fated to stay and be bled just to be reborn and killed again

songs about fire

glacier bay

can't shake my thoughts
chew my cheek with every word
I'm a lowlight
eyes on the sky

embers be my heaven 
so these flames can feed on my skin
fated to stay and be bled
just to be reborn and then killed again

out of range

burn therapy

who's ready for the apocalypse
i'm ready for the fire, i wanna see the fire tonight
i wanna see their pressure collapse when it all comes together one last time
just to come undone and fall apart
i wanna see their eyes turn inside out right before they burst to flames

one heart whispers the other, you win again, go on flay me again, I'll just be reborn to new skin
you want what I got but it's not enough
Our pale hearts were not meant to sync beats with eachother
ghosts in our headspace, ghosts in the walls here to stay
pull apart and never to use again

who's ready for the apocalypse
i've got my head held high
cut me up
i've put these thoughts to rest a while
now's the right time to fly
I wanna dream in black and white and never see the sunrise to sunset again
internal radio transmission screaming
head to shelter now or burn

One heart whispers the other, i don't belong here, i don' deserve this
this is all wrong
all our bones just break to pieces and flicker
who's ready to be let down
trapped doves in my attic scorched to the ribcage
I wanna see the future lost

i wanna see the fire

fade away
and burn your heart
fade away
stay away
don't burn me out

and if they think they can fix this mess, they'll know too soon
she drove the nails, she can't change

driven by fear, passion's gone, clocks don't stop
i'm a paranoid i'm a manic depressive
i'm too diagnosed and i'm not here
here the bones lay
the first kill
they never had a chance to get home
never tried to get home until too late

and if they think they can fix this mess they'll know too soon
she drove the nails she can't change
and if they think they can take the witch she stitched inside
she drove the nails and she won't change

we drive home never feeling again
Stop thinking what you've lost
Learn to hold on to what you've got left

gasoline

Bitter hearts race to a finish line nowhere
Nothing left to burn
Nothing to repair

little strings

Deep blue 
The ocean view
The faces glued to ice
The sharks feed on their young 
I lay here just to watch
and I can't feel a thing
Forever swimming down
The sea beckons me out
I swim till I black out

In nine days i'll go missing
In nine weeks the body will wash up off the Glacier Bay 
In nine months I'll be forgotten

That's okay.

The seas will show their teeth
The young will wash away
Mothers follow them down
Cut the throat and feed the freak

In nine days i'll go missing
In nine weeks the body will wash up off the Glacier Bay 
In nine months I'll be forgotten

I'm not here no more
I've lost the spark that kept my bones together
I've splintered, I'm undone
You were the lash in my eye
The last siren of the lake
I'll cut my eyes out now
It's all I want to see

I need to disappear
To fade out with the tide
I break the golden bell
The sound is agony

To crush myself like a bug
Wrote pages to a knife
That knife won't hold
Let's burn just one last time

In nine days i'll go missing
In nine weeks the body will wash up off the Glacier Bay 
In nine months I'll be forgotten

I want to dice myself to tiny little bits
Strings twist and strangle me, but I won't let go and lose my way home

Lose the ceiling drop the kids fear of numbers fear of skin
Lose my control, lose my face, frightened creatures in my head

Dressed in all shades of blue
Cross hatched and doublecrossed
Branded, streets of snow
Black sky, my ceiling
To the world it might not be much
The streets untouched, this world's enough.

Fixed to a flame outside
The bishops scream in tongues
Calm witches dressed in black
Three words and then they're gone

my ears are failing
my eyes are draining
snow freckles fading
snow freckles draining
that night i dreamt of twelve-legged monsters

Speaking words to make them feel some sense of worth
Slice out your poisoned tongue
Forgo your faulted sons
Shit festered vale I haunt 
it's storming each night i dream
Caged in your bloodied hands
Softly tucked into bed

i want out
let me out

They're scared I'll wake and see their faces
Friends, lovers, sunburnt, children and freaks
They bred a monster, cannibalizing on my own flesh, my own blood on my teeth

But to the world outside
That joy is not my own
I breathe and feel in blue
I speak so I am God.
My thoughts aren't filling
Woodrot in my trees
snow freckles fading
snow freckles draining
speaker of the word
who got away clean
I pray your lungs fail
I pray your heart stops

The storm's not mine, 
just Leftover broken tributes
They'll never look in my eyes
Won't let me have a face
my thoughts are sludged 
tied into place with broken strings
Worship the astral moon
Cannibalize my eyes

snow cannibal

even the ghosts left

My body shakes, but nothing's left moving
The latest news took the form of lightning 
My brain's a car, that car's underwater
The latest news took my head at the altar

I'm a mess inside
Walls with nothing to hide

home is at the bottom of the sea
arms and neck left tangled in seaweed
locking eyes and laying in the sands
while the freak feeds below folded hands

why do i feel so weightless now
ringing, shaking, calming jowls

fuck me up

solo project

one eye is shut and the other one's completely crushed

little strings

Lazy Eyelids