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produced by zoltar

lyrics:

i cannot withstand the shaking hands and fraud endearments
it's like this was your plan, how fucking dare you think i'm over this?
never could just talk to me, get off of me, don't give me shit
gave you all i got and that's a lot, i hope you hear this

settled for complacency but i could not just wait and see
if you'd come around and talk about yourself eventually
but you chose to hide and seek, you hate the vulnerability
and you chose to cut and run, i hope you get what i received

even though i'm out my element
i don't think that i can just forget
when we fell into the deep end
cannot believe that you tried to be friends
i just wanna be a better man
wading through all of the mud again
how does one build with an idle hand?
i'll be okay 'cause i know how this ends

you said you were falling for me
but when i spoke all my feelings
you just sat there and ignored me
used to chaos, peace is boring

i got so tired of tryna justify you
you let the ghost of rejection mortify you
seldom shared a shred of empathy
you emptied me
i fought for us so hard
but i can't fix immaturity

you said i was different from all of the other guys,
then why did you treat me the same as every other guy?
have you stopped to think that maybe you're the problem?
'cause i highly doubt that, you don't look inward often

untitled

@55depths
#brokenheartsclub

i wish i could tell you.

lyrics:
i'm lost inside a web again
of all your lies
and if we end it all tonight
i wouldn't be surprised, yeah
can you look me in my eyes
and say you didn't lie
sometimes i'm not surprised
since you are in my life

i've been searching
what's in question
shouldn't have jumped in
learned the lesson
so what happened?
typical fashion
taken for granted
always the last in

just fucking say it
cause i'm waiting for the moment
can you own it up?
just fucking say it
cause i'm waiting for the moment
can you own it up?
and back and forth i fall
but you don't seem to care at all
it's like i'm dying all alone
without a soul to call
just fucking say it
cause i'm waiting for the moment
can you own it up?

what happened?

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

i'd be hard pressed to find
a single ounce of peace of mind
i always miss the exit signs
we push and pull and we feel alive

you kept me safe and you killed my sorrow
you eased my pain, but i don't want my heart broke
i wanna stay until i'm feeling better
'cause you are the fire and i'm just an ember

but she radiates her soul
she wears her heart atop her sleeve
i think her eyes have got a hold
on my entire reality
and she's got eyes that could deceive
so i'm still waiting patiently
i never thought that i would see
the soothing of my sanity

but i'm not the one that you need
i've got flaws that you cannot see
i don't think you really know me
i'm a fraud in sheep's clothing

if you must die, i'll envy even the earth that wraps your body

thx @777evil & @nokerbforever <3

Life is alway changing, youll find a new perspective
Im sorry that i did this, but that shits not respected
fucked up once we let it go, you fuck up twice and then it shows
That you never changed, and you never will
in me builds the rage, to the point where i could kill
put a bullet in your chest, watch the blood pour out and spill
I trusted you, you gave me nothing, i shouldve known, you were up to something
A second chance, we deserve it all, but people like you, put us all at fault
And theres nothing i could say, you didnt learn your lesson
Forgave you the first time, but i cant do a second

Choices fall, into a sick shape
Reminisce the times we fixate
On our broken souls
Swear i let it go
Every fucking second
But your failure it shows

evilmiku:
i can’t keep up with every single change
you try to make everything bad a game
all of these thoughts you planted in my brain
but i won’t go down from anything you say

NOKERB:
you would always pressure me to get shit done
lately i been wondering if this is all worth it
wasted my time on you, thought it was perfect
it was not, you was treating me so worthless
i wonder how long it all will last.. 
the choices fell!
you was treating me like trash
im on the edge of falling down
baby im about to jump

choices fall ft. evilmiku & NOKERB [prod. saint mike]

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

the waiting game's begun 
so i can't talk a lot
she's got it figured out
while i'm left in the dark
there's no escaping me
i'm bound to my own fears
'cause this is who i am 
i've been like this for years

do you think that i'll change?
'cause i'm so scared i won't
i know it's up to me
but i can't be on my own
affliction takes ahold
and punctures through my face
i wanna hide my soul
but i can't erase mistakes

dysregulation in the dome 
disadvantaged and alone 
nobody ever checks on me
'cause they know i'm out of hope
why do i take up this space? 
i'm not worthy, i'm afraid
how can i make it more clear that
i'm never really okay?

right from the start, i was a mess 
there was no saving me 
i took it all straight to the heart 
now i've got jealousy
the greenest eyes you've ever seen
staring carefully
i'm sorry that i'm not that strong 
my heart forsakens thee

uncertainty has guaranteed my futility
i'm like a tree stuck in the dark 
suffering and steep 
and while i'm stuck behind a screen 
there's no agency
i've come to realize i'm not free 
there is no release

i came on too strong 
but how is that wrong?
i can't help it if i have a heart
that's full of love
fuck what they all say 
i'm borderline insane
i wouldn't get close to me
if i were you, i'd run away

i'm a liability
i burden those close to me 
don't you ever feel like you're the
only one who's lost at sea?
reading all your messages 
feel the sting inside my chest 
pace around my room until i
write off every word you said

even if i was found dead
i'd hope that you won't regret 
everything you never said
i don't want that in your head

at the end of the day 
i still care about you
regardless of our statuses
i know you'll find truth
the boundaries we put in place
will keep us en route 
we all change, but honestly 
we can't forget our roots

-----

anima

lyrics:
im scared to open up
can i just take a month?
ill come back when im done
to you
irregular approach
a jester with no jokes
and im left more confused

fazed by the daylight
take time to make time
or shut it all out

uncomfortable silence is all i can hear
when i close my eyelids nothing disappears
thought i was behind it, but i guess its still here
thats the way it goes

thats the way it goes

[LYRICS]
there’s blood in my mouth i’m licking it up 
you wanna go down but i don’t give a fuck
no you better be you better be you better be

sleeping with your eyes wide open 
leave ‘em in the dirt while he choking
and i got my knives out showing
cut you in the throat i ain’t joking
lay my bones down to rest
no i don’t like when you flex 
i’ll snatch that chain off ur chest
i’ll put it on when i’m next 

one shot is all i got
i’m not bout to drop 
everything that i’ve been
fighting so hard for 
look at me now you said 
i’m just an eyesore 
100 rounds, when we show
i think it’s time you pay me back what u owe
i told u a hundred times, u should know
now u leakin bloody red on the snow
@nokerbforever :
tear my heart out cause i don't think that u know now
all the things you've done they fucked me up bad 
i'm just having fun, shoot around with my gun
i can see u wanna run, i just wanna see u down
cause i'm running with my knife, cut
yeah that bitch is all talk
tell that hoe to shut up
i don't wanna hear u talk
yeah we're about to have a one on one
imma shut you up real fast
clearly u dont wanna fight
i feel so undone
i don't think that u know
but my heart's made of stone
and u just tore it down
tearing it down
i can hear u loud
u got a long tongue
to step on

sleeping with your eyes wide open 
leave ‘em in the dirt while he choking
and i got my knives out showing
cut you in the throat i ain’t joking
lay my bones down to rest
no i don’t like when you flex 
i’ll snatch that chain off ur chest
i’ll put it on when i’m next 

mastered by kerby :3
thank you guys for listening you rock! <3 ^-^

EYESORE

EYESORE w/ NOKERB [Rapsy Beats]

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

bleed out 
separated from all the tension
seek doubt
disregarded their good intentions
sleep now 
you inflated all my distortions
breathe out
i won't let you say something morbid

we could argue all we want, but we both know we're splitting hairs
seems like nowadays we're stuck indulging and nobody cares
 addicted to convenience while these corporations take a share 
take on my perspective and then we'll see how you really fare

i've been misshapen 
beaten down and hated
 i don't deserve this
 light keeps on fading
 i've been wasting myself tryna pick up the mess
 all the feelings i harbored, they won't lay to rest
 so i thought of your face, now i can't go to bed
 i still have your t-shirt, it's the one that you said
 would look better on me, but despite your regret
 i think you looked lovely, now i can't decompress

i could never put you into words 'cause i feared
 that it wouldn't be good enough
 i think it's clear
 the dependency issues that i've displayed here
 and it's frightening i haven't loved no one in years

this shit is making me sick 
but i'm tapped the fuck in
 steady zoning out in front of my monitor like a kid
 now you can't take no offense
 but are you that fucking dense?
 my brain is growing pretty tired
 from all of your shitty friends

-----

newton's flaming laser sword

produced/mixed/mastered by zoltar

lyrics:

well i feel fake
don't know what i want
'cause everyday feels all the same
i'm right where you want me
complacent, but lonely
i'm ashamed

i'll go for days without talking at all
confined to my room while i stare at the wall
trying to muster the courage to talk
but i'm too afraid so i'm writing it all
you think i'm annoying
well i think you're right
i feel like i know you from another life
i cannot fathom what i feel inside
forget about me, i'm just another guy

but try waking up with a chest full of nothing
my body's been begging for something of substance
this chip on my shoulder is just getting older
and i swear to god that if i had the chance
i would take back the seconds i already wasted
all of the pain that i haven't faced yet
the taste of defeat, the taste of the pavement
gotta retreat, but no one will save him

replacing my own thoughts with love, but my hope's lost
i feel like i'm reaching for something that's long gone
i'm stuck on this chapter
she's reading with laughter
embarrassed, but i'll sanctify
my struggles in little time
breaking my back trying to fix you up
i'm so sorry that i wasn't enough
the cards you were dealt
broke the heart that you held
there's no one to blame
so i'll point at myself

well that's fine
i know i can't go through that
unwind the vines pulling you right back
sit tight, address the problems you have
aggression's making me see all black
i need a heart that can function and can be patient
too bad the strings that attach are always fraying
you think i like being anxious and always shaking?
i licked these wounds on my own
don't need your saving


-----

red 40 blues

OXYGEN (prod. singleway)

Lyrics:

Yeah im wishin you the best
But in the same breath i don't
Cause i feel it in my chest
That i could never really cope
The trauma bond you have wrapped round my fingers
I let them go but they always seem to linger
Sinking deep into the puddle that i built myself
Your holding onto me like im a doll sat on your shelf 

I don't wanna say your mine
I don't wanna say it's fine
Holding onto you like i'm an addict that has crossed the line
Feel like i am losing time
Get me off this fucking ride
Holding onto you like i'm an addict that enjoys the high
But i don't
No i don't

I wish i never met you
Its easier said than done
Would i be saying the same shit
If i was the one who was left on top
The trauma bond you have wrapped round my fingers
I let them go but they always seem to linger
Sinking deep into the puddle that i built myself
Your holding onto me like im a doll sat on your shelf 

I don't wanna say your mine
I don't wanna say it's fine
Holding onto you like i'm an addict that has crossed the line
Feel like i am losing time
Get me off this fucking ride
Holding onto you like i'm an addict that enjoys the high
But i don't
No i don't

Holding onto you like i'm an addict that has crossed the line
Holding onto you like i'm an addict that enjoys the high

newton's flaming laser sword

zoltar

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