thoughtform collective - February 2021

12 bux and a dream

I made this song for my daughter <3 to show her how much i love her
Prod. IOF

(Lyrics)
You are the best gift for me
The best thing I could ever ask for
You give my life a new meaning 
How could I ever want more 
I wanna be the one you run up to
I wanna be the one you look up to
I wanna do everything for you
I wanna be everything for you

Cause You saved me from myself 
It couldn’t be anybody else 
You saved me from myself
It couldn’t be anybody else 
One look at your face I knew that
I was never, never gonna go back
I’m gonna be who you need me to be
A father that loves you for eternity 

Never make you doubt your self worth
I’ll try protect from the worlds hurt 
I’ll do everything that I can 
I’ll do everything to be a man 
Cause you opened up my eyes
And now Ive realized
That’s there’s so much more to love
You’re everything I could ever want 
Cause you opened up my eyes 
And now I’ve realized
That theres a reason for my life 
And you’re the reason why

Mixed by Yago Beats

Saved me from myself (prod. IOF)

First single off the EP, "Liminality: Volume II" out February 26th

"I'm trying to let them know, that in this whole world, there's at least one person who cares about them"

reminiscers in a parking lot / unconditional love

Oblivion is the first single off of my upcoming project Obake Pt 1
It is the first piece of many in this album, I hope you enjoy

LYRICS: (SOUNDCLOUD HAS A STUPID CHARACTER LIMIT SO I HAD TO LEAVE THE CHORUS OUT)
down in the sewer with rats
get the attention they wanted attack
what in their eyes doesnt equal a match
lower life forms taking hits on the mat
that’s how they seem em
not worthy breathing
genuine people are busting they ass
to be thrown under the bus or swept under the rug by the predators looking for cash
libido is driving the raps
the water is shallow they still gonna crash
the bigger they are is the harder they fall so lurking in shadows is where ill be at
so what’s the deal with that
and i don’t know what a follow mean
when it’s looked at as a profit margin and not a human being

tell me what youre running from behind that big façade
a masquerade of liars think that they’ve already won
but the universe is changing constant motion leaves no one
immortal from the passage of time get up start to run

all i wanna see is the motion of a dream
predicting the trajectory of shots to make a scene
all good attention what you mean? think that but honestly
id rather be no one than have a public perception that isn’t me
leave me alone when i want you to
perceive a ghost when i talk to you
an automatic response when i shut down but that’s all i do
okay to feel uncomfortable no progress made when you’re complacent
maybe it’s time to face it maybe you’re not ready to race yet
and i never wanted to be seen as an enemy people don’t know me don’t give me a chance are they phony
for not liking me but they’re excitedly jumping onto the train that is igniting me
making a wave with my homies collectively
showing u up not even trying it’s flawlessly
work with autonomy battling herds of the sheep with no shepherd and honestly
it’s weighing down when emotion is audible
hard to decipher im saying applaud a full effort i think it’s commendable to work even if youre feeling expendable
guess imma send a full message to those who will hear this
kind of a passage of bastardized music
that’s feeding off of a self induced tension
got many problems i haven’t yet mentioned
but you never could top me and honestly probably won’t even grasp me conceptually
even right next to me you’ll be impressed by me
look at me close hold the talent internally
and im not saying im perfect im flawed from my head to my toes and that’s not even all
that’s is wrong but when i hop on a song
don’t doubt for a second i won’t fucking kill it
there’s rainy weather forever the garden will leave me forlorn im just getting started
ill peak from the curtain 33 times if i can get one glimpse of the sunshine
im not done yet
ill do this as long as i need to
till im tied to a tourniquet everyone takin bets this is a goal that i’ll see through
i came up with a vision intentions intelligible
wrote all my words and im making em legible
don’t think that im pitiful pill bottle full of oval shaped chalky blue and white chemicals
ive been sentimental bout music a little bit
some is outdated but i don’t regret it
cause without the beginning my music would never be what it is now and im thankful i did it
two years ago i made my start
to embark on a journey how i make my art
and you could never me compare to anyone else
wanna help other people while im helping myself
im a monster lyrical posture straight up not sure if this’ll ever make a pay stub
face up never gonna look down this town home to me but if i could i would leave it right now
if it led to something bigger than this everything until now been a swing and a miss
ive had victories my centerpiece is my originality tripping it u ever think that ill miss
cause im on this my guilty conscience filthy stop this before i get nauseous
i feel sick when things don’t work out
but imma never give up that’s what all of this this is really about

oblivion [prod. chxse bank]

i wish i

The Fog breathe on your window
Baby kiss me with your eyes closed 
My life lives in the shadows
And Im hoping that i die slow

U said we were ment to be
I but think we wernt ment to last
You ran away
Now i want you back
Guess ill stay in the dark
And I ran out of matches
I gave you love
But thats in the past tense 
And If ur here now 
Would u tell me what happened 
(Would you tell me what happened)

Me what happened…

The Fog breathe on your windows
Baby kiss me with your eyes closed 
My life lives in the shadows
And Im hoping that i die slow

I met a girl who said she wouldnt leave
And now thats all left is with her in my dreams
Now all i can see if her face in the past
Why fall like the leaves
Everything drags on
Cuz I couldn’t see the present tense
And im dead inside but no one can really help it

Cuz i got problems on my belt
And i got people to fucking regret
I got things up on my chest that i would never tell anybody
Nobody really fucking cares about anything 
Nobody fucking gives a shit 
So why the fuck should i care.

die slowly (IOF)

just a lil summin I made for fun. been challenging myself to produce everyday and I liked the way this one came out

Had Enough [prod. weepings]

prod. Mantra | ft. @sheamichael
artwork by @intomisery
available on ALL streaming services

The Last Time w/ Shea Michael

A song for premature goodbyes. 

Second single off the EP "Liminality: Volume II" out 2/26

Liminality: Volume II

Swan Song

[hook]
Why you run from me 
Why you make me bleed
Why I'm so confused?
Why you cry for me?
Why you begging me?
And not holding me
Why you treating me like that?
I'm not going to chase your love
I know that won't be enough
Move on, got to be strong
Move on, Move on

[verse]
Move on from all the sore
You caused me
Living a life
Built upon all your lies
Built upon all the cries
For you
I got no more love for you
You tried to play me for a fool
We used to call right after school
Until the rising of the moon
Hope we're cool boo
Wrote another song for you
Didn't sleep all night cause you
I was counting just on you
(I was counting just on you, all night)

[hook]
Why you run from me 
Why you make me bleed
Why I'm so confused?
Why you cry for me?
Why you begging me?
And not holding me
Why you treating me like that?
I'm not going to chase your love
I know that won't be enough
Move on, got to be strong
Move on, Move on

Move On [prod. tsurreal x IOF]

Lyrics:
shawty on the down low, tryna get that good snow
hangin round the crib, she could puff and watch that cloud go
sayin that she bad tho, know the truth it's all show
hand up on my chest, feel my heart, but its ice cold

you could see the bank roll, know it take a big toll
got me feelin down low, i could feel it in my soul
got my heart that you stole, i already knew though
keep it to myself, cause you know i got a new goal

keep my pride, when a bitch want ride
only be my side, cause my main gon cry
had to coast the tide, when my heart denied
why got three hoes, cause im dead inside

pitch black heart you could call me a villain
she could tie my hands keep me lock while we chillin
i could flip it turn around and she wait till i drill it
got a stone cold knife in my back i can feel it

pitch black heart you could call me a villain
but i been down low feelin dead but im livin
she could take my soul but it been unforgiven
uh, bitch what's new been like this since the beginning

Villain

villain

On a journey with no destination. 

Producer /  vocalist  / engineer 
@prodhorosha on twitter

For mixing, mastering, or beats contact me at prodbyhorosha@gmail.com or on Twitter!

Swan Song

Horosha