mix/master and feature by @autumndropsdead
prod @windyboi

Glass jars full of candy bars
You're so close but no cigar
People stare and they real bizarre
I'm so deprived and I need to charge
Haunting me she still in disguise
I'm over here still acting shy
Once I'm confident again, she too dry
In response to me and I try to hide

Mouth is dry but, i can try this
Conversation shit is terrifying
So annoying, all the shit you fuckin' did
Being genuine is something
That you couldn't fuckin' win over

When you're on top of the world
What's the point in getting points across
You're already heard
And it hurts a lot more, when you're stuck with the girl
Who doesn't have a sense of reason while you vomit and hurl

I feel like Adele the way we could have had it all
I'm on an emissary for you, and I ain't talking brawl
Got this app inside my brain that I can never uninstall
These voices all inside my head cause paranoia in the halls

Saves her words for later
Got em wrapped in small tin foil
They act dead to me, till I'm no longer free
Now they're rising out the soil
And i'm burning all my past memories
Stare at pots while they just boil
And all my opportunities were taken to despoil

Mouth is dry but, i can try this
Conversation shit is terrifying
So annoying, all the shit you fuckin' did
Being genuine is something
That you couldn't fuckin' win over

When you're on top of the world
What's the point in getting points across
You're already heard
And it hurts a lot more, when you're stuck with the girl
Who doesn't have a sense of reason while you vomit and hurl

I feel like Adele the way we could have had it all
I'm on an emissary for you, and I ain't talking brawl
Got this app inside my brain that I can never uninstall
These voices all inside my head cause paranoia in the halls

Paranoia, paranoia 
In the halls
Emissary for you
I won't be here for that long
Wait another second
I can make it out
It hurts a lot fucking more
When you walk through the door
That I let you in, in the first place

emissary w/ autumndropsdead (windyboi)

lips locked *ueca*

i can sense a lie when you say it to my face
i collect the memories
they take me to a place
far away from home
its a plane i feel okay at
somewhere i can rest my mind
no worries
its my favorite

only hit me up when you want something from me
tried to take my heart
now its under lock and key
you claim to be bored again and im not entertaining
barely still alive and youre killing whats remaining

im okay
i promise
wasnt what you wanted
shouldve known to start with
but thats why i want it

homesick

✦hope u like it :) recorded the part on like my first days w covid xd but i was able to finish it b4 it striked me down lol if u ever have or need anything just text me! i appreciate everyone listening to this <3✦

lyrics
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cuz i know that shit's gonna hurt u 
when u see me up 
and i want that shit to happen 
cuz u did hurt me too 
and for myself im in a different spot now 
couldn't hide my pain that night,
she was LAUGHING ME OUT..

couldnt see the pain inside ur eyes, 
was it really all my fault?
now im asking myself what'd i do wrong
i know thats not what im supposed to do
cuz it wasnt my fault and u know that too

my vision's going blurry,
i cannot see anymore
which path should i choose,
the right or the left one?
i didnt do wrong 
yeah im feeling so dumb
fell down so often,
i cannot move on

all this pressure on me..
feeling like im dying!
im doing slowly,
but no one notice
not even my closest one's
"i just wanna closure"
i just wanna go far
where nobody finds me

cuz i know that shit's gonna hurt u
when u see me up
and i want that shit to happen
cuz u did hurt me too
and for myself im in a different spot now
couldn't hide my pain that night,
she was LAUGHING ME OUT..

DEMON AMV <3

LAUGHING ME OUT (altery)

Featuring: @nokerbforever
Written by: Kurama SD & NOKERB
Produced by: jolst & dercept 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & NOKERB
Mastered by: NOKERB
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
Some days I feel like a ghost
Feel like a ghost 
Going crazy in the back of the class 
I never thought anything 
You said was true 
So what the fuck dude 
True 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Verse: Kurama SD]
I fucked up 
I know I did
At least I didn't hide it 
I'm still a letdown 
I'm still a letdown 

Thought I was cool
But I always lose 
Nobody cares 
Who I am 
(WHO I AM) 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Outro: Kurama SD]
Think I know everything 
But I know nothing 
So I fade away

GHOST w/ NOKERB (Prod. jolst & dercept)

Featuring: @yokaidreams 
Written by: Kurama SD & Yokai Dreams
Produced by: grayskies 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & Yokai Dreams 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
(Back off)
Life brings hell 
In the worst ways
Life is pain
(Life is pain)

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
I walk through the burning path
Feels like broken glass
Every step is full of wrath 
The scars are still on my skin
From when you sunk your teeth in
Still I moved on though I'm bleeding 
at least I'm fucking breathing 
Everything is burning to pieces 

[Pre-Chorus: ]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(deep within)

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
Fighting battles 
Its a handful
I'll mange somehow 
(Somehow)

[Verse 2: Kurama SD]
Seeing red everywhere 
Nothing left here but pain to share
U stare in my eyes 
I can't help but glare 
Flames burn on
I can hardly bare 
All this pain

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(Deep within)

[Verse 3: Yokai Dreams] 
act right
if i could act right
i wouldn't be in this situation
for now i need to back off
i need to back off
i think the battle's about to begin
about to begin

[Outro: Kurama SD]
I'll be right 
There

Battles I Can't Win w/ Yokai Dreams (Prod. grayskies)

produced by xmichaelwarren
engineered by marcdoesmusic
i needed this 1

LYRICS:

I'm broken down and every day repeats again
And I don't know how I'm getting over this

1 step back and 2 steps forward
I'll be fine when I get older
Breathe that breath til it's all over
Break that chip that's on my shoulder

1 step back and 2 more forward
I'll be fine when I get sober
Sometimes you just don't get closure
1 more step just gets you closer

1 step, take one more
Tryna heal but I can't when I'm bored
Take more shots til I'm hugging the floor
Yak in the bathroom back for more

But it's much worse when I'm driving home
Cuz the songs can't quiet my brain no more
Think bout everything I could've done,
And I should've done, and that's never fun

Someone take these thoughts away from me
I wake up screaming tryna breathe
Heart beat racing I can't sleep

And it might take 100 sleepless nights
But someday I'll wake up just fine
I'll finally open up my eyes
And feel the sun come through my blinds

I've had, time to realize
Time keeps passing
I'll get past this

1 step back and 2 steps forward
I'll be fine when I get older
Breathe that breath til it's all over
Break that chip that's on my shoulder

1 step back and 2 more forward
I'll be fine when I get sober
Sometimes you just don't get closure
1 more step just gets you closer

1step (prod. xmichaelwarren)

@55depths
@silentcxbin
@failure404
produced by me.
EP art by cxbin!

off of the COGNIZANT EP with silentcxbin!

lyrics:
(dth)
you think you know me
but you knew me
face it
while i'm lost in the darkness
and tracing my own chalk outline on the pavement
you must be dreaming
to think
that i'll take this
while i listen to you
exposing the truth in your own self hatred

is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that

(epitomeoffailure)
i know you know that i can't stay
these racing thoughts have been
plaguing my brain
oh how i wish things would
stay the same
now i'm in pain
i have seen better days
i remember when things were simple
now every day just feels like a struggle
to know my place
and where i belong
when half the time
i don't know what's going on

(cxbin)
if i fall will i land?
well take me back to eden
place your bet
draw your hand
but still there never even

okay ya your walking now
okay ill just go on bout
don't wanna sit and pout now
don't wanna be around now

sell my soul
the scripture already written
don't think twice
but maybe i should listen
fucked up now
can't get out the kitchen
shoot at me 
got plenty ammunition
unload rounds in me
in my chest
keeps me down
from doing my best
i'm a stupid fuck
its all in my head
well that's what you wanted right?

(dth)
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that

tough w/ epitomeoffailure and silentcxbin

24khris - news (prod. youhearevan + vvsmalibu)

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