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I'm Geist x Yokai Dreams - back to life

people always talk like they know me 
no one sees the knife inside my heart as i slowly die 
feelings come alive and they’re burning  
i had all the patience in the world but now i don’t try 
it’s a waste of time 
everyone walks out my life 
i say goodbye 
you’ve heard that line 
but i remember every night 
 
hey 
i’m afraid love 
lately it’s more than i just can’t wake up 
stay? 
cause i need you 
but you don’t feel the same and it’s so see through 
 
(oh i just want to go home) 

try to act like i’m tough 
cant even stomach the thought of my blood 
i want to paint walls red when i’m in love 
i want to paint walls red 
i want to paint walls red oh 
try to act like enough 
can’t even stomach the thought of you now  
i want to paint walls red when i’m in love 
i want to paint walls red 
i want to paint walls red oh...

i want to paint walls red [drma x michael harrison]

prod hira :)

in the end its only u and i
dont shed tears on a pillow if it isnt mine
these cuts fill the space in-between ur eyes
u say theres something about me 
u dont have to lie
turning to nothing 
ur watching me die
fuck face he a parrasite
ill stab that bitch in the neck if he wanna fight
these cuts fill the space in-between ur eyes
turning to nothing
ur watching me die

i heard u talking shit
so baby come a lil closer
tell it to my face so i can use it for some closure
god shes so embarrassing 
pretend i didnt know her
stabbing thru my chest 
i cant believe she said it wont hurt

that boy gonna piss from his eyes
u told me there's comfort inside
but ur presences still hunting me down
even my shit wanna drown

gimme some time 
i just need some patience
bodys on the floor 
i make em seem weightless
if he wanna die 
then we can arrange it
wasting all my time gambling my wages

gimme some space
i just need a minute
i left my soul on a bridge hoping that youd save it
you told me jump
so i did
and i hit the pavement
ive got nothing to give 
i dont think youre safe yet

in the end its only u and i
dont shed tears on a pillow if it isnt mine
these cuts fill the space in-between ur eyes
u say theres something about me 
u dont have to lie
turning to nothing 
ur watching me die
fuck face he a parrasite
ill stab that bitch in the neck if he wanna fight
these cuts fill the space in-between ur eyes
turning to nothing
ur watching me die

now i’m wanting to die 
take the knife and twist it baby
i’m over this life 
know that i tried 
swear to god don’t say you miss me 
cause it’d be a lie  
 
new face, new lovers :/
i’m still stuck on the old one 
i’m sorry now 
still cold 
same covers 
cry myself to sleep 
cause ur not around 

yeah oh i guess fuck all and my mental 
drowning i’m sentimental 
don’t even want to help myself 
yeah oh took my heart and disassembled 
swearing that you were gentle 
nobody hears a cry for help :/

swear to god, don't say you miss me [drma]

oh its not fair anymore
no its not fair anymore
no its not fair anymore

i just cant tell you enough
my thoughts been opening up
i never said it enough 
my heart was filled with your love

i would sacrifice my love just to be on your side
gimme just another day so that i can reside
while youre waiting at the gates, ill find somewhere to hide

i need somewhere to hide
i know youre in the fields looking at me over the light
if theres a chance that you hear me singing into the night
i need to tell you that ill love you till the end of the line

you know i always cared about you
i might sleep in water hang my head whilel i cry
been 2 years now im lost without you
take me to a forest filled with water and pine

its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore

how could you take away my best friend
ive got no one to trust
ill see your face in the end
your words fill my stomach making me who i am
you wouldnt have left me, i know ill see you again

enough

standing by the bedside
baby you know you’re picture perfect
lights off moving so slow as you undress
i’ll take time but promise i’m back before the sunset
you’re gone i should’ve known that i was worthless

why is everybody spiteful
like where’d the love go?
suddenly you hate me like i meant nothing despite all…
pushing every corner like i’m not walking on tight ropes
i know the truth is that you’d never care if i fall :/

go on
hold on
seems i made it home but it all seems
so wrong
so wrong…
there’s blood all on the floor leaking down from the walls :(
i just hate that you would never call
tell me that you care but don’t try at all
okay baby posing like a doll
i’ll clean all the blood of off the walls

i don’t serenade
i spit blood out my mouth
or all the thoughts will poison me :/
i love when it builds
and feels like i’m a walking tragedy
i romanticize the pain like it’s not fucking killing me :P
swear its fucking agony

say it’s a dream
wake me up i’ve had enough
cause i feel nothing
my
emotions
have
shut
the
fuck
up.

i'm home but the walls are bleeding [prodsecre]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83Bd5PWLwBA

[prod. jpjp & deadfish]

i'm geist:
a broken design
step aside and rewind
but time doesn't seem to heal
the body's inside
and the blood is on your hands
so don't tell me that this isn't real

it's not the same, no
tell me where did my mind go?
cause i seem to have lost control
why won't the pain go?
i swear i've waited the time love
but i can't seem to take anymore

so say can i save myself now?
(envy) i think it's far too late you'll drown
but i need them to hear me out
(envy) don't make a sound just shut your mouth

notenvy:
my frame is fractured like kaleidoscope
the only sense of matters left my brain
i swear i'm losing hope
i’m doing fine, oh you don't want to know
the shit that i've been going through
i'm gripping on, i've lost control
another day intoxicated
do you ever think of me
my structure’s slowly breaking
another breath is wasted
screaming from my chest
i fucking wish someone would save me

kais:
i hate it when you talk to me, but talk to me some more
hands to my ears and my face to the floor
love it when they lie to me, so lie to me some more
you fucked me up and put me through the ground
scream for help, but it never makes a sound
you took it wrong, I didnt mean it that way
silent with the pressure, but I let it stay
imma let it till it breaks me
down, I know you want me here but I never come around
im sorry and I owe you that. that’s what this shits about
I walk slow with my teeth glued to my mouth
I don’t talk cus the rooms always too loud
loud
loud

deadfish:
and i'm waking up
heart's fucking numb
it's only 7am
but I can't seem to lay down

anxious bout the day
what's gonna happen today
I just can't get a break
everything's still the same

mind is racing if today you're gon reply to me
nothing points to that but I'll wait just in case

if u had a change of mind
blood is pouring out my eyes
phone is charged all the time
cause I'm waiting for

for you to reply
please stop wasting my time
it just wasn't enough
and I can't make up my mind

you said that nothing has changed
but I don't feel the same
but I am keen to believe cause I'm
just hopeless

funeral:
i get so deep in this shit and i'll never get out
now i'm stuck and i'm waiting
i never think i just act and i ask if i'll make it
or maybe i'm wasting
my time right here, right now
blood leak, blood flow, lights low, lights out

it's way too obvious to me
the way the bodies dust, i bleed
i need one second alone now
one shot, now i'm dead, body goes down

sewerperson:
rust gives way to the chains that hold me
for yesterday could not control me
toxins permeate
the armoured skin that covers me
u poor man ur final day
is ended here from under me
woah bring out the big guns
im in the mood to erase something
huh just try to say something
u getting face fucked
blunt getting laced up
put u in swamp water face up
no matter the chaos faced
i wouldn’t give up
for time will tell
of better days
from here I smell
the autumn rainfall
it helps me stay strong

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time will tell w/ i'm geist, notenvy, kais, deadfish, funeral, sewerperson

prod @tnvr555 

you wake up in the middle of the night
and push my hair out of my face
hear you smiling
turn to your side and i’ll hold you
wake up in the morning
and i’m right where i’m supposed to be
homes complete
it’s you and me
feel at ease
promise you’ll never leave

so say that we worked it out
that it’s all good now
cause i need you here with me
and you know i love you
how i can’t sleep i’m bound
to see you in every dream

take me back now
to the summer where we met
where i was starving for your love
writing songs about our death
and the feelings never die
trust me that i tried my best
but the feelings never die
feels like my heart is in your chest
oh

we got lost a few times
u skipped states
i wrote rhymes
i still hurt every night
i can’t stare in your eyes

i see u in every dream

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i see u in every dream [tnvr]

prod. @yokaidreams

// yokai dreams
bleed out
cut deeper darling
lately things are so alarming
could you help me out?
no i don't need help
it's just a hobby
give you life, give you my body
and you tore it down

should i stay on pace?
should i kill myself?
think that blade will work quite well
gotta be a way
i know i know i know
i know
if i stay this way will i go to hell?
god forbid i be myself
maybe you'll be there as well
i hope, i hope

maybe this was all
for good
you know i would
love you darling, til it's over
but i'd love some fucking closure
watch me fall
or fly
i don't know what i'd like
but baby if i die

maybe you could bring me back to life

// geist
i love the feeling
how you burn me at the stake
spit on me
i’m wide awake
oh now you’re sorry
but it’s all too late

said i’m the poison baby
guess you haven’t learnt a thing
don’t say you’re sorry
then you go and stab the knife and you twist
it feels like torture
the way i let you walk all on me
so what are boundaries for if you don’t plan on respecting them

don’t say you want it
love i said
i swear i’m wanting out
you’re so dishonest
does the truth leave fucking cuts
in your mouth
i know i’m toxic
i’ve got flaws and oh i’m struggling now
but let’s be honest
there’s not much here worth for sticking around

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@tnvr555

// geist 
take me home
i’m surrounded by ghosts
i’ve been haunted by my past too long
carry on

there’s no coming back
it’s what i had sworn
and then i saw your face
oh how i adored my
who you were
but you’re not anymore
sire me
make me yours
push me back to the floor
oh

if blood is what you need
you can take it from my veins
cause you know i would die for you
any fucking day
so take all that you want
oh baby, spit in my face
cause you know i’d give all for you
but you won’t do the 
same

// rik 
walking on my grave
there’s not much here we could save, save
cast your hex go on your way, way
woah woah
there’s not much here we could save, save
cast your hex go on your way, way

blood stains on the carpet once again
everyday is just another nightmare
some days i can see your ghost
it’s like i’m not always alone
this whole things like a fever dream
don’t wake me up when the bloods still clean
close your eyes
watch a madman disappear
it’s like you're mesmerized
i know everything you fear
super natural
that hungry look in your eyes
you're so beautiful
i’d kill to have you as mine 

// geist and rik 
if blood is what you need
you can take it from my veins
cause you know i would die for you
any fucking day
so take all that you want
oh baby, spit in my face
cause you know i’d give all for you
but you won’t do the 
same

walking on my grave
there’s not much here we could save, save
cast your hex go on your way, way
woah woah
there’s not much here we could save, save
cast your hex go on your way, way 

WALKING ON MY GRAVE 
THERE'S NOT MUCH WE COULD SAVE 
CAST YOUR HEX GO ON YOUR WAY 
WALKING ON MY GRAVE 
THERE'S NOT MUCH WE COULD SAVE 
CAST YOUR HEX GO ON YOUR WAY

walking on my grave

walking on my grave w/ revengeinkyoto [tnvr]

prod. @prod-oc 

// sewerperson 
the trust was removed from you and i 
you and i 
from you i 
still I thought about how u told me its till we die
like you and i
till the afterlife
now I sit alone inside this booth and I bleed
all the words on this page leave me shameful its free
i know
oh i know
you’re still awake just like usual
just like the photos
oh I know 

uh if no one told me different I would get by
if u just shared my feelings we would be more than fine
blood all over the floorboards i cant hide
u should’ve been all mine u didn’t have to die
i will say a prayer and ill go to sleep
if I die tonight lord take my soul to keep
i was way too wavy look at my cup it bleeds
bape pink on top my hoodie with yeezys on my feet 

// geist 
yeah you come to go 
to put on a show 
watch me die alone
when i need you most 
again 
god i hate this game 
the way it ends the same 

be soft 
it’s all so brittle 
squeezed tight..
now blood leaves every pore 
swore that you were my angel 
saved me to ruin me once more 

shut up i’ve got nothing left to say to you 
i shutout every word cause you don’t speak the truth 
crossed my heart and now you’re gonna pay for two 
the sky is ripping open
swear this time we’re doomed 

please don’t look 
i cannot stomach it 
swore it’s you & i 
until my heart stops beating 
bloods all on the floorboards
never meant for this
don’t look me in the face 
cause you’re not my muse darling 

i won’t try there’s nothing to save 
i’ve learnt you’ve got no shame 
and i don’t want to know what’s his name 
i’ll put him in the grave 
i don’t need nobody to say 
who am i to blame 
i call every shot that i take 
you’re all just fucking lame 

yeah spit on my face 
once you’ll clean it with yours baby 
don’t say my name 
and watch the tone you speak to me 
i’m not the same 
person you left groveling 
on my feet again 
kill all who dare looks my way


you & i

you & i w/ sewerperson [oc]

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i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

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