Hate for myself

roses (+prodbykg + yeezo)

Producer Credits : Andy Sorenson & whxami

save yourself

KILLING ME

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https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/belak/13-reasons-why

vocals, mixing, & mastering by me
produced by yungspoiler

Lyrics:

if you opened my chest up, would it be an empty cave?
or a fire burning with passion?
if you opened my head up, would it be the greenest grass?
or the flowers dying?

quit overthinking, i got 13 reasons
why i cant tell you whats eating me from the inside out
i went out drinking, threw up on the bedsheets at the Four Seasons
everythings falling around me
i feel like im fucking drowning

when you open my chest up
can you find a reason to live
or am i just another mistake?
when you open my head up
am i standing on the edge of the bridge
looking down below?

quit overthinking, i got 13 reasons
why i cant tell you whats eating me from the inside out
i went out drinking, threw up on the bedsheets at the Four Seasons
everythings falling around me
i feel like im fucking drowning
x3

13 Reasons Why

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From the Album "Outsider" by CHRIS RAIN
more CHRIS RAIN:
linktr.ee/chrisrain

OUTSIDER

SPOTIFY

NEVER TRUST (Prod. Pacific)

A Thousand Hearts (feat. s0cliché)

temporary

temporary (prod. drma x mcx)

MIA (prod. Luke Mara)

Street gospel.

Neva Eva

Missing

Taken from the album Ratrose


I built this by myself yeah,
I see that you’re looking here
Deep in my eyes, it’s what I see
I know it’s me that you fear

Looking back at me, looking back at me yeah,
Watch me make my moves, watch me break you on the stage yeah
Push it back to me, push it back to me 
Cus I’m thinking that I hate, thinking, thinking that I hate ya

You don’t really wanna know about this, 
it’s just the jealousy that builds, I know you envy me for real bitch 
cus I produce by myself, I never asked you for help
I’m with my river city homies and we’re chilling in hell

I’m living cheque to cheque right now but I’m gonna change
You’re gonna see me rise up, so remember the name
I’m just that piece of shit that you knew was sad
I have a bad reputation for always losing patience

Sending abusive messages to me when your drunk man
Tried to cut you cus you were so toxic
Dragging me, dragging me, dragging me fucking down
You’re saying all this fucking bullshit, but did you ever really know me, yeah

I cut you out of my head, 
you love it there; you want me dead
you claim I owe you so much,
yeah, you’re still a fucking joke

I built this by myself yeah,
I see that you’re looking here
Deep in my eyes, it’s what I see
I know it’s me that you fear

Looking back at me, looking back at me yeah,
Watch me make my moves, watch me break you on the stage yeah
Push it back to me, push it back to me 
Cus I’m thinking that I hate, thinking, thinking that I hate ya

flash hit my eyes and I just fade out
another blunt down and ill just sink in my doubts
you came up to me and said I wasn't real
just a hallucination to cut you open when you wanna feel

something more than this hate inside, yeah
cutting when your brains fried I know you don’t feel alive
fading and fading into the background here I go
losing my ways when you say its all for show

sending abusive messages to me when your drunk man
Tried to cut you cus you were so toxic
Dragging me, dragging me, dragging me fucking down
You’re saying all this fucking bullshit, but did you ever really know me, yeah

I cut you out of my head, 
you love it there; you want me dead
you claim I owe you so much,
yeah, you’re still a fucking bitch

I built this by myself yeah,
I see that you’re looking here
Deep in my eyes, it’s what I see
I know it’s me that you fear

Looking back at me, looking back at me yeah,
Watch me make my moves, watch me break you on the stage yeah
Push it back to me, push it back to me 
Cus I’m thinking that I hate, thinking, thinking that I hate ya

fear

Nauseous Feat.Mishaal (prod.capsctrl)

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Lyrics:

[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

[verse1]
fuckin' hell
Im not well
Trusted you
And then I fell

So afraid
I'm awake
Friends' like who?
Cause ya'll so fake

I might break
Then remake
Save my heart
From all the ache

Got my blade
I might fade
3 more lines
I wish you stayed


I'm so fed, no longer full
On every lie that you pull
Strings from above I'm their fool
Mastermind drowned in the pool 


[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

[verse2]
You hate the way I numb my pain
I've hung myself inside your brain
An ornament for severing
The insecurities I'll bring

Bestow upon me gifts in vein
I'd follow you into the rain
But now you've gone and I'm insane
And you're the reason I'm to blame

It's suffocating not knowing where you lie
Awake I'm waiting for all to be made right
It's hard to believe me when I say that I'm alright
I live every day but I don't feel like I'm alive


[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

Health Issues (prod. Bartes)

Lyrics: 
(NIKKO)
She keep stabbing into my heart
But you cant stab my love away
Knew she was evil from the damn start
She would dance on my fucking grave
If you a demon show your damn claws
And I'll introduce the blood to fang
Under the moon you look the best darling
I just cant get our love to break
She keep stabbing into my heart
But you cant stab my love away
Knew she was evil from the damn start
She would dance on my fucking grave
If you a demon show your damn claws
And I'll introduce the blood to fang
Under the moon you look the best darling
I just cant get our love to break
(Sace)
And baby when did I
Get lost in my ways
And she the selfish type
She dragging claws through my veins
But who am I to judge from her appearance
I just knew I should've sensed it off a single disappearance
She get lost in the rain
And she can see her vision shifting
She got claws horns and fangs
But I can never tell the difference cause it's
Knew she was evil from the damn start
And I just came from a lonely place
If you a demon show your damn flaws
And tell me how I'm supposed tom walk away
And shawty like a fallen angel
Leaning on my shoulder
I dont even see a halo
Shawty stole my heart and I been feeling like its fatal
How am I supposed to run if I cant even keep it stable
(NIKKO)
She got my heart like its zip tied
Shawty from hell why she been fye
Ride on my dick like a zipline
Love it gon crash like a riptide
All in my head like she in mine
Penis hit stomach I'm inside
Smoke on that bitch how I get high
She out of tears why she dont cry
My whip the color of cinnamon
All in her mouth like a dentist is
Black in the blood yeah its venomous
She wanna sit on my Vetements
She wanna sit on my dick
K
Way that she love fucking torture
Shawty want fuck I cant pay for abortion hey
Knife in my stomach she force it
Shawty a witch I'm a muhfucking sorcerer yuh

She keep stabbing into my heart
But you cant stab my love away
Knew she was evil from the damn start
She would dance on my fucking grave
If you a demon show your damn claws
And I'll introduce the blood to fang
Under the moon you look the best darling
I just cant get our love to break
She keep stabbing into my heart
But you cant stab my love away
Knew she was evil from the damn start
She would dance on my fucking grave
If you a demon show your damn claws
And I'll introduce the blood to fang
Under the moon you look the best darling
I just cant get our love to break

Mazikeen (feat. sace6)

i can't decide why i'm alive [prod. sorrow bringer]

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Nauseous Feat.Mishaal (prod.capsctrl)

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