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The Tears I Wanna Let Out (Prod. Moneo songs)

Kurama's most emotional songs

songs i made during hard times

https://soundcloud.com/joshigues/vacation-nightcore-jxsie-beats

I've been trying my best, but I can't take it
She's been wanting the rest, while she is taken
She's been loving me less, she seems to hate it
Why don't she just take a vacation

She only love me when on anti-depressants
When she's off of them I can't get her attention
Her minds been going in every direction
But you know I can't follow directions
Cause anywhere I go
Can't make it back home
To the place I used to call
Everything and all

Feeling like I'm Autumn now, faded into fall
And I'm feeling like I'm Casperrr, now that I'm a ghost
And I'm feeling like Eternal
Cause I want you to say hello

I've been trying my best, but I can't take it
She's been wanting the rest, while she is taken
She's been loving me less, she seems to hate it
Why don't she just take a vacation

She thinks I'm falling out of love, but I'm just falling out of trust
She thinks it's falling into dust, I wish you knew I give a fuck
Ex-friends coming up to me I know they always fuss
Wanna turn 'em into goldfish, so I can name 'em Hush
Maybe then that'll be the time that they could shut up
I just know I had enough, and know that you have had enough
We can never get enough
In this thing called love

I've been trying my best, but I can't take it
She's been wanting the rest, while she is taken
She's been loving me less, she seems to hate it
Why don't she just take a vacation

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vacation (jxsie beats)

"if it all goes wrong" is a song released by joshiguess exclusively to the archive. this was not a song he wanted to release officially as all it was was a rant about life in the state he was in at the time. this song is very teen suiciide inspired with the distortion and style.

if it all goes wrong [moucha]

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: emptychest 
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork by: TheDinkMaster

[Verse] 
Are you standing there? 
I wanna know if you still care 
I wish I still had them 
I feel fear 
Everytime they stare 
Lost and aware
Life was never fair 
Missing the point 
Losing the fight 
Feelings are useless 
This shit leaves me clueless 
I’m feeling betrayed 
Why not put me away 
I feel like a toy 
Please just destroy me 
Cause nothing makes any sense in my life 
Nothing in my life makes sense

[Chorus] 
Thought I was okay
But I never feel that way
Already 20 
Might meet my fate 
Take away everything till 
I feel nothing 
Nothing makes sense
Thought I was okay
But I never feel that way
Already 20 
Might meet my fate 
(Might meet my fate)

[Verse 2] 
I wanna beat myself till I bleed 
Maybe music all I need 
Or it’s an addiction I always feed 
If I give it my all I might succeed 
But nothing is guaranteed 
As people leave I plead for them to come back 
But they tossed me into a stampede 
Now I realize that I mislead me 
Cause my music addiction is the reason they leave me

[Chorus] 
Thought I was okay
But I never feel that way
Already 20 
Might meet my fate 
Take away everything till 
I feel nothing

Nothing Makes Sense (Prod. emptychest)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: Idealism 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess
Mastered by: AkiraDoves 
Beats Cuts: AkiraDoves 
Artwork from: Akame ga Kill
Lyrics:
[Verse]
Broken environments 
Fucked up and crying tears 
Why I wanna die
Can't find my own betterment 
This is just a sentiment 
I lose it 

Give me my divine creation 
I'm never the one hating 
All the love their faking 
Got me raging 
I was fading out 
Now I'm away in an early grave

[Bridge]
Losing track of my mind
(in an early grave)
Losing track of my time
I don't know why I'm on the grind still
Cause I'm losing my appeal 
To the people that I wanna be with

[Chorus]
I can't even find a grip
Of you still here
Wish I could be there for you
Even though I'm lost
I'm so lost
Without you here

[Outro]
With no one by your side 
You fall down and die
I'm sorry
But that's just how I feel 
Right now
Right now

Lost (Prod. Idealism)

Is it okay to cry? (Prod. Moneo)

(prod. moneo)

shoutout soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for makin this wit me 

enjoy :))

lyrics:

kais:
breathe 
come down that tree and don’t break it now
tired eyes lookin at pavement 
shift your gaze here and please stay a bit 
don’t fall back down x2
don’t go around blamin’ the world for this; for me 

I am an extra in your movie 
don’t try and argue I’ll just leave 
we both know that we aren’t perfect we’re far from it 
far from roots we’ve grown a bit  

loving you something else.
I need a second chance, I’ll rip my heart apart from night to day.
I miss ur face could you please say the 3 dumb words that mean so much
it’s hard to hurt when you’re leanin on a crutch 
but baby, please 
don’t tell me that it’s all a fkn dream

skele:

bleed out 
i watched you fall 
just look at me now 

please don’t scream out 
i couldn’t take that sound 
you were all i had 

i’m so bad for you 
all the things i’ve been through 
always drag us down 
is it too late now 
i’m so in love with you 
anything i could do 
i would do for you 
i would cut thru my skin oh my god 
spilling out over the ground

kais:
breathe 
come down that tree and don’t break it now
tired eyes lookin at pavement 
shift your gaze here and please stay a bit 
don’t fall back down x4

pavement

spotify

pavement w/skele

AMV link: https://youtu.be/7zqgsXxin-4
Featuring: @maesk337
Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: Boyfifty & Pizzle
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & maesk 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork from: bungo stray dogs

Lyrics:
[Intro: Kurama SD]
It's such loneliness 
In this empty space 
I can't escape 
I'm sorry

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
Its such a lonely paradise 
Its so dark at night 
Feeling like everything in my life 
Is so fake 
I'm so anxious 
I'm so sorry 
it's so lonely 
You don't know me
U said you didn't need me
So just leave me 

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
You stabbed me in the eye
I think about your lies
Tell myself to let it go I sigh 
I just can't you should know this 
You didn't notice 
That I was lonely 
I was lonely 

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
You used me
Now you don't need me
I can't be me
No more 
No more

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
Its such a lonely paradise 
Its so dark at night 
Feeling like everything in my life 
Is so fake 
I'm so anxious 
I'm so sorry 
it's so lonely 
You don't know me
U said you didn't need me
So just leave me 

[Verse 2: maesk] 
just leave me 
i think i need a break 
would u miss me if the copper wasn’t misplaced
and i been thinking that i need my brain inspected 
absorbing all substances think its leaving me infected
wanna move out of this town, but i got no goals
so baby fill me up with something warm for my damn soul
uh, yeah coz this cycle taking its toll
yeah its lonely in these nights 
but even waking up feels so cold

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
You used me
Now you don't need me
I can't be me
No more 
No more

[Chorus: maesk]
its such a lonely paradise 
its so dark at night
feeling like everything 
in my life is so fake 
I'm so anxious I'm so sorry 
its so lonely 
u don't know 
u said u didn't n st leave me 
just leave me

Lonely Paradise W/ maesk (Prod. Boyfifty & Pizzle)

💖 Happy Valentines Day! 💖
Love Series 💔
1. Love Withdrawal 
2. Love Relapse 
3. Love Overdose 
4. Love Ending, Goodbye.
A love experience that took place in 2020, using this album to say my final thoughts and close that chapter of my life. Out on all platforms!!
lyric vid on youtube

Love Overdose (slowed + reverb)

Love Overdose

(lyrics)

chasing dreams are what I'm after i can't feel alive without you tell me why I'm such a mess i can't bear all of this pain

so tell me why it's cold your hands were soft and warm i wish we could be there play with your hair and stare at the sky

it's almost 5am and i can barely sleep the way she looks at me it makes me feel complete you have no reason to be here do you and don't you dare walk away when i need you 

chasing dreams are what I'm after i can't feel alive without you tell me why I'm such a mess i can't bear all of this pain 

you left down on my knees you left me weak i find it harder to live i cannot do anything without you I'm kinda hopeless i can't seem to find my own path i need help i wanna feel alive i wanna feel these emotions can't seem to find my own purpose 

alive (moneo)

Featuring: @joshiguess & @auby4rc
Written by: Kurama SD, JoshIGuess, & auby
Produced by: moneo 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & auby
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork by: Kurama SD

Lyrics:

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
Farewell to u 
Goodbye to me 
All the things I couldn't be
(I couldn't be)
Passing by in spring 
Strings cut to easy
(Too easy) 
u never needed me
I need time to breathe 
Lost my mind instead 
But I still miss the time we had 

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
I'll miss you
I'm waiting for you still
(Still)
Remember last year
I was crying tears 
So farewell to you
And everyone around here 
Your eyes were beautiful
Like fireworks

[Verse 2: JoshIGuess]
(On the 4th of July)
You had stayed home
We were making out on the couch
Nowadays I just wish you're in the ground
But I found a way to live life 
So I guess it's farewell
They say they don't care 
Well fuck yeah I can tell
Don't got much left to look forward to 
It's just another day 
Where the homies are ignoring you
I'm done with all this drama talk
And everyone Drifting away
(Fuck it I just might move out too)

[Chorus: auby]
I made the bed that i lay in
Please take my hand and say you're staying
If you're gone, I won't get over it
Say farewell to my innocence

I take back the words i said that night
I'm sorry
I'll miss you
don't leave me
I love you
Please hold me

Farewell w/ JoshIGuess & auby (Prod. Moneo)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: Idealism
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork from: Fruits Basket 2019 (Anime)

[Verse 1]
For once my life was going good 
But it all slipped through my fingers 
Never feel comfortable with myself
I wanna be somebody else
Always belt out emotion 
I still suffocate in the ocean 
Trapped in a body that needs a heal potion 
Losing my emotions

[Bridge]
Days fade so slowly 
Losing myself in the process 

[Verse 2]
Losing progress
Worrying about my health 
Wondering what you felt 
When u saw me 
Sitting at lunch lonely 
Feeling so phony 
This house never feels like home
One day I'll find comfort 
Ran through my mind 
Got myself into a bind 
Sometimes I just wish I could rewind

[Outro]
There's so much I have left to say
I don't wanna say it
Cause I'm scared to
Scared to let's u into my mind
I'm Scared to tell u how I really feel
So bye

I Wanna Be Someone Else (Prod. Idealism)

Till Death Do Us Part (feat. XION90K)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: domesticsoul
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork from: Your Lie In April (Anime)

[Intro]
Feeling so broke down
I wanna leave my own town 
Cause everybody fucking hates me here
I just wanna disappear 

[Verse]
I just wanna disappear 
Cause everday I feel worthless 
Maybe if I was gone it'd be painless 
Sometimes I wish I remained faceless 
Maybe then I'd be nameless 
I don't wanna be famous 
Everybody cares till it
Comes to this
Comes to this

[Bridge]
Broken too pieces again 
I just wish I could have a friend 
(Friend)
Don't know where I've been lately 
Just miss you everyday lately 

[Verse 2]
Plenty mistakes made 
I don't really know what to say
Just wanna get out my bed today 
Even if I fail just know I'm here for you
I don't really see things clearly 
Nearly jumping off the ledge everyday

[Outro]
Who the fuck am I anymore

Vanish (Prod. domesticsoul)

Till Death Do Us Part (feat. XION90K) (slowed + reverb)

Love Relapse

PROD MOUTHGUARD
GUITAR BY MOUTHGUARD
MIXED BY MOUTHGUARD + NINA EXE
MASTERED BY NINA EXE

Mouthguard - FREAKS (ft. 6arelyhuman, JoshIGuess, D34D)

Written by: Reapers Shadow & JoshIGuess
Produced by: Papapedro Beats
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork by: PixAi
Artwork edited by: Reapers Shadow

Lyrics:
[Chorus: Reapers Shadow]
Holidays
Are passing like street signs
It feels so sublime 
Now you're standing in line

[Verse 1: Reapers Shadow]
Yeah it's Christmas morning 
Fuck up on the fucking rain pouring 
Just wanna get my presents fuck yo presence 
Don't want no one but myself bitch 
It's Christmas so do your best 
To give instead of take 
Like it's thanksgiving 
Nobody wanna be themselves nowadays 
Just wanna get paid then steal from the weak

[Chorus: Reapers Shadow]
Holidays
Are passing like street signs
It feels so sublime 
Now you're standing in line
But just know you'll find your way

[Bridge: JoshIGuess]
You'll find your way, you'll find your way
I pull up in Santa's sleigh 
The way you gon treat me today
Better watch my fucking weight

[Verse 2: JoshIGuess]
Sweetie making sweets that's so sweet
Then the sweet in the sheets i'm complete
Hehe, eat the pussy
Sitting through the night like it's milk and cookies
Binging all of these christmas movies once again

The laptop i'm making this with 
It's getting more fucked up by the day
Got it for Christmas 9 years ago ayy
I'm lucky that it's actually working 
Song in process for a year you fans are deserving this

[Chorus: Reapers Shadow]
Holidays
Are passing like street signs
It feels so sublime 
Now you're standing in line

Holidays W/ JoshIGuess  (Prod. Papapedro Beats)

Featuring: @joshiguess & @akiradoves
Written by: Phantom Eclipse, JoshIGuess, AkiraDoves 
Produced by: Grayskies 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & AkiraDoves
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork by: Mengo Yokoyari
Artwork edited by: Phantom Eclipse 
 
[Intro: Phantom Eclipse]
Putting my emotions on display
I survey the coming storm
To the vultures I'm just prey 
Wish this regret would go away 

[Bridge: Phantom Eclipse]
But somehow
I will find my way

[Verse 1: JoshIGuess]
I've been lost and I've been trapped
And I've been gone it's on your behalf
And all of your friends try to follow your steps
But that couldn't be any more incorrect
I feel like I'm on a time lapse
You act too cold and I get sidetracked

[Chorus: Phantom Eclipse]
Life passes in slow motion 
Losing focus on my goals 
This shits getting real old 
I know I've become cold 
But at least I never sold my soul 
So many things I still don't know 
About myself 
But I'm still walking through the snow 
(I know you miss me but I'm gone)

[Verse 2: AkiraDoves]
But i'm gone wasting your time
It's always gotta be you
& now you're always coming back
When will you
Just let me go

[Chorus: Phantom Eclipse]
Life passes in slow motion 
Losing focus on my goals 
This shits getting real old 
I know I've become cold 
But at least I never sold my soul 
So many things I still don't know 
About myself 
But I'm still walking through the snow 
(SNOW!!!!)

I've Become Cold W/ JoshIGuess & AkiraDoves (Prod. Grayskies)

Snowstorm JoshIguess Ft HoosWrld

mixed and mastered by @JoshIGuess
cover by me (D34D)
produced by Artixan

Lyrics:
D34D:
beauty in the chaos that surrounds me
i see the flames even when im sleeping soundly
when we all die i know it would not astound me
ill destroy the world, not a care for those around me

Josh:
I'm destroying the whole universe
Cus I already rule this world
Matter fact I am out of it
Just like yo girl, she dance and twirl
And she always getting turnt
But I'm always feeling burnt
Cus she always want things the same
But who am I to blame?
When all of my verses always turn into flames
Bitch I'm insane
Bitch this is a rave not a dance ball
Bitch this a fireball no alcohol
Let's get fucked up to the sounds hitting off the walls
Pin you against the wall I know you like that
Call from your homegirls I'll hit em right back
Stay on hold cus I got you on the irl ima be hitting it like

D34D:
beauty in the chaos that surrounds me
i see the flames even when im sleeping soundly
when we all die i know it would not astound me
ill destroy the world, not a care for those around me

D34D x JoshIGuess - BEAUTY!

[mix by @joshiguess x @elena-paisley]
ill be doing this til my last breathe,
doesn't matter if i make the bread,
im just taking the things from my head,
i swear joking was all that you said,
i swear you were all joking bout death,
but now that one's dead ya talk less,
i swear yall put on the stress,
i just hoping that they stayin blessed, 

i was hoping to come in and check,
checking if u were alright,
left me on seen didn't text,
time passes by and i cry,
why would it ever happen,
i pray to god that it wasn't true,
i swear to god if i wasn't attracted,
i wouldn't be feeling so blue,
wondering what i should do,
am i the one that's the target,
i can't be actin all flawless,
cuz you know that there's many you have,
i swear you ain't going out sad,
you need to get over this,
i swear this life is feeling unlucky,
need a four leaf clover bitch,
this life is about success,
it's not about being the richest,
i swear i want the hugs and the kisses,
quarantine making me miss it,
like the suicide death of effect,
that it's taken on this toll of world,
when you seem to have lost a best friend,
no one can replace that girl,
i hope that she's good in another world,
hoping she's not in the underworld,
it's something i couldn't control,
it's a pleasure of guilt that i hold,
and that maybe i shouldn't have told,
i swear life has been getting more cold,
only warmth is from your computer,
why you feel like you're such a loser, yea

i swear that i cant do this anymore

Stop Joking Bout Death (MaxoKoolin, Wendelstyzer, Topo)

You may think that I hate you, but that just isn't it,
it's rightful that you blamed me i committed a sin,
and im asking for forgiveness, but i never could win,
i swear i didn't want us all living all in pretend,
but lets face it, you know i couldn't make it, every time
i'm uncomfortable with basics, and i knew i couldn't handle
 datin,  i never wanted to but with you feel i made it,

and i didn't wanna ruin reputations, i swear sometimes i hope this life is 
simulation cuz i don't want it to be true, when you livin with this on you, what you got? you got friends
who weren't really there that constantly remind you and you're staying from your distance and realizing
you're a fool, frickin loser in the pull, ain't doing things in school, for the past few years every time 
you've fallen off, and you've stayed inside your room because you fear of the outside, cuz the public probably hates
you now, im blessed with quarantine cause i do not need to be seen, cuz i swear i make it miserable for any other being
and there's people that will love you but how long will that last, want another future but im stuck inside my past
gotta fix myself up
 right now
(right now)

I swear there's a lot I could change from,
I can focus on myself now that it's done,
But when I feel like nothing what is there to take on,
I swear I always try to make my life more fun,
With you I felt complete I couldn't lose you, 
But it's rightful that you decided to lose me,
I swear if everyone be trying to expose me,
And I can't help but face the facts, but can't control me

(control me, wish you could be here and hold me, i know thats not a possibility anymore)

All My Fault

All My Fault (Capsctrl + Eddie B)

https://songwhip.com/joshiguess/shouldve-known-better
this was a one take, straight from the heart..
i should've treated you better, now it's just rainy weather, can't maintain self control, my heart's been getting cold, you really understood me, why
cant i understand you, i tried my best to handle, put myself in your sandals, here i go light the candle, i swear you were correct, can't get it out
my head, that you tried protecting, you saved me from ending, all that i could have been, wstill wish i was ur friend, i didn't need more or less,

i should've just known better, this is a homage letter, thought we would be together, longer than i'd remember, now we're both in our leisure, but my minds
like propellors, its going round in circles, trying to pass the hurdles, of those that criticize me, they want to hypnotize me, into thinking difference,
wish she was here to save me, at least i have her mittens, she was the perfect lady, i didn't treat her fairly, i really should have did, cuz lately i really 
miss, not just a simple kiss, just need to receive more comfort, didn't wanna make her heart hurt, i didn't respect her space, but to come back too late,
she'll never want me back, enemies love that im sad, they try to make fun of me, say im not improving, do they remember me, swear they obsess with me,
since they still message me, they keep on gossiping, keep my name out your mouth, you only give more clout to, a person that always doubts who, he could really
be, needs someone there for him, i can't say that i am nothing, cuz i know that i mean something, but im missing a part of me, the loving type energy, the norms
of a human being

Should've Known Better

set myself up for failure (rx808)

I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

Farewell w/ JoshIGuess & auby (Prod. Moneo)

Kurama SD (New account in bio)