Music I find that I think is good v3

produced by saint tomorrow and taylor morgan
tiny backing on the chorus and cool watercolour painting by 8485

RESTORE feat. midwxst (saint tomorrow+taylor morgan)

prod. jody x jkei

lyrics
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they said they need me
but they don't believe me
the fans turning greedy bout what i do
reading and weeping
i'm stuck to the ceiling
i write out my feelings
what i've been through
they said they see me
i vanish houdini
yeah i'm falling freely
in solitude
i pick up the pace
& i wipe off my face
i'm all over the place 
at this altitude
x2

i can't see when you cover my eyes
oh what a pleasant surprise
you let the light back inside
and i can't breathe when i'm too scared to try
so i'll just stare at the sky
until the sun starts to rise
and i fear that everything that i've done
up until this point is nothing 
yeah i'm zero to one
i've been tripping over cables that my mind has unspun
but then i plug myself back in before the night doesn't come

yeah the acid ate the casing off my battery pack
left my body on low power mode with panic attacks
found an outlet in the wall but hit the floor for a nap
i don't think i can get up yeah imma call it a wrap
now my visions getting blurry but my eyes are intact
all my memories erased and every movement is tracked
i don't think i am a human just a vessel of tracks
so if you listen to this song please put the volume to max

so i can hear it
i've become a spirit
i'm talking to you through this microphone
i think i've died
now i'm hollow inside
and i'm lost in a world where i'm all alone

music video

altitude (prod. jody x jkei)

SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/34fTsMf5BlZP6bBlRJjdTM?si=otwkAm8OTMm0Y2qy_F2EqQ
BANDCAMP: https://collidingwithmars.bandcamp.com/track/neon-tetra

dedicated to you

composed, produced by colliding with mars
mixed + mastered by colliding with mars
artwork and lyrics by colliding with mars
additional vocal engineering by @leorinda

lyrics:
Everything is 
Better in my dreams 
Because you don’t have to worry 
About all the hardships that 
You encounter I wish you’d come sleep with me
The fruits of your labor have 
Always been sour but all wounds heal with time


[Chorus]
I’ll see you at the bottom 
You don’t gotta waste your time on yesterday
I’ll see you at the bottom 
You don’t gotta waste your time on yesterday
She moves, a bad thing
Baby, don’t you cry like this
You don’t wanna you don’t wanna let them see you this way
I’ll see you at the bottom 
You don’t gotta waste your time on yesterday

I’m giving myself far less 
and giving my all to be more selfless 
Ostentatious bearings cast aside 
As I cried against an ocean of light 
It’s easy to love you now 
But I’ll still love you when you’re old
And broken 
And the wind’s dried you out

[Chorus]

neon tetra

SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/6JFEQfSWw4hB8p5dFtpcua?si=GWcHYHaMRYqjzs-5WTcrjw

BANDCAMP: https://collidingwithmars.bandcamp.com/track/keia-w-bluknight

this song was meant to be played loud

written & performed by colliding with mars & bluknight
additional vocal engineering by leorinda
addtional vocal by kaylie genton
artwork by colliding with mars

lyrics:

[verse 1]
pack your bags, we’re going south 
we’re going home 
make some friends, you’ve got time 
you’re moving slow 
learn to drive, get a job 
and cut it short 
with your deadbeat girlfriend 

you don’t know what the world 
will throw at you
you’re not a kid, so shut your mouth
and get a clue 
focus on, what we want 
it’s good for you
you’re moving too fast, too fast 

[pre-chorus]
uwu
and all this time I had you by my side
but you drown in silence
I came to life to find you 

[chorus]
but you drown in silence
I came to life to find you
but you drown in silence
I came to life to find you
fortune won’t you come my way
when I’ve got nothing more to say
but you drown in silence
I came to life to find you

[verse 2]
work harder, at this rate
you’ll never be 
good enough to get into 
the Ivy League
nowhere fast, is where you are
if you do not get up off your lazy ass

no real friends, no real job
nowhere to turn 
I was a punk, such a kid
who never learned 
but I have changed, with the help 
of all of you
thank you for making me something more

[pre-chorus]

[chorus]

oh, just tell me you don't love me anymore
anymore
oh, just let me off the hook and set the score
set the score

Keia (w/ bluknight)

everything is ok 

written & performed by colliding with mars
produced by colliding with mars
mixed and mastered by polearm
additional vocal engineering by leorinda
cover art by colliding with mars


lyrics:

I’m gonna be a pop star 
So I can go make my mother proud of me
She never believed in the music industry
Every time I showed her one of my songs
She never really cared at all

[Chorus]
God damn
Just wanna see you in the crowd sometime
Because you’ve seen me break down one too many times tonight
And I know I haven’t been the greatest son
But I wanna prove that I’m the type
I’ll make it up to you

Quit your crying
Teach your son a lesson, quit your crying
I spent my whole life proving myself
To those who I’d never see again
Guess that’s something I get used to
But I’m moving on
Hindsight 20.20 when there’s something wrong

I just wanna be special to you

[Chorus]

Now when they all see me want a photo
How you even say that you’ve been so cold
I don’t wanna be here wanna go home
I just wanna go home
I don’t make as much as all my friends
When you say that wish that I was dead
I just wanna make my mom proud
But all she cares about is why I’m not the best now

I just wanna be special to you

[Chorus]

I’m gonna be a pop star so I can go make my mother proud

my mom doesn't believe in me

dedicated to you

written + performed by colliding with mars
produced by colliding with mars
mixed + mastered by polearm
additional vocal engineering by leorinda
cover art by colliding with mars + adrelix

lyrics:

I could never hurt you
So I’ll keep your name a secret
But I’m cursing under my breath
Cause I know I blew my chances
Not like it could ever work out
But the thought of it seems so nice
And I miss the times that we spent
Staring at the stars above my bed
The thoughts of you are fleeting
But all the same are swarming my head
I don’t want to be a burden
I just want you here in my bed

All the time we shared
All the time we shared

And even though you aren’t dying
I’ll carry a piece of you with me forever
But for now we’re just two lions in the rain
Waiting for the summer to close out

two lions in the rain

old, the mix is shitty af, but i liked it so here it is :)

hate

prod by me

lyrics:
close the door in my face
stuck can’t message anyway
twisted up my ends
twisted up my ends

i can’t stop picking up the pieces
life sucks when it doesn’t have a reason 
had no fun picking up the ends
i can’t stop picking up the ends 

last night i was busy talking to myself
i lied now i’m busy talking to the shelves 
i tried but how can u forgive urself
i couldn’t forgive myself

slam my head on the door just for fun
call my friend say wassup and that i’m fine
nobody helps cause our interest don’t align
no plans so i don’t have to go outside

oh well i’m fine laying here all day
4 walls called home that i can’t escape
at night dark thoughts take a funny shape
lights out blinds closed with the windows draped

stream ❄️

ends

never ask me for anything again

don't listen to this song on soundcloud: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/collidingwithmars1/twilight-princess

written and performed by colliding with mars
produced by colliding with mars
lyrics and cover art by colliding with mars
mixed and mastered by ty lorenzo
visualizer shot and edited by adrelix

lyrics:

[Verse]
I don’t wanna talk if it means you’re not gonna listen
It truly is a shame that you have become so complacent
I’m just incognito killing crooked cops and racists
I just got 100k I used to be a bassist

Despite my accomplishments I’m knee-deep in the mud
I’m scared to death of hurting everybody that I love
Am I really running from the person that I was or am I pushing back a piece of me that’s scared of getting shoved

I’m terrified of everyone
And I feel I’m being replaced
I don’t wanna speak bout how I’m feeling
I just want it to go away

[Pre-chorus]
Break what’s mine
I’m so angry all the time
Catch my breath

[Chorus]
At night I turn into a weapon
Weapon
Weapon
I turn my pain into aggression
Aggression 
Aggression
I don’t wanna hurt you but I / but I can’t control myself
I know myself
I need your help
But I can’t stop
At night I turn into a weapon
Weapon 
Weapon

[Verse 2]
Error I need a reset
Mulling over what I said
The energy kept in my chest
Could fumigate all my circuits

I feel as though I’m an outcast
No one hears words I’ve spoken
Paraiah to the same fictional cast of characters written in the book

I just wanted a fair chance
I just wanted a revamp
I just wanted a shot to prove that I was something more than a temper

x2

[Pre-chorus]

[Chorus]

TWILIGHT PRINCESS

never ask me for anything again

listen to this song anywhere else but here: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/collidingwithmars1/twilight-princess

lyrics: 

[Chorus]
I scream into the void, but nobody ever listens
Maybe if I turn the volume down on my voice
It'll make a difference
I hope I fit in now 'cause I don't know what to prove
I hope I fit in now 'cause I don't know what to do
Do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do

[Verse 1]
I work until I drop and then I think that I deserve it
I'm under the impression that success would come so early
No matter what the consequence, I hate it and it's boring
Keep my feelings wrapped up so nobody starts to worry
I'm always so impatient that I'll run right in the ground
If my patience is a virtue, my morality is sound
Feel the cracking on depression at a place of my own head
If I'm not busy, overworking I'm distressed and seeing red

[Chorus 2]
'Cause I don't know want to do
I hope I fit in now 'cause I don't know what to prove

[verse 2]
I scream into the void, but nobody ever listens
Maybe if I turn the formant down on my voice
It'll make a difference
I'm always second choice
Halted at the line of scrimmage
Silently wishing that somebody sees through the noise
To help me close the distance

[Outro]
I hope I fit in now 'cause I don't know what to do
I hope I fit in now 'cause I don't know what to prove

THE BALLAD OF THE MAN IN 2ND PLACE

whatever

don't listen to this on soundcloud: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/collidingwithmars1/the-dreamcatcher

written and produced by colliding with mars
performed by colliding with mars
lyrics and artwork by colliding with mars
mixed and mastered by polearm
video shot and edited by adrelix

lyrics:
 [chorus]
I wanna go to sleep
But instead I’m lying here
And my heart won’t stop racing
I’m lying here
And I don’t want to debate the what if’s
I don’t want to recall the dumb things
I don’t wanna cry
I wanna go to sleep

[verse]
I could not tell how good I had it
How lucky I was to be the captain and I
lost it all by a landslide pulling all the 
wrong strings to the landmines and now all of my
greatest moments are tinged with sadness
all accomplishments are damaged I am
Nothing more than a man that’s made mistakes
Nothing more than a part to be replaced

How long til you hate me ‎
I really wanna know how long it’s gonna take
Cause at the end of it all
Everyone would rather have me uninvolved

[pre-chorus]
Ooo [choir]
Ooo-ooh
I don’t wanna be here so bad
So badly

[double chorus]

[verse]
is that really so hard?
I don’t wanna see your face no more
I don’t wanna cause no pain no more Ooooo (Vocal run)
Why am I so silent
Why do I keep trying
When can I just fall asleep

I’m a nuisance to the people that I love
I’m in my head and I’m not enough I wanna 
shine like a star that’s dying wanna
Be someone you see is trying
I wanna be on a billboard in Times Square
I wanna pay my bills and donate the rest
I wanna be happy again
But most of all

[chorus]
I wanna go to sleep

THE DREAMCATCHER

I kinda made this as a joke after work yesterday but I didn't expect the amount of nostalgia it gave me and now I really like it.

mr brightside

slow and steady wins the race

please don't listen to my music on soundcloud: https://open.spotify.com/track/70XUPdl5GF9GK0ukvMsaxc?si=sx1ECj8mSVeof3ecCqgC-g

written and produced by me
performed by me
additional production by ty lorenzo
mixed and mastered by ty lorenzo
cover art by me

lyrics:

[Verse 1]
Cutting corners and trading places 
With versions of myself I’m
Feeling misguided and out of place like all the damn time
Can’t catch a break, constantly misplacing my own ego
Seconds late and steadily fading I’m losing control

Agitated with knowing I haven’t done my best job
Furiously scraping together all of my thoughts god
I’m sorry to all the people I hurt during my lifetime
Mulling over details in my head like they were war crimes

The parts of me I hate they never really go away now
I’m subjugated to compensating within the background
I don’t want my life to pass me by I’m only human
Every moment forward’s being spent on self improvement

[Pre-Chorus]
Well, okay
I’ve got pressure stacking up on every side
Well, okay
I’ve been forced persuasion I guess I’ll say goodbye

[Chorus]

In a whirl
And I feel like nobody’s on my side
In a world where I know that only pretty people
Get what they want when they want it
Pessimistic I can’t stop it

[Verse 2]

Where’s a superhero when you need one 
All my friends are like the changing seasons
Feel the fading colors grow in time
Learn the art of letting go I have been feeling ill-advised

[Pre-Chorus 2]
Well, okay
I’ve got pressure stacking up on every side
Well, okay
I’ve been forced persuasion I guess I’ll say goodbye

[Chorus]

FABLED TORTOISE

this song had inspired me to start making music & with the recent progression in my own music wanted to give it a shot : )

the fire - the eden project & puppet (austyn flip)

off saint dominique EP

virtual reality

https://open.spotify.com/track/380pPCj4SSusNj2IotHbzg?si=034fd5382e9d4807

Spotify

stranded w/ blackwinterwells

look before you leap

written & performed by colliding with mars
produced by colliding with mars
mixed & mastered by ty lorenzo
cover art by colliding with mars & max schramp

lyrics:

[Chorus]
Do you ever think about me
I always feel like I’m forgotten
Am I lingering in your thoughts
Is there no more space allotted

Do you ever think about me
Is this feeling disregarded
A mistake for even calling
Nother lapse in my own judgement

[Verse 1]
Wasting time I’m stagnant
Pacing!
My room million circles
Racing!
Thoughts like vultures
Hunting
Ravens
How could I ask for more?

My life’s 
been a series of unfortunate events
That highlights
Everybody else as nowhere near as discontent I
Pray that
I can balance and compose myself again
Do I wanna know?

[Pre-Chorus]
Do you ever—

[Chorus]

[Verse 2]
I just wanna know
Am I fluttering in your head
Clogging up your feed
Am I part of your existence
Do you think of me
Am I getting too persistent

Do you remember me?
I am a burden
You crashed your car into the lake
Without a purpose
I am the weight holding you down
You don’t deserve it
I am the weight holding you down
You don’t deserve it

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

LIGHTBRINGER

(the story of my blackout summer '20)
w/ + produced by @janeremover
on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4hkrL4HTjJMdRUF5wWTWDm?si=902059c455c944c5
[lyrics]
(juno)
i dont remember a damn thing from last week
im sorry i could never be the one you thought i was 
i try my best but everybody lookin past me 
i blacked out on the pavement and i think its because

she told me i was a waste of time
and i hated life 
i was stuck and i had nowhere to go
and i know youre not a friend of mine
im not on your mind
so i said "fuck it i guess ill be alone"

(jane)
so i brought yesterday back around
and i know how i feel bout u now
im coming over and taking ur crown
been thinking bout how u let me down
and ur not even being mean ur just dishonest
got me repeating myself i think i lost it
and i told u i knew it all just like a prophet
theres this new idea: its called listening when im talking
and now im running out of options
u called my number but i blocked it
im waiting outside and ur stalling...
dont wanna say i called it but i think i called it

(juno)
i dont remember a damn thing from last week
im sorry i could never be the one you thought i was 
i try my best but everybody lookin past me 
i blacked out on the pavement and i think its because

she told me i was a waste of time
and i hated life 
I was stuck and i had nowhere to go
and i know youre not a friend of mine
im not on your mind
so i said "fuck it i guess ill be alone" (x2)

nowhere to go w/ jane remover

(@prodnomu)

luv u guys thank u for waiting again <3 here is a song i wanted to drop on my bday

the sample is "still feel it all" by maro

//
my friends call me dumb
so I start to believe it
say it's a joke
but I know that they mean it
I know
theysay I'm never there
that I should spend more time with them
that's a funny idea

Cuz my friends are at home
And lately ive felt so depressed and alone 
Im back where i started like 3 years ago

and i constantly fail to show all my affection
and all of this shit builds up all of this tension
I wish I could give her the things she deserves
but keep fucking up I'm not learning my lesson
I'm dumb
I'm no fun
I have so many things in my life that are keeping me up
I fuck up anyways
it's almost as if I just throw it away

and my girl’s the best
she wakes up my phone with a good morning text
and makes sure to buy me my favorite gifts
and tells me goodnight after blowing a kiss
Yea i kno
But shes 3000 miles away
Telling me everything is okay
Always fuck up so im taking the blame

A little bit smarter, A little more strong 
A little bit better at accepting my flaws
A little bit faster when i answer your calls
A little more effort when im writing these songs

chorus

a few months ago I was living so well
peaking my mental and physical health
now I'm here
in the back with a face full of tears
in need of help but there's nobody near

**
But its fine
Cuz Ill take it one step at a time
Its okay if i cry
So i’ll keep it together
Cuz one day i know that this sht will get better 
**

Music I find that I think is good v3

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