This is my second official album called "Why Do I Even Try" I have been making this album since late march of 2022 

This was an ambitious project making it a mostly collab album with artists like Yokai Dreams, epitomeoffailure, & emptychest being bigger artists and The other artists are small or close friends of mine I'm glad we all could work together to make this album possible you all are amazing musicians and friends 

As for what this album is about it is about my insecurities, struggles, emotions, and life this year has been full of many ups and downs and music is the way I cope with it all although I think sometimes I should try to figure myself out more and try improving my life I've started the path to success whether it's through music or a job I want to succeed and be happy with my life I don't care about being famous all I want is good friends and family and to do what I love 

And one final thing Shoutout to all the producers as well they all are amazing at what they do

Why Do I Even Try

Visual: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryKXD6O2Q3Q
Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: afterlife & 2001
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork from: Devilman Crybaby (Anime)

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
Life brings hell
I'm feeling it though
Fell right through
I Know the truth
Looking in your eyes
Everything will be alright
As long as we stay alive
Hell with them x4
x2

[Verse]
I'll go berserk in the sewer
Nobody wants to die here
This situation is dire
I'm a liar
Look up and see burning trees
With orange leaves and a red sky
Scared I might die
See weird creatures start to fly
I Start to hear distant screams and cries 
Distant screams and cries
Screams and cries 
Screams and cries 
(Scream)
Trying to find what works
But I will always fall in a ditch of course
Don't wanna be like this
Don't wanna feel like this
But it is just hell
So I'm feeling it

[Bridge]
Falling down into hell
Falling down to hell
Falling down in a well
Falling down in a well
Feels like a cell
Falling down into hell
Feels like a cell

[Chorus]
Life brings hell
I'm feeling it though
Fell right through
I Know the truth
Looking in your eyes
Everything will be alright
As long as we stay alive
Hell with them x4
x2

Hell (Prod. afterlife & 2001)

prod. flesh

lyrics:
double back, all the trouble from the past
who'd have thought that i would last, coulda had a heart attack
none of that, none of that, on the move i up a stat
made it through a quarter year, 22 is one the best
that i had, that i had, tryna balance out the bad
oh my goodness what a task, demons feeding off my back
cardiac, cardiac, miss a beat i'm losing track
tryna keep my cool intact, letting loose and cutting slack

never guessed i'd be proud of myself
out of breath, out of space, so i grounded myself
little steps will never win the race
but i can settle for another place
cause i'm not the best, really outed myself
as long as i can blend into a crowd i'm doing well
cause i'm afraid, and that will never change
fear's the only thing that keep me sane

second guessing everything it's only right it's only life, man
i'm a no one and i'm frightened
time will slip away i hope a memory suffices
stupid games and stupid prizes
scrape all the shake off
i could never, no, no i could never
yet i brace myself for takeoff
never better, no, never been better ever

never guessed i'd be proud of myself
out of breath, out of space, so i grounded myself
little steps will never win the race
but i can settle for another place
cause i'm not the best, really outed myself
as long as i can blend into a crowd i'm doing well
cause i'm afraid, and that will never change
fear's the only thing that keep me sane

little steps

i can sense a lie when you say it to my face
i collect the memories
they take me to a place
far away from home
its a plane i feel okay at
somewhere i can rest my mind
no worries
its my favorite

only hit me up when you want something from me
tried to take my heart
now its under lock and key
you claim to be bored again and im not entertaining
barely still alive and youre killing whats remaining

im okay
i promise
wasnt what you wanted
shouldve known to start with
but thats why i want it

homesick

Featuring: @failure404
Written by: Kurama SD & epitomeoffailure 
Produced by: @sorrow_bringer
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & epitomeoffailure
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork from: Horimiya (Anime)

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
I don't need you
I don't want you
I don't care
It's not fair

[Post-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Give me a time
Give me a sign
Give me a rhyme
Give me some time
Give me a rhyme
Give me a sign

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
Fuck I'm so pissed at you
I don't know what to do
I can't make no fucking stacks
Cause I'm broke as a bitch
I can't get what I want anymore ya ya ya

[Interlude: Kurama SD]
Someday's I just don't know where I belong in this fucking world
Because everybody fucking makes me feel like shit
I get angry, I get pissed
I don't know where I'm supposed to be
What I'm supposed to do
I guess that's all

[Chorus 2: epitomeoffailure]
walking through the forest
i’m not sure where i live
see the trees before us
reflecting from your iris
it’s so clear to me
that you don’t know where we’re going
cause you lie (you lie)

[Post-Chorus: epitomeoffailure]
and that’s fine
cause when i look into your eyes
i know (i know)
that you’ve been wasting my time

[Verse 2: epitomeoffailure]
nothing stays the same
and i already knew that
I've always been blamed
for problems on top of your back
but this is where it ends
you are not my friend
you are not my friend

It's Not Fair w/ epitomeoffailure (Prod. sorrow bringer)

Featuring: @nokerbforever
Written by: Kurama SD & NOKERB
Produced by: jolst & dercept 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & NOKERB
Mastered by: NOKERB
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
Some days I feel like a ghost
Feel like a ghost 
Going crazy in the back of the class 
I never thought anything 
You said was true 
So what the fuck dude 
True 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Verse: Kurama SD]
I fucked up 
I know I did
At least I didn't hide it 
I'm still a letdown 
I'm still a letdown 

Thought I was cool
But I always lose 
Nobody cares 
Who I am 
(WHO I AM) 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Outro: Kurama SD]
Think I know everything 
But I know nothing 
So I fade away

GHOST w/ NOKERB (Prod. jolst & dercept)

Featuring: @yokaidreams 
Written by: Kurama SD & Yokai Dreams
Produced by: grayskies 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & Yokai Dreams 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
(Back off)
Life brings hell 
In the worst ways
Life is pain
(Life is pain)

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
I walk through the burning path
Feels like broken glass
Every step is full of wrath 
The scars are still on my skin
From when you sunk your teeth in
Still I moved on though I'm bleeding 
at least I'm fucking breathing 
Everything is burning to pieces 

[Pre-Chorus: ]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(deep within)

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
Fighting battles 
Its a handful
I'll mange somehow 
(Somehow)

[Verse 2: Kurama SD]
Seeing red everywhere 
Nothing left here but pain to share
U stare in my eyes 
I can't help but glare 
Flames burn on
I can hardly bare 
All this pain

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(Deep within)

[Verse 3: Yokai Dreams] 
act right
if i could act right
i wouldn't be in this situation
for now i need to back off
i need to back off
i think the battle's about to begin
about to begin

[Outro: Kurama SD]
I'll be right 
There

Battles I Can't Win w/ Yokai Dreams (Prod. grayskies)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: afterlife & irby
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

[Verse]
Fucked up on the interstate
I can't escape
From this place
Always on the high way
Pulled up on the drive way
To see my family

[Pre-Chorus]
Family
Last August
(Août dernier)
X2

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

[Bridge]
Dealing with a lot of shit rn
I can't wear no crown
I can't be what you need
I can't find anything
To help me, to save me
From this shit

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

August (Prod. afterlife & irby)

lyrics: 

i think we...
really lost it this time
and suddenly
i can only think of your lips on mine
and i know it hurts...cuz sometimes
things just need letting go...

cuz i tried, talking to you
it only conjures a feeling of impending doom
impending doom....
i tried...to get over you

they say that everything will heal with time
so excuse me if you think im out of line...
for trying my best to move on from you...
from you

cuz i tried talkin to you
it only conjures a feeling of impending doom
impending doom...
i tried...to get over you

i tried...
i tried...

i tried...
i still think of your touch
still think of your touch...
still think of your touch...

impending doom [+jang0 x arcane]

i guess its okay... [+heydium]

crystal clear [kuromee + junoes]

@kennedysucks
prod. fakegod
-
Ice so cold it could heal my wrists
With a blade so big it could cut my lips
Got a van with an AK
If you wanna live better vacate
Heyday
Mayday
Aahh
You wanna talk
You better walk
Spoke with your bitch, and she sucked on my cock
Been through a lot
Still fuck the cops
Rotting away but I'm never gon' stop
How could I stop
Everyone drops dead
Why would I waste it in my bed
Voices residing in my head (head)
One more click and then I'm dead

My time
Has come for high tides
My life
Rots away as I die

I hate the blood, I need some gas
He said I think that I can help
He said how much you wanna cop
I said as much as you can sell
I got a Glock with 30 rounds
and if I take it out my belt
I'll marry 29, out to save the last one for myself
I'm not a killer, but don't push me
I'll try anything once
I'll have your momma wonder why you ain't been calling as much
And you'll be six feet underground, and she gon' look for her son
I give it four to five months before she's digging you up
You a bitch, I never feared another man on this earth
I got an AR
I'm about to show yo ass how it work
'Cuz talking shit will leave yo ass stuck with a mouth full of dirt
Buried alive, bitch, cuz I wanna make sure that it hurts (Kennedy!)

Ice so cold it could heal my wrists
With a band so big it could cut my lips
Got a van with an AK
If you wanna live better vacate
Heyday
Mayday
Aahh
You wanna talk
You better walk
Spoke with your bitch, and she sucked on my cock
Been through a lot
Still fuck the cops
Rotting away but I'm never gon' stop
How could I stop
Everyone drops dead
Why would I waste it in my bed
Voices residing in my head (head)
One more click and then I'm dead

My time
Has come for high tides
My life
Rots away as I die

SPOTIFY

BURIED ALIVE (w/ kennedyxoxo)

mixed/mastered by me 
-
produced by https://soundcloud.com/fantasycamp & https://soundcloud.com/sainttomorrow

asleep in ur arms (fantasy camp + saint tomorrow)

prod by pablo worldwide + jolst
mix & master by @silentcxbin

###LYRICS###
life goes on
no time to be sad 
bite my tongue 
fuck that
no time to be mad 
and you always have a issue 
I could see it in your face 
wtf you hating cabin for ?
cause you don’t feel the same ?
have you laid in the grass 
did the Trees feel safe 
do you have some where 
to call home ?
are you feeling grey? 
have you seen the sunshine 
do it even feel the same 
I just sit in a shame 
while my body rot decay

you a lame get up out my face 
Worried bout my payment 
I just hit the bank 
I leveled up like everyday since
hell rain down, pussy boy 
I’m already aimed in 
1v1 when I’m alone 
I’ll leave ya brain dead,

I fuck it up 
could come in clutch 
if you need me
I’m tryna fly down to LA 
for da weekend 
we know he soft 
he not hard 
he act like cement,

He DOA 
I leave his body 
on the pavement 

new AIM 
just to walk up 
an then spray it 
woke up with a vendetta
on my note list 
I hate going out in public 
cause they’ll notice 
why am I so fucking anxious 
can’t hold it

a thermal scope 
on a SIG
Ima hunt for gold
I catch you walking 
in the road
you getting domed
you all alone
bitch I treat that laser 
like my arm
you ain't making it home
you MIA all along

life goes on
no time to be sad 
bite my tongue 
fuck that
no time to be mad 
and you always have a issue 
I could see it in your face 
wtf you hating cabin for ?
cause you don’t feel the same ?
have you laid in the grass 
did the Trees feel safe 
do you have some where 
to call home ?
are you feeling grey? 
have you seen the sunshine 
do it even feel the same 
I just sit in a shame 
while my body rot decay

la vie suit son court

life goes on (pablo worldwide + jolst)

Puddles of tears are laid across my web
All eight legs take very careful steps
Feel like i'm trapped in my own knots
I know its self sabotage but i can't stop

Ladybugs and butterflies they get it easy
But when i'm around people get uneasy
Even though me and ladybugs are alike
I don't understand what people dislike

world so big i wish i could make it
People try to tell me that i should fake it
But even when i try i still look the same
An eight legged creep with sharp fangs

And if i was red and had spots
Would they still leave me until i rot
I guess ill stay in my spider-utopia
I wish you didn't have Arachnophobia

I'm stuck in my home with nothing to do
wish i could go outside and play with you
But all eight legs are hard to carry
And all the other insects find me really scary

Im soft and delicate and scared of heights
I don't like getting in physical fights
I might seem frightening but i am not
I know its your views it is not my fault

world so big i wish i could make it
People try to tell me that i should fake it
But even when i try i still look the same
An eight legged creep with sharp fangs

And if i was red and had spots
Would they still leave me until i rot
I guess ill stay in my spider-utopia
I wish you didn't have Arachnophobia

Arachnophobia (prod. WHAT?BOY)

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I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

Battles I Can't Win w/ Yokai Dreams (Prod. grayskies)

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