dlm
don't leave me
i need you more than ever and it's strange
haven't felt this way in forever
straight pain
knowing that i'm not the best
and i can't handle change
don't know why you're interested
i'm nothing but a name
maybe i just fucking love the pain
it's what i been attracting
every waking day
hire an assassin
to cut out my brain
i'm tired of acting 
like i am okay
for a minute gotta hold it in
then i run to the back
cause the pain in my chest
i don't want you to see when i blow it big
and every single minute man i feel so distressed
i just need a fucking rest and control within
but it feels i never get it 
now this pain has been embedded
and this living i been dreading
dead emotions never settle
who am i?
cause i don't know
and i never did

baby don't leave me i need you to stay
i'm craving attention today
and you look so beautiful wiping all of my tears away
baby don't leave me i need you to stay
i'm craving attention today
and you look so beautiful wiping all of my tears away

hold me close
i need more
got no hoes
on my phone
i'm alone
all the time
even when there's people close
look at me
love your eyes
make me feel like i'm alright
so please don't leave
not on some pressure shit
you just be so precious
shit
i don't need no extra shit
just wish my hands were on your hips
run em up and down your tits
addicted to your fucking lips
the taste of em
i'm wasted on em 
taking breaks
exchanging gazes
you just look amazing on me
x2

baby don't leave me i need you to stay
i'm craving attention today
and you look so beautiful wiping all of my tears away
baby don't leave me i need you to stay
i'm craving attention today
and you look so beautiful wiping all of my tears away
x2

i would tell you not to leave but i don’t want you to feel pressured to love me (prod. 4lexf)

She never coming back
I had a heart attack
I feel under attack
And I am still attached
She left me all alone
With my feelings and my ghost
I had to find a way to cope
So I don’t sit around and mope yeah
She never coming back
I had a heart attack
I feel under attack
And I am still attached
She left me all alone
With my feelings and my ghost
I had to find a way to cope
So I don’t sit around and mope yeah
Yeah

I’ve been, I’ve been, trapped in my mind
I’ve been, I’ve been, trapped in this time
She ain’t ever coming back, I’ve accepted this
Don’t know what to say to you, I know that I’m missing this
I’m missing all the times that we had in the past
But now I’m walking down the street and now I’m coming in last
I don’t know what, to say when, I see your face
Like do I say “Hi”, or “Goodbye”, or “Am I a waste?”
Times have been different lately
You have been off my mind lately
I’m starting to accept the facts
The fact that you’re not coming back

She never coming back
I had a heart attack
I feel under attack
And I am still attached
She left me all alone
With my feelings and my ghost
I had to find a way to cope
So I don’t sit around and mope yeah
She never coming back
I had a heart attack
I feel under attack
And I am still attached
She left me all alone
With my feelings and my ghost
I had to find a way to cope
So I don’t sit around and mope yeah
Yeah

I’ve been, I’ve been, trapped in my mind
I’ve been, I’ve been, trapped in this time
She ain’t ever coming back, I’ve accepted this

she never coming back (prod. tennis player)

written and performed by: @futoh
mixed and mastered by: @futoh
produced by: @futoh
———
wandering soul.
———
lyrics:

the birds silent,
and I’m my own tyrant,
I rule over the world for a bit,
but then I snap,
the worlds not vibrant,
and it all just seems so violent,
in a prison of requirements,
I let go of my garments,
I’m the one without a target,
I’m free (im free),
I’m truly free (im truly free)
I got no fees to pay (no fees to pay),
I got no friends to make (no friends to make),
I got no goals to reach (no goals to reach),
I got no truth to seek (no truth to seek),
it’s only me myself and I,
the flowers blossom as we speak,
they pay attention
when no one else would,
but no one else should,
they’ll just laugh at me,
the apathy’s,
disgusting,
they just ask me for my money,
beat me till my nose is runny,
and then they’ll think it’s funny,
swear I’m better as a mummy
decompose into the earth,
I’ll be part of something greater,
in a hundred years,
when grass is green,
you’ll hear my name in fables,
but for now you only hear my name when teachers send me home,
(they send me home),
that kid was getting picked on,
and they left him all alone
(yea all alone)

nature sleeps and i'm still wandering (prod. futoh)

knife in my heart - Julia Alexa

i want to live forever when i die - Julia Alexa

i don't wanna be saved - Julia Alexa

all i do is think about u - Julia Alexa

"You got mail waiting.....''

The beginning of the disconnect.....fast forward, now our "loneliness has wi-fi"
This song is one of longing....two souls who walk past one another in the daylight, only to unknowingly find love in one another via chat rooms at nite....

LYRICS
Admiration at the mailbox when you look my way
Shyly I blush and simply walk away
We cross paths going down the stairs
And move to the side like we don't care.

Chorus
We passed each other in silence, like emails in the dark...
but your voice still loaded in my head like home.
We go about our days alone, when all we want
is to pick up the phone

You got mail waiting, and my heart was beating
because I love hearing from you
I wonder who you are, I make a secret wish
And beg the gods that your not far

Chorus
We passed each other in silence, like emails in the dark...
but your voice still loaded in my head like home.
We go about our days alone, when all we want
is to pick up the phone

You're such a mystery, be still my heart
How are we to be..so close yet so far apart?
During the day, were virtual strangers but at night
Is where lies the danger, because our hearts...are on the line
shall we reveal? or take our time

Last Chorus
We passed each other in silence, like emails in the dark...
but your voice still loaded in my head like home.
We go about our days alone, when all we want
is to pick up the phone


Information Superhighway

not alone

sadeyes & lil xtra - not alone {prod. boyfifty}

Laying up late and it’s midnight 
Cold rainy days transition to some dark nights 
When I’m home alone 
No where else to go 
Calling up my friends wish I could just go let em know 
Depression finnaly hitting i can’t do it on my own  
Drowning in my sorrows but there’s nothing here to show 

All people really fake 
lying to my face
Telling me they there but never meaning what they say 


Call me up now ask some questions 
Help me out I need  lessons 
all these games why I’m stressing 
Too much work  life’s depressing 

Only wanna check up when you hear it in my lyrics 
Say you okay but I’m not okay 
Asking do you need some help really acting like they mean it 
Say you okay but I’m not okay

I don’t need friends need friends no 
All they do is come then go 
Don’t come and give me hope
Just Leave me here alone 

I don’t need friends need friends no 
All they do is come then go 
Don’t come and give me hope
Just Leave me here alone

Hard times 
Wish I could go make time 
Never had enough went back I hadda save mine

Wishing you would pick up 
Wishing you would call back
Talk me through problems 
Say you caring hope you mean that 

Maybe I’m too sad maybe I’m not 
Maybe y’all just flexing like y’all not 
Maybe I’m just honest should I stop
Start telling lies like I’m not 

Sad and lonely no cure 
All these sins a monster 
Fix me up still not pure 
On the inside not my contour

I don’t need friends need friends no 
All they do is come then go 
Don’t come and give me hope
Just Leave me here alone 

I don’t need friends need friends no 
All they do is come then go 
Don’t come and give me hope
Just Leave me here alone

friends? [prod. kado]

I never left that classroom
Your ankles on my shoulders
Bodies turning over
And over again
Pitting flesh against flesh
I could scream if you didn't take away my breath
While we were touching, teasing, tasting, taking
And I could already feel my heart break
And still I burnt out my lungs on words like "forever"
And now that I'm older I guess I know better

I gave you the very best parts of me
What little I had to offer
So you can go home 
And I'll get stoned
And we'll forget about the heart inside your locker

Neighbor

hi, i write & sing <3
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i want to live forever when i die - Julia Alexa

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