This is my second official album called "Why Do I Even Try" I have been making this album since late march of 2022 

This was an ambitious project making it a mostly collab album with artists like Yokai Dreams, epitomeoffailure, & emptychest being bigger artists and The other artists are small or close friends of mine I'm glad we all could work together to make this album possible you all are amazing musicians and friends 

As for what this album is about it is about my insecurities, struggles, emotions, and life this year has been full of many ups and downs and music is the way I cope with it all although I think sometimes I should try to figure myself out more and try improving my life I've started the path to success whether it's through music or a job I want to succeed and be happy with my life I don't care about being famous all I want is good friends and family and to do what I love 

And one final thing Shoutout to all the producers as well they all are amazing at what they do

Why Do I Even Try

Visual: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryKXD6O2Q3Q
Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: afterlife & 2001
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork from: Devilman Crybaby (Anime)

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
Life brings hell
I'm feeling it though
Fell right through
I Know the truth
Looking in your eyes
Everything will be alright
As long as we stay alive
Hell with them x4
x2

[Verse]
I'll go berserk in the sewer
Nobody wants to die here
This situation is dire
I'm a liar
Look up and see burning trees
With orange leaves and a red sky
Scared I might die
See weird creatures start to fly
I Start to hear distant screams and cries 
Distant screams and cries
Screams and cries 
Screams and cries 
(Scream)
Trying to find what works
But I will always fall in a ditch of course
Don't wanna be like this
Don't wanna feel like this
But it is just hell
So I'm feeling it

[Bridge]
Falling down into hell
Falling down to hell
Falling down in a well
Falling down in a well
Feels like a cell
Falling down into hell
Feels like a cell

[Chorus]
Life brings hell
I'm feeling it though
Fell right through
I Know the truth
Looking in your eyes
Everything will be alright
As long as we stay alive
Hell with them x4
x2

Hell (Prod. afterlife & 2001)

Featuring: @failure404
Written by: Kurama SD & epitomeoffailure 
Produced by: @sorrow_bringer
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & epitomeoffailure
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork from: Horimiya (Anime)

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
I don't need you
I don't want you
I don't care
It's not fair

[Post-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Give me a time
Give me a sign
Give me a rhyme
Give me some time
Give me a rhyme
Give me a sign

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
Fuck I'm so pissed at you
I don't know what to do
I can't make no fucking stacks
Cause I'm broke as a bitch
I can't get what I want anymore ya ya ya

[Interlude: Kurama SD]
Someday's I just don't know where I belong in this fucking world
Because everybody fucking makes me feel like shit
I get angry, I get pissed
I don't know where I'm supposed to be
What I'm supposed to do
I guess that's all

[Chorus 2: epitomeoffailure]
walking through the forest
i’m not sure where i live
see the trees before us
reflecting from your iris
it’s so clear to me
that you don’t know where we’re going
cause you lie (you lie)

[Post-Chorus: epitomeoffailure]
and that’s fine
cause when i look into your eyes
i know (i know)
that you’ve been wasting my time

[Verse 2: epitomeoffailure]
nothing stays the same
and i already knew that
I've always been blamed
for problems on top of your back
but this is where it ends
you are not my friend
you are not my friend

It's Not Fair w/ epitomeoffailure (Prod. sorrow bringer)

Featuring: @nokerbforever
Written by: Kurama SD & NOKERB
Produced by: jolst & dercept 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & NOKERB
Mastered by: NOKERB
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
Some days I feel like a ghost
Feel like a ghost 
Going crazy in the back of the class 
I never thought anything 
You said was true 
So what the fuck dude 
True 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Verse: Kurama SD]
I fucked up 
I know I did
At least I didn't hide it 
I'm still a letdown 
I'm still a letdown 

Thought I was cool
But I always lose 
Nobody cares 
Who I am 
(WHO I AM) 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Outro: Kurama SD]
Think I know everything 
But I know nothing 
So I fade away

GHOST w/ NOKERB (Prod. jolst & dercept)

Featuring: @auby4rc
Written by: Kurama SD & auby
Produced by: nevrfall
Mixed by: NOKERB & auby
Mastered by: NOKERB
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
Why do I even try 
I'm boutta fucking cry
I just sigh 
I wish I was better
But I never will be
Hard to see clearly with 
all these tears 
In your eyes 
In your eyes
In your eyes

[Chorus: auby]
I don't wanna make this hard for you
Doing all the things I couldn't do
Feeling all this stress 
It weighs me down 
There's no one here 
Just me right now
Take it out of my hands 
I could float away 
No one here understands 
I don't wanna stay 

[Verse: Kurama SD]
Waking up still fucked 
Cause of my head
Dreams getting way too much 
Nightmares are too dark
My luck ran out
I'm done 
That's just how it goes 
Spent too much time in my lows
That's just how it goes 

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
Why do I try
Despite everything 
Fucked up in my life 
I don't know why 

[Chorus: auby]
I don't wanna make this hard for you
Doing all the things I couldn't do
Feeling all this stress 
It weighs me down 
There's no one here 
Just me right now
Take it out of my hands 
I could float away 
No one here understands 
I don't wanna stay 

[Outro: Kurama SD]
Why do I even try 
I'm boutta fucking cry 
I just sigh

Why Do I Even Try w/ auby (Prod. nevrfall)

Featuring: @yokaidreams 
Written by: Kurama SD & Yokai Dreams
Produced by: grayskies 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & Yokai Dreams 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
(Back off)
Life brings hell 
In the worst ways
Life is pain
(Life is pain)

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
I walk through the burning path
Feels like broken glass
Every step is full of wrath 
The scars are still on my skin
From when you sunk your teeth in
Still I moved on though I'm bleeding 
at least I'm fucking breathing 
Everything is burning to pieces 

[Pre-Chorus: ]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(deep within)

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
Fighting battles 
Its a handful
I'll mange somehow 
(Somehow)

[Verse 2: Kurama SD]
Seeing red everywhere 
Nothing left here but pain to share
U stare in my eyes 
I can't help but glare 
Flames burn on
I can hardly bare 
All this pain

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(Deep within)

[Verse 3: Yokai Dreams] 
act right
if i could act right
i wouldn't be in this situation
for now i need to back off
i need to back off
i think the battle's about to begin
about to begin

[Outro: Kurama SD]
I'll be right 
There

Battles I Can't Win w/ Yokai Dreams (Prod. grayskies)

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: afterlife & irby
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

[Verse]
Fucked up on the interstate
I can't escape
From this place
Always on the high way
Pulled up on the drive way
To see my family

[Pre-Chorus]
Family
Last August
(Août dernier)
X2

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

[Bridge]
Dealing with a lot of shit rn
I can't wear no crown
I can't be what you need
I can't find anything
To help me, to save me
From this shit

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

August (Prod. afterlife & irby)

lyricz
Glass half full, ive been waiting on the plus side
We aint even half way but damn its been rough ride
With you til the end until you break our trust tie
I gotta make the first move? Must I?

Confidence aint the highest
But boy im feeling the flyest
Best fit here, these motherfuckers aint trying
Designer mixed with the thrift find, double downed to the riptide,
Boy you falling on slipslide, rearrange ur thoughts see the flipside
With a womens 19th century watch see my wrist shrine
You might think u fly, but u aint coming close this time

Running through a field, saddle me up a horse
I be at max caliber srt4 of course
Or a dodge neon, i dont want a porsche
My drip cause a flood, yeah u might an oar

Glass half full, ive been waiting on the plus side
We aint even half way but damn its been rough ride
With you til the end until you break our trust tie
I gotta make the first move? Must I?

GLASSHALFFULL [prod.  ETERNETY x inuyasha]

https://soundcloud.com/akiradoves
https://soundcloud.com/7hersx

cus you don't even know what i been through
check my phone every night cus i miss you
and i don't wanna talk about this nonsense
i've always fell low thinking about us

the time I spent with you is still considered priceless
but my mind has been forming an existential crisis
words that she wrote with her ds stylus
but those memories to you are just considered sightless 

forget warmness frozen inside my heart
it's cold and i feel soulless from everything I start

i remember I had you in the picture 
but like i cut you off i grabbed my scissors
try to forget my memories when with her
no matter what I would never forgive her

just bring me down until my last breathe
step inside my castle you won't realize who you been with
so girl you can't come home there's nothing left
you're so indescisive and i do not like it

cus you don't even know what i been through
check my phone every night cus i miss you
and i don't wanna talk about this nonsense
i've always fell low thinking about us

cus you don't even know what i been through
check my phone every night cus i miss you
and i don't wanna talk about this nonsense
i've always fell low thinking about us

I Miss You

AkiraDoves & JoshIGuess - I Miss You (Thersx)

prod. @alivetonight

amazing prod and vocalist <3

lyrics: (shoutout to @kurama_sd for putting my lyrics in the description)

[Verse]
This isn't what I signed up for 
I act like I'm fine 
But inside I'm losing my mind
Hello there
I'm a lonely soul 
With no where to go
I don't know my own future 
What am I doing here I don't know 
I thought I had everything I want
But I still feel empty 
I still feel sad 
I try to rest at night 
But I fail at like everything I do
And I just can't get out of my head 
Not even for one moment 
(Not even for one moment)

[Outro]
And No one knows 
and no one knows 
and no one will ever know 
All I have is my songs
(All i have is my song-)

this isn't what i signed up for :( (prod. alivetonight)

(prod. michael harrison)

am i the only whos touching you
am i the only whos fucking you
hard to believe the truth from the lies
when all i wanna do is love you

did you fabricate the truth to save me
lying to my face coz this aint what i need 
told me to be okay
im just delusional i know bae

im trying to be okay
and ive been fighting for so long
for so long
for so long
for so long

standing there im vacant
an empty shell a hollow soul
hate myself its dangerous
coz i can end it all i know
and i think is better than me
give u everything u seeking
do you think bout me
when your down on your knees
i know your not praying
giving what you gave to me
i hate to say it 

all these thoughts in my head
who am i to blame
i keep playing these games
over and over again

and can you see me love
coz i want us
overthink is tough
oh i cant stop

for so long
for so long
for so long
for so long x2

compromised

baby don't leave
you own me 
you own me

i keep seeing shapes in the corner of my room now
i don't feel okay, im not a bitch so i won't back down
girl we're young
girl we're young
yeah i know 
but im fucked
in the head
my vision slowed
when i walk in, no one ever fucking knows
day n night
everynight 
im dying slow
i don't mind
smoke a blunt
watch me choke 
alright,rewind
i need you home
blue eyes
my arms
tight rope

bitch im never going back
i can't even smoke a pack
anxiety fucks my head
keep thinking i'll have a heart attack

i can't even drink so im dying with no comfort 
she don't wanna link so im dying in my converse 
pick me up, let me in, take me home
i hate this view i call my own

baby don't leave
you own me
you own me
me me

i don't even know whats fucking real
i can't even tell whats fuckin real
shell of who i once was
im just a shell of who i once was
i won't sip it till i see the seal
i will pop that pill if it's real
i am just a shell of who i once was
i don't even know who i once was 


when will this feeling fucking end?
they don't even notice what i said
if you point the gun i won't run
if you point the gun i won't run
i don't even care anymore
i just throw up on the rug then i sleep on the floor so
bed sweats every night when i wake up 
im soaking in the sheets with my own blood

baby 
don't leave
you own me
you own me
me me

You own me :( (Prod.stillvanishing)

Gamma Ray - HeyLee Manzeron (Prod. Clav) PHEONIX COMPETITION

I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

Why Do I Even Try w/ auby (Prod. nevrfall)

Kurama SD (New account in bio)

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