Amber Houston

with every new low, rediscover old highs
you lifted yourself up once 
why skip a retry?
got my old rage
and new motivations
all i want is distance, self control and patience

it's not lost on me, i just needed space

run cus you're mad
return when you're sad
how much of you do they have?
break off and dont go back

they got queer kids in their crosshairs 
and their deaths never make the news
i live every second building upwards
and i'll use that just to ensure that you lose
tell me that the dreams dead cus you want it to be
i failed the way they designed
couldnt feel safe with myself 
tried to improve it with time

peerless, led to crosshairs
would my death ever make the news?
we lived every second building up hatred 
i can see it in all of your views
wishing that a dream's dead cus you need it to be
fell out of what they designed
trauma wont dictate my path
removed for how i align

with every new low, rediscover old highs
you lifted yourself up once 
why skip a retry?
got my old rage
and new motivations
all i want is distance, self control and patience

saw the patterns before everyone else
i gave em warnings, didnt matter, i'd offend when i'd tell
i can feel subtext from miles away
doesnt matter, to this day i'm still turned into prey
with no chance

run cus you're mad
return when you're sad
how much of you do they have?
break off and dont go back

Excuse

Scholars

A cinematic collection of what silence couldn’t hold.

Underneath the Stillness is NOVAEL’s debut album — 12 tracks shaped by heartbreak, memory, restraint, and quiet collapse.

No screaming. No noise. Just everything beneath the surface.

#cinematicpop #orchestralelectronic #ambientpop #soundtrackvibes #NOVAEL #underneaththestillness

Open Window

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Lyrics//
look at me
let me show you what you shouldnt be
im a walking disaster
with my heart sown on my sleeve
oh, you dont believe?
you dont believe in me?
well ive had this dream for years and im only sixteen
so im gonna get what i deserve whether it's now or in the future

these words arent passion they're pain
and it's driving me insane
im trying my hardest to please
but things havent felt the same
and for better or worse
you feel no remorse anymore

this song was made using snippet's of bob james' "westchester lady" which i recommend ya check out here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V56yeZtqQTs

❤ enjoy the track(s), and have a great day! ❤

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Is It Me

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i was really sad when i wrote this but i think im feeling better

lyrics///
no i cant feel
no i cant breathe
and i cant see anymore

put your trust in me
and im left to bleed
so out it pours
im just dying on the floor

call me a fool
call me a freak
let me be
let me free

I dont wanna live as i am
but i dont want to die before i catch onto
life's rhymes and rhythyms with clear-cut precision
right now its blurry streaks
i face it everyday;
nothingness is my peak
but is that unique?
maybe i should feel good as is
think about the small things in life
find a new way to live
ill give it a try
ill give it a try

i dont know if i wanna give up
i dont know if i should even let go
  

I dont wanna live anymore
but i dont have the courage to die
maybe this'll end tonight
ive always been too scared to try

if i cant get it right
then what's the point of the fight?
to be knocked down again and again?
this just doesnt seem like
i can possibly win, ill just repeat the cycle
and end up close to the start again
but maybe thats life

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Blurry Streaks

White

lyrics: 

got ur emotions under my skin
tear my arms apart just to see what's in
inside your mind
aside from the things you said, id be better off dead
than to listen to my heart
i fell apart for u and the things we are
either way, i adore u
the way ur eyes light up when the light hits right
the red sweatshirt that never leaves ur side
ur smart as shit, but im happier to call u mine

FELL APART

Mystery Skulls - Far Away

i've been stuck in a rut for soooo long... and at this point I just want to release something, anything xD
Not really sure what this is... but i kinda liked the voice line at the beginning and kept trying to make it fit somewhere
guess it fits here :)
also yes artwork is random old drawing but happy telephone icon just didn't feel like it fit the bill ok this is tEMPORARY

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22 y/o nb gay artist n musician 

all vocals, lyrics, and instrumentals are by me unless mentioned
(i will credit any samples that are major parts of the song tho)

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Is It Me

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