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Wait Until I Fall

Chosen

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Main Artist: lil XipZ
Produced by: Crizzy White
Mixed by: lil XipZ 
Mastered by: lil XipZ
Cover Art by: me being a lazy prick
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LYRICS:

[Chorus]
i promised myself i wouldnt get attached to you
but since we started talking, ive already made 2 songs for you
i doubt that youll listen but its the thought that counts
you give me something i was missing, i love when youre around
i wish i never had left you first time, if i didnt do that then you prolly be alright

[Verse]
im glad that youre back in my life
took me out the dark n put me in the light
you make my cold heart feel warm inside
like the grinch it grew 2 sizes over night

ill try to be there whenever you need
not gonna fuck up again, well we'll see
i just want someone to be there for me
do you think you could do that for me?

Be there whenever i need
i just want someone to be there for me

[Chorus]
i promised myself i wouldnt get attached to you
but since we started talking, ive already made 2 songs for you
i doubt that youll listen but its the thought that counts
you give me something i was missing, i love when youre around
i wish i never had left you first time, if i didnt do that then you prolly be alright

I Promised Myself I Wouldnt Get Attached To U [Prod. Crizzy White]

prod raspo 
mixed/master by me

Lyrics:

generational trauma
personification of drama
must be easy to say 
“i got it all from my momma”
i’m not a perfect person 
i still take more than i oughta
but you’re not perfect either 
you paint more hate than you gotta 

and i’m sorry that i left you
wasn’t there when i needed to protect you 
when i found out shoulda texted you
cause i knew exactly what it meant for you
that if i stick it out and i try hard
then you might see what’s in my heart
but i see now i wasn’t fair to you
babe i swear that all i did was care for you 

i guess i could find someone to hold me down
oh but i don’t think it’s fair if i’m not gonna be around 
cause my time on this earth is a little more limited than you think it is
and if i showed you inside of me
i wonder what your gut reaction to the trash would be
would you ask what happened to me 
would you stare in a state of shock as you backed away from me

oh see i been in this place before
where i never thought i’d need a hate ward
so when i broke down while i answered 
and then you spread through me like cancer
i sat back in my chair and wondered if i really said it with candor 

i know heart patients don’t hurt like this 
so i just wanna be certain 
you can’t see it from my side now
it’s like you’ve drawn all the curtains 
you want home yea you won’t find it here
i’m done wit all this hurtin

_trauma_ (raspo)

A bunch of music that I couldn't recover off my old hard drive. 
I hope you all enjoy this mashup of snippets and shoutout too all the prods who made the beats for them

Mashup edited by: nate2timez
Visuals: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_4JTWeuZ2_s

Song list:
1. pourin
2. let it drown
3. Washed up
4. poggers song
5. Foreal
6. shoegaze (prod. 2k6)
7. MIDNIGHT VAMPIRE
8. gave up
9. In the dark
10. cut me away (prod. 2k6)

VISUALS

frvr&alwys - soul fragments mashup (VISUALS ON YOUTUBE)

the ghost in my bed ft. cutdeep (secre x heyrick)

thnk u 4 th_recent support <3

lyrics

its a mess w/ no rest i
cant tell u how im feeling 
we go in circles like one day its gonna pass by
running backwards the back roads are really quite revealing
ive told u b4 jus worded different to last time

u found a space i just hope that u can make it out
i little different for me but i still tell myself
that ur still worth every second that u output on this earth
u jus gotta c it through ik this world causes a lot of hurt

blow a fortune 
she’ll pass on the fortune
but the words u express sound so cordial its torture

u wear this costume
but it aint a costume 
if u wear everyday and act like its correlated on the inside

u found a space i just hope that u can make it out
i little different for me but i still tell myself
that ur still worth every second that u output on this earth
u jus gotta c it through ik this world causes a lot of hurt

i love u i hate u cant u tell that its the same thing
the latter jus for when things dont go planned
but thats the realm that cant always be controlled 
if u see the painting from the lens 

grow old w/ me 
u wanna grow old w/ me 
if theres a story in the works 
u cant go cold on me 

follow me 
cant allow hollowing 
i see the bigger picture and ill do whats best if we can make it out

if we cant make it out the world wont end
ik its hard to believe 4 u but dont send
threats
i try hard to not live w/ regrets
its all locked inside my chest
please give me a little rest now

i c visions now all holy 
she tells me im the 1 & only
the 1 & only u say.. in this universe?
do u think this was written right from fucking birth

ive seen plenty faces and i can tell a curse
i try forget the name coz ion want that person in my life
but its respect its jus that ik myself and when i fret
u say that its all in my head so.. ig its all in my head

grow old w me

grow old w/ me (taylor morgan x jolst)

In my head looking for a friend who looks like heaven sent 
Terrified of losing them 
But can’t go on with keeping them fit

Toxins, that I know are basically ruing your life 
Said that you would stop a couple hundred times 

You’re Dope sick, you ain’t worth it 
I can see it your eyes 
Wasn’t meant to make you cry 

Might dig you a grave I’m being honest 
Went to your parents for help, I’m uninvited 

Toxins fill your head I'm tired 
Recently I been uninspired 

These days the streets fill with violence 
Terrified but so inviting 

Smoke in the air 
I got thoughts in my head about what’s truly there 
Am I supposed to be here??

In my head looking for a friend who looks like heaven sent 
Terrified of losing them 
But can’t go on with keeping them fit

Toxins, that I know are basically ruing your life 
Said that you would stop a couple hundred times 

You’re Dope sick, you ain’t worth it 
I can see it your eyes 
Wasn’t meant to make you cry 

Might dig you a grave I’m being honest 
Went to your parents for help, I’m uninvited 

Toxins fill your head I'm tired 
Recently I been uninspired 

These days the streets fill with violence 
Terrified but so inviting

Dope Sick [+ Cimor]

im sorry i havent healed yet (raspo)

02

just imagine..

lyrics

with a tenderness in my throat

she takes the advantage in a nice tone

she takes off the writings on the wall

she knows my memorys taking its toll

/

in summer of 1917  this choice was proven costly

never forgave but once layed down a poppy, in memry of u 

u were standing with  crying over this severed tomb

a mourning of 51 years, unexpected doom

/

it was u and it was me and it as us x 3

and now its u and now its dust

/

those that fell, all crumbled to nothing 

jus a distant thought and an empty sort of loving 

in this town not many make an impact

held back by the past it just keeps running

/

running and running 

is something funny

take u somewhere fancy where branches die and birds cant fly

to a place thats shaded and never been sunny

i hope that i can make this day just lovely

/

with a tenderness in my throat

she takes the advantage in a nice tone

she takes off the writings on the wall

she knows my memorys taking its toll

/

in the winter of, well many years later 

there was a change of course

a meet ur maker sort of moment for everyone that was there witness it

many lives lost but as many had begun with theirs

/

it was u and it was me and it as us x 3

and now its u and now its dust

/

rubble and bone had been the history for so long

a seemingly ordinary day had made hearts warm

snow falls down, in this grey and white town

but no abyss will the eyes be drawn (to)

/

no pain or suffering 

may b lost but 0 buffering

take u somewhere where the flowers hit potential, somewhere special

where only u and me can create these memories

ik intention wise tho that u were never a friend to me

someplace where things always reach their potential

someplace where things always reach their potential (stillvanishing)

On my way to Austin… 

Sorry for the long wait guys more consistency now had some stuff getting in the way love y’all🤎

Lyrics:

On my way to Austin tryna reminisce for a little 
Austin Texas picking up Alexas she don’t drive a Lexus though


And now I’m on my way to Austin
in this little red car of mine
It’s saying that I’m 17 hours away till I’m outside 
So baby just hang on tight
Go to sleep and dream I’m by your side 
You’ll only have to do it one last night 
I’ll be there when the sun arrives


On my way to Austin tryna reminisce for a little 
Austin Texas picking up Alexas she don’t drive a Lexus though

Pedal to the floor till I get there
I can’t get your pretty face out my head
Not complaining tho it can stay there 
God I really hope it does 
I promise you girl I won’t mess it up 
If I do you can cast me aside like I never existed to you

im sorry i havent healed yet (raspo)

getbetter

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