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The Hair Of The Dog - New & hot: Alternative Rock

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pizdes

Down, Down, Down!

Italics

featuring & engineered by @mjmadeit
produced by @fantom-instrumentals aka @fantommuzik

(Intro)
Tell me what's on your mind?
I know what's on mine
You and me tonight

I just wanna hold you tight
Make you mine
All the time

(Chorus)
I don't wanna fuck around too much and leave you down and out again
I know your heart is set somewhere and i'm just fighting to get in
I know I treated you better without no one else
You know I love you so much even by myself

(JoshIGuess Verse)
And I said why'd you do me like that?
Arguments the only time you hit me right back
I'm sorry I'm not around I've been getting sidetracked
I've gotten comfortable with life while you still feeling attached

I want a simple life not no complications
Wonder if I'll ever last forever dating
I've been tryna work out I've been staying patient
But it's tough knowing things you did were blatant

(Chorus 2)
I don't wanna fuck around too much and leave you down and out again
I know your heart is set somewhere and i'm just fighting to get in
I know I treated you better without no one else
You know I love you so much even by myself

lyric video

Myself w/ NightDreams (Fantom)

Unlived

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

LYRICS:

are we sick, just rotten to the core with this
anxiety hollowed out
what's left of this empty shell
I try to I try to I try to understand

when you came to me with an illness
I didnt want to believe it was true so I just stared
tears filled  your eyes as I couldn't respond
I didnt want to lose you again, no not like this

I promised I’d be right back, yeah but I wasn’t cus I was running down the alleyways chased by
the shadows on the walls with the resemblance of my best friend but I knew it wasn't him cus he was trying to drag, 
me back into this place where I hated myself but you know it's a joke cus you know I still do
shoulder hits the plaster, breaks through the walls, reality seems to just stall

fractal of lights burst through the window as my vision starts to blur
no longer have a fucking place here so I drown in mental hurt
I put a knife to my stomach and I just try to push it through
The fucking blade snaps in half and im just like what the fuck is true

watch the bruise marks, start to shine through
watch me collapse, the love I pursue 
I see your blank stare, it's like they broke you
the medication didnt work, this person isn't you

the devil smiles back, im easily subdued
he was my best friend and to the side he threw
best intentions, we watch as you withdrew
it's hard to admit, that I couldn't save you

I watch your hair start to fall
fake a smile it will be fine
your ribcage starts to show through as you walk
but you are so perfect to me

you’re haunted by this,
so scared to admit that you might not survive
yeah cus hope is your enemy
you don't want to let down the ones you love

watch impure injections enter your veins, see your face just wither away
I try to explain that your gaunted cheeks are so pretty but you cave
threw fists at my face from the burst of the anger try to explain that it wasn't you
its this doubt that's embedded in your veins as the doctor says you might not make it through

stage two to the cancer, no I couldn't answer all these questions that plague your thoughts
torn between a decision of do I kill my insides just to hope I live a bit more
but you know ill hold your hand, know that ill be there till the end
yeah no cus im never gonna give up on you, I will be the hope that you'll be alright

Calcify

prod https://soundcloud.com/1wayza

shawty wanna back it up like I'm backing up a hard drive
they replying on my story spamming me with heart eyes
creating all this music is just getting me thru hard times
perform like every month like it's my job, yeah it is part time

heading to the top yeah I be on that hard grind
just like yo bitch who tryna do things with me in my car tonight
had to stop giving opps attention it will be their kryprtonite
cus they invested for rejection, like their crypto that declined

i just made a bag off of a fucking mix and master
camera in my face soon it will be a broadcaster
that bitch thinking she the one but im walking right past her
and they try to hit me up but ima ghost her like casper

if you try to reach out yeah im a fucking silhouette 
someone asked me after i performed for a cigarette
i said go ask someone else bitch i don't ever do that shit
grew up seeing someone passing by it i just wanna live

yeah i just wanna live
so i stay relevant
you talking all that shit
can you do better bitch?
you way too sensitive

shawty wanna back it up like I'm backing up a hard drive
they replying on my story spamming me with heart eyes
creating all this music is just getting me thru hard times
perform like every month like it's my job, yeah it is part time

heading to the top yeah I be on that hard grind
just like yo bitch who tryna do things with me in my car tonight
had to stop giving opps attention it will be their kryprtonite
cus they invested for rejection, like their crypto that declined

back to back shows in the city all these people that I gotta invite
i got a fast pass like we at disney so you can be the first person to ride
if you a day one you better stay one cus I don't wanna lose all of you to time
yeah it's joshiguess and I'm up next and you know I always stay on the grind

yeah you know i always stay on the grind
yeah i just wanna have a good time
and i do not wanna cut no ties
yeah i just wanna keep my close ones tight

silhouette (wayza)

inside a gate that no one can trespass
and I don't think anyone could get that
i just want some true love yeah I miss that
but everyone just wants to play tricks man

and i don't feel any gain or satisfaction
cus nothing anymore worth the reaction
i tell myself I've moved on from past actions
but I wish I could bring myself back then

i'm spending life like an NPC
it's not a joke I feel it's literally
and all these thoughts feel like it's bittersweet
and you know what I'm bout to turn 19

and i'm still thinking bout who I might be
i feel prevented from society
and that darkness is always biting me
even tho they act so kind to me

you gotta wonder why they're so blind to see
at least another drop, do they lie to me?
and I really just want my own privacy
it's not like anyone tells me "how's your day?"

try to cleanse my mind going on a walk
so I decide to go another few blocks
but when your only hope tells you to stop
You gotta wonder what is right or not :(

and every day I just want to be free roam
pack myself in styrofoam
i want to explore the world and wonder where it goes
staring at a globe
wanna feel comfortable
in my own home but I'm always alone

and no!
i don't wanna tell you where the fuck I go because it's been too long
i've been trapped in songs cus it's my only form of communication
celebration goes on near my friends
and I can't be with them cus the fucking distance
it's on the wishlist to never feel like
everything's just all forbidden

but I guess i'm protected from the bullshit
people don't relate but they clueless
i just wish my life had a blueprint
But it's my fucking life i can't choose it

isolated. (vbe)

@1wayza
idgaf bout you
idgaf bout these blues 
idgaf bout ur nudes
i just wanna go and see the truth

yo bitch riding with me saying that im cute
I'm climbing to the top so I see the mountain view 
and one day you will see what the fuck I'm gonna do
and maybe then I will give af ab you

ima go and do another show
yo bitch give me good head yeah she give me good blow
sorry that was out of pocket yeah I'm feeling like i'm tropes
but she feeling kinda freaky got me tied in a rope
it's getting kinda hot yeah i feel a heat stroke
i need an ac and an ice cold coke
shoutout to kaylee if you know then you know
and shoutout to everyone in my scene that's my bros

if u got beef that you don't wanna squash
when i finna blow up that's just gonna be your loss
and ima throw one of you motherfuckers in the mosh
and only a few of you motherfuckers in my box

idgaf bout you
idgaf bout these blues 
idgaf bout ur nudes
i just wanna go and see the truth

yo bitch riding with me saying that im cute
I'm climbing to the top so I see the mountain view 
and one day you will see what the fuck I'm gonna do
and maybe then I won't give af ab you

i don't wanna show any remorse
shoutout to myself for completing this course
and i'm going insane yeah im feeling too scorched
light this song on fire yeah I got me a torch

haters treat me like I am a dork
well tell me who is it that's picked to perform
you ain't singing shit and the crowd wanted more
so I put on a show and you pouring a 4

and i got nothing against that
but do you really want ur bitch back?
yeah ima go and mismatch 
all these broken hearts and im saying i can fix that

idgaf! (wayza)

music vid https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdMxIrKfnmo
prod tykun

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

and I just wanna leave it all in the past tense
No one used to hit my phone now it's all mass texts
They try to tell me Josh you can hook up with a bad bitch
and I'm like no she can just stick to using her lovense, fuck sex

And I got nothing to lose and I got nothing to gain
And all this boredom & cluelessness driving me insane
Feel like absolutely nothing when I'm not using my brain 
And I wanna go outside but no one hanging out today

Tired of being lonely no matter where I go
And I wanna move out then I'm like hell no
One little thing will turn me off and it's no longer a goal
I just hope that I will keep on getting stronger I suppose

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

And all these artists around me they tryna make an image
Sorry I'm not with y'all I don't do this all for business
I respect my boundaries and push myself to the limits
After performance I celebrate with a shake, like I'm grimace

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real
Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

flower field (tykun)

Lyrics:

I put roses in dark rooms 
Just to see if they can bloom
Cause if they open up 
Maybe one day I can to 
I see demons in my room 
Probably playing too much doom
Just wasting time 
Just wasting time 
She says that she fucking loves me 
Maybe one day I can to 
But im too busy dying on the 
Dark side of the moon 
Passed out on the floor 
Wonder if I’ll ever move
I’m just wasting time 
Just wasting time 

My soul floats 
Like smoke to the ceiling 
I look down and 
Hate what im seeing 
Dumb kid that cant 
Kick the feeling 
Blind to the life 
That im stealing

Guess its too late
And its over 
This rooms
Getting cold 
As I waste away 

I put roses in dark rooms 
Just to see if they can bloom
Cause if they open up 
Maybe one day I can to 
I see demons in my room 
Probably playing too much doom
Just wasting time 
Just wasting time 
She says that she fucking loves me 
Maybe one day I can to 
But im too busy dying on the 
Dark side of the moon 
Passed out on the floor 
Wonder if I’ll ever move
I’m just wasting time 
Just wasting time 

Stacked deck 
All in for the feeling
Trade life for death 
Like its even 
I tried my best 
To find healing
Somehow im still 
The one bleeding

Guess its too late
And its over 
This rooms
Getting cold 
As I waste away 

I put roses in dark rooms 
Just to see if they can bloom
Cause if they open up 
Maybe one day I can to 
I see demons in my room 
Probably playing too much doom
Just wasting time 
Just wasting time 
She says that she fucking loves me 
Maybe one day I can to 
But im too busy dying on the 
Dark side of the moon 
Passed out on the floor 
Wonder if I’ll ever move
I’m just wasting time 
Just wasting time

Wasting Time

Yeah I wanna go and travel
But every plan's just buried in the gravel
Wish I could tell everyone where I'm at tho
But if I did everyone would just go and tattle

And you know I'm not one to start drama
Don't want either memory to go and cause some trauma
Your girl feeling kinda freaky she gon pull up in pajamas
And every time I speak I freak out with too many commas

And I can't even reach a sentence
Cus nothing I can say to anyone is comprehensive
They just ghost me and act like that I never message
Been awake too long and you know I'm feeling restless

Everything I want to do is so verboten
And my head won't shut up it's causing all the commotion
And all the memories are pain maybe get some ibuprofen
Wish I could feel love again maybe boost some oxytocin

But I know that I'll feel better if you just
Leave me alone
And all these dreams that I see with my eyes but it'd be best to
Take me home
It's all I know

Start great
Then it's heartbreak
Then I partake
In being prostrate
But I behave
And I know I'll be okay
I'm on an infinity train
But I'm waiting for fall break
So I can hear the wind and the rain
I can't sleep today

But I know that I'll feel better if you just
Leave me alone
And all these dreams that I see with my eyes but it'd be best to
Take me home
It's all I know

Yeah It's all I know
Doing what I can only hope
Least my life has pericopes
Looking way too far with a periscope

And we barely spoke
Yet she wants to go call it an elope
Leave me alone (it's all I know)

verboten (tykun)

STREAM ON SPOTIFY - https://ffm.to/scarecrow

[+production, vocals, mix + master by Maxine Faith Noelle]

+notes 
faith takes a trip back to her hometown, but leaves feeling alienated and alone due to conflicting opinions

I've been out here for what feels like years
I've been exchanging energy and matter
sorry I missed your call again
don't mean to ghost you, but I feel so alienated
I've been in this field for far too long
I feel like fucking giving up

I feel like a scarecrow!
Cause I'm out in the field again
I feel like I should lay low!
never seeing her face again
(ill never see her face again)

and I know I have to give a little bit
I'm breaking fast so done I'm over it
don't leave me down that's the old me
just for what I can see
I'm not returning to the city

(I feel like a scarecrow!
Cause I'm out in the field again
I feel like I should lay low!
never seeing her face again)


change your clothes and change your name
they still know you all the same
never knowing who to blame
its all your fault its in the game
I cut the shackles now I broke free
now I know you could've told me

BROKE FREE
now I know you could've told me
(how the fuck I'm feeling?)
cut the shackles now I broke free
now I know you could've told me

"where are you"
they all left me last year
I knew it wasn't what they wanted
I knew I had to get up
don't leave me down again
I knew it was what he wanted but
for me to be dead?
Is that what you wanted?
I'm so sick of doing everything for you and nothing for me
I'm fucking sick of it
I'm fucking tired
wake the fuck up
when are you gonna get a fucking grip
WAKE THE FUCK UP

I feel like a scarecrow!
Cause I'm out in the field again
I feel like I should lay low!
never seeing her face again
(ill never see her face again)
scarecrow
Cause I'm out in the field again
I feel like I should lay low!
never seeing her face again
(I feel like a-)

and I know I have to give a little bit
I'm breaking fast so done I'm over it
don't leave me down that's the old me
just for what I can see
I'm not returning to the city

scarecrow

Stream on Spotify

I decry the waste of my time that you sanctified
The crew never lied
And I would cry if I knew why
I should be your pleasing object, your plea
And I'm so tired and sick
And this room's shrinking quick
You'd be one to quip 'cause I'm sure you're the shit
And I hadn't know that this flight, you'd never flown
Can't figure out your own
After all, it's all your show

Ooh-woah
I don't want to go, you can't make me
Oh no
I felt something froze
So oh
Oh no
I feel it aglow when you're not here
So go, I don't want to know
No-oh

No-oh, No-oh, No-oh, No-oh, No-oh, No-oh
No-oh, No-oh, No-oh, No-oh, No-oh, No-oh, No-oh,

I just keep losing your mind
And I'll just keep wasting your time
And maybe while you just keep me in line
I'll change the and no, you won't be fine

I refuse to cry
The mountain top's so wide
I have never doubted that you love the son you wish you never had
I refuse to cry 
I refuse to

I refuse to cry, I refuse to cry, I refuse to cry, I refuse to cry, I refuse to cry, I refuse to cry, I refuse to cry, I refuse to cry, I refuse

i dont think i should stay here

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy^\^

lyrics:
lately i’ve been feeling like i’m fucking dead
a walking corpse hanging by a single thread
about to cut loose; the hand that i was once feed
oh no i beg

for mercy
i’ve done my best for you, but you just hurt me
i question myself if she really knows me
1 year down
i’m on my knees
and i still beg to this day

for closure
whenever u sad, u had my shoulder
whenever i was down, i just got lower
i screamed away
oh i’m in pain
and i still beg to this day 

for you
never once a day i didn’t love you
i treated u the same after i’ve been through
all the lies
and all the fights
and u won’t do the same

ur a piece of shit
ur a liar
our memories
are now on fire
ur like a cigarette 
with a bitter taste
left inside my mouth
i can’t erase 
ur pathetic
ur delusional 
u find it so cool
like an aesthetic 
u think ur always right
u wanna start a fight
u want the war? i’ll bring it to u
u won’t win this time 
oh i am different now
u can’t control me now
i won’t allow ur words to hit me if i hear a sound
and i will block u out
and i will turn u down
i’ll turn away from your mistakes, u cannot fix this now

prod. https://soundcloud.com/poisonseed
I tried to reach out but you left me alone in the dust
I try to leave now i'd rather be on my own than distrust 
They try to get advice but i can't when i'm never in love
And i try to be what i can but be honest i dont wanna bluff

I just want someone that can't easily replace me
For someone else it's mental hell
But yet when i get what i want
It's too hard to tell what i fell into
I don't want no issues

I've been eating and sleeping lately too many times
Watching the clock tick away staying in my eyes
And I stay on the block cus it's crazy outside
But i just wish that someone would put me aside

I tried to reach out but you left me alone in the dust
I try to leave now i'd rather be on my own than distrust

distrust

distrust (trynacommunicate)

In my basement, where my secrets lie
Speaking to my therapist, my only line is fine
Hide my sick thoughts til the ends of time
I'll play it off til lamb is steppin out of moral lines
In my basement, where my secrets lie
Speaking to my therapist, my only line is fine
Hide my sick thoughts til the ends of time
I'll play it off til lamb is steppin out of moral lines

Grip force and pitchforks, sick heads will rip whores
Loud screams and locked doors, my mind just wants more
I wanna eat her out while she screams my name
I wanna feel her round if she feels the same
Oh lord of torture, my illness moves forward
The thoughts of the rope gets my dick hard, disorder
Rotten the odor, I would never mourn her
She uses me for sex while I use her for horror

In my basement, where my secrets lie
Speaking to my therapist, my only line is fine
Hide my sick thoughts til the ends of time
I'll play it off til lamb is steppin out of moral lines
In my basement, where my secrets lie
Speaking to my therapist, my only line is fine
Hide my sick thoughts til the ends of time
I'll play it off til lamb is steppin out of moral lines

In my basement, in my basement
In my basement, I watch her body rot
In my basement, in my basement
In my basement, I watch her body rot

REJECTEDREYNA - BASEMENT [PROD. ACE THE CREATOR & LAMB]

prod https://soundcloud.com/whymillyy & maestrowons

It's time to wake up make up right after a break up
Yeah i'm stuck in this stupid lust, yeah i dont give a fuck
I just want to treat life like no one ever really does
But you can never do that only do it in a camouflage 

Pull up with a garage band performing on a macintosh
Been working on this shit for years you be staying slacking off
Tried to ship my energy to you but then the package lost
People around me wanna swish only if its basketball

I just want my peace
Give it to me please
I just want my peace
Give it to me please


I need to live life with way less company
You ask to hang but they just wanna get buzzed with me
And i'm stuck living in a different fantasy 
Vacuum all these thoughts cus im my own manatee

I just want my peace
Give it to me please
I just want my peace
Give it to me please

It's time to wake up make up right after a break up
Yeah i'm stuck in this stupid lust, yeah i dont give a fuck
I just want to treat life like no one ever really does
But you can never do that only do it in a camouflage

manatee (whymillyy + maestrowons)

I'm free...

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lyrics:

riding a setting sun
live fast
burn red
die younger then
clouds changing shapes
day by day

the horizon
hides what gifts I gave
rising, left behind 
to wonder
where I’m meant to be

the answer is nowhere
dying to go there
why do I keep on pushing through

why is it harder
been there before
know what to do

why do I fall so far
I’m spiraling
burnt out
rewiring
writing new ways to say
I finally found my
home where
nowhere means I’m free

I lied
when I said I could fly
always climbing
hands are cut
but the blood wipes off fine
I wear my scars with pride

but how many more climbs
and new scars earned with time
til I get to know?
(I don’t know how I don’t know)
where I will fall
when I finally learn to let
go

the answer is nowhere
dying to go there
why do I keep on pushing through

why is it harder
been there before
know what to do

why do I fall so far
I’m spiraling
burnt out
rewiring
writing new ways to say
I finally found my
home where
nowhere means I’m free

I’m free
I’m free 

the answer is nowhere
dying to go there
why do I keep on pushing through

I know this will hurt me
why do I deserve to be
the one to lose
why can’t I 
find my way back home

RIGHT
(spent all these years
spent all this time
not enough to 
face the fear
I’ll never find)

LEFT
(I’m finally nowhere
dying to go there
I know this will hurt me
why do I deserve to be
the one to lose)

I know where I’ll fall
it was here when I
faced my fear
of falling too far behind

and I think I know why

I know what’s mine
I had lost it before
I’ll take what I’m owed
take everything I’ve earned
and more

I’m who I’ve learned to be
and who I’ve earned to be
learned to leave
their trust at the bottom
every time I fall
I leave it to die
but I’m still alive

the answer is nowhere
dying to go there
why do I keep on pushing through

why is it harder
been there before
know what to do

I’m falling in time and time again
I’ll make this hole my friend
the one who’s home
is me

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Puppet & if found - The Answer Is Nowhere RE-AMP

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lyrics

is her touch magnetic
makes the thoughts like static

its something in the way she moves me

well she talks prophetic
it makes the life ascetic

its something in the way she moves me

Magnetic (Single Release)

https://youtu.be/CsHkrGFgkSI?si=zbjE0t3whXV3635k
So i packed up and i said see you later
She begging don't leave while i'm signing off the papers
I should've known that i couldn't escape her
She getting too close, to my heart she was my neighbor

Did i just fuck up the canon like it's spiderverse
All the memories i had and i'm wishing i could reimburse
And all these emotions are recycled into what i rehearsed
Tryna destroy the home in my heart, call it saboteurs 

We were on call that day didn't know what to say
And now i contemplate on what i could've then
Would it really be worth it to be more than friends?
Or would you be like the others and it's just start to end?

And love's too complicated and confusing for my heart to be
Gotta look at my life on my watch i'm my own yard duty
Answer my life's questions at my stake like it's jeopardy
It's hard to do when i don't know my own identity

So i packed up and i said see you later
She begging don't leave while i'm signing off the papers
I should've known that i couldn't escape her
She getting too close, to my heart she was my neighbor

These roads are too unstable cus they know i'm the pedestrian 
Said she from the country i'm like shawty you equestrian?
and I'm too inexperienced to call myself a gentleman 
But i guess it's just my life and what i gotta settle with

And when i'm gone
I'll control this music scene with a baton
They try to place me in a box when I'm not
Cus i'm making different moves
And creating different tunes 
What the fuck you got to do?

So i packed up and i said see you later
She begging don't leave while i'm signing off the papers
I should've known that i couldn't escape her
She getting too close, to my heart she was my neighbor

Did i just fuck up the canon like it's spiderverse
All the memories i had and i'm wishing i could reimburse
And all these emotions are recycled into what i rehearsed
Tryna destroy the home in my heart, call it saboteurs

music video

saboteurs MUSIC VID OUT NOW (tykun x mandumé)

featuring https://soundcloud.com/hoshiestar
prod https://soundcloud.com/omgartixan

She only finds interest while she getting wasted (huh)
And I'm thinking bout all the fucking time I had to wait then

I'll take another, no reason to cuff her
For the rave I'ma take her out the suburbs
Watching cars pass on the edge of the gutter
When she stay the night, she spread it out like it's butter

Yeah we stay up all night yeah we on mario party
Yeah we download play we connect to the lobby
And she want my paste but I just want a copy
And the two of us pair like we're walkie talkies

Like we're walkie talkies
What you doing walking with a bag of takis?
And i don't see a reason why you should love me
Realize I'm a star and I'm feeling like I'm hoshie

And I only have interest
In all the drugs that I ingest
And I know that it doesn’t serve a purpose
But tonight I'ma see if it's worth it

I tried to take her to the top
I tried to put her on
There's some work I gotta do
But I'ma put it off
Designer all up on my fit
You know I put it on
Live my life like its a role
You know I took it on

She only finds interest while she getting wasted (huh)
And I'm thinking bout all the fucking time I had to wait then

And yea we got too drunk another passed out on the pavement
And no one was in the right state of mind to say it
And there's been days I thought of going faceless
But I want to hear people scream my name and say it

Stay inside and bleed
I just wanna be me
And I just wanna feel free
But she begging on her knees

And she only find interest while she's getting wasted (huh)
And I'm thinking bout all the fucking time I had to wait then, huh

counterfeit! w/ hoshie star (artixan)

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I try to discover my self love
Really all those times I do not give a fuck
I try to rest my head but it's never enough
I'm up at 4am recording another song

And can you tell me once again if it's a lie
I just wanna know before my health declines 
I don't wanna go thru this shit again
And I'll crush these thoughts like I put em to the blend

And every time I go zzz
Up at least til 3
No it's not that easy
And I remember memories of you just cheating on me
But I just gotta hold myself together

I try to discover my self love
Really all those times I do not give a fuck
I try to rest my head but it's never enough
I'm up at 4am recording another song

It's never enough
I'll just spend my night feeling down and I'm out of luck
Closer at the wall for an hour shutting off
I'm going mad I just need someone to trust
Laying in my bed disassociate again
Can't stop running back all the little things you said
Can't stop turning down all the chances that I get
I've become a fraction of the person that I was

I try to tell myself I’m over it
But I can’t stop endorphins
Still riding on the hope of it
But I might not get to close to it
And I know you raised the bar but could you lower it?
There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do for something more than this
But i wish you’d bring me down
But you got bored of it
I gave you all the time I had but you want more of it
All we do is sit inside
I think there’s more to this
I think there’s more to this
But you’re not supporting it

And can you tell me once again if it's a lie
I just wanna know before my health declines 
I don't wanna go thru this shit again
And I'll crush these thoughts like I put em to the blend