cover, prod and vocals by yonklolz.

lyrics:

I can't tell if this is real
And I can't seem to swallow my fears
But yet you told the world that I was trying to heal
Cause I'm swimming in an ocean and no one will wipe my tears

Feeling drained completely
Been on the edge for a few weeks
For a few weeks
Bitch, don't test me
Living on the edge
Of insanity
Yeah, you raked me up
With the rest of the leaves
I can't stop thinking that I'm feeling so weak

You misuse your influence
Talk down on everything
Desire to not exist
One like and everything flips
And I can't tell you why
My existence is a lie
Bitch, I'm talking
Please don't try to speak
I've been on the low
For the past few weeks
I've been struggling
And I'm sick of it
Make me feel like shit
What's the point of it

Feeling drained completely
Been on the edge for a few weeks
For a few weeks
Bitch, don't test me
Living on the edge
Of insanity
Yeah, you raked me up
With the rest of the leaves
I can't stop thinking that I'm feeling so weak

And I can't seem to find what's real
My mind is a painting but every day it peels
And I wrote so many songs about you
The pictures on my wall all lost their value
And maybe one day, I'll get around you
But this time, I'll just fall

I can't tell if this is real
And I can't seem to swallow my fears
But yet you told the world that I was trying to heal
Cause I'm swimming in an ocean and no one will wipe my tears

spotify

don't test me!

cottagecore

*ig pls follow thank u ily*
https://www.instagram.com/redhxrse

stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/peakdistrict

countryside type beat, aesthetic so cool dk if i could pull it off again tbh

verse:
all these long walks n self reflection (so tiringgg
a couple thousand miles but the air feels the same (does it? {¥©{
ik what i’m doing but why am i still afraid? (stfu pussy
let go of the need to control what ain’t mine
maybe you can show me what it means to feel time
cos every day i jus wanna rush to the end of life (ok dude

prechorus:
these country towns don’t welcome me
cos i don’t have what it takes to be
the ripped out donny on the cover of their magazine (chad?)
well, fuck em!

chorus:
cos u ain't peaked until u reach the district
it’s the place to think w no room 4 misfits
pessimist b4 but now things r a little brighter (brighter brighter brighter)
no-ones peaked until u reach the district
all these lovely mountains make ur world feel tilted
the gardens they all breathe 4 u 
they all breathe

break
saxman solo (city leaves, they’re oh so wilted x3)

prechorus:
these country towns don’t welcome me
cos i don’t have what it takes to be
the ripped out donny on the cover of their magazine (ahhhh#+#
well... fuck em!!!!! (THE BUILDUP BRO

chorus:
cos u ain't peaked until u reach the district
it's the place to think w no room 4 misfits
pessimist b4 but now things r a little brighter (brighter brighter brighter)
no-ones peaked until u reach the district
all these lovely mountains make ur world feel tilted
the gardens they all breathe 4 u 

i think i exist now. (so... what tf this mean

peakdistrict

stream the mf song

stop it*

all instrumentation by me!
JUST STAY!!

i cant lie ive been thinkin some things u dont know
but will i ever make it out of this hole idk
whose to say that the path that ive chosens the right road?
put all my responsibilities aside and lets goooo

just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
it's on the tip of my tongue-
just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
i hate this shit im so done

look im sorry i'm a novice
lets just change the topic
and im sorry i cant stop it
no i cant help where my mind is

cut a knife right where my heart is
so i'll be the trending topic
being nice is not an option
sloans too good someone should stop him

so you think you'll waste your time?
well let me prove you right
i still need a reason why i think i should be alive
sent a message to myself, read it when im 35
the only question that i asked, if im gonna be alright
will this music shit survive, am i really living life?
i just turned 19 i just did my first show
im still debating on quittin this shits got me feeling low
but it still make me happy thats what im doin it for

just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
it's on the tip of my tongue-
just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
i hate this shit im so done

look im sorry i'm a novice
lets just change the topic
and im sorry i cant stop it
no i cant help where my mind is

cut a knife right where my heart is
so i'll be the trending topic
being nice is not an option
sloans too quick someone should stop him

(awesome epic lead solo)

so how am i supposed to tell you you're wrong
how do you get so worked up over some little song?
and now that I am older, I'm still the same sloan
enjoy what you have right now, cuz you know it'll be gone

someone tell me where the time is at cuz im really tryna hit the sack
someone tell me where the moneys at, im tryna give it right back to mac
im really tryna this shit out of my system
you sayin that you love him you might as well kiss himmm
dont ask me for a reason why, i'm gon list em
don't ask me if i'm doin fine, there's no wisdom

i cant lie ive been thinkin some things u dont know
but will i ever make it out of this hole idk
whose to say that the path that ive chosens the right road?
put all my responsibilities aside and lets goooo

just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
it's on the tip of my tongue-
just stayyyy, no need to cry, lets wipe your eyes
okayyyy
i hate this shit im so done

look im sorry i'm a novice
lets just change the topic
and im sorry i cant stop it
no i cant help where my mind is

cut a knife right where my heart is
so i'll be the trending topic
being nice is not an option
sloans too good someone should stop him

what's the point if it all means nothing?

life is like an automation clip

Episode 1!!
inspired by h

lyrics-
i cant catch a break!
this real shit is fake!
i cant get right!
im still stuck left!

cant go back idk what 2 do
yea im posted with the @00clique yea im posted with the crew
and ik im in my feelins but ik i like u
ima send ten shots when u in my view

i know its just a feelin, i know it, i got it
2023 we goin up like a rocket!
yea this shits a puzzle but you know that ill solve it
and no i cant catch a break no i cannot stop this

and theres a whole lotta shit on my mind
and im searching for some wishes that i cannot find
half of my best friends are all online
i cant catch a fucking break at least i tried...

i see the way u moving, ur all in, my eyes
i like the way u do it, im tryna, get high

but its ur decision, ultimately
i could have sworn i seen somebody that was other than me
really i just wana go somewhere with my friends
its just a shot in the end with someone i cant make ammends

nobodies gonna make it out alive
dont care how u gon perceive me i wont lie
so why the fuck would i ever want to try?
no i do not give a f**k who you idolize!!!!!!!!

(x2)
i see the way u moving, ur all in, my eyes
i like the way u do it, im tryna, get high

cant go back idk what 2 do
yea im posted with the @00clique yea im posted with the crew
and ik im in my feelins but ik i like u
ima send ten shots when u in my view

i know its just a feelin, i know it, i got it
2023 we goin up like a rocket!
yea this shits a puzzle but you know that ill solve it
and no i cant catch a break no i cannot stop this

HOW SHOULD I KNOW??? IM STILL IN GRADE SCHOOL! U THINK IM THAT CRAZY???

catch a break!

LIIGHTWORK TRACK 4
PRODUCTION, MIX & MASTER BY MAXIIM

you were the asshole
I took the back road
caught in a mess not far from here
I saw your face in the water
another chance I could take
dragging blood it gets harder
cut me open and take what you need
bring me back to the trees
leave me here I can take it
let me break down and face it i-
I'm getting up from the last time forgiven again
you left me bleeding and flat lined cant break from the trend

irregularity, call me count my days down again
doubling up on the scarcity scary feelings again
there's a skip in the track, fill me with pain till the end
cut me off of the mic, silenced feelings again

day passes by
lose my grip more and more
take me out, close my eyes
cut the paper i'm torn
they always tell me i'm crazy
"nothing you're saying makes sense"
i'm just wanting to break free
no need to listen

you were the asshole
I took the back road
caught in a mess not far from here
I saw your face in the water
another chance I could take
dragging blood it gets harder
cut me open and take what you need
bring me back to the trees
leave me here I can take it
let me break down and face it i-
I'm getting up from the last time forgiven again
you left me bleeding and flat lined cant break from the trend

TAKE WHAT YOU NEED
TAKE TAKE WHAT YOU NEED
TAKE WHAT YOU NEED
TAKE TAKE WHAT YOU NEED

STREAM

take what you need

ly:
(iris)
i may nvr recover from the holes in my back
& when u cut me up i felt my soul trn black
but i wld give anything just to be with u again
and i wld die a thousand deaths just to breathe ur air

do u only call me when yr lonely?
blood flows quick, i'll breathe slowly
the way u stare at my body it feels unholy
i only ask for one thing
(plz hold me)
i be feeling terrible when u call me on my phone
and will i know peace when ur fucking on my ghost?
and will i die today if i double up my dose?
and will i burn in hell for the letters that i wrote?
yea she only call me if she know that i can facetime
baby i cant save u i cant even walk in a straight line
california 2 miami baby id walk right over the state lines
tell bro dont worry bout yk one day we'll headline

(phixel) 
call me back please
i have such a headache
and everything is burning

bring me back please
back to where i came from
ive been lost for so damn long

washed up on the shore
im drowning, water in my core
wish i could fly, wish i could soar
away forever, away forever

(iris)

do u only call me when yr lonely?
blood flows quick, i'll breathe slowly
the way u stare at my body it feels unholy
i only ask for one thing
(plz hold me)

recovery w/ phixel (phixel + 01kon)

produced and mastered by @xona
written and performed by nora evelyne

i found myself through the room of heavens gates
i call for help, no one hears, ill be dead at this rate
but that was just on my plate
i made room for more mistakes
they heard me but they're too late
i won't accept my fate
they curve me cus im two faced
i won't accept my fate

can you call for a minute
critique but you dont see the vision
take a peak how im livin
i wanted more out this life that ive written

fall deep inside
suddenly i recognize 
what's in my mind
ill get it right this time

ill right my wrong
ill get it right for you
ill bit my tongue
and ill lie for you

my dear
my dear

i found myself through the room of heavens gates
i call for help, no one hears, ill be dead at this rate
but that was just on my plate
i made room for more mistakes
they heard me but they're too late
i won't accept my fate
they curve me cus im two faced
i won't accept my

my dear, xona

Preesave <3 https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/tigerstar/been-that-boy 

Prod. tigerstar
co-written with @yazida-essia 
SHOUTS OUT TO CABBY @silentcxbin FOR DOING THE INTRO AND MASTER <3 Check him out NOWWWW...!!!

CREDS TO THE CLIQUE GIRLZ .... My ultimate idols that inspire everything i create
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yYJ284Hndzk

if there was a single day where we could just talk
i'd fade and i'd block anything thats not you
I’d cave when u walk in the room
I wonder if u listen, heart transparent
can u hear it?
u said u couldn’t 
so i'll turn it up just enough
like I wanted for us

you know i
kinda shoulda wish you woulda coulda maybe been that boy
you need to know i...
know you never yea you did you never been to be that boy...
but every little word was true 
i dont wanna waste a minute waiting for ur call back
here i am 5 hours later  and i'll respond so fast
after all thought i was certain thinking u were all that
and theres still a part of me that thinks that y could be that boy

so can i at least plead my case or do 
u just want me to be thrown away and you'll choose 
from all the girls lined up and i'll be another one
its such a  force of a wave to try to get through

im in a daze for u n
spending all day in a trance
when im just looking at u
no one can say that i cant
i gotta look for u
i gotta tell u too many things i said that i won’t get into

already came in like a wreck, like could it get any worse?
i always talk it down i hope that i dont get hurt 
found out all of the words that you had said and i…
kinda shoulda wish u woulda coulda maybe been that boy

NO U NEVER
YES U DID
U NEVER MEANT TO MEAN THAT
AND U SHOULDA 
WISH U WOULDA
COULDA MAYBE BEEN THAT

got my hopes up for it to mean nothin
if ur just gonna pretend all along 
that u could be that boy
wouldnt have let it
if ur never gonna get it
through ur head
i should forget it, for what?
( u'll never be that boy)

u couldn’t have been him at all
figured it out on my own
i should’ve known that he was never gonna be that boy
i cant help but say that it’s dumb
and so i’ll stay on my own
i should’ve known that he was never gonna be that boy

Been That Boy!

www.instagram.com/7ngelus
this been in the vault since may 2022

prod faith, flippy, curtains & me
singing at the end by faith
mixed by slappy

ferrari (faith+flippy+curtains+angelus)

cupids anthem (prod. cadence x swamhavin)

melanie briar, iris day, hexcaster , spiritual guide
@irisday2

recovery w/ phixel (phixel + 01kon)

iris day

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