https://soundcloud.com/hkfiftyone2
https://soundcloud.com/angelsofsorrows

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I'm still coming up, want a piece of the pie
Man every time I roll up, got so much on my mind
And every day I feel dead now, but I'm still alive

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I could see myself, penthouse in the sky
Then it's done, here again, I can't eat, don't know why
Get that cash, stay the grind, take a hit, i'll be fine

One day feel like me then the other different person
My mind never set straight yeah it's written all in cursive
But it's got a story ending on a cliffhanger
It's JoshIGuess I'm always dropping the bangers

Importance for years yet still got to decide
If any of choices are bad sacrifice
And everyone leave me so got no advice
But I'd rather figure out my own reside

Only feel like myself when I'm up to the mic
But the camera's too close to me like it gon snipe
Some of you guys just rely on a swipe
But that's not how I want to use my device

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I'm still coming up, want a piece of the pie
Man every time I roll up, got so much on my mind
And every day I feel dead now, but I'm still alive

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I could see myself, penthouse in the sky
Then it's done, here again, I can't eat, don't know why
Get that cash, stay the grind, take a hit, i'll be fine

I'll be fine, I'll be fine
I'll be fine, I'll be fine (yeah i'll be fine)
Yeah I'ma get by I'ma live my life to the fullest
I'ma not be stupid I'ma live
I'ma keep on going and I ain't give a shit
And I found my inner self, yeah
But it comes with sacrifices
Now I know why people tend to stay the same, yeah

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I'm still coming up, want a piece of the pie
Man every time I roll up, got so much on my mind
And every day I feel dead now, but I'm still alive

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I could see myself, penthouse in the sky
Then it's done, here again, I can't eat, don't know why
Get that cash, stay the grind, take a hit, I'll be fine

I'll be fine
Yeah I'll be fine, I'll be fine, let's go (yeah i'll be fine)

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i'll be fine w/ hkfiftyone & angelsofsorrows (quitall)

tonight [prod. double multi]

with @akiradoves
come see me and him in august <3 tickets below
https://app.fanfly.live/ticket-claim?showId=67&ticketTierId=67
prod @exkimelyy

you faced the consequence
and your own state is surrounded by a fence
and why do i have to keep on losing friends
i'm hanging by a thread 
and i cannot go to bed

i feel strange
what's the point?
she told me to go
you'll never find a way
down
down
(down)

you faced the consequence
and your own state is surrounded by a fence
and why do i have to keep on losing friends
i'm hanging by a thread 
and i cannot go to bed

hanging by a thread (exkimelyy)

Say I'm stuck in a box
I really don't give a fuck
I'm just sticking with the sound that I fucking love
I'm here to prove em wrong
Yeah we blowing up

I don't need to suffer
Name in yo mouth like a gusher
All these bitches bluffers
When they lose their breathes and need a puffer

Is it their own purpose
To make their time worthless?
I stay deleting all these comments
Shoot em up just like comets

Over 5 years and you can't stay situated
Even tho i grew up they'll still be hating
And even if I blew up, don't know what they saying
Just know it won't be anything worse investigating

Too pure for this world my greatest strength and weakness
I be getting booked for shows every other weekend
But I always been sober yeah I wasn't ever tweaking
Guess that's enough to call me a poser for a reason

Just know that my vocals better than most the scene
But these people stay in boxes for their labeling
They say this music styles dead, well not for me
I'm bringing this shit back for eternity

Me and tykun making banger after banger
Shawty hmu later I might bang her
Showcasing my own styles on some hangers
Cus man im one hell of a genre changer

I don't need to suffer
Name in yo mouth like a gusher
All these bitches bluffers
When they lose their breathes and need a puffer

Is it their own purpose
To make their time worthless?
I stay deleting all these comments
Shoot em up just like comets

Yeah they're going to the galaxy
And I do my own mix and mastering
But I suck at vocal balancing
Better stop 4th walls are damaging
I wish I could explain my life
It's a thunderstorm cloud I feel like strife
I hate to break it to you all
But that's the end of this song

keep on

prod. @herskylin

amv: https://youtu.be/FyyT0j_EfSE?si=CqPAPI9Bx_LYt7nb

don’t wanna imagine a world without you
tu me tiene vuelto loco y sin idea about you
(you have me crazy and not knowing what to do about you)
i don’t think you love me from the start i doubt you 
and now i feel all the weight crashing down from all my actions 
shoulda never got mixed up witchu 
now it’s a grave for two 
i fucked it up, it’s what’s i’ve always done 
it’s what’s i’ve always done 
it’s what i’ve always done

I ain't got much strength left in me but I'm hopin that I-
make it to tomorrow, I'm losing all hope 

huh, so tell me what am i supposed to say 
i think about you a couple times a day
you cloud my thoughts every time i lay 
it seems like things will never go my way
with barely any strength left, 
I pull thru this day without rest 
feeling love less, feeling numbness, 
feeling a mess, feeling nothing

well tell me baby is it even really worth it
if nothing that I do can ever be perfect 
I'm just another guy not wanting to be worthless
and baby you are so pretty it leaves me wordless

i light my cigarette and hope that i forget things 
I just feel like i’m nothing worthy of attention 
i suffer from self deprecation and seclusion 
i know im fucked up in the head don’t need to prove it

refresh

skylin - refresh

yuhhhh

lyrics
- - - - -
Wraith
- - - - -
I think I’m losing all emotion
Hit a stride and now I’m coastin
I’m just double dipping potions
Bitch it’s hard to stay in motion

Baby I wish we were closer
es mīlu kad esam kopā
Couldn’t count for when it’s over
tagad paliku kā loser

In my asics
Lines make it a rave fit
I just say shit
Active like its J 6th
I just make shit
It don’t even pay yet
Tryna keep me sane I
Take it by the day 

What have I become
I’ve been here so long

- - - - -
dawple
- - - - -
viss ko es saku paliek vējā
esmu lūzers, viņa saka man sejā
kur manas emocijas? kur mana zāle?
dūms aiz dūma, kur ir manas domas??
viss ko viņa teica mani vālē

aye
no baby i cannot wait
have to see u cannot wait for another day
take these pills but imma die another way
"vai es tev patīk" man liekas, ka tas ir bait

aye
es domāj esmu slims
man nepatīk viņš
domās es slīkst
es pis
viss, kas man acīs
es zin, man nesanāk tevi lasīt
viņa ir vampīrs

asics w/ dawple (anaviluxx)

prod. me (dawsin)
written by me (dawsin)
guitar by me (dawsin)

lyrics:
you drinking is gonna slowly kill you
maybe I want that
you drinking your slowly killing yourself dawsin
tal--y- shi-- bab-
no- like you kno- tru-
abo-t what i- doi--
bab- ill com- to yo
THAT'S STUPID DUDE

talk your shit babe
not like you know the truth
about what im doing
bae ill come to you

Ill talk my shit babe
like how i've been wanting to
for a moment...
you really thought I was feeling you?
you really thought I was feeling you?

she mad at me swerving
she makes me wanna crash though
" we'll talk about this in the morning "
enough came outta that mouth hoe

came out that mouth ho
came out that mouth ho

huh yea
your making me wanna crash
making me huh
yea
your making me wanna crash
making me huh hmph
your making me wanna crash
making me huh
yea
your making me wanna crash
crash
crash
she's about to make me crash (out)
fast, fast
the only way for me to last
i'm last, i'm last
im an egomaniac
just like your dad, just like your dad
but im not a piece of trash
huh?
bae im worse than that
i'm not afraid to stab
i'm not afraid to kill him
babe IM WORSE THAN THAT

i'm just a butcher
looking for another
person
to fill the void
to fill the void 
to feel the void

I killed that man
and I'd do it again (again)
do you remember what I said?
see- seeing red
"there will be no guy friends"

from the start babe I told you that "I'm a bit insane"
and these thoughts I say, don't mind
they just leak out my brain
so predictable come back
when I push you away
you won't make it in life
selling your pics babe

did you really think I wouldn't find out?
IF YOU FUCKED HIM, TELL ME I NEED TO KNOW
didn't do a good job at hiding it did ya?
the bay harbor butcher, you know the nickname
and you know what he did
he dismembered his victims

my head feels fuzzy
I don't even know how imma make
it another day
cause my brain is tense, I'm afraid
my knuckles covered in flesh and blood
make him see grain
If I wanted you dead, I'd pull the colt out the safe

she don't like how I'm acting
what I've done with him is none of your business
oh why can't you get past it
by now that body is nothing but maggots

RUNNING A MILE, TO REPEAT THE CYCLE
YOU'RE SO OBSESSED LIKE YOU ARE A DISCIPLE
HE IS NOT WORTH IT
PUT YOUR HAND ON THE BIBLE
TELL ME IM THE ONLY ONE
I'M TOO IN DENIAL

butcher

prod @guttertrvsh 

(ty guttertrvsh for the prod much luvv)

i can't say it out loud

essence

Rollin' D - Constellations  (Cover - Jade LeMac)

[Verse 1]
Napapansin ko na ‘yung lamig sa mga mata mo,
Pero nagtatanga-tangahan pa rin ako — oo.
Yung dating tawag mo, ngayon puro “seen” na lang,
Yung dating ako, unti-unti mo nang nilalayo’t ginagawang walang halaga.

Sinabi ko sa sarili ko, “siguro pagod ka lang,”
Kahit ramdam ko na, ako na lang ‘tong kumakapit ng mag-isa sa habang-buhay.
Pilit kong kinukulong lahat ng sakit at lungkot,
Kasi takot akong mawala ka… kahit ako na ‘tong nauubos.

[Pre-Chorus]
Pero habang tumatagal, lumilinaw ang lahat,
Na ako ‘yung humahawak… ikaw ‘yung bumibitaw.

[Chorus]
Kasi kahit anong pilit kong itago,
Lumilitaw pa rin ang totoo —
May mga tao talagang hindi para sa’yo,
Kahit buong puso mo pa silang minamahal nang totoo.

At minsan, ‘yung pinakahalatang senyales,
Siya pa ‘yung pinakamahirap makita.
Kasi pag mahal mo, nagiging bulag ka,
Kahit unti-unti na silang nawawala.

[Verse 2]
Nararamdaman ko na ‘yung distansya sa pagitan nating dalawa,
Pero pinipili ko pa ring mag-stay kahit ako lang ‘tong lumalaban sa dalawa.
Hindi ako umaasa dahil tanga ako,
Umaasa ako kasi ayaw ko pang tanggapin na wala na tayong dalawa.

Yung effort mo, unti-unti nang naglalaho,
Pero lagi kong sinasabi sa sarili ko na “abala ka lang, ‘di mo lang masabi sa’kin ‘to.”
Pero sa totoo lang… alam ko naman,
Na hindi mo na ‘ko gusto, ako lang ‘tong umaasang balang araw babalik ka pa.

[Chorus]
Kasi kahit anong pilit kong itago,
Lumilitaw pa rin ang totoo —
May mga tao talagang hindi para sa’yo,
Kahit buong puso mo pa silang minamahal nang totoo.

At minsan, ‘yung pinakahalatang senyales,
Siya pa ‘yung pinakamahirap makita.
Kasi pag mahal mo, nagiging bulag ka,
Kahit unti-unti na silang nawawala.

[Bridge]
Di ko naman gusto na maging gan’to,
Pero minsan kailangan mong bitawan ‘yung taong
Matagal mo nang hawak, kahit ikaw ‘yung nasasaktan,
Kasi minsan… hindi pagmamahal ‘yung pilit na pinipilit lang.

[Outro]
Napapansin ko na ang pagbabago,
Pero ngayon… tinatanggap ko na ang totoo.
May mga tao talagang hindi mananatili,
Kahit gaano sila kalaki sa puso mo.

Pinakamahirap Makita

oakland + sonora tix https://ffm.bio/joshiguess