giving my all still wasnt enough,
-+- mix & master, lyrics by me
prod. idly blare -+-
(lyrics)
i been lost again
these thoughts theyre freezing my brain
and the mirror is a portal to take me away
are you gone again?
always when i need you the most
can i call a friend?
or will they all be gone now

what did it really mean?
when you left here from my life,
why is this happening?
tearing me from the inside.
can we restart again?
oh how ive messed up this time
was that my final chance?
i guess youre gone for good now.

and now youre gone for good,
always thought that i am the worst
and its been killing me,
when you speak bad to your friends
i am sorry,
i was never the best
i was trying hard,
i really gave you my all.

made 7/7/2022

what did it really mean anyway (idly blare)

Featuring: @joshiguess & @auby4rc
Written by: Kurama SD, JoshIGuess, & auby
Produced by: moneo 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & auby
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork by: Kurama SD

Lyrics:

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
Farewell to u 
Goodbye to me 
All the things I couldn't be
(I couldn't be)
Passing by in spring 
Strings cut to easy
(Too easy) 
u never needed me
I need time to breathe 
Lost my mind instead 
But I still miss the time we had 

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
I'll miss you
I'm waiting for you still
(Still)
Remember last year
I was crying tears 
So farewell to you
And everyone around here 
Your eyes were beautiful
Like fireworks

[Verse 2: JoshIGuess]
(On the 4th of July)
You had stayed home
We were making out on the couch
Nowadays I just wish you're in the ground
But I found a way to live life 
So I guess it's farewell
They say they don't care 
Well fuck yeah I can tell
Don't got much left to look forward to 
It's just another day 
Where the homies are ignoring you
I'm done with all this drama talk
And everyone Drifting away
(Fuck it I just might move out too)

[Chorus: auby]
I made the bed that i lay in
Please take my hand and say you're staying
If you're gone, I won't get over it
Say farewell to my innocence

I take back the words i said that night
I'm sorry
I'll miss you
don't leave me
I love you
Please hold me

Farewell w/ JoshIGuess & auby (Prod. Moneo)

ill make it up to you if you give me a chance
i dont know if i'll ever be okay again
these wounds you gave they left scars unseen
and i don't think that i'll ever be okay with this
it's atrocious what you did
my whole heart's been broke from this
fight back i tried but i can't take it
you're an expert when you fake it
even though the love's been gone there's still traces

she dont love me anymore
at least thats what i think
cuz i'm not the same anymore
idk if she's okay with this

you say what i did is atrocious i don't remember a thing
i wonder if one day we can start it all over again

oh girl u know i'd like it if you could give me a chance
but i don't care
i'm good on my own
i need me some time to work on myself

gimme the face
or gimme a hug
i just need a fix i don't really need u
i don't got no feels
i'll jump down the hill
but before i'll see if you can get back with me

J'ressens pas grand chose mais c'est sympa d'être à tes côtés
(I don't feel much but its good being by your side)
Me demande pas c'que j'pense certaines questions seront sautées
(don't ask me what i think, some questions won't get answers)

ill make it up to you if you give me a chance
i dont know if i'll ever be okay again
these wounds you gave they left scars unseen
and i don't think that i'll ever be okay with this
it's atrocious what you did
my whole heart's been broke from this
fight back i tried but i can't take it
you're an expert when you fake it
even though the love's been gone there's still traces

give me a chance ft. noxiousnights (mackk)

stared into the abyss, and it stared back.

lyrics:

[verse]
i can not get you out of my whole system cause you’re
stuck here no matter how hard i try to get rid of
your marks they stay here on my skin embedded in flesh
are the words that you said when you vacated
my life
so i’ll keep them close to my heart you’ll see me again
this present tense futures you lost

[hook]
i can’t hold on
i can’t hold on
i can’t hold on
i can’t hold on
i can’t hold on
i can’t hold on
i can’t hold on
i can’t hold on

stream!

the abyss (prod. saint mike)

Featuring by: @l_y_p_i
Written by: Kurama SD & l y p i 
Produced by: @jolst
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & l y p i
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork from: Horimiya 

Lyrics:
[Chorus: Kurama SD]
I don't know 
Where to go
But I'm trying
But I'm trying  
To make my way out
Of this hell 
I know I will fail 
But I know I can prevail 
If I try 
If I try my hardest 
My hardest
If I try

[Post-Chorus: l y p i]
Don't waste my time 
Don't waste my time 
I waited 

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
I lost it all 
And its so easy to see 
Easy to see 
All the problems 
All the problems
Everything is so temporary 
Nothing is always easy
Always easy 
Always easy
I have so much uncertainty 
In my head 
In my head

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
I don't know 
Why I'm still here 
I don't know 
Why you even care

[Verse 2: l y p i]
Why you care
Double it up
I got 2 pills to take and I can't get enough
Got this pain in my brain and I don't want to let it
Take what I am
Cause I know I'm misfit

Fine I said I'm sorry
That shit was just so low
Only in my head though 
Don't think I can do it
I think I'll go through it
I knew that you blew it
I don't want to do it

I don't want to do it but I guess that I will
That's the only story of my life that I know
Waiting for the day just to do all the things I want to do
Oh it's just a shame I know 

And how I've felt so alone 
It has been enough just to tear me apart
Waiting for the day that I got through it all
A have been alone

[Outro: l y p i]
oh oh oh 
x6

Prevail w/ l y p i (Prod. jolst)

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fblB2JBzh_I
Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: Boyfifty
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & angelsofsorrows 
Mastered by: angelsofsorrows 
Artwork link: https://www.wallpaperflare.com/re-zero-emilia-halloween-2016-cape-witch-witch-s-broom-wallpaper-palcd

Lyrics:
[Intro]
I guess you're gone 
It's my fault in the first place
For thinking somebody would stay around
But that was just high school I guess 
Just people always leaving me for 
Someone that was better 

[Chorus]
I feel so empty 
I feel kinda safe
Somebody come get me 
I feel kinda safe

[Verse 1]
I never thought I would lose myself 
I don't want no fucking wealth 
I loved u that's how I felt 
But I know nothing about u
Wish I wasn't too 
Hung up on the past 
Time moving fast 
I just might crash 
might crash

[Reserved Bridge]

[Chorus]
I feel so empty 
I feel kinda safe
Somebody come get me 
I feel kinda safe

[Verse 2]
Taking breaks all the time 
To ease my mind 
Losing sunshine 
I don't mind the rain
Cause each day is just the same
I decay in my room 
It sucks but its true
Just don't lose 
Just don't consume nothing bad
Nothing bad 

[Bridge]
I reminisce on 
The times we had
Wonder what's new with you

[Outro]
I miss you still 
I wish you were
by my side 
by my side

Hung Up On The Past (Prod. Boyfifty)

august cover (splashgvng)-safeatlast

Prod. by TaylorJ

https://open.spotify.com/track/5kwQtIXe2sYp8FveGcwDwM?si=2f1e499ca63f4ccb

Lyrics:

Tell me what you thinking
I ain't gonna do that
Lying all around
I am always acting stupid
Waterfall and it feels like it's a fall down
Losing purpose not on purpose
Wanna blow up
Scarecrow i'm scaring crows out
For no reason keeping me alive
Where is my phone at

Cowardly, i am crawling thru the mud
My brain splat, it is outside
Taking too much
Drinking too much
Feeling throw up
I am so loud
Every time i'm trying stay alive
Every word i say has gotta retire
When i die
What you gonna do then
Will you cry
Will you hate me
When i quit quick
No words for the past life
No words for the true side

Hate me
Blame me
What a shame that i'm being so worthless
What a shame that you're being so ruthless
4am i'm feeling so clueless
Blood drips down
I'm so high
I can't even see the light
See the red slights
I can't even see my mind
Seeing red dust
I can't even see my mind

Fall to the floor
Breaking bones
What you gonna do then
It's too late
What you wanna say to me
I said but before and before

What you wanna say to me
I heard it all in past
Would you wanna be with me
Until we all die
Till we all dead
I smoked too much
Everything is so dead
Am i not right?

Taking too much
Drinking too much
Feeling throw up
I am so loud
Every time i'm trying stay alive
Every word i say has gotta retire
When i die
What you gonna do then
Will you cry
Will you hate me
When i quit quick
No words for the past life
No words for the true side

I heard it all

I Heard It All(Prod. TaylorJ)

if you were here p. kash

Connection

Cambodia only needs peace

I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

Farewell w/ JoshIGuess & auby (Prod. Moneo)

Kurama SD (New account in bio)