by https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
please don't leave
i hold so much grief
and i loved your voice
ur not here so there's no point
ur a liar, it's in your name
i had no idea your two-faced
gonna die here for ur sake
ur actions tell me u were brave
and i thought that i knew u
i guess i don't
u can say if i'm annoying too
cause i know
got a lot i need to figure out
i'm trying so
i believe there ain't no stopping now
i'm on the ropes
the corners made of cobwebs
the widows home
sometimes she comes to visit me
through the holes
and she say "what're you doing here, you look alone"
and i say that i'm developing and in the zone
accept no apologies ur just too late
split my heart in half now it goes two ways
exhausted, i need to say goodbye
i love it when there's peace and when it's quiet

suffocate in feelings
it's 100% my decision
whether if i should just let it go
but the sadness keeps filling
(it never ends)
made no progress
i got so much time to stall with
but i don't know how to manage it
produce on my own and abolish
ur attitude is contagious
i rub it off but u kept staying
and i let u walk all over me
i should've stood my ground
i ain't no man i am weak

i mean nothing to u now
cus i feel it through the text
oh how u love to talk about yourself
well no one likes a narcissist
these lines i split
slowly vanish from my wrist
and i tried to hide what i did
now the planks are rotting on our bridge
but how can i get u to change your mind
well babe i'm never ever fine
only for a sec, depression prys
swear the gap is crushing on my life
ur a liar, it's in your name
i had no idea ur two-faced
gonna die here for your sake
ur actions tell me u were brave
please don't leave
i hold so much grief
and i loved your voice
ur not here so there's no point

veins

the widows home

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heylog - the widows home

@yokaidreams @tnvr555 

all black
nails, clothes
blacked out
coke nose
turned just for a second now she’s got me in a choke hold
pretty eyes you know it’s all to save face
i’m so used to all the acting 
i’ve got no time to waste

you’re a time bomb ticking baby 
i’m calling your bluff now
cardiac arrest you’re killing everyone you touch love
and for a mention you’d do ‘bout anything
but i don’t care for who you are so get the fuck out my face

kerosene love
i'm burning up at ur touch
i know the hate that u contain is so much more than i will
ever see love
so u should bite off ur tongue
and take the knife from my gut
cuz i've been bleeding out

left last night, didn't see u til the morning
scratch and bite ya, she's a fuckin animal
don't have a care at all
violating protocol
she's in my area code
looking fucking scary tho
but for you i swear that i could write another million lines
but we been running out of time

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TIMEBOMB W/ YOKAI DREAMS [TNVR]

Lyrics:

Intro: ohmace

Keep your secrets darling 
Some things are better off untold 
Please don’t tell me nothing 
Trust me I don’t wanna know

Chorus: ohmace 

I’ve been stuck in the background all my life
So trust me I don’t mind
A little bit of time, alone

You’ve been stuck in the spotlight all your life 
And trust me babe I know 
That you don’t understand what it feels like to be alone 

Verse 1: I’m Geist

What it feels like to be alone
I’ve had love had trust all thrown out the door 
wrote songs about us until there’s nothing more
And i’m so sorry love but i’ve gotta go

So i’m cruel im the worst and i’m so much more
And it’s true tell the world im not one to adore 
I loved you every word came right out of my soul 
But im through i’m so sorry I can’t bleed anymore 

Break down every night im screaming
Blend in the background with ghosts im dreaming
They alwyas keep me up breathing
Took time but it’s just not healing
Cause i’m always stuck in the past 
Reminiscing of love wishing that it would last
Trying to keep my head up as i’m walking on glass 
Leave the knives in my back and all the blood on the grass 

chorus: (both) 

I’ve been stuck in the background all my life
So trust me I don’t mind
A little bit of time, alone

You’ve been stuck in the spotlight all your life 
And trust me babe I know 
That you don’t understand what it feels like to be alone 

verse 2: ohmace

You can hide the truth I know you hate it
Tearsops leave a trail on the pavement 
Your lies start cutting through 
Who you are until there no more you 

A geist takes your body to the back of the graveyard 
A cutout, found out, you had no heart 
Trying to figure out how you got this far
The perfect girl was so damn scarred

I’ll keep your secret safe with me
As long as you can bare the agony 
It’s sad to see
What a beautiful tragedy 

Chorus: both 

I’ve been stuck in the background all my life
So trust me I don’t mind
A little bit of time, alone

You’ve been stuck in the spotlight all your life 
And trust me babe I know 
That you don’t understand what it feels like to be alone

secrets (feat. I’m Geist) (prod tnvr)

@decayinganyways
@milli2nd 

tripped into the lobby
and now i look around and hope
that no one saw me
i lost myself inside the club
with ghouls and zombies
and now they wonder where I’m at
but please don’t call me
no, no please don’t call me

tripped into the lobby
i dont know what's inside my cup
but it makes me happy
oh love you act like you're so tough
when you're around me
and you know that ill call your bluff
so please don't call me
no please don't call me

tripped and said i'm sorry
but truth is i might fuck this up
and i cant stop it
i see the angels sniffing dust
with shinigamis
they hand a knife and said to kill the
ghouls and zombies
oh the ghouls and zombies

and when i wake up
it’s all so unknown
i piece it back, found footage on phones

oh, my head is screeching
i feel a knot inside my chest
the drinks are leaving
i hear my phone i get a text
from those ghouls zombies
they wonder where the fuck I’m at
but please don’t call me 
no, no please don’t call me

oh and the lights they fade out 
don’t wanna leave but slow down 
love that sound it cuts loud 
20 more shots too slow down

ghouls & zombies w/ decayinganyways [milli2nd]

breathe in
and breathe out
but you don't hear a sound
so you'll ask me if i'm okay
you're leaving
and me now
then we go back around
watched it all end on that Wednesday

please don't look at me
feel sickening
but i just want to know if you're still listening
the summer's gone and fall's soon following
will winter freeze what's left of what we had remained

watched it all end on a wednesday
butterflies around your neck
watched it all end on a wednesday
pulled you in for a kiss
cause i knew it’s the end

watched it all end on that wednesday [neverforever]

// yona
cling to your waist, god dont let this be a dream
its been so long, since someone's appeared in front of me 
ive been dying in the midst, fill my heart with vacancy
in my head i still believe that, ill....

lay out my arms
your head falls down soft
do you mind laying here with me?

cos were out in the sun
fell asleep so damn calm
how long till we lose this memory?

thought you were all i need

// valentine ghost 
i saw the love leaving your eyes
you said it was you and its i 
its always a lie 
tell me how you feel inside? 
are you just sick of us trying? 
i guess i should die 

cause i don’t know how you sleep soundly at night 
cant even breath when you’re not by my side

till daylight w/ yona [neverforever]

@decayinganyways @tnvr555 

// decayinganyways
// verse
said I look lovely inside of a coffin but I don’t know how that would take
biting my neck and taking my blood now you’re making mistakes
she’s loving my eyes loving my voice I’m just a taste
she wants to drink my blood tonight like it’s Chardonnay

i love it more when you take control
so what’s in store for my lowly soul
so I would never fight it
you got me so excited
no one else invited just you and I

// chorus
pretty inside of coffin, fight it, don’t
baby I’m so excited, to be only yours
pretty inside of a coffin, won’t fight it, I won’t
stripping my flesh so softly
eating my bones

// i’m geist
// verse
prettiest smile in the room
and she knows cause she’ll go take whatever she wants
she’s not afraid to intrude
pushing her lips against mine they’re warm

she’s a liar
see her pants on fire
yeah
never tired
teeth like a vampire

don’t look in her eyes
you’ll lose your mind

pretty inside of a coffin
but you know that casket is actually yours
and if you turn your back
i promise you’ll find yourself inside it before dark
and i would run now if i was you
hide till she’s found a new
pretty inside of a coffin
but honestly she’s pretty inside of it all

// outro
eating my bones
no
baby you take what you want
so i’ll lay here
hands inside my chest
peeling through my rotten flesh
oh
you say what you want
so let me hear
oh how you’re still the best
no one’s come close to attest

pretty inside of a coffin w/ decayinganyways [tnvr]

prod @downfvll x @tnvr555

// downfvll
I can’t escape, the ghost still wears your face
Same place, same pain, some things time won’t erase
Drowning in doubt, my heart’s a vengeful one
Can’t bring me down, my pride is what’s kept me alive

// i’m geist
so go on love just keep talking
but the crowd is cheering
they’re shouting
won’t fail them now
i’ve been plotting
oh can’t you see it in my eyes?
cold, red and full of fight
look now you’re hypnotized
so speak of all your lies
how rotten you’re inside

the seasons change
and mine’s coming
so take a seat
or start running
you’ll feel the knots in your stomach
so take my name out of your mouth

i’ve got my peace of mind right now
you’re just a sheep inside my crowd

// downfvll
i got my peace of mind, so now you not invited
and I was left in pieces, let me rest in peace and quiet
it’s bound to be lost in time, it’s all meant to be forgotten
i will make it, I will, at least I’ll die trying

the trauma, the memories, the pain, the past
if my heart would, stop beating, I’d be free from those at last
and momma, im sorry, Im driving, to crash
i withstood, the beating, but now,

// downfvll x geist
I can’t escape, the ghost still wears your face
Same place, same pain, some things time won’t erase
Drowning in doubt, my heart’s a vengeful one
Can’t bring me down, my pride is what’s kept me alive

a face i can't forget

the face i can't forget w/ downfvll

rot 
i can’t deal with all of it 
i’m starting to feel nauseous 
would you want to talk? 
but please don’t mind the silence 
my brain just isn’t kind to me 

stay alive 
say a lie
wish that i could speak my mind 
but i’ve got so much to lose 
that i’d rather keep my pride  
say its fine
then we die 
it all feels like wasted time 
say are you wasting my time?

yeah i should stay my distance
promise that’s just how i know to be
i like it much better
when nobody seems to notice me 
stay and listen?
but i've been bored of all the fucking grief
no one seems to comprehend 
yet they have the songs on repeat 

i’m pleading my silence
no reason for violence 
i’m not gonna take this outside 
i’ve been subconsciously cautious 
of inhaling your toxins 
but seems that i let them inside 
there’s no way to find what’s wrong now 
cause i moved on so why the comedown

untitled freestyle [prodsecre x sorrow bringer]

Made this in a beat competition in like 2 hours. Hope you like it lol

pretty inside of a coffin w/ decayinganyways [tnvr]

I'm Geist