lost my teeth in the snow

damage

time

awake

spiral

memories melt in my mind and
who i think i am will die
reasons why i try to find im
multiplying in my
head im seeing patterns
my head is going faster than the
body that i see in bed
im letting go forever
its hurting but doesnt that mean that im growing
change the blood that i am holding
who am i controlling
is he wrong for listening to
demons calling talking to the
open door hes down the hall
went in the wrong direction
getting sick of his perception
he will tell you what he finds inside
but soon forget this state of mind
keep running in and out of time
his sense of self has always been a lie

in skin

wilting flowers
getting older
staying here
feeling colder
reaching out and
pulling in the
hand is gone but
you're still here
looking inward
going slower
closer if i 
close my eyes
all i see is
feathers falling
backwards into
nothing skies
stomach pain
down my face
hollow brain
its okay
didnt leave
only changed
what they see
you are me
now i look
beyond thought
it is one
you are free
i'll remember
what you said i'll
find you somewhere
in my head i'll
make sure they know
what you saw i'll
make sure they know
what you felt i'll
make sure they know
what you thought i'll
make sure they know
who you are

you are sky

i see it in the dark
slipping out of my arms
pushing against the walls
prisoner happening
cut open the skin
leaving out of the marks
the dog is foggy eyed
the sky is leaving me
pollution in the head
consume and feed your self
i burn the path i led
the mind and body melt
the clouds are breaking now
spewing out of the mouth
i left my thoughts behind
nature of this is now
pollution in the blood
consume and feed your hell
i burn the path i led
my mind and body melt

im in the dark with my head in my hands
what am i worth if i am not a man
want to go home but i already am
all of this life ill be stuck in my head
warm and safe feelings i dont want to leave
its starting to hurt every time that i breathe
im letting go of what isnt here now
wont forget the bitter taste in my mouth
i know this is what i get
privileged piece of shit is dead
living dying nothing
nothing nothing nothing
i am nothing
feels like nothing
i see nothing
i am nothing
i am nothing

phosphene

comforting skin next to me
she said that i can never be
myself when i die i will be alone
listening to her heart i can't feel anything
below my neck, and now my thoughts will take control
and if u prefer
i'll leave out all the details of this emptiness i feel
and if u prefer
i'll be around to listen to your softly spoken words
darkness seems to make isolation easier
i welcome my hallucinations
understandings of what i am will come undone
as i spiral deeper into nothingness
but if it helps me sleep
i'll take out my frustration on my temporary skin
if it helps me sleep
i'll smoke until i never have another dream of you
being in this space where nothing stays the same
i feel this biting clawing pain inside my chest
fly against the window pane soon to die
why does he try
why try

swallow

dont know why its so dark at night
its feeling colder every time
it never dies
its always right
where i am is where i cant see
what i see is where i am not
ill never die
severing identity
temporal boy hes bleeding
beginning to being free the
flesh that chokes him back to sleep
when and where am i
inside where everything is nothing
i am dying in my dreams
feel like i might be in too deep
i wake up when i fall asleep
it always dies
swimming deep in darkness but i
still feel myself breathing
creeping under hanging feet
the entity you'll never see
running out of time and falling
out of space the indescribable geometries


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