respite

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Main Artist: lil XipZ
Produced by: Crizzy White
Mixed by: lil XipZ 
Mastered by: lil XipZ
Cover Art by: me being a lazy prick
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LYRICS:

[Chorus]
i promised myself i wouldnt get attached to you
but since we started talking, ive already made 2 songs for you
i doubt that youll listen but its the thought that counts
you give me something i was missing, i love when youre around
i wish i never had left you first time, if i didnt do that then you prolly be alright

[Verse]
im glad that youre back in my life
took me out the dark n put me in the light
you make my cold heart feel warm inside
like the grinch it grew 2 sizes over night

ill try to be there whenever you need
not gonna fuck up again, well we'll see
i just want someone to be there for me
do you think you could do that for me?

Be there whenever i need
i just want someone to be there for me

[Chorus]
i promised myself i wouldnt get attached to you
but since we started talking, ive already made 2 songs for you
i doubt that youll listen but its the thought that counts
you give me something i was missing, i love when youre around
i wish i never had left you first time, if i didnt do that then you prolly be alright

I Promised Myself I Wouldnt Get Attached To U [Prod. Crizzy White]

-DespairInToAshes-

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Mastered by ztope


https://on.soundcloud.com/rgfJXSvvKTWbXqou7

the epilogue w/notahero

prod raspo 
mixed/master by me

Lyrics:

generational trauma
personification of drama
must be easy to say 
“i got it all from my momma”
i’m not a perfect person 
i still take more than i oughta
but you’re not perfect either 
you paint more hate than you gotta 

and i’m sorry that i left you
wasn’t there when i needed to protect you 
when i found out shoulda texted you
cause i knew exactly what it meant for you
that if i stick it out and i try hard
then you might see what’s in my heart
but i see now i wasn’t fair to you
babe i swear that all i did was care for you 

i guess i could find someone to hold me down
oh but i don’t think it’s fair if i’m not gonna be around 
cause my time on this earth is a little more limited than you think it is
and if i showed you inside of me
i wonder what your gut reaction to the trash would be
would you ask what happened to me 
would you stare in a state of shock as you backed away from me

oh see i been in this place before
where i never thought i’d need a hate ward
so when i broke down while i answered 
and then you spread through me like cancer
i sat back in my chair and wondered if i really said it with candor 

i know heart patients don’t hurt like this 
so i just wanna be certain 
you can’t see it from my side now
it’s like you’ve drawn all the curtains 
you want home yea you won’t find it here
i’m done wit all this hurtin

_trauma_ (raspo)

produced by @whatafuckingbitch
features by: @whatafuckingbitch & @emoflytrap
mixed & mastered by: joshiguess + whatafuckingbitch


it's whatafuckingbitch and joshiguess and emoflytrap
we be on the track, yeah

stupid sad but god damn it don't @ me
i be popping off like the bottles in the backseat
pacing cus i'm geeked up only half the time
just mix that shit in different lines
getting hella faded for the free they say they know me
i guess i'll know when i see shit
too ignorant believe it
how you gonna fuck up my time barely breathing
who cares? god at least i'm tweaking 
molly's not for weekends
molly's not for weekends

molly's not for weekends
well i'll wait another season
and i'm staying up drinking
put me back together cus i'm falling into pieces


i should've known that you would never hit me back
all your texts are way too dry, i'm the shore and you're the wrack
and she got a nice rack but there ain't no point of that
when u ain't feeling attached yeah they always wanna nag

and the times ticking on a time bomb
tbh i'd be scared but tonight I'm staying quite calm
been alone in bed for days yeah I'm waiting for the right call
and I don't want to go back to something I just resigned on

repeated process, talk a lot of nonsense
when they see me gone they gon put me on colossus
the way that you been lying look like u got proboscis
and i wanna move out but I don't wanna pack the boxes

molly's not for weekends
jumping off the deep end
fuck being sad emoflytrap always geeking
always geeking yeah i'm always geeking
fuck being sad emoflytrap always geeking
dying in the back tho
fucking on a bad hoe
told me that you love me but that's not what your text wrote
drugs in my bag tho
i don't ever test those
fucking up my life got me ripping up your love notes

yeah got me ripping up your love notes
but i'm wishing you the best tho
even tho my life's a mess hoe
if you're ruining my life then i'll go out on a death note

time bomb (prod. whatafuckingbitch)

cover made by my buddy @mindslimeillustrations
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cravings 
open 
danger
my savior

hellish
endeavors
make me
feel anxious

too bad
your sad
i couldn't care about that
i couldn't see you from the past
but the future is ours, there's no looking back

waking, up
to the fear of, giving up
then dying too young, but you had enough
of the pain, of the agony in your heart

this heart is made of glass
its prone to anxiety attacks
remember times where you hold my hand
and id be scared to look on back

yet time
it heals
we got
a lot left to feel

all these times that we shared in this bed made me realize
there is more to life!

Too Bad (prod. hartbleed)

9TAILS - arctic eyes (cover)

im sorry i havent healed yet (raspo)

this sucks i miss you (prod. neverforever)

CAN'T FACE IT

shyion - ME hao prod shyion

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time bomb (prod. whatafuckingbitch)

JoshIGuess