people always talk like they know me 
no one sees the knife inside my heart as i slowly die 
feelings come alive and they’re burning  
i had all the patience in the world but now i don’t try 
it’s a waste of time 
everyone walks out my life 
i say goodbye 
you’ve heard that line 
but i remember every night 
 
hey 
i’m afraid love 
lately it’s more than i just can’t wake up 
stay? 
cause i need you 
but you don’t feel the same and it’s so see through 
 
(oh i just want to go home) 

try to act like i’m tough 
cant even stomach the thought of my blood 
i want to paint walls red when i’m in love 
i want to paint walls red 
i want to paint walls red oh 
try to act like enough 
can’t even stomach the thought of you now  
i want to paint walls red when i’m in love 
i want to paint walls red 
i want to paint walls red oh...

i want to paint walls red [drma x michael harrison]

self produced, (dawsin)
mix and mastered by me (dawsin)
written by me (dawsin)

[FOR THE BEST EXPERIENCE PLS WEAR HEADPHONES <3]

lyrics ♡:
(hush)

is it sad that i think that your right?
that im ugly? and that you hate the sight
of me, i can promise that its alright
its okay cause i get it all the time

you dont wanna live the same as my youth
i get stares as soon i walk in the room
i get anxious when i wake up and i see the moon
im a human and im not perfect too

i will never forget the pain that Yahiko suffered.
And now...
this world shall know pain. 
ALMIGHTY PUSH!"

cause if you think your my homie you might die
cause everytime i ask you why you just lie 
and if u wanna duke it out then we'll fight 
ill knock u off and pass you by with a sigh

cause if you think your my homie you might die
cause everytime i ask you why you just lie 
and if u wanna duke it out then we'll fight 
ill knock u off and pass you by with a sigh

im trapped 
in the walls
im not so sure what to do about it
pls help me
e-e-e-e-e-e-e
me

why do i feel this way?
why do i feel so much hate?
why dont you come lay my grave
and we will all be safe

I SAID WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY?
*way*
WHY DO I FEEL SO MUCH HATE?
WHY DONT YOU COME LAY MY GRAVE
AND WE WILL ALL BE SAFE

S-A-A-A-FE
S-A-A-A-FE
SAFE

*hush*
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𝕟𝕠 𝕞𝕒𝕥𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕨𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕡𝕒𝕚𝕟 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕘𝕠𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕙𝕣𝕠𝕦𝕘𝕙 𝕛𝕦𝕤𝕥 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕞𝕒𝕥𝕥𝕖𝕣

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hate

https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead
https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz

lyrics:
(latency's far)
(i'm picking at scars, again..)

'cause i've been losing strength in my arms
and the warmth in my heart
pick it up, toss it out
feelings shank, feel it sharp

(i've been losing strength in my arms again)

if they complain i'm the worst, then i'll let it hurt
'cause i'm apathetic at best
i'll let it get on my nerves, like i live in reverse
while you b*tch in' and nag, i destress
chardonne in my chest
i'd check my phone but that ego's myself
'till i'm pressed
fluid cardiac arrest
outta my dome, 'till i'm ghost
matter of fact i'm repressed

when i step outside i just fall through the flooring
and you step aside when i'm entering pouring my state of array
every sec of the day, so i turn to the blade but if it goes in deeper
then i may as well make a date with the reaper
and lower concern for myself as a seeker
cause i wasn't fit to bestow what they wanted
trickling stones like an amateur novice

with no sense of balance nor care where they landed
if you would've just realized why this happens
then i wouldn't cry or feel so f*cking captive
and hurt, and alone as i lie on my mattress
and shout to the ma**es, 'bout all of my feelings
fixated on rippin' this notion of healing
apart in the dark, it ain't smart, but they'll hear me
at least to the point where the hurt is appealing

"if you care, why don't you show it?"
"is it because you're a poet?"
b*tch , i'm eternally broken
quit treating me like a hoax
'cause they all disappear when i'm at my lowest
i've been holding up this lantern to glow on it's own
and i feel like spyro, flames in a spiral
back like it's spinal, i've been on my own sh*t
but every little thought that tortures me
are the only ones that help when i lack empathy
confine the lies and shallow tears
oh you're ignorance is something i don't wanna hear

a pa**erby lulling lowered eyes
hope you feel alright for the new year
'cause i stand at the front lines,
it's hypocritical and nuclear
decapitated from my patience
had to wait and let it grow
morals shrink the moment we quit nurturing our weary bones

autumndropsdead - spyro (nate2timez x pekarot x autumndropsdead)

prod me 
w/ @hiraethsry

Lyrics:
don't know if i feel okay
i'm aware of all that you say
i'm burning bridges all day
not my fault you're in the way
don't know where i have been since
you speak to me with no end
sun shines down onto my skin
been a while since i felt like this
you run from all that i am
you take the flame and you end
oh you say that it's nothing but you're offended
without you i'll feel the same
i'll go on about my day
you don't mean anything to me
promises don't mean a thing

don’t remember from yesterday but I’m feeling it now
so confused on what you mean, I can’t tell anyone now
every finger you laid onto me, I’m feeling them more
I wish I could get over this, pass the blade and some
someone that I can take it out on, I can’t deal with it
stop lunging into promises you cannot hold me with
and only when the time is right, will you belong to me
twist and turning in my bed waiting for you to sleep
and sometimes I hold my stomach, like it’s your hand on me
and if I close my eyes and dream it well it just might be

don't know if i feel okay
i'm aware of all that you say
i'm burning bridges all day
not my fault you're in the way
don't know where i have been since
you speak to me with no end
sun shines down onto my skin
been a while since i felt like this
without you i'll feel the same
i'll go on about my day
you don't mean anything to me
promises don't mean a thing

burn

https://soundcloud.com/hkfiftyone2
https://soundcloud.com/angelsofsorrows

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I'm still coming up, want a piece of the pie
Man every time I roll up, got so much on my mind
And every day I feel dead now, but I'm still alive

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I could see myself, penthouse in the sky
Then it's done, here again, I can't eat, don't know why
Get that cash, stay the grind, take a hit, i'll be fine

One day feel like me then the other different person
My mind never set straight yeah it's written all in cursive
But it's got a story ending on a cliffhanger
It's JoshIGuess I'm always dropping the bangers

Importance for years yet still got to decide
If any of choices are bad sacrifice
And everyone leave me so got no advice
But I'd rather figure out my own reside

Only feel like myself when I'm up to the mic
But the camera's too close to me like it gon snipe
Some of you guys just rely on a swipe
But that's not how I want to use my device

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I'm still coming up, want a piece of the pie
Man every time I roll up, got so much on my mind
And every day I feel dead now, but I'm still alive

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I could see myself, penthouse in the sky
Then it's done, here again, I can't eat, don't know why
Get that cash, stay the grind, take a hit, i'll be fine

I'll be fine, I'll be fine
I'll be fine, I'll be fine (yeah i'll be fine)
Yeah I'ma get by I'ma live my life to the fullest
I'ma not be stupid I'ma live
I'ma keep on going and I ain't give a shit
And I found my inner self, yeah
But it comes with sacrifices
Now I know why people tend to stay the same, yeah

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I'm still coming up, want a piece of the pie
Man every time I roll up, got so much on my mind
And every day I feel dead now, but I'm still alive

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I could see myself, penthouse in the sky
Then it's done, here again, I can't eat, don't know why
Get that cash, stay the grind, take a hit, I'll be fine

I'll be fine
Yeah I'll be fine, I'll be fine, let's go (yeah i'll be fine)

i'll be fine w/ hkfiftyone & angelsofsorrows (quitall)

lyrics //

didnt bother writing
i swore its all behind me
i saw it all play out
i saw the silver lining

guess we both figured out 
the reason weve been hiding
sick of all the run around
im sick of how you want him

you can try, break it off 
turn around take the fall
it was just the two of us
left the town where we grew up

holding onto grudges
im holding on nothing but
use me as a substance
pump me right into ur blood

(pump me right into your blood
im my mamas only son 
im my mamas only son)


i can be the one you want
i cant heal a broken heart
found me in a local bar’s street
find it funny when they run
find a feeling in a cup
fighting ppl that i love

my fist been clinched, i dnd my phone
miss the kid i was but now hes grown
if you’re the queen
then id be at ur throne
a peasant in the midst of common folk

you can try, break it off
turn around take a fall
it was just the two of us, 
left the town where we grew up
holding on to grudges, i’m holding on to nothing but
use me as a substance
pump me right into your blood