a virtual representation of the custom blue splatter vinyl @leafcassidy and @stellathepixie made for me for my birthday of my own songs. art by @stellathepixie

dire, dire comp

friends’ music

girly pop

can’t believe i literally made this shit in garageband 


i can play a guitar solo if you want one
or you can splash water over me in the sun
if you want me then were gonna have fun
just like the year that punk broke in 1991
26 but i wanna be everybody's everything
wanna put my finger in your motherfuckin wedding ring
after the beach wanna go and get ice cream?
i got a copy of beach house teen dream

now i ride the blue line all the way to wonderland
now i wonder if im ever gonna find a man
listening to sebadoh
dye my hair blue again
wonder how i let you go
ocean turns it green again

watch you play mario 64 evermore
speak now or forever know me nevermore
then we get tired and hold hands in the moonlight
fall asleep, windows open, linen just right

i had a dream about you last night

i can play a guitar solo if you want one
or you can splash water over me in the sun
if you want me then were gonna have fun
just like the year that punk broke in 1991
26 but i wanna be everybody's everything
wanna put my finger in your motherfuckin wedding ring
after the beach wanna go and get ice cream?
i got a copy of beach house teen dream

now i ride the blue line all the way to wonderland
now i wonder if im ever gonna find a man
listening to sebadoh
dye my hair blue again
wonder how i let you go
ocean turns it green again

watch you play mario 64 evermore
speak now or forever know me nevermore
then we get tired and hold hands in the moonlight
fall asleep, windows open, linen just right

now i ride the blue line all the way to wonderland
now i wonder if im ever gonna find a man
listening to sebadoh
dye my hair blue again
wonder how i let you go
ocean turns it green again

watch you play mario 64 evermore
speak now or forever know me nevermore
then we get tired and hold hands in the moonlight
fall asleep, windows open, linen just right

produced by joysick

wonderland

shine aqua illusion

@xxkintsugi kaiizu

you’ll never take me alive because i’m already dead
think you’re sucking me dry, but there’s nothing left
you say it’s a lie, but there’s scars on my neck
i just keep it inside, my final line of defense
maybe some part’s alive
but i’m leaving tonight
i can barely survive
i need stars in my sky

can’t quit my job and i can’t get fired
can’t get a new one and can’t get hired
there’s no future and i can’t retire
i’m so, i’m so, i’m so tired
i just wanna go home, i just wanna sleep
i don’t wanna do my dishes from the past 3 weeks
ate maybe one thing this weekend
i’m diving in the deep end
tryna keep my breath in
baby are you counting
i can break my record and anybody else’s
i feel like im deckard, i’m questioning my self image

you’ll never take me alive because i’m already dead
think you’re sucking me dry, but there’s nothing left
you say it’s a lie, but there’s scars on my neck
i just keep it inside, my final line of defense
maybe some part’s alive
but i’m leaving tonight
i can barely survive
i need stars in my sky

too many broken VSTs on my computer
i been dyin in the city and i know that im a loser
im a freak up in my tower
i’m a beggar not a chooser
i’m returning to the tavern with the fireplace and pewter
now i look at my ancestor
guess i kinda see it through her
i’m not really a princess or id be able to impress her
i sit in fetal position, blocking out my vision
so many bad decisions, i just can’t resist em
never mind the tavern, we know how to party
underwater cavern, they’re lookin for the body

i need stars in my sky (kintsugi+kaiizu)

@strkzbtx

i dont see the glass half full i see it frosted
i need a beverage that i can get lost in
i dont think i signed a contract but im locked in
so long & thanks to all the dolphins
if you need me then ill be downtown
like, underground
like, maybe you can find me in the lost and found
if were gonna play this game ill go all in
if the game’s not rigged what would you call it

i cant pay the rent and my rooms a nuke test site
royalty free starfish on my website
wifis fucking shite cant download a megabyte
i just got my check but my desk like a best buy
ya, ya my desk like a best buy
imac g3 at my bedside
spend money on the shit that i need, right?
fucked up but ill get it on the next try
i just wanna get nuked but i got some shit to do first
you can skip the clues i just wanna feel the truth hurt
hoppin out the plane like im db cooper 

i dont see the glass half full i see it frosted
i need a beverage that i can get lost in
i dont think i signed a contract but im locked in
so long & thanks to all the dolphins
if you need me then ill be downtown
like, underground
like, maybe you can find me in the lost and found
if were gonna play this game ill go all in
if the game’s not rigged what would you call it

megabyte.wav (prod. strkz)

@jettahs

im a sad bitch, im a softie
got a dark soul, feel like miyazaki
im a fairy on this molly
sprout wings fly around like navi
crybaby, cant save me
give it up, call me little miss maybe
im a lost cause, u cant change me
do the same shit over r you crazy?
tell me im pathetic, babe u wont regret it
u think u can help me i told u to forget it
ur the 1 who said it, i cant take the credit
it was in the prophecy but i dont think u read it
im so sorry, im so sad
i know that i fucked up everything we had
im so stupid, im so mad
i just took off again, now im gonna crash
i cant foresee it, it just doesn't add
i am not a mystic i just did the math
im not galileo, im not faust
im not archimedes, i cant even count
tell me "stop crying shut ur mouth"
enlighten me, tell me i cant make u proud
silence me, shut me down
scream at me so loud that u drown me out

polymath (prod. jettahs)

ft+prod @stellathepixie

@joysick64
posted up w pixie over internet waters
nobody can fix me, gotta make my own road first
want u 2 know u taught me that
told me ive come so far, jus know i owe u 4 that
abra kadabra, presto makin money back
i feel like a steam train, got my life back on track
u never let me down i’m sorry i did for u
i’m forever grateful for the shit u n me been thru
abra kadabra, i just got my wife back
shawty taller than me n she make me happy
mermaid swimming with the fishies in the barrier reef
cyber magicka recharging, blue hell party starting
we gon play sum shows 4 the puppygirl army 🐾 
abra kadabra i just found my calling
posted up w mythic watch the low poly starshower falling
blue hell helix pixie joysick

@stellathepixie
they say stella where'd u get that money i remember people didnt love me 
started going up now they on my dick sold the venue out and left w your bitch

ill be ok cos im w joysick 
water biome like we gon drip drip command c and v 
we did it first they copy 
i feel like sasuke 
planing my revenge 
cant can't look me in the eyes babe

claws in the snow
and i got racks so they cant tell me no 
i only pay what i owe 
i dress my shawty in designer clothes
if you gotta ask its a no
foot on the gas i aint taking it slow
0 love feel like gl0
i hope you know your my best friend
i know i get lost in flexing
i know my ego still bests me
i didnt mean to be so mean
i just got a lot in my brain
u need gas jus Imk
lotta heads gotta say hello one day
we gon run this bitch
ima make bands you cant stop me uh
im with helix in the lobby uh
im w my girl think she feel me yuh
im w emo south philly yuh
im w joysick like we gon drown
studio g making new genres
trick up my sleve like im kris angel
blue hell girls its a secret uh

starshower (prod. valentinesday)

@strkzbtx

i think ur disgusting
i dont need discussion
if i see u at the function
put myself in the oven
i think ur so full of it
but u know that and u love it
u tell us u been gaslit
give us our fucking cash bitch
cant believe that we were friends
ill never trust anyone again
u decide im the bad guy
must be nice up there so high
its about time, goin mask off
musta been blind, u can fuck off
im so high i cannot talk
or id give a piece of my mind
we can take a walk bitch
see u outside girl
i hope u like crawling
cause ur not gonna walk
have a nice trip falling
me and my girl gonna pull up with the baseball bat if u cross me again
if u not a coward send me ur address
if u too tired shoulda thought of that first

coward (prod. strkz)

@strkxbtx

hella ice on my wrist no im literally frozen
that aint what they meant by live for the moment
snowflakes fall on my tongue i wish that i was young
rob me blind and force me to grow up

stuff on my floor again
i cant leave my bed
forgot everything i learned and i forgot my meds
i should’ve quit while i was ahead
i wanna grow old with you out west
i burned my life jacked in the net
did someone plant a chip inside my neck
im my worst enemy
im obsessed with me
feedback loop, no form just a memory

my lifes going nowhere
dont wanna go there
i need a life coach i just need an au pair
my eyes glued to the screen in a chair
in alpha state, im not rly aware
im too plugged in, anybody in there?
i could still fix it but i dont even care
feet planted in the ground
i cant hear a sound
i know ur waving in my face but im not around

burning chrome (prod. strkz)

@strkzbtx

yeah i found a safe room save it to a diskette
fuck i need a break now, save it to the project
7am pounding in my eardrums
i feel like my whole world is crumbling down
if u dont love me anymore what is the point
how did we get here how did we get to this part
i should have known from the start
that youd play games with my heart
dmt in my cart
taking my world apart

i do it for the art
ego death in yr arms
i wanna restart, oh my god
tranny singalong in ur car
i wanna wake up, i hear no alarms

mkultra in my cup
i feel alone yeah, i feel no love
tripping out feels like a hug
if u wanna rebound hit me up

i guess i just thought that u n me were gonna married someday
and when that day comes it’d take the pain away
it’d take the pain away