Illusions {VIP mix] *prodmaniks*

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We’re just two broken bodies
made of coffee cups and bone 
But I’ll need some conversation once we safely make it home 
And invite me in for one last night I don’t know where to go 
But I’m dealt the hand so better learn to play it’s not just for show 
it’s not just for show 
it’s not just for show 


and what’s a little understanding faced against the shame 
and I brought this candle light to show our way around this place 
I gave you both of my hands until it’s known to be replaced 
I’ll never have enough glue to seal away all of the pain all of the 


and my cursive isn’t great I hope someday to accept it 
like the curvature of my spine it’s incomplete it’s just a set back
I’ve gone through enough of those to understand it’s not the end
just take another detour 
best direction yet 
got nothing left not to confess

two broken bodies (pekarot)

burning bridges
produced by wisssery
featuring @lil-p_nut
mixed by nine to 5 and pnut

lyrics:
nine to 5:
intro:
can't focus on what's right in front of me
i'm passed along, continue to sweep me off my feet

chorus:
just don't make me say it again
cuz ive been losing track of my head
all these days i have to pretend
that i'll be better off in the end
ive been making friends with the sky
talking to the ghosts in my walls that you sent
slipping through the cracks in the ground that you left
i've been spending time burning bridges

verse:
marks on the tile, you painted a picture i couldn't imagine
blood dripping down, the canvas was stained and then burned up in ashes
try to focus on whats left of me but next to me i saw apparitions of your eyelids
walking down a busy street was black and white until i caught a glimpse of your iris
across the way i saw a day where this was all fine but its not today
everyone is all the same
i wish i could forget your face

verse:
pnut:
i can't see straight its just a phase
tired eyes and busy days
i try to sleep but im awake
holding on to these press pieces
thinking about you and me
losing all my damn memories
cuz other things you buried deep
hide yourself so we never meet
if i never see you again, ill be buried in the clothes that you left
banging on the back of my head, thats the only thing you're good at
leave me alone at night so i can get some rest

bridge:
both:
holding on to myself is all i do now
day by day inside this hollow place its all i do now
waste another night in my head its all i do now
hide myself ill never see you all these bridges have come down
just forget my name, forget my face all these bridges have come-

chorus:
just don't make me say it again
cuz ive been losing track of my head
all these days i have to pretend
that i'll be better off in the end
ive been making friends with the sky
talking to the ghosts in my walls that you sent
slipping through the cracks in the ground that you left
i've been spending time burning bridges

nine to 5 - burning bridges ft. pnut (prod. wisssery)

Accept The Stress

inside a gate that no one can trespass
and I don't think anyone could get that
i just want some true love yeah I miss that
but everyone just wants to play tricks man

and i don't feel any gain or satisfaction
cus nothing anymore worth the reaction
i tell myself I've moved on from past actions
but I wish I could bring myself back then

i'm spending life like an NPC
it's not a joke I feel it's literally
and all these thoughts feel like it's bittersweet
and you know what I'm bout to turn 19

and i'm still thinking bout who I might be
i feel prevented from society
and that darkness is always biting me
even tho they act so kind to me

you gotta wonder why they're so blind to see
at least another drop, do they lie to me?
and I really just want my own privacy
it's not like anyone tells me "how's your day?"

try to cleanse my mind going on a walk
so I decide to go another few blocks
but when your only hope tells you to stop
You gotta wonder what is right or not :(

and every day I just want to be free roam
pack myself in styrofoam
i want to explore the world and wonder where it goes
staring at a globe
wanna feel comfortable
in my own home but I'm always alone

and no!
i don't wanna tell you where the fuck I go because it's been too long
i've been trapped in songs cus it's my only form of communication
celebration goes on near my friends
and I can't be with them cus the fucking distance
it's on the wishlist to never feel like
everything's just all forbidden

but I guess i'm protected from the bullshit
people don't relate but they clueless
i just wish my life had a blueprint
But it's my fucking life i can't choose it

isolated. (vbe)

prod. shinju x krave
@safeatlast

[kill breanna:]

ive been distant
FUCK all my bros swear to god they on my hit list
FUCK em! ion care bout no bitch cus im above em!
they was half there, never really cared, i bucked em!

dont go there
dont type that
lets hope this aint a site pack
i heard you hate me, homie, bite that!
if you plan to mess w me, ask her, "she bites back!"
im aiming for my destiny and nothing fuckin less..
I KNOW I CAN NOT BE MYSELF, BUT ILL TRY MY BEST, YEH
I CANT TRUST MYSELF, AND I'VE BEEN THRU HELL SINCE EMPTYCHEST, YEH
need an AMG,
need an 2 seat,
need completion
i live my life behind the scenes,
like icarly bleeding!

[safeatlast:]
live my life behind the scenes im stuck behind the cameras
lil divine be switching up the flow they switch the genre
everytime i check the bank im seein new commas
lil divine gon switch the flow cuz oo that kid a monster

bitch this aint no rental
sesto elemento
fukkin up da beat thats why they say divine is mental

bitch this what im meant 4
ion need no mentor
sorry ion speak no more
bitch im sorry i been distant
 
[kill breanna:]

ive been distant
FUCK all my bros swear to god they on my hit list
FUCK em! ion care bout no bitch cus im above em!
they was half there, never really cared, i bucked em!

dont go there
dont type that
lets hope this aint a site pack
i heard you hate me, homie, bite that!
if you plan to mess w me, ask her, "she bites back!"
im aiming for my destiny and nothing fuckin less..
I KNOW I CAN NOT BE MYSELF, BUT ILL TRY MY BEST, YEH
I CANT TRUST MYSELF, AND I'VE BEEN THRU HELL SINCE EMPTYCHEST, YEH
need an AMG,
need an 2 seat,
need completion
i live my life behind the scenes,
like icarly bleeding!

wm1 w/ safeatlast

02

just imagine..

lyrics

with a tenderness in my throat

she takes the advantage in a nice tone

she takes off the writings on the wall

she knows my memorys taking its toll

/

in summer of 1917  this choice was proven costly

never forgave but once layed down a poppy, in memry of u 

u were standing with  crying over this severed tomb

a mourning of 51 years, unexpected doom

/

it was u and it was me and it as us x 3

and now its u and now its dust

/

those that fell, all crumbled to nothing 

jus a distant thought and an empty sort of loving 

in this town not many make an impact

held back by the past it just keeps running

/

running and running 

is something funny

take u somewhere fancy where branches die and birds cant fly

to a place thats shaded and never been sunny

i hope that i can make this day just lovely

/

with a tenderness in my throat

she takes the advantage in a nice tone

she takes off the writings on the wall

she knows my memorys taking its toll

/

in the winter of, well many years later 

there was a change of course

a meet ur maker sort of moment for everyone that was there witness it

many lives lost but as many had begun with theirs

/

it was u and it was me and it as us x 3

and now its u and now its dust

/

rubble and bone had been the history for so long

a seemingly ordinary day had made hearts warm

snow falls down, in this grey and white town

but no abyss will the eyes be drawn (to)

/

no pain or suffering 

may b lost but 0 buffering

take u somewhere where the flowers hit potential, somewhere special

where only u and me can create these memories

ik intention wise tho that u were never a friend to me

someplace where things always reach their potential

someplace where things always reach their potential (stillvanishing)

ive been running in circles, baby
just to save the time
ive been wastin my time
i cant waste my time again

they say its hard to miss the people that you dont love
thats a bluff
or else i loved everyone thats ever left
and i bet
that its all my fault again
i hope it ends with me
i am my own enemy
i hate to see the way that ive become
i wish that i wasnt so dumb
i wish that i didnt fuck up
i wish that i wasnt fucked up

i hope it ends with me
i am my own enemy
i hate to see the way that ive become
i listen to the thoughts, im dumb

i feel my will cant break, i tried to kill myself today
i cut myself, i hurt myself
why wont anybody help?
im begging help
i need some help
i feel like im in my head
i feel like i should be dead
i wish i wasnt but
i am my enemy
i hope that it ends with me
i hate to see the way that ive become
i listen to the thoughts, im dumb
i feel my heart cant break, i tried to kill myself today
its all a fake, theyre all some snakes
they give me drugs that i wont take
i hate the pain, but its the way i cope

i hope it ends with me
i am my own enemy
i hate to see the way that ive become
i listen to the thoughts, im dumb
i feel my heart cant break, i been through a lot of pain
i tried to kill myself today

but everything is in the way
im in the way of everybody else
i do my best but i cant help
id take my meds, but they dont help
i hope it ends with me
i am my own enemy
i hate to see the way that ive become
i wish that i could just go numb
i feel so dumb and lonely
i cant let more people know me
if i do, than they might hurt me
they might turn around and stab my back
its all a fake, theyre all some snakes
they give me drugs that i wont take
i hope it ends with me
i am my own enemy

i hate to see the way that ive become
i listen to the thoughts, im dumb
i wish that i could just go numb
i wish that i wasnt fucked up

i hope it ends with me (prod. king theta)

prod the goat @unaake

hope it aint obvious cuz its unbearable
i wear it on my fucking sleeve im fucking terrible
im breathing deep cuz i can feel u run the variables
i got a month before u leave this time's invaluable

im sick of holding back thoughts
everyone i know is sick its hard to care if im not
i keep hoping itll stick, bear the waters ill cross
what if its not worth the risk? heaven knows if im lost

this is who i am i'll fight the fire
(this is who i am, fight the fire)
wonder where all my desire's gone
(this is who i am, a fuckin liar ugh)
i try to stay inspired
(this is who i am, fight the fire)
maybe thats why i cant love for long
(this is who i am, a fuckin liar, oh)

who i am [bugboi]

prod. warheart x 1kurane x darlyybeen

you know im different
my runts got splitted ends
i done jumped off the deep end
i aint got no literals
fuck shit bout liberals
life got difficult
don't know when life got difficult

everytime i open up my chest and talk, i feel bare
and i've heard the screams, cus i've been here..
its not a good feeling, who am i, a villian? 
oo..
who am i kidding?
its not a good feeling
i've been dead, really
i've been home ridden b4, and treated like a-
wh*re,
but it dont compare,
to this..

im sick of walking on EGGSHELLS, or feeling like i can't EXHALE
I'M SORRY I CAN'T STOP THIS, I'M REALLY FUCKING TOXIC
I'LL LOAD UP THE GUN, COCK IT BACK AND UH..
i wish i could! treat me like somebody i didn't know..
i wish i had! some friends that knew me like 2 years ago..
and hell yeah im glad! that i stuck on the road i paved to grow..
what if im still mad? am i satan for not letting go? no..

splitted ends

myactionsagainstyou

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isolated. (vbe)

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