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recorded with my beeb inkspores

We’re just two broken bodies
made of coffee cups and bone 
But I’ll need some conversation once we safely make it home 
And invite me in for one last night I don’t know where to go 
But I’m dealt the hand so better learn to play it’s not just for show 
it’s not just for show 
it’s not just for show 


and what’s a little understanding faced against the shame 
and I brought this candle light to show our way around this place 
I gave you both of my hands until it’s known to be replaced 
I’ll never have enough glue to seal away all of the pain all of the 


and my cursive isn’t great I hope someday to accept it 
like the curvature of my spine it’s incomplete it’s just a set back
I’ve gone through enough of those to understand it’s not the end
just take another detour 
best direction yet 
got nothing left not to confess

two broken bodies (pekarot)

Accept The Stress

inside a gate that no one can trespass
and I don't think anyone could get that
i just want some true love yeah I miss that
but everyone just wants to play tricks man

and i don't feel any gain or satisfaction
cus nothing anymore worth the reaction
i tell myself I've moved on from past actions
but I wish I could bring myself back then

i'm spending life like an NPC
it's not a joke I feel it's literally
and all these thoughts feel like it's bittersweet
and you know what I'm bout to turn 19

and i'm still thinking bout who I might be
i feel prevented from society
and that darkness is always biting me
even tho they act so kind to me

you gotta wonder why they're so blind to see
at least another drop, do they lie to me?
and I really just want my own privacy
it's not like anyone tells me "how's your day?"

try to cleanse my mind going on a walk
so I decide to go another few blocks
but when your only hope tells you to stop
You gotta wonder what is right or not :(

and every day I just want to be free roam
pack myself in styrofoam
i want to explore the world and wonder where it goes
staring at a globe
wanna feel comfortable
in my own home but I'm always alone

and no!
i don't wanna tell you where the fuck I go because it's been too long
i've been trapped in songs cus it's my only form of communication
celebration goes on near my friends
and I can't be with them cus the fucking distance
it's on the wishlist to never feel like
everything's just all forbidden

but I guess i'm protected from the bullshit
people don't relate but they clueless
i just wish my life had a blueprint
But it's my fucking life i can't choose it

isolated. (vbe)

fkn nuts. prod @yunnygoldz

LYRIC']']'[l;pp,

Wrap myself when i end up in a casket
Rest my soul, to the sand pray to ashes
Burn me away took a toll, and im passing
Pass me away consequence to my action

Gotta learn from the past, one wrong move, 
team rocket ima blast
Gotta learn from the past, yet not overthink mistakes

But i tend to overthink, and my mind wont take a break
Til my confidence it breaks,and my hands they start to shake
Circle round my brain cause pain it aches 
But if u ask how im doing ill say great
Great how im feeling, just great how im dealing
great at overthinking and not great at the healing
Hard to move past when you disappoint yourself
Great at overthinking ima lose myself

R.I.P. from the heart to the soul
Broke to pieces aint coming back whole
I been cracking longtime, self inflicted
consequence is mine, atleast i predicted
Through my overthinking, confidence is sinking

But i tend to overthink, and my mind wont take a break
Til my confidence it breaks, and my hands they start to shake
Circle round my brain cause pain it aches 
But if u ask how im doing ill say great
Great how im feeling, just great how im dealing
Im great at overthinking and not great at the healing
Hard to move past when you disappoint yourself
Great at overthinking ima lose myself

great [prod. yunny goldz]

with @decksmusic

[intro]
i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i don’t wanna fall down onto my knees
but you make it so hard for me just to breathe
i try hard to float but i’m falling in deep

[chorus]
i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i don’t wanna fall down onto my knees
but you make it so hard for me just to breathe
i try hard to float but i’m falling in deep
and i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i go insomniac cause you’re still in my dreams
and you give me heart attacks when i try to gain peace
the ghost of my past that stays haunting me

[verse - decks]
and when i look underneath i'm the reason i rot in hell
i did all i could to help you, never helped myself
i wonder what it would take now to flip it all month
these visions have plagued me i'm tripping
say what you're feeling cause i know it's different
you'll never wish me well
no you'll never wish me well

[chorus]
i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i don’t wanna fall down onto my knees
but you make it so hard for me just to breathe
i try hard to float but i’m falling in deep
and i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i go insomniac cause you’re still in my dreams
and you give me heart attacks when i try to gain peace
you’re like the ghost of my past that stays haunting me

[outro]
i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i don’t wanna fall down onto my knees
but you make it so hard for me just to breathe
i try hard to float but i’m falling in deep
and i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i go insomniac cause you’re still in my dreams
and you give me heart attacks when i try to gain peace
the ghost of my past that stays haunting me

oni boy x decks - zzz (prod. idealism x Lucid Green)

prod. lil divine, no samples <3
@user-642636378
mixed by lil divine, @killbreanna, and @user-642636378

[lil divine:]
stop and just wait for a minute
please listen close cuz i need this
theres blood on my clothes from the leakage
and i dont know who i can trust with the secrets

can you promise me youll keep it
safe from the scouring demons
drain all my blood with the leeches
and leave my body here to drown in the deep end

[halfhearted:]

drown in the deepend 
losing my soul
hate in ur eyes
when you break all my bones
u don’t regret all the lies thag you told
but each time you tell me
we’ll walk down this road again

sick of driving on them potholes
i think i got stockholm
forgot how you would hold me close

so now i’m clinging to a bottle
i bet you hope i rot in peace
so, lay me six feet deep

[lil divine:]

left in the dirt holdin hopes out for somethin
dont take my words and convert them to weapons
wrote you a song out of words that mean nothin
but you wont ever see it on a motherfuckin setlist

so baby tell me do you really wanna go
i cant see you through the 6 feet of snow
left my feelings in a box on the road
need a key to get the lock off my soul

i can feel the weight crushin my bones
bloody teeth embedded in the throne
why tf u keep hittin my phone?

why cant you leave me the fuck alone
when youre here this house dont feel like home
shattered fragments pierce throughout my skull
skull

[halfhearted:]

leave me to drown with the leaches
seeping in lust will i ever defeat this
stole all my love
not enough 
it’s a weakness
i was the one but i told u i’m leaving soon

we keep running round in circles
the bridges yeah we burned those
so i can never hold on hope

and i’ll let you watch me tie my rope
broke down, left my love on the side of the road
hometown, but feel like there’s no where to go
long frown, but i think i’m getting used to the cold

[lil divine:]

stop with the lies
n tell me the truth
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me
or am i a solution to u
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me
or am i a replacement to u
tell me who did u lose

leeches

leeches w/ halfhearted

prod the goat @unaake

hope it aint obvious cuz its unbearable
i wear it on my fucking sleeve im fucking terrible
im breathing deep cuz i can feel u run the variables
i got a month before u leave this time's invaluable

im sick of holding back thoughts
everyone i know is sick its hard to care if im not
i keep hoping itll stick, bear the waters ill cross
what if its not worth the risk? heaven knows if im lost

this is who i am i'll fight the fire
(this is who i am, fight the fire)
wonder where all my desire's gone
(this is who i am, a fuckin liar ugh)
i try to stay inspired
(this is who i am, fight the fire)
maybe thats why i cant love for long
(this is who i am, a fuckin liar, oh)

who i am [bugboi]

prod. dead spyro
cover art by @safeatlast <3

dont..
think anymore, ull make it worse
omg, cant believe i made this work
fall back to the basics during times where i cant fake this;
unstable heart, bruised body in the making..

go.
it dont matter anyway,
it wont happen anyway,
it dont matter anyday.
this aint familiar!
x2

try to realign & change;
BROKEN MIND, NEVER KNOW WHY! ;/
dont give up till u try..
everything new, and nothing from b4
i try to my best to beee something you adore! *^^* ❤
goodbye to the past, and i dont wanna learn anymore..
im scared of closed doors!!!
aye, 
i should've chose the closure!
fuck! luck! there's no clover!
feels bad to wish u were anyone else,
who am i?
what'd i do?
what i'm worth, first... ;(

dont..
think anymore, ull make it worse
omg!! cant believe i made this work :,)
fall back to the basics during times where i cant! fake! this!
unstable heart, bruised body in the making..
x2
this isnt familiar!
go.
it dont matter anyway,
it wont happen anyway,
it dont matter anyday..
try to realign & change;
broken mind, nvr know why x
dont give up till you try... </3

'til you try

for the real ogs
veins & i give u our best wishes
<3

layered

layered - betweentheveinsandi (decks)

prod. warheart x 1kurane x darlyybeen

you know im different
my runts got splitted ends
i done jumped off the deep end
i aint got no literals
fuck shit bout liberals
life got difficult
don't know when life got difficult

everytime i open up my chest and talk, i feel bare
and i've heard the screams, cus i've been here..
its not a good feeling, who am i, a villian? 
oo..
who am i kidding?
its not a good feeling
i've been dead, really
i've been home ridden b4, and treated like a-
wh*re,
but it dont compare,
to this..

im sick of walking on EGGSHELLS, or feeling like i can't EXHALE
I'M SORRY I CAN'T STOP THIS, I'M REALLY FUCKING TOXIC
I'LL LOAD UP THE GUN, COCK IT BACK AND UH..
i wish i could! treat me like somebody i didn't know..
i wish i had! some friends that knew me like 2 years ago..
and hell yeah im glad! that i stuck on the road i paved to grow..
what if im still mad? am i satan for not letting go? no..

splitted ends

fun lil thang i did w @t33thkicker
hope ya enjoy <3

lyrics:
oh i cannot endorse it no, uh
wait three weeks just to hear from ya babe
no i wait, then i force it oh, no
its an uphill battle to see ur face
then i go, how unfortunate
know you think about torching it
1:03 screen glow from ur portrait, oh
i’ll be ok girl, don’t wait up
cuz my heart ain’t porcelain

ask me somethin
i don’t know what
i don’t think u try
it aint half a street
i don’t move ur feet
i can’t tell u why
this half a man
has seen half the shit
that’ll make u cry
i don’t fuck around
cuz the last i did
i got no reply

i don’t need u im past it
3:30 clock im dashin
eyes on the screen
tryna see what im listening to
i forgot where my cash is
i do not know u we tight knit
nobody got me no vice grip
i got way too many vices
despite this im fightin myselfff

in the back of the party i off myself like its ego death
i don’t speak a word i just shut my mouth and i pass that test
is it hard enough to make every sunrise feel like the end
cuz i feel so stiff when i spend those nights on that cardboard bed

so i cannot endorse it no, uh
wait three weeks just to hear from ya babe
no i wait, then i force it oh, no
its an uphill battle to see ur face
then i go, how unfortunate
know you think about torching it
1:03 screen glow from ur portrait, oh
i’ll be ok girl, don’t wait up
cuz my heart ain’t porcelain

porcelain [mags]

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isolated. (vbe)

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