Reality Ripper (prod. hero)

all synthesizers and piano done by ilygrxg & pray4solo
nonprofit//

thank you for listening,
take as much care as you can;
thank you for being here.
x


i lay awake and i
see ephemeral lights upon my eyes
something's not right
something's not right

"you're never safe"
i say, as i've sunken
bare is the face of restraint that i'm stuck in
avoidance keeps me out
i don't wanna talk right now

alluring now
nobody's there
yet i reach out
dissonant glares

stride in a daze
far from the outing
must be displaced
though i don't mind drowning;
caught in a thought of distain
of the ways that i'm living
should i be okay to continue forgiving?
staggered in place,
rid the parts that are sick
steady awake through the night in a blitz

once, it was okay
once, it was all good
stripping the old aches,
just like i should
it'll be okay
it'll be all good
it'll be okay
it'll be-
out
let me out
yeah

this horrible stasis;
why do i keep my patience?
stay around
you're all i want to know about

blitz

eight oh nine pm (p. the ushanka boy)

lyrics

[maesk]
in the forest theres an eye
and without a question i would risk my life
fast forward the time
and now its just u and i
i'll be swaying like the leaves when u hang me out to dry

it's like a wishing well u throw me in and then u question why
why the worlds so cruel while tears fall from the sky
settled in my head
i'm settled in my mind
'coz the scenes move quickly
i'm already climbing out

wish u well
wish u well
go back to ur defences 
u know the system runs this town

brain moves fast where ur blood it starts to rise
u got a chain reaction like theres dust in ur eyes
i don't wanna lie
it's hard to change u in this mind
getting closer to the exit
but there were things i couldn't wield

i couldn't seal
ur broken heart was never real
plenty times it would detonate 
but u were there to fully heal

u healed my heart and i'm thankful for that
but i see scars on my mental torment
was it that bad?
was it that bad?
i can't tell what is real
'coz i'm on both si- both sides when I feel

[notahero]

shadows of the dominion

shadows of the dominion ft notahero (secre)

[clip of harvey dent in batman]

lyrics

[maesk]
no spark
i just saw myself in those arms
haven't seen a fallen angel but it feels close
no clothes
she told me how it goes
she told me about the loving baby i cannot commit

all day, i've been thinking about it deeply
i can't stay, i've been holding back the tears 
can u do the same
look i don't have a phrase but its ok
just another forest that we face

it rains softly
dont hate me
our words can never travel safely
it's hard to navigate when the systems always breaking
i lost faith 'till one day u remade me

reborn
but the only difference is the tolerance
maybe i didn't play my cards right
but its too late to think about my past life
its just about tonight

[avxid]
carry me out
he cant compare to me now
he cant compare at all
my lungs are across the hall
theyre torn
from my body
but at least i know she want me
still i hurt
still it hurts u know


why the room i rot in feel so cold
all the time
it just leave me frozen
bb can u check the time
cuz i cant move my arms
and my hands sit in a jar
on ur countertop
my lord weve gone too far

not fair
its not fair
i would let u kill me if it meant ud love me more
not fair
not fair
i just let my blood drip quick on these marble floors

look me in my face while ur killing me
i could leave u here all alone and ud still feed off me
bb
i wont let u shame me
i wont let u hate me
see u in ur dreams
cuz i know that ur gonna miss me

words without armour

words without armour ft avxid (hollowpurple)

new chapter 
@deadwoodcollective

//
another walk in the same old town
i've been used to
to see the same old faces
maybe i should've moved too
i tend to longer the wait
in almost every way
till its evolved into fate
think i was born to decay

lights out
just a lil bit faster
always act
like a fucking bastard
from my memories past
to the same old trash
and the walls been plastered
like it all still matters to me

i cant pretend
turned it all into disaster
maybe i belong here
like it all still matters to me
//

decay (hoepless x bended)

first release ever, hope you like it
slowly working on improving voice and trying new stuff 
super happy to be with the deadwood fam 
thx to @enyusroom for helping on this one <3
beat by @wraithontheporch

lyrics:

gotta pull through
I always do
caught in riptide
only see blue
always left out
I am see-through
and I’m still a doormat
but it’s old news

I might just go down
feel like I’m lost in the code now
don't wanna slow down
we’re hitting the end of the road now

where do I go from here
to carry the weight is a lost cause 
where do I go from here
put everything on the line on a
new route
(where do I go from here)

whatever lies inside of me
I couldn’t make it last
back and forth
my head is set to
see the aftermath
where do I go from here
(x4)

gotta pull through
i always do
caught in riptide
only see blue
always left out
I am see-through
and I’m still a doormat
but it’s old news
(x2)

old news (wraithontheporch)

lyrics 

as the sleet pours on me
i
seen
in a whole nother
light
can u stay with me
r u feeling me
im not feeling me
why
ive 
spent plenty nights alone
but you feel a little bit like home
do you love me how
im loving you
is it even true
or not

ready or not they take me quick to my hell
and if this is my life i wont take it well
flooded concrete 
dying cells
bleed my dry
for my cards are dealt

break my back
crack my head open
and drink from the hollowed out bit of my skull 
days turn nights
like 50 times
still it continues to take a hold

burning circles into the wall
i been here a week n already i been mauled
havent ate in 3 days but i still hold on
i still hold on
promise i still hold on

nighttime
isnt so fun
with a wooden bed
chained to the wall
with daggers pointed in my head
i must admit 
im sorry for being mia
just be glad rn that im not kia

as the sleet pours on me
i
seen
in a whole nother
light
can u stay with me
r u feeling me
im not feeling me
why
ive 
spent plenty nights alone
but you feel a little bit like home
do you love me how
im loving you
is it even true
or not

Twigs

Sleet + Icy Roads

Sleet + Icy Roads (p. hollowprpl)

I may or may not have been sitting on this one for a little too long, my bad haha.  I really love this song :)

Check out enyu here : https://soundcloud.com/enyusroom
Check out secre here : https://www.youtube.com/@prodsecre

Lyrics
<3 - <3 - <3

(Wraith)
Don't go, don't go
My hearts breaking for you
I've done all I can do
and more, and more
I make the same mistakes
like over and over I
can't stand myself
let this be over, just over why

My trust was all mistaken
I tried to count my blessings
you tried your best to tempt me
and now the walls are breaking
take me to better places
help me forget these faces
I can not rid them from my head
I'll leave this body vacant

(enyu)
(I'll leave this body vacant, I'll leave this body vacant-)
if i
would leave my selfish past behind
maybe then you'd finally see me
as i am
as i am
right

grab on my waist and play pretend
i'll light a flame, you'll find me then
i'll take the blame to make amends
so you dont break my heart again

i'll rest my soul, youre taking it
i guard myself to keep it in
although your trust is running thin
with time we'll make it right again

(Wraith)
Don't go, don't go
My hearts breaking for you
I've done all I can do
and more, and more
I make the same mistakes
like over and over I
can't stand myself
let this be over, just over why

don't go /w enyu (prod. secre)

love u @Whyke
this shit still isn't finished, probably the song that I've spent the most time on.

thank u Whyke again for making the "beat" if you even can call something as beautiful as what it is for a beat, shit really made me feel something and helped me figure myself out a bit <3

made this song the day I turned 19, made like 7 different versions because I never felt like the last verse was good enough. Gave up with it for a while, finished the last verse once I had passed all my classes, still didn't get the mixing right tho. yeah idk what im doing tbh.

i finna reupload the the song once I feel like it's good, the song just means too much for me to keep it in the vault (:


Mix n master: me (that's why it's so shit LOL)
Prod: Whyke

Lyrics:
I don’t really know  
What I’m gonna do when I grow up  
(Grow up, grow up, yeah)  
I don’t really know  
What I’m gonna do when I grow up  
(So I throw up, throw up)  

Oh my
I’m way too fucking anxious
Can you tell me why I should thank this earth  
For my upbringing
‘Cause when all and everything burns down
I’ll still have to wake up and start swinging  
(My hands)

And I’m not even old yet, like I just turned 19
Graduation’s coming up, I hope that I manage
‘Cause I never planned this

Ayy
Still I do hope  
Everything just works out
‘Cause I’m close to a breaking point
So I yap away the pain
And I swear it’s coming in clutch
Still I wonder if I’ll feel the same  
As I did before all this rough stuff
Man I  
Really hope that I can just feel enough
‘Cause lately I’ve been feeling like I just suck 

Oh my
I’m way too fucking anxious  
Can you tell me why I should thank this earth  
For my upbringing 
‘Cause when all and everything burns down  
I’ll still have to wake up and start swinging  
(My hands)  

Uh, yeah  
I don’t mind  
I don’t mind  
I don’t mind  
I don’t mind  
I don’t mind  
I don’t mind  
I don’t mind  
I don’t mind  
I don’t mind  
I don’t mind  
I don’t mind  
I don’t mind  
I don’t mind anything at all  

‘Cause I just passed all of my classes
I was feeling sluggish, like I was moving through molasses
But I’m fine now
I can finally take my fucking time now
Rest for a while, maybe take a time-out
Sit in COOP with a smile now
I don’t even need to vent now

nineteen demo (whyke)

let me remind you that its been this way forever
as long as I remember i been stone cold

stone cold to the touch but i feel like im really warm inside
its not the summer nights thats gettin me
if im really being honest to myself
it mainly happens when im tryna to go to sleep
i get the cold sweats when im trying to digest whats in store
yea i do not like this ca cant get excited Not anymore
dont get enough ultra violet
cuz i like to chill in my room w the shade
some opportunities try them
but i dont get up before its too late
anxiety always the topic
all of my songs nowadays 
but i cant help the thoughts that i perceive 
i wanna get back where i was
its not something that ill complete
but ill keep on wheelin this bus
until it can drive on the street

heat flash no sheets on my mattress
im sweaty obnoxious cant focus
anxiety ocean
yea im feelin broken
but
i gotta mention let me just switch the perspective real quick 
so many blessings compare it to people with nowhere live

look where you exist
If you were in their shoes you would be pissed
go take a piss
 if you can’t accept that youre more than well off
its better than you though
its better than it is
seems so dumb to ball your fist

anxiety ocean (nate2timez x yunnygoldz)

I think everyone should play an instrument, you don't have to make a living out of it, just sit down and play.

Beat account: @houcibeats

nineteen demo (whyke)

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