And it hurts a lot more, when you're stuck with the girl

TRACY SETLIST

sick of it (feat. hazenova) (prod. xmichaelwarren)

Look at all this pain I’m in
I can't find myself again
I could never be your friend
I don’t like your energy
Taking its control of me
Grip too tight my lungs can’t breathe
Finding it impossible
I won’t feel myself again
Myself again
I won’t feel myself again
Myself again

Can’t take the words you say back
Just know I never forgot that
Feelings about to attack
Hard to cope when there’s a knife in my back
Is this what you want
Love to spill my blood
You do this just for fun
It looks like you’ve won

Don’t look back
I don’t know why everybody says that
The past is somewhere that I wanna be at
It hurts to say, but I get sentimental

Look at all this pain I’m in
I can't find myself again
I could never be your friend
I don’t like your energy
Taking its control of me
Grip too tight my lungs can’t breathe
Finding it impossible
I won’t feel myself again
Myself again
I won’t feel myself again
Myself again

idontlikeyou

[chorus]
bouncing here back and forth yeah
taking no more yeah
got nothing in storage
yeah my heart is cold
cause girl you took my life away
and now i just sit here every day
while i writhe in pain
watch me decay

[verse]
girl don’t ask how i’m feeling
staring at the ceiling
mind just going blank while i think of you
cause i am not the man that 
i used to be
since you left i been hurting

[bridge]
sitting in silence
i been trying
not to make contact but
november was so long ago
don’t tell me you forgot me
baby please don’t let me know

[chorus + bridge]
(sitting in silence)
bouncing here back and forth yeah
(i been trying)
taking no more yeah
(not to make contact but)
got nothing in storage
yeah my heart is cold
(november was so long ago)
cause girl you took my life away
(don’t tell me you forgot me)
and now i just sit here every day
(baby please don’t let me know)
while i writhe in pain
watch me decay

[chorus]
bouncing here back and forth yeah
taking no more yeah
got nothing in storage
yeah my heart is cold
cause girl you took my life away
and now i just sit here every day
while i writhe in pain
watch me decay

homecoming (prod. killedmyself x singular balance) [AMV IN DESC]

mix/master and feature by @autumndropsdead
prod @windyboi

Glass jars full of candy bars
You're so close but no cigar
People stare and they real bizarre
I'm so deprived and I need to charge
Haunting me she still in disguise
I'm over here still acting shy
Once I'm confident again, she too dry
In response to me and I try to hide

Mouth is dry but, i can try this
Conversation shit is terrifying
So annoying, all the shit you fuckin' did
Being genuine is something
That you couldn't fuckin' win over

When you're on top of the world
What's the point in getting points across
You're already heard
And it hurts a lot more, when you're stuck with the girl
Who doesn't have a sense of reason while you vomit and hurl

I feel like Adele the way we could have had it all
I'm on an emissary for you, and I ain't talking brawl
Got this app inside my brain that I can never uninstall
These voices all inside my head cause paranoia in the halls

Saves her words for later
Got em wrapped in small tin foil
They act dead to me, till I'm no longer free
Now they're rising out the soil
And i'm burning all my past memories
Stare at pots while they just boil
And all my opportunities were taken to despoil

Mouth is dry but, i can try this
Conversation shit is terrifying
So annoying, all the shit you fuckin' did
Being genuine is something
That you couldn't fuckin' win over

When you're on top of the world
What's the point in getting points across
You're already heard
And it hurts a lot more, when you're stuck with the girl
Who doesn't have a sense of reason while you vomit and hurl

I feel like Adele the way we could have had it all
I'm on an emissary for you, and I ain't talking brawl
Got this app inside my brain that I can never uninstall
These voices all inside my head cause paranoia in the halls

Paranoia, paranoia 
In the halls
Emissary for you
I won't be here for that long
Wait another second
I can make it out
It hurts a lot fucking more
When you walk through the door
That I let you in, in the first place

emissary w/ autumndropsdead (windyboi)

why am i like this?

spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/7e576Psa1QkEnUNp3zG1jb?si=8b4ded73f0884119

lyrics:
theres this ghost in this room he paints with visions that he wants
stuck at home, maybe the moon will gift him something going on 
and as the time had passed and days tunred into months turned into years
he met a girl and let her close but he got scared when it got real 

and she smiled so pretty 
when he tried to hold her hand 
but he felt so guilty 
because he doesnt understand 
what they said 
how he should feel it hurts his head
he puts his all into an act
to hide whats real from her and friends 
but that doesnt rly go to great, how nice!
when he finds that every goddamn thing makes him cry
and he feels like he did back in 8th grade 
because how he hates himself these times 
and hed probably say anything to get to stop checking his vitals signs

"oh hes so understanding" when he does resort to lying 
there he goes hoping someone sees the truth inside these eyes 
dont he know that hes the only one that wants him left behind?
so then he wouldnt have to talk himself to tears to feel alive 
alive, alive

and in her arms
is what his younger him did want 
cuz in the shards of broken hearts
he found the only way he ever thought he could relate to love

exactly what he wished for | prod. majora

Big thanks to @carlby for being on this one. Mixing this was hard, because no matter what I did, everything I did to my mix made it sound worse. It got to a point where I basically just said "screw it, it's never gonna be good enough, I'm gonna drop it just how it is" so I hope you guys enjoy my suffering xD

Like A Forest Fire(Feat. Carlby) | Prod. HeyRick

Mixed/Mastered By Me 
-
Produced By https://soundcloud.com/prodneverforever
-
(Lyrics)
And I just need to think 
And I just need to breathe 
Letting go of everything 
Is always hard 
You just need time 
I’ll give you that time 
I’m too persistent 
And I’m so sorry 
And I just wish that 
Things went back to normal 

And I just need to think
And I just need to breathe 
Letting go of everything 
Is so fucking hard 

In the basement I drink I’m too wasted 
I try to show you love but you resist it 
And I’ll give you time 
Baby girl I don’t wanna resign 

Waking up it just hurts too much 
I just miss you come back my love 
It’s been a month but I fell in love with you x2

And I just need to think
And I just need to breathe 
Letting go of everything 
Is so fucking hard x2

When I saw your green blue eyes 
I fell in love so instantly 
If you have little love for me 
Let’s give that one more chance 
I just know it can work out 
We still love each other you know 

Just one more chance x3

i'll give you the time (neverforever)

(prod.  Me), mixed by @ghosthandsmusic

lyrics;
Comin' like a missile
Why you hide facade
I don't give a fuck what you want on god
Don't you even think 
Before you blow up pissed off
Been a long day 
Why you put me on the spot

Pull up feelin' shit
Got too many strains on lock
Push my buttons make me ticked
Boutta hit you with a clock
Talkin' funny
Play pretend
Thinkin' I can't see your plots
Got you setup doa
Skull aligned up with my cross 
Ice on my head
Ya you swellin my brain
Runnin' your mouth
You get hit with the swang 
Poppin' some pillies to numb out the pain
Ache comin back when you shoutout to me
Fuck out my dial
Means shut up n zip it
You don't get the code
It's so dumb how you miss it
Ya speaking in morse so I tap to your rhythm 
I'll leave you with silence
You'll get my decision

Comin' like a missile
Why you hide facade
I don't give a fuck what you want on god
Don't you even think 
Before you blow up pissed off
Been a long day 
Why you put me on the spot
Comin' like a missile
Why you hide facade
I don't give a fuck what you want on god
Don't you even think 
Before you blow up pissed off
Been a long day 
Why you put me on the spot

What have I done
What have I done
We couldn't run
The nukes set for lift off
Countdown till one
Bracin' the sun
Hit by the flames
Out to the space

leftquiet:
https://open.spotify.com/artist/42f0KXL3P8tuMPnwMT87SJ?si=feaOunH-SUibS5cAJoFMGA
https://www.instagram.com/left.quiet/
https://soundcloud.com/leftquiet

missile

pessimist

@joshiguess

and i try to blend in like it's camouflage
all the love you had for me yeah its sabotaged
you said I'll bring you to my castle this ain't camelot
you want to hit but all I wanted was a back massage

all the colors in my eyes yeah its led lights
red lights ain't stopping me this a fast drive
last night I was at the rave in the spotlight
that's tight heard within the crowd, that's my plot line

and they hating on me saying that my times up
least I'm focusing on tryna get my life up
you got no one and i'm leading off a lineup
in the back of the club we staying fried up

i've been living life like it's a movie
and these drums be kicking in like it's bruce lee
your girl tonight she wanna try and seduce me
and i've been diving in the crowd like a blue sea

i've been running through all of these tracks like it's a pacer
and she wanna light it up but that's not within my nature
only time it's in the light is when i'm lighting up my paper
don't hit me on my socials only hit me on my pager
i remember rolling down the block with a razor
i remember when i used to talk with my haters
now i always just be hitting block on the fakers
if you ain't up and jumping then you not a true raver

and i try to blend in like it's camouflage
all the love you had for me yeah its sabotaged
you said I'll bring you to my castle this ain't camelot
you want to hit but all I wanted was a back massage

all the colors in my eyes yeah its led lights
red lights ain't stopping me this a fast drive
last night I was at the rave in the spotlight
that's tight heard within the crowd, that's my plot line

joshiguess - camelot (kuva) [MOST REJECTED EXCLUSIVE]

prod https://soundcloud.com/whymillyy & maestrowons

It's time to wake up make up right after a break up
Yeah i'm stuck in this stupid lust, yeah i dont give a fuck
I just want to treat life like no one ever really does
But you can never do that only do it in a camouflage 

Pull up with a garage band performing on a macintosh
Been working on this shit for years you be staying slacking off
Tried to ship my energy to you but then the package lost
People around me wanna swish only if its basketball

I just want my peace
Give it to me please
I just want my peace
Give it to me please


I need to live life with way less company
You ask to hang but they just wanna get buzzed with me
And i'm stuck living in a different fantasy 
Vacuum all these thoughts cus im my own manatee

I just want my peace
Give it to me please
I just want my peace
Give it to me please

It's time to wake up make up right after a break up
Yeah i'm stuck in this stupid lust, yeah i dont give a fuck
I just want to treat life like no one ever really does
But you can never do that only do it in a camouflage

manatee (whymillyy + maestrowons)

https://youtu.be/CsHkrGFgkSI?si=zbjE0t3whXV3635k
So i packed up and i said see you later
She begging don't leave while i'm signing off the papers
I should've known that i couldn't escape her
She getting too close, to my heart she was my neighbor

Did i just fuck up the canon like it's spiderverse
All the memories i had and i'm wishing i could reimburse
And all these emotions are recycled into what i rehearsed
Tryna destroy the home in my heart, call it saboteurs 

We were on call that day didn't know what to say
And now i contemplate on what i could've then
Would it really be worth it to be more than friends?
Or would you be like the others and it's just start to end?

And love's too complicated and confusing for my heart to be
Gotta look at my life on my watch i'm my own yard duty
Answer my life's questions at my stake like it's jeopardy
It's hard to do when i don't know my own identity

So i packed up and i said see you later
She begging don't leave while i'm signing off the papers
I should've known that i couldn't escape her
She getting too close, to my heart she was my neighbor

These roads are too unstable cus they know i'm the pedestrian 
Said she from the country i'm like shawty you equestrian?
and I'm too inexperienced to call myself a gentleman 
But i guess it's just my life and what i gotta settle with

And when i'm gone
I'll control this music scene with a baton
They try to place me in a box when I'm not
Cus i'm making different moves
And creating different tunes 
What the fuck you got to do?

So i packed up and i said see you later
She begging don't leave while i'm signing off the papers
I should've known that i couldn't escape her
She getting too close, to my heart she was my neighbor

Did i just fuck up the canon like it's spiderverse
All the memories i had and i'm wishing i could reimburse
And all these emotions are recycled into what i rehearsed
Tryna destroy the home in my heart, call it saboteurs

music video

saboteurs MUSIC VID OUT NOW (tykun x mandumé)

https://soundcloud.com/smoke-fusion
https://soundcloud.com/user-45054345-11058102

grew my hair out now it's fluffy (yeah)
rich bitch i feel like muffy (yeah)
i'ma go and cop a duffy (yeah)
these record labels wanna study (yeah)

and i've been getting busy but i never wanna forfit
and i wanna make new music but i never wanna force it
and it'd be nice to have the money but i will never go corporate 

cus this shit is my own business
tryna talk that shit when you were never a witness
you should watch your girl she ain't loyal like these bitches
i'm running out of oxygen but i am on a mission

sorry i had to clear my throat
cus i ain't ever used to this never sing monotone
scouting my every move feel like they watch just like a drone
i'm a fucking grave digger cus i'm bad to the bone

grew my hair out now it's fluffy (yeah)
rich bitch i feel like muffy (yeah)
i'ma go and cop a duffy (yeah)
these record labels wanna study (yeah)

i'm sipping on that yerba in that fucking hydro flask
i'm with a bad bitch and she wanna throw it back
and i just made a stack off a motherfucking dash
and if you ain't know we just got the car back

usually i'm not this confident
and no offense to these artists but i got common sense
and yeah she calling me honey i put the pollen in
and if this shit not enough let's start a poly then

grew my hair out now it's fluffy (yeah)
rich bitch i feel like muffy (yeah)
i'ma go and cop a duffy (yeah)
these record labels wanna study (yeah)

she got a dress on yeah it's burgundy 
she reminding me of some fine
it's hurting me knowing i won't drink
but i take in what she said to me
going on a road trip i'm going to yosemite
that nature is peaceful and there's never my enemies
finding me in my anemone 
and no i ain't taking ketamine
cus fuck drugs, fuck love, fuck trust yeah
i'm staying as i am (huh)

anemone (smoketopanic + smokefusion)

Pose

SAVANT

new album out now
tour tickets: https://ffm.bio/joshiguess

emissary w/ autumndropsdead (windyboi)

JoshIGuess

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