why do I have to keep losing friends 😢

pacing, aimlessly in circles unable to recognize myself. w/ sace6

let me in
im tired of who i have been
i need you i dont care
id destroy any air
throw my life away for you
till i decay for you
my love has changed for you
no i wont stay home

i can hear your heartbeat now its so loud
take my hand love and pull me down
i know what you think of me now
youre taking away all the sound
tried to set the bar so high 
so nobody can see your eyes
all mine
nobody could be your guy
i advise you never talk less you wanna die

i can not be beaten 
at the same time im useless
he just wants your heart 
but he wont know how to use it
hes stealing my style and hes tryna call it music
show that to my girl cause shell find that shit amusing

if im being honest, think im in over my head
your talking shit about me, your careers already dead
ur so funny
ur so funny
you think i give a shit

keep on pitching down ur voice when you deliver the mix

you only ask for features
wonder why i dont reply
you treat me like a number
a number all in your eye
wont treat me like im normal
expecting thousands of likes
thought u where a friend
ur putting on a disguse

maybe if you listen to me once in a while
youd all understand this is the best i can give
more that i try, the more i feel i should quit
if ur looking for an answer, buried under my skin
told you everything thats wrong with me
and
everybodys still expecting the best of me
ive been the best i can be
im a mess 
and lonely

fuck with me for the last time
this the last night
fights getting outta hand now
but its alright
fuck living 
ima die now
its about time
sheltering my mind out from the outside

ill throw that bitch in the air
you know you never had to lie
and if gravitys fair 
youll break the bones all in your spine
cause what happened to you
should never spiral in my life
im deaf to ur shit
cant hear u talking all the time

far beneath the plane
this is where i belong
cause ive been here decaying
and collecting in dust
and i dont know how to tell you love
im feeling the worst
its all gone wrong
love
im fuelling a curse

newmaker III

ghoul_001 - bubblegum

prod by stezzyxl 
enjoy

lyrics:
clipping all my beats
you can see the red spreading on my sheets
never liked the green
turn it up like 5 or 6 db
so watch it how u walk
“chasing bags” you’re chasing the 
(hawk tuah)
so watch it how u talk
preaching the “money is power” but chasing the wap?

there’s so much shit that i can say
those are the secrets im keeping till grave
so
get the fuck out of my way
i don’t got patience, i can’t stand to wait
so
get the fuck out of my face
i don’t got time to hang out with the prey 
so
get the fuck out of my 
face
get the fuck out of my

i took these years just to find myself
i learn from god, and all the pain i delt 
it’s time to shed all the damn old skin
repent my sins, thanking god i win

blood is dripping from my neck to the ground
leave a trail of all the mess till im found
till im found, ill never make a sound
even now

2024 pulled up with my wrist slit
2025 i’m pulling up with a new bitch
i’ve seen it all before, trauma locked up in my eyes
i’ve seen it all before
these eyes will never lie (x2)


ya no quiero a jugar
dame dame otro mas
me rompio mi corazon
reglame o porfavor (x3)

dirty

This song will only be available on my soundcloud and is not being monetized.

cover of 'isolation' by sleepwater (produced by speedlmt)
love you🌲

isolation cover (sleepwater)

prod, @prodgrayskies

- lyrics -
you said your last goodbye, 
while countin’ down your life
why'd time let you go
left on my own

theres blood on the page
my memories aren’t at bay
im so fckd in my head
i hold a gun just to test

why cant i walk in ease
the wind is cold feel the breeze
(feel the breeze)

you said your last goodbye
while countin’ down your life
why'd time let you go
left on my own

goodbye (x5)

locked in the mist
i see so many faces 
who aren’t you
who aren’t you
take a knife and stab it through my wrist
it wont hurt im at my wit
im at my wit
cause you said your goodbye
last goodbye (x2)
said your last goodbye
you said your last goodbye
You said your last goodbye
you said your last goodbye, 
while countin’ down your life
why'd time let you go
left on my own
-----------------------------------------

flower petals ✾

your last goodbye

with @akiradoves
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prod @exkimelyy

you faced the consequence
and your own state is surrounded by a fence
and why do i have to keep on losing friends
i'm hanging by a thread 
and i cannot go to bed

i feel strange
what's the point?
she told me to go
you'll never find a way
down
down
(down)

you faced the consequence
and your own state is surrounded by a fence
and why do i have to keep on losing friends
i'm hanging by a thread 
and i cannot go to bed

hanging by a thread (exkimelyy)

Shout out brecken and casperrr for working on this with me

heyyou w/ brecken & casperrr

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/3MyYxx8xvAuXSBjaWn3Ytx?si=gVcNjko9TNmK31A6EsnxLA
video: https://youtu.be/aSLd-sA_r8E?si=zJtO76JZEkzhwppL
amv: https://youtu.be/EFWBgiBOOsI?si=xGHMcNo8ZR7M7D4_

produced by heylog

i was looking at her eyes
i could tell she wanna die
wait, don't
i will be alone no
please don't go (please don't go) (please don't go)
please don't go (please don't go) (please don't go) (please don't go)
this is how it ends (this is how it ends)
i watch 'em all pretend (i watch 'em all pretend)
this is how it ends (this is how it ends)
drowning in our sins (drowning in our sins)
i was looking in her soul, she remind me of a ghoul
i think that she want me gone
come near me i'll bash your skull (bask your skull)
this is how it ends (this is how it ends)
i watch 'em all pretend (i watch 'em all pretend)
this is how it ends (this is how it ends)
drowning in our sins (drowning in our sins)

it's time to speed up
i am fed up with these people
go home
the world is falling off
i wanna go home
this ain't us
rewind
i wanna rewind back to you
beside
i wanna be beside close to you (close to you) (close to you)

heylog - how it ends

spotify

silence (back2u)

walls feat. heylog (prod. holly)

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hanging by a thread (exkimelyy)

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