New song “TENSE” featuring Indii G. 
Apart of the “Sunsets and Heartbreaks” EP

-lyrics-
I’ve down on my luck
So long I can’t think straight 
You put all the pressure on me
It’s exhausting 
But you know just how I feel
It was never really real
I could never really deal
Baby it’s so tense 
We just need to take a chill
I just wanna know how it’s going 
Cause I don’t think this is blowing over

So tense 
Leave it in the past tense 
I don’t know why you’re talking 
Like we’re still friends 
So dark 
Like I got a new tint 
Oh when we talk 
All you do is vent 

I can still feel the tension 
It’s all inside the room
Lost inside your conviction 
It’s all I can do
I can still feel the heartbreak
You never tell the truth 
I can still feel the headache 
Of who I thought was you 
Who I thought was you oo
Who I thought was, you oh oh oh yeah

I’ve been down, you’ve been coming right back 
Say you know me like that
Do you know I’m thinking
Just my luck you’d show me who you are sometimes 
Right
I told you you should let me float away
I want to but you see me in the day light
It’s unfortunate you’ll think of me that way
But everyday it seems more like a cage fight

So tense 
Leave it in the past tense 
I don’t know why you’re talking 
Like we’re still friends 
So dark 
like I got a new tint 
Why when we talk 
All you do is vent 

I can still feel the tension 
It’s all inside the room
Lost inside your conviction 
It’s all I can do
I can still feel the heartbreak
You never tell the truth 
I can still feel the headache 
Of who I thought was you 
Of who I thought was you 
Who I thought was you oo
Who I thought was, you oh oh oh yeah

Produced by Cian
Mix by Yago & Indii G.
Master by Kanashi

Stream on Spotify!

TENSE (feat. Indii G.) [prod. cian]

Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @splashgvng & @overthro
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
You said this was for the best and I'd
Feel better once I got some rest
You lied
I thought that sobriety would bring me peace of mind
It's not

I couldn't be more wrong
Turns out I need a crutch to lean on
Without it I'm too fucked up
Despite my pride
I know I need help
Surely I'm too young to die
I'm too traumatized to think rationally
Like why do bad things always happen to me
You cut ties and turned your back to leave
I really thought that it'd be hard for you

(sendflowrs)
I'll be honest really thought that it'd be hard for you 
I even stopped my friends smoking in my car for you
I know you hate it when I'm faded
That's the shit I lean on
And I'm sippin' care plus until my blood turns neon 

Never thought that it would happen to me
You just told me I'm a fool and stabbed my back and then leave
And I don't wanna hear your voice no more just close your teeth
And I been feelin' hella wavy so just get off me 

You make it seem so easy
Turning your back on me

Listen on Spotify!

Too Young to Die w/ sendflowrs (Prod. Splashgvng & overthro)

my second full length album, dearly departing

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
artwork by @/ashleydhe on instagram

featuring:
@cherryrizla
@betweentheveinsandi
@ejcarrmusic

additional production by:
@irby314
@user-757072975
@taylor
@sainttomorrow
@pekarot_161

thank you all for everything. i hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:
i press pause & rewind
it all feels like a movie
maybe thats how i kill time
i swear its amusing
i make a victim of myself
& im crying to no one
its a cycle of nature,
and i live in darkness,
no moon & no sun 

i hope this reads like a letter
whenever you hear it
nothing would make me feel better
than knowing u feel it too
this island it paints me blue
sincerely, it’s cause of u
the way the leaves they hold me
it almost feels like u got to know me 

[evan]
wave after wave 
and i’ve been drowning in a sea of my own thoughts
a clear image of everything i’m not 
hold on and hope it’s not a lot

i know this too well 
here reading the same old story 
i’m stuck in this cycle 
all i can do is wonder if 

are you coming to save me 
i’m empty 
pull me out of the shit that’s preventing me
is it too late to get out of this 
draw my name in the sand are you coming to save me 

are you coming to save me 
am i coming to save me
i put it all line 
draw my name in the sand 
are you coming to save me

stream everywhere!

VIII. sincerely (ft. evan carr) [jolst x pekarot]

lyrics

im just sitting at the bus stop while its pouring 
wishing u were here
waiting for a call before im off to the middle nowhere

even tho my mind is numb
still u swirl around in my head
the idea of being broken’s more calming than u in my bed

ohhh i thought that what we had was something special 
i guess i was wrong
i leaned all of my in to ur arms and then u let me drop

even tho my mind is numb
still u swirl around in my head
the idea of being broken’s more calming than u in my bed

im fucking drenched now 
and u just gonna let me rot

drenched (rez productions)

Prod @horoshavibes & @kingtheta
Featuring @1endie
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
I'm a recluse
I've been spending too much time inside my bedroom
Ask me and I'll say I'm fine but that is not true
I'm staying quarantined from everyone who cares for me
 
'Cause they could never really get it
I'm not shy
I'm just staying independent
I have trouble letting people in
Ask me what's my problem
Where do I begin
 
I'm a recluse
I've been spending too much time inside my bedroom
Ask me and I'll say I'm fine but that is not true
I won't even try to hide that I don't want to socialize
'Cause I'm a wreck
I'm a recluse
 
Three days in the same shirt
What's the point of waking up if I don't gotta work
Check my phone
No missed calls
At this point I'm convinced
No one'd miss me at all
 
(Endie)
I love and hate my youth for someone like you
And you know that I don't write
My feelings for you in a notebook
A journal
Trying not to fall for
Someone like you
‘Cause you’re all I know
And you're all I want

Recluse w/ Endie (Prod. Horosha & King Theta)

somewhere you’ve abandoned

worry 'bout urself w/Bmurph [+gaxillic]

Track 9 on my album 'for better or worse'!

produced by @livingpuffy 

Lyrics:
grey skies through bloodshot eyes 
i still can’t feel a thing but at least i’m trying 
take me there to a place i’m not terrified 
can you see in my face all the black and blue i hide 
it takes a toll when you walk in circles 
working miracles just to find a new low 

when you found me 
i had nowhere to hide 
broken felt dead inside 
transparence amplified
took the long way 
to find a reason why
needing to rectify 
strung out from taking my time 
ill call it bad but youll call it luck 
meet in the middle shake off this rut 
that i’ll kick when i find my place 
when you found me 
you caught me in my fall 
had nothing left to give 
so i gave you my all 

start to think that maybe i’m colorblind 
pull the shades feel the light as i try to remind myself through the fear and doubt
what it’s like to be strong when the lights go out
but maybe i’m wrong and maybe you’re right 
that we’re not all gone to win a desperate fight
and i know that 
it’s beginning
if you’re with me
then i’m winning

when you found me [prod. LIVING PUFF]

(prodbylxcid)

i don't need two hands 
driving in this whip without you still feels lonely
i wanna make 100 grand 
i wanna get you Cartier rings and rollie
your a bad b i'll do it for you 
and i swear that im all my grind just for you 
i only got one life 
so i booked this table for two

your the diamond on my earth yh
your the pearl of my sea 
lets climb all these mountains with you by my side 
im been driving in Calvin's all day that's vibe 

you got my back and i got your back too 
rolls Royce Cullinan stars in the roof 
green eyes i swear i fell in love with them 
your not a 9 girl, your a straight 10 

you call me up and ill be there in 5 
look at my watch and i'm stood there on time 
you looking gorgeous you looking all mine 
Cartier rings and rollie 
i need the Benz need to ball like im Kobe
cut all my friends off
no movement they're frozen 
im in the lead like im cheating im doping 
i need to look back and saver the moment 

your the diamond on my earth yh
your the pearl of my sea 
lets climb all these mountains with you by my side 
I'm been driving in Calvin's all day that's vibe 

i don't need two hands 
driving in this whip without you still feels lonely
i wanna make 100 grand 
i wanna get you Cartier rings and rollie
your a bad b i'll do it for you 
and i swear that im all my grind just for you 
i only got one life 
so i booked this table for two

i push the beta shit up of my chest 
ive been grinding week days week ends and the next
grinding for the cash 
cause i just want bad 
wanna buy you a diamond ring and a Prada bag

driving in this whip without you still feels lonely

prod iof and me
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/kanashi/i-dont-think-itll-ever-be-okay-3
lyrics:
im like, dadadada, like dadadadada

i dont think that ill ever be okay
i just sit inside and overthink
like everyday...
every single day
and its kinda gettin old to me
and the older that i get 
the more that i regret everything
everything that ive ever done
all the times that i had to collect my things and run...away
from ppl that dont mean the things that they say
they say...
they dont mean the thing that they say

and i know that ill never feel
the same as i did
way back when i was 
a stupid naive kid...(so stupid)
cuz oh my god i wish i could go back
with what i know now...
im followed by these black clouds
and life never seems to slow down
thats why i rely on drugs now
thats why i sit at home and make these sounds
i dont think that itll ever be okay again...

i dont think itll ever be okay
and it feels like im runnin out of things to say
and im feelin' worse like every single day
and i dont know why i even try anymore
its like the thoughts inside my brain
and my heart are at war...

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i don't think it'll ever be okay...

~2300~

Lyrics:
Eye's on my back
I wanted that
Moments lapse
And I collapse
So you can run and tell your friends
That i'm mental
All the words they use to keep it simple
Paranoid they're watching through the window
Hard to quantify the times I've missed you
Sift through the gore
Red on the floor
Beg me for more
Learned to sleep through the violence now
You let me down

Lot of old friends they don't wanna shake up
When I walk in all I get is fake love
Cut the grass saw the snakes on the way up
Try to code switch on me when the light's off
Lot of new friends hit me when they want sumn
Fake an ego trip i'm really on one
Was it dumb luck
Fell in with the wrong ones
Know why i'm still hung up on what it once was

And if you really bout it you can show me
One foot out of the door in case you're right
No use trying to force it i'll be fine
It seems you've finished your portion of my life

false-hearted

ºAlternative Indie Pop, Mixed with late 2000s Emo/Sad, even Pop Punk, Lofi/Acoustic <3
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