mixed and mastered by me
beats made by:
acey
ryan kelly

lyrics

if i ask you for another just say no
ill forgive you in the morning
i dont wanna embarrass myself like i did last year on my birthday
its hard finding friends now that im old
everybodys at their real jobs
while im having trouble falling asleep if i dont have anything in my system
and i love you
so much that i hate everything else
and i know ill feel better tomorrow but thats like a million years from now

you said its all about perspective
well im trying to stand at the angle that you want me
wash dirty laundry with your makeup on it
and youre so sensitive so ill try to say it in a way where youll still love me
baby watch me while i attempt to make a love song for you
i got a second pair of headphones so that you can listen to
but you fall asleep on your phone and i end up trashing the whole thing
and im so focused on myself
today lets do what you want to do
ill face everything ive felt
if it means that i could feel you

hope i drink enough tonight that im excited about tomorrow
i drove home less sober than i shouldve been
in hopes that you would follow
i think of everything in life
and why its still so hard to fit in
if we dont have to much time why does it move so fast when im blinking

you said its all about perspective
well im trying to stand at the angle that you want me
wash dirty laundry with your makeup on it
and youre so sensitive so ill try to say it in a way where youll still love me
baby watch me while i attempt to make a love song for you
i got a second pair of headphones so that you can listen to
but you fall asleep on your phone and i end up trashing the whole thing
and im so focused on myself
today lets do what you want to do
ill face everything ive felt
if it means that i could feel you

estate sale (p. acey)

sharpen the blade w/ re: (yunnygoldz)

closure w/ ezra [prod. dercept x jkei]

took me a bit to make this, but it was a ton of fun to experiment with some new sounds. s/o hero for teaching me about formant shifting /o/ 
I'm gonna try and release 2 songs next month, no guarantee though c:

lyrics:

I would lift your head when the water’s high
I would wrap your hands when you’re cold at night
lay flat on the ground so I break your fall
And I would be alright
I wouldn’t mind at all
I would move the sun when it blinds your sight
I would shoulder your weight and still stand upright
mutilate my body if my skin’s not right for you
if you were by my side 
I’d die for you
  
So I tear myself apart everyday that’s fine
I know that every piece ends up entwined
with my hands tracing slowly up up spine
sewing threads so tight they won’t unwind
I

wanna know
have you ever tried to be
anything more than what you’re trying to be
need to know 
if you’ve ever tried to see
everything that I can see

I could be a shipwreck washed ashore
I could be approaching meteors
I could be somebody’s last resort
Did I ever tell you that
that

Iiiii
will love you like I know to
castle in the sky 
baby I think we should float too
I’m barely alive
but for you I wanna pull through
if you were my ride or die
there’d be so much I could show you

I would lift your head when the water’s high
I would wrap your hands when you’re cold at night
lay flat in the dirt so I break your fall
And I would be alright  
I wouldn’t mind at all
I would move the sun when it blinds your sight
I would shoulder your weight and still stand upright
mutilate my body if my skin’s not right for you
if you were by my side
I’d die for you

I could be a shipwreck washed ashore
I could be approaching meteors
I could be somebody’s last resort
Did I ever tell you that before?

break your fall (empty roads)

"one day we gon be okay baby just stay"
i can hear just how you told me like its yesterday
ill be sure to send my love from the cosmos
i guess lately its just been harder hitting high notes
i guess lately its just been easier to let my mind go
i guess lately im feeling bad bout dragging you along

cuz i dont want to see you at the bottom
and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

but i cant make you smile
havent seen those pearly whites girl whats got you down
we can live another life if we leave this town
one day i can make it right one day youll be proud
in the passenger seat found my reason in the stars
i got holes in my jeans you got anger in your heart
its not as easy as it seems so i try to play my part
control alt then you deleted me im back here at the start
i got bad lungs one more cigarette
another sad song posted on the internet
i guess its not fun tell myself im not upset
when the days done find a place to lay my head
from the day we met swore to be my best
we both know the fire started when you call my friends
now im only feeling sorry for the shit i said
one day imma be a star im just not shining yet

and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

denim w/ halfhearted (p. under the maple tree)

one take; last "dylan" track<3 luv you

feel attacked when they ask if medication been helping lately;
texting back feel a task, and "i hate it" started sounding lazy, but
half awake, drained, sleep in late, daylight hate me
they like my music that way, may likely keep it
elegy-writing every piece, and keep siphoning feelings
from old lined pages of my mom’s, i’d recycled her meanings
would resurrect her for 1 minute, sum speaking is needed
it’s sum shit to address
like “you really left me alive? i been battling demons”
“so why you allotted freedom? i aint even there to see it”
“i still love you to death”
“and i still cry to your ashes at home, i doubt you even hear it”
“i doubt ur even here”
“see least you get sum sleep now, if only when u rest” 
i’ll wait another year, just had 2 fade that off the chest
“shizukesa” stays afloat until my date of death
create the music until then, but still i’m playing chess
input my suicide note into something second guessed
until i split the wrists and crimson start to coalesce 
until i’m nothing left

sleight of hand, sight of mine sliding skin
midas, my girl's golden touch heal my sin
might as well pray for 1 day that this bliss
should never evaporate, nor up and dip
real shit
that's real shit
shizu

dylan p3 (urban)

fire in my lungs
the ladder on my tounge
its the only thing that keeps me holding on
when pushing leads to shove
theres something bout your love
it’s the only thing that keeps me holding on
do anything to make us numb 
you’re smart enough to know that’s dumb
my head spinning round like what is going on?
you hate when i make those songs
but it’s just me moving on
take the time heal but healing takes so long

it keeps me holding on
take the photo to remember you my memory ain’t great
all the time you wasted cuz i always show up late
police right behind me every time i switch the lane
i know you doubt me you think everything is fake
said im in love but you can’t see it on my face

fire in my lungs
the ladder on my tounge
its the only thing that keeps me holding on
when pushing leads to shove
theres something bout your love
it’s the only thing that keeps me holding on
do anything to make us numb 
you’re smart enough to know that’s dumb
my head spinning round like what is going on?
you hate when i make those songs
but it’s just me moving on
take the time heal but healing takes so long

fire in my lungs // holding on (mew2)

lyrics ⬇️

out my face wit all that negative talk cuz i dont want it
u would fold if you had felt like this for even just a minute
oh i promise you that
i wish that you would just admit it
i know that its been bad but i blame you cuz ur acidic
ion even understand why u always steady trippin on me i feel the shame
cuz somehow you got rid of me
and its alright
Cuz ima see the better me in the next life

your talkin bout my timeline i think ima cry
i dont wanna fear all things i love in life
it dont just appear when ur sleeping over night
nah nah gotta work for it a lot
and i wish that i could tell u that im finna stop soon but im not
cuz i dont think that you understand all i have to lose
its a lot

run it up cuz i fear im at the ending of my life
i dont know whats coming next but i know i cant rewind
i cant show that im upset if i do then u gon cry
i know that i been real blessed but i still been feelin blind

buncha random shi-
(LEMME GO)

try to make em proud but everything i do i dont
u never know what im finna do alone
every single thing i know u do not condone
i would try to fix it but its really jus too broke
every single bone every single choke
every single throw of a punch that i dont
maybe itll mean one day that ill get exposed
maybe if i did then i would grow

mama i been feelin low
can u can u please let me leave home
yea i dont wanna be here
let me just show you one more tear
maybe i just wanna be alone
maybe i dont wanna hear ur tone
maybe i dont wanna call u back 
cuz even if i did i know that you wont atone
i dont wanna check my phone

fire in my lungs // holding on (mew2)

kiddamo