empty_l1fe w/ fridvy (kubsy)

last single off new EP out 11/5!!

featuring the great @decksmusic

produced by @livingpuffy

lyrics:
i’m not stupid 
i can feel it setting in
i’m just paralyzed 
while i’m staring at the edge 
and on one hand i still think it might begin 
but this afterglow is still wearing thin 

and this all ain’t 
how it used to be 
and i’m wondering
what it meant to me 
take my hand and i’ll meet you at the end 
but before you go give me one more glance

(decks)
i just wanna see the end of the tunnel
life sucks when u live in a bubble
i just really gotta get it straight
pass time in a somber state
when the walls are closing in
i need to breathe before i swim
pretend that the times are good again
in the same ways
yeah, and when i finally take a stand
hope that they’ll see me as a friend
or maybe someone instead
of nothing

one more glance (feat. decks)[prod. living puff]

acoustic no fx

lyrics

what if I told u 
I'd never feel this way again
losing friends and oxygen
why am I still looking for the light on ur front porch?
I'll wait for the next one, just let me know when u get home
I was crushed to say the least
u say that u love him
and I watch as u touch him

I could see the highway from ur backyard

i could see the highway from ur backyard

wonder when the day comes
produced by @jolst
mixed by nine to 5

lyrics:
I cant seem to get this right now
But I can say that I’ll try now

I be up inside my head I'm feeling crazy
Look up at the night sky got me feeling dazy
Count up all the stars up above I'm getting spacey
Wonder when the day comes that you gon’ replace me

Wonder when the day comes
I can’t do this on my own now
I can’t do this on my own how, oh

Been this way too long
Think I'm losing all my hope now
Can’t climb out this hole
I'm ignoring all the ropes now

Don’t wanna be be saved i wanna climb the mountain
I don’t need no help
There's no one I can count on
Don’t wanna stay back
No I've been waiting too long
I'm not right but i know I'm not wrong

I'm making new chapters every page now
I'm just tryna live for day to day now
I don’t want nobody telling me how
But the voices in my head are speaking real loud

I be up inside my head I'm feeling crazy
Look up at the night sky got me feeling dazy
Count up all the stars up above I'm getting spacey
Wonder when the day comes that you gon’ replace me

Wonder when the day comes
I can’t do this on my own now
I can’t do this on my own how, oh

Been this way too long
Think I'm losing all my hope now
Can’t climb out this hole
I'm ignoring all the ropes now

I can’t seem to get this right now
But I can tell you that I’ll try now

I can’t seem to get this right now
But I can tell you that I’ll try now

nine to 5 - wonder when the day comes (prod. jolst)

Featuring @decksmusic
Produced by @shikixo & @jolst
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
I don't talk much
'less I got something to say
Unconsciously
Rotting into my grave
Because my bad ideas and worst mistakes
Are catching up up with me today

Obnoxious
Intrusive thoughts in my brain
I'm not sick
We're all a little bit strange
Like what would I do with all this pain
If not create
So here's to the mess I've made

I admit I've made
A lot of mistakes in my days
But I'm not afraid
To own up to the fact that I could change

For the better
I've been doing my worst
You've got your head in the clouds
While I lay down in the dirt
It's so fucked up
How you made me question my worth
When karma comes back around
You'll get what you deserve

(decks)
Did I deserve this
It's like a boomerang
I'm feeling nervous
Never got a thing to say
It's like I'm locked up
A product of talking down
I'm always washing my hands just to clear my doubts

It's like I never care at all
I'm terrible
You say I'm not responsible
Insufferable
I know I'm just miserable
It's cyclical
I speak with my chest
'cause now I'm wishing the best for the mess I've made

Listen on Spotify!

Mess w/ decks (Prod. Shiki XO & Jolst)

I’m sorry that I’m not perfect 
show me that you think I’m worth it 
i know it’s not attractive to be sad like all the time 
getting fucked up every night
I hate that I’ve been so vacant in my mind 
I’m sorry that I’m not perfect 


in my mind i’m nothing, I’m worthless 


i’m muted, I’m wordless 
I’m always left breathless 
lovestruck by your presence 
I think that you get the message 

I’m too self aware and observant 
and I just want some reassurance 
all of my scars have been resurfaced 
and i feel like I have no purpose 

i don’t really know why I’m even like this 
I’m done, and don’t even wanna fight this 
brush off every feeling till I’m mindless 
drink & drive while I’m high to get excited 

just a post millennial burnout 
trying my best to not be a let down
I know I’m not perfect, just want to be worth it

Baby I’ve been fighting all the demons vibin in my head
they came from reaping got me deep in existential dread  
i wish that I could just lay next to you up in my bed
chillin watching Netflix and maybe some freaky sex 

pouring you up a cup of coffee 
manifesting that you’d want me 
despite my thoughts and how they’re haunting

i'm sorry i'm not perfect (prod. Jolst x Wisssery)

my quick fixes ft. dead broke (p. 5head)

recorded & mixed by me
produced by back2thapast

So I'm like yeah yeah yeah oh oh oh
This the start of something new
Every time I'm in a room with you I get a bad mood
Oh pardon me sorry dude I don't really wanna talk no
I don't really wanna talk
I don't really wanna talk no
I don't really wanna talk

So can you tell me what you mean
Nothing here is meant for me I'm nothing like I'm supposed to be
I hope that its all a dream
But its always a nightmare lately I been so scared I don't know
So I pick up right back where I started
Lately I don't want no friends and to my friends I'm so cold hearted
I cant wait till all this ends
Tell my momma that I'm sorry
I ain't as strong as I thought I was but I'm still working hard for us
Yeah and I been fighting for so long
I just wish this shit was simple what the fuck am I doing wrong
For my whole life I thought it was destiny
Now I don't think its meant for me
I'm tearing by the seams and honestly I wanna rest in peace
I cry each time I'm on a beat
Toss and turning in my sleep
Wake up sweating on my sheets cause I keep running from the truth
I just wanna be with you but you don't wanna be with me
Ill say ill agree with you if you say you agree with me
Oh yeah
Yeah
Ill say ill agree with you if you say you agree with me
Oh yeah
Ill say ill agree with you if you say you agree with me

my quick fixes ft. dead broke (p. 5head)

lil booj