Tomorrow when the farm boys find this
freak of nature, they will wrap his body
in newspaper and carry him to the museum.
But tonight he is alive and in the north
field with his mother. It is a perfect
summer evening: the moon rising over
the orchard, the wind in the grass. And
as he stares into the sky, there are
twice as many stars as usual.

Light spills from my broken window through the street brightening up trash bags and cigarettes
She made it so fucking hard to feel like me under my skin, I know how it feels
But you know he doesn't play, I tried and nothing works
And even though we're still at war, we still bleed the same
Roses by the porch when I leave the house
Toxins in the air, Factories nearby

He hurts again but I would never tell
Was I good enough for you? Or good enough for me
I'd say I raised you fine or good enough
The kid's turned out fine

Once a dreamer, not a worker
Skipping in line so I could make it up to you
Someone said I changed but it's not nothing new
Fuse up in my heart it's not comfortable
I've been trying to figure out how to act less cold
Trynna take myself a place that nobody knows
Every passing year man it just feels so old
But the present year's the youngest you'll ever be

I've been trynna tell me myself that I'm not that bad
To enjoy the time I have cause I'll lose it all
I say sorry to the ones that I hate right now
When I die can you please come to my funeral
Wanna look like I did something
I wanna look like I was someone

twikipedia - factory (demo)

"Excuses, excuses... How am I supposed to trust you when all you give me are excuses? When are you two gonna' learn that your actions have consequences? Consequences that affect other people, like me. Don't you two understand? I'm about to lose my job! You may not care about keeping your jobs, but I care about keeping mine. Because if i lose my job, I have nothing."

What do you see when you look at my face?

Guitarra por @jacobgerth05

october 2023 album scrap

one of my friends
they make music i guess
it sounds funny but
i think i'll send you a link
so you can hear

i still find it weird
when i hear their name
said by someone i don't know
oh how time flies

i remember the days
when we used to play
all those dumb computer games
how bittersweet

i guess it worked out
seeing by the big number plastered on their page
i hope they're good

i hope i hope i hope
(was i supposed to let go?)
i hope i hope i hope
(or did you just outgrow me?)
i hope i hope i hope
(all of those times we spent i know)
(do you still think about me now?)

you're busy with plans
i don't think we'll ever meet again
i'll keep you on
the back of my mind
and check on your numbers all the time
but we won't talk
again i feel like we could hit it off in current time with ease
i tell my friends about the times we spent even if they were brief

one of my friends (demo)

delta - Untitled

fuck this song
i recorded this in a shitty car with a 20$ microphone. i don't know how to mix said microphone.

i did what you wanted
and now there's nothing left to do
i'm a statue in your mattress
letting go and leaving scratches
now nothing's important
there's nothing left i like to do
so for fun i'll eat your scraps and
light my insides up with matches

when you're gone
i lose sense of direction and at home
i see a lookalive of you on my tv

light me up oh i wanna
melt away in your arms
i see someone looking
but it seems like they're so far
so far

fuck what i want i'll
do everything you tell me to
hold my breath until i'm purple
until i'm speaking in circles
break something important
break everything i tell you to
these frail bones will heal themselves up
and we'll all be okay

tell me do it, tell me do it, and i'll do it.

fuck what i want

i'll be yours for now

safeword (demo)

on my own
since nowhere i go ever feels like home
and you know how it is
to want somewhere to sit around and be
but the cost
of privacy is a lot
look at the photograph and think
you're where you need to be

and i've grown tired of this place
i'll make the sure the mirrors break
when someone else stares back
these days i've stopped of plans
giving everything away
and letting my plants die

i'll stick for you
because you don't deserve to be alone

while so scared of judgement but selfish to think
i would do the same sin with god looking at me
i would do the same thing were you looking at me
i would do the same thing were you looking at us

the usual (demo)

"i feel like twitter is going to get rid of voice notes soon here’s another one though"
https://x.com/D9LTA/status/1871371771183870059

key vs. locket (twikipedia) - untitled voice note

scrap from iflas
scrapped because : voice is particularly annoying in this one / instrumental is too much like still-life

i saw you in someone
not for any reason
not for any reason at all
yet you kept seeing me
taking a look inside last time
im so caught up in reason
with nothing going on
nothing going on around here
watering and letting grow
something beyond my fears
i notice the motifs in your work
i know what heals you
i know what hurts
this winter season dont come outside
dont try, and dont ask me why
you made me see traces
some traits in some people
yeah you made me think the whole world was evil
im forgetting everything that you tried to teach
we're living in bliss while covered in some debris

dont be so full of yourself (demo)

so take your time go text someone else
because you look exactly like her
so get me out be with my friend
cause i dont need that much to be yours again

Like Her

Minha tentative de fazer uma musica "twee pop", era pra estar no meu album quando eu comecei a fazer ele mas joguei fora em uma semana.  Lancei por que se não ia ficar num limbo musical.

Musica de 18 de Agosto de 2024.

dont be so full of yourself (demo)

keyvslocket