Produced by me

Lyrics:
i like your face
and all your quippy jokes
they look at us
and everybody knows
i act indifferent
try to play it cool
I'll be paper-thin for you
it's not on the nose
And if it bends more i'm done
a bigger heart than mine
so when you look at me what do you see
will you be paper-thin for me

(why can't i be the one)

i wanna know (everything you like to do)
i know you know (you just don't want me to hurt)
why can't i be (the only girl you'll ever need)

paperthin (bonus)

Tomorrow when the farm boys find this
freak of nature, they will wrap his body
in newspaper and carry him to the museum.
But tonight he is alive and in the north
field with his mother. It is a perfect
summer evening: the moon rising over
the orchard, the wind in the grass. And
as he stares into the sky, there are
twice as many stars as usual.

Light spills from my broken window through the street brightening up trash bags and cigarettes
She made it so fucking hard to feel like me under my skin, I know how it feels
But you know he doesn't play, I tried and nothing works
And even though we're still at war, we still bleed the same
Roses by the porch when I leave the house
Toxins in the air, Factories nearby

He hurts again but I would never tell
Was I good enough for you? Or good enough for me
I'd say I raised you fine or good enough
The kid's turned out fine

Once a dreamer, not a worker
Skipping in line so I could make it up to you
Someone said I changed but it's not nothing new
Fuse up in my heart it's not comfortable
I've been trying to figure out how to act less cold
Trynna take myself a place that nobody knows
Every passing year man it just feels so old
But the present year's the youngest you'll ever be

I've been trynna tell me myself that I'm not that bad
To enjoy the time I have cause I'll lose it all
I say sorry to the ones that I hate right now
When I die can you please come to my funeral
Wanna look like I did something
I wanna look like I was someone

twikipedia - factory (demo)

made this yesterday, facgcd tuning, shitty diy acoustic

red faced, i didn't know that you'd break me like this
build me up, tear me back down this time around
light up fast, hear my name
i'm a match, i can't run from shame, or you stupid games, i still love
i can't turn you on

is it gross to want you to myself?
is it wrong to feel jealous and cheated out of something that we never talked about

i'm used to excuses
i'm not gonna tell you how i feel, i need you to guess
and i'm sorry if you saw me cry
it's a sight to see, it's embarassing
i promise there'll be no more tears coming out of my eyes anymore
can i sleep on your basement floor?

riding on promises, you'll never get what you want
i tried hard, i went sore, somehow you still wanted more

gross (demo)

delta - Untitled

scrap from iflas
scrapped because : voice is particularly annoying in this one / instrumental is too much like still-life

i saw you in someone
not for any reason
not for any reason at all
yet you kept seeing me
taking a look inside last time
im so caught up in reason
with nothing going on
nothing going on around here
watering and letting grow
something beyond my fears
i notice the motifs in your work
i know what heals you
i know what hurts
this winter season dont come outside
dont try, and dont ask me why
you made me see traces
some traits in some people
yeah you made me think the whole world was evil
im forgetting everything that you tried to teach
we're living in bliss while covered in some debris

dont be so full of yourself (demo)

Standard Capo 1

I know that this is all you've known
For all of it's worth
For all your life
And that's just how it is
Crotchet me my voodoo doll
This time I decide
If i win
Or if i get to lose
Painful, but that's just how it is when you lose yourself
In someone else
But what do I know?
Strangely it all seemed to stop right after I left
And back home every house starts losing space
Drawers ran through, choices made

Oh my god, I thought about it for a minute then stopped
Fucking myself won't get me any further
Looks like I did nothing but talk a lot
Like I said, the thought was hanging on the back of my head
And the city's hero turned his back in the end
The end, there was no saving left

You know that you can't fix the cold in the wintertime
You know that even if you pull the strings you flatline

But nothing matters like it does when I'm near you
And nothing matters like it does when I'm there
And nothing matters like it does when I'm near you
And nothing matters like it does

I know how it feels when giving up
Part of you pays back
Everyone had someone tell them that they're not enough
You took it and laughed
Riding on a promise, you won't ever say so
You threw out your microphone, took the bus and went home
Now I get the feeling it's some kind of syndrome
You said that you hated it why didn't you say so

Why didn't you say?  Why didn't you say so?
There's nothing else I would've said
I tried

promise

Eb Standard

once you told me you'd
give me everything
i sank deeper and
found myself hiding
found myself wishing
but you had your reasons

i'd fly high
to see
however these things used to be
i saw it in your eyes
don't lie, this time

i can't fly but i 
need a moment to see
in this clarity
someone believes in me
i hold on to the cracks and try to believe
to believe
mirror tells me judge
but i'd never judge you
i know i don't try
but i think i trust you

for you i'd repeat myself
a thousand times
fear driven dog in your way
screaming for help on the railway line
i stray far from the sea by day, by day
so if millions judge then what's the use?
i don't need your grace, you can save yourself
I've wished for those wings you were born with
in my selfish ways
stumbling every time, stumbling, stumbling

you knew me back then

i can't fly but i 
need a moment to see
in this clarity
someone believes in me
i hold on to the cracks and try to believe
to believe

i can't fly but i 
need a moment to see
in this clarity
someone believes in me
i hold on to the cracks and try to believe
to believe

carpe diem avem

The world made you forget

Illusion

Paguei Pra Ver

Deep in his heart a quiet fire was turning,
a flame that rose with every breath he knew.
Born from a spark that kept its ancient yearning,
a glow from distant ages shining through.

There was a time the waters flowed around him,
a gentle tide that carried him unseen.
From the davak came an ember softly rising,
a secret light that kept his spirit clean.

It grew into a fire ever clearer,
a truth that called him onward through the night,
a whisper like a voice that drew him nearer,
a flame within a flame of guiding light.

Zion, the flame that calls him higher.
Zion, the rising of his soul.
Zion, the never ending fire.
Zion, the name that makes him whole.

He walked the world with quiet steps of longing,
the hidden glow still burning in his chest.
No night could steal the path his heart was drawing,
no storm could take the fire from its rest.

A thousand roads that offered him direction,
a thousand voices pulling him aside,
yet all fell silent in the true reflection
of one flame rising like a tide.

Zion, the flame that calls him higher.
Zion, the rising of his soul.
Zion, the never ending fire.
Zion, the name that makes him whole.

In deepest night he felt the quiet wonder,
a distant oath he never could deny.
A guiding light that split the darkness under,
more steady than the stars above the sky.

The ember grew into a flood of fire,
a power born beyond the touch of fear.
It called his heart with ever growing desire,
a voice that drew him year by year.

He felt the sand beneath his steps awaken,
a path unfolding where no path had been.
And when the waves before him rose unshaken,
they opened wide and let the light walk in.

For forty years he wandered through revelation,
through desert winds and secrets of the divine,
each step a whisper of a hidden nation,
each dawn a sign that he was held by time.

And on the mountain crowned with ancient thunder,
he felt the earth fall silent at his hands.
The fire spoke in words that split the wonder,
a law of light that every soul withstands.

He carried down the tablets born of fire,
the covenant that shone through dust and stone,
a truth that called his spirit ever higher,
a guiding voice that claimed him as its own.

For when his soul grew weary on the journey,
and every distant road seemed cold and wide,
the ancient spark returned in quiet mercy,
the light of Zion burning at his side.

He saw a mountain shining with a fire,
a radiant call no mortal could ignore.
The flame within revealed his true desire,
a destiny that opened like a door.

Zion, the flame that calls him higher.
Zion, the rising of his soul.
Zion, the never ending fire.
Zion, the name that makes him whole.

Zion, eternal fire within him.
Zion, the truth his heart recalls.
Zion, the light that will not fail him.
Zion, forever when night falls.

dont be so full of yourself (demo)

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