ends are only pits
problems teaching to survive and now i know that i won't sink
and im back with this noise, thats my way just to see all this shit

i mean to see the sense in grinding my thoughts
i mean i want to see the reason why my life going cross (with what i want)
i want to get the way i should care my wounds
remained from past in me, and living in the many other hearts

but i keep fucking wandering here like im blind
like I've pierced in my eyeballs when i was a child
and they're bleeding right now cuz these needles are stuck
they are long to my brain, bitch, i fucking trapped

thats the reason my music for me always sucks
that's the reason why you still looking for my blood
that's the reason one day I'll gone like fully mad
if i'll never found escape from endless ward

bitch i got lost in this pit
i fucking lost in this pit
now my body's drown in this pit
i'll fucking die in this pit bitch

i've got lost in this pit that i did by myself it's my own mental cage.
it's like hole in the head, like a rope to my neck, it's all sign to an end, want to get rid of that

and thats what now im doing im working on shit and i'll shut anybody that gotta prevent
all of my music is not always sad
when I'll feel i get happy I'll write shit bout that
but now i lost in this pit
i fucking lost in this pit
now my body's drown in this pit
I'll fucking die in this pit...

2024.

lost in the pit. [prod. svrviiive]

prod. @frozenwitches x @audioabomination
cover art by @abxminvtixn

pretty bad lyrics but many asked 
(wtf this track's more popular then everything i made in the years after that)
lyrics:
get the fuck out
when i fuckin dissolve in this
rather shut up
when you talk about hapiness

all this shit world
rotting fast like morality
this so disgusting
i sew up my eyes

i feel like a dungeon monster
when hatred overflows and my mind fuckin losted
would be im some bolder,then drowned in bloodstains
and fuckin achieve what i am fuckin lusted

I see what you cannot see
fuck with this hatred but control it
i'd save this world but its so deceased
fuck all your prays about all your sins

dissolving but you can not break us
i know that your evil is terrible make up
delivers you thoughts that you can be so fake ass
but me and my brothers will fuck execute you

i ignite
so fuck this life
im so impase
open up the fuckin gates,bitch

i ruin my life but i fuckin deserve it
im torture myself and i see they ignore it
my skin as my bones teared up cuz this slaughters
im running from here cuz its low life

i take this part...

bloodstains. [prod. frozenwitches & abxminvtixn]

prod. @audioabomination x @trauma-6-6-6
cover art by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
i have long disliked this life
but don't want be ignored
know that im so worthless
in feet i feel graveyard cold

I still fucks with all this shit
so i dont go in tomb
often think how would be fine
if once i'd died and rot,bitch

im upset cuz only can
express my feels to note
i cant fucks with people
cause again they lefts to not

i still love they all
who stayed with me and let me cure
but i have feels that for them all
i way to rise the karm

(tell me if it's worth it
tell me i have nothing
you all hurt again bitch
but i got only stronger )

mourn. [prod. abxminvtixn x trauma]

@brxkenbrxkenbrxken

Cannot stay without your sight
I dont want to die along
Right here, right now
Your voice was the only one
Let me stay by your side
I cannot stay without your sight
But now, see u only in my dreams

Agony.

Marics