Featuring @decksmusic
Produced by @shikixo & @jolst
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
I don't talk much
'less I got something to say
Unconsciously
Rotting into my grave
Because my bad ideas and worst mistakes
Are catching up up with me today

Obnoxious
Intrusive thoughts in my brain
I'm not sick
We're all a little bit strange
Like what would I do with all this pain
If not create
So here's to the mess I've made

I admit I've made
A lot of mistakes in my days
But I'm not afraid
To own up to the fact that I could change

For the better
I've been doing my worst
You've got your head in the clouds
While I lay down in the dirt
It's so fucked up
How you made me question my worth
When karma comes back around
You'll get what you deserve

(decks)
Did I deserve this
It's like a boomerang
I'm feeling nervous
Never got a thing to say
It's like I'm locked up
A product of talking down
I'm always washing my hands just to clear my doubts

It's like I never care at all
I'm terrible
You say I'm not responsible
Insufferable
I know I'm just miserable
It's cyclical
I speak with my chest
'cause now I'm wishing the best for the mess I've made

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Mess w/ decks (Prod. Shiki XO & Jolst)

cardigan ft KcChalk (irby x jolst)

prod. sorrow bringer
artwork done by my gf :)

you broke me down was it worth it?

you broke me down was it worth it?
i’m breaking beneath the surface
waiting for a higher purpose
but i know that’s worthless
i fear not for the end
i know that i’ll be fine
cause i’m the after life 
i know that you’ll still be mine
i’m letting go of the past cause it was flawed by desgin

failed from the fucking beginning 
they were out to get me
but i ended up winning
so i’ll sit back and wait
while you take your place
fucking your lying games
you’re such a fucking waste time for me
now it’s time for you to see

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 
you were to me
i can finally breathe
i was on my knees 
begging for you to leave
my life for good this time
well it seems i finally got what’s mine

nothing can change my mind
nothing can help you now
watch as the blood drips down
from your eyes
while you cry
no surprise 

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 
you were to me
i can finally breathe
i was on my knees 
begging for you to leave
my life for good this time
well it seems i finally got what’s mine

broken beneath the surface (sorrow bringer)

this ones very special to me, hope you enjoy <3

beat made by https://soundcloud.com/not-a-fucking-hero

hero's yt: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNG1W2kKDmWGnGDtm0i1SSg


/lyrics/

i saw her beside my bed tonight
and those gentle eyes made it feel alright
but when i open mine
the pain in my heart is all i find

tell myself I'm alright alone
and it'll get better as i go on
but the land is gray as far as i can see
i found a fox and it spoke to me

he said there's nothing on this path but heartache and pain
so turn around now before its too late
but my mind is set on the darkened horizon
where i can finally pay

i look ahead on the path where I'm bound
drown all my thoughts inside of the sound
you should ignore me and all i proclaim
because i am nothing i quietly say

the heart can betray you when you need it most
like it did me all those years ago
it feels like ages since i held you close
think ive forgotten your voice

//

speak to me
break through the fog 
rip me apart
burst my eardrums if you have to

i just wish i could've reached you
but i was blind and you were too
not even all of these bottles could show the truth
all i know for sure is that i loved you

my heart is barren
it's lost its only resident
i thought we had time
i just wish that i would have reached out



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leave (hero)

SoundCloud struck the original and denied my claim even though i own a lease. so here's the song unmonetized. sorry for the delay.
"lifefuckinhatesme" track 1.
prod. metlast and 5head

lyrics:
i been tryin my whole life
to figure sumn out
but nothin ever goes right
and i thought i was gonna be okay
when you came into my life
but now you're gone
and im pretty sure its my fault
guess you couldnt handle me after all?
and i swear to god this is the last time
cuz all this bullshit weighing down on my mind

its weighing down and its been so fucking long
since i felt okay
im running out of things to say
feelin so fucked up every day

and it never seems like i can ever figure out
wtf is going on inside my mind
but im trying, believe me im trying
but i swear to god it seems like
they're always lyin
so idk why i keep on tryin
i just wanna let it go
and ion really know
why nowhere feels like home

i just wanna go, but nowhere feels like home
i been feelin so fucked up
feelin so alone
i just wish that there was somewhere that i could fuckin go
guess ill just settle for another night stoned...

Spotify

myfault. [+metlast & 5head]

i guess ill go fuck myself
told me i should i find someone else
im breaking from the pressure
what happened to forever

im tryin my best
im doin the most
got a blade in my chest
and im uppin the dose
keepin my eyes closed
i got like nowhere to go 
and u can see in my eyes
that ive been feelin alone

up all night and no ones around
i wanna scream so loud
but i aint makin a sound 
i got blood drippin down from my t shirt
sining so loud that my teeth hurt

dose (Prod. dercept x ako)

mix & mastr @ztope <3 

lyrics
woah, woah i cant take it, i beat up on myself
i said ill see u tommorow lov...
but y do i feel like i shoulda never met u 
ig i don see myself as no.1

uh, u see th pattern
th more that we keep talking th more i think ill regret woah
i fill my lungs with shit coz its so hard to fake it
I wish that i really really deserved ur time

i can bleed too
th other half is holding back but he dont mean too
cant be worried bout the work cut out 
should just be thankful, thankful

when he opens up lets u have a read
u see th hurt getting doubled if u leave
so please dont leave baby

tuffluv
i know that our loves tough
but we can make it out dont u see the gliding doves oh my 
u still wanna force force another fight

we can talk about it 
but we just skip what matters and dont talk about it
should just be thankful, thankful

thankful (caves x saint tommorow)

(prod. michael harrison)

am i the only whos touching you
am i the only whos fucking you
hard to believe the truth from the lies
when all i wanna do is love you

did you fabricate the truth to save me
lying to my face coz this aint what i need 
told me to be okay
im just delusional i know bae

im trying to be okay
and ive been fighting for so long
for so long
for so long
for so long

standing there im vacant
an empty shell a hollow soul
hate myself its dangerous
coz i can end it all i know
and i think is better than me
give u everything u seeking
do you think bout me
when your down on your knees
i know your not praying
giving what you gave to me
i hate to say it 

all these thoughts in my head
who am i to blame
i keep playing these games
over and over again

and can you see me love
coz i want us
overthink is tough
oh i cant stop

for so long
for so long
for so long
for so long x2

compromised (michael harrison)

luhbody - holdin on

and I just cannot believe you're done with this,
I thought I meant a little more than a drunken kiss,
I been in my feelings since I was a kid,
got no money in my pocket but I still wanna live,

and I just cant let you leave, ill grab my gun,
I thought I meant a little more than some drunken fun,
ill run away from the cops into the sun,
baby ill be okay im used to smoke in my lungs

so ill just smoke on my own, im crying again, where are u?
im not okay unless im leaning on you
I don't know where you have been, but you're here now and im happy

im happy, 
for the first time in my life,
hop in my car then I drive,
oh no I don't 
a year ago wanted to choke,
I fucking hated my life,
scene getting dry,
you boys pretending to cry,
im fucking sick of these guys,
don't need a 9,
bitch I walk knife on my side,
do you guys still wanna die?
see through my eyes,
angry and im colourblind,
I don't like speaking my mind, 
people can talk,
think of me, I don't know why,
its paper plates till' I die,
don't smoke a pipe, blunt in my mouth while I fly,
these days im loving my life,
gray keep a scythe for those who willing to try,
I just keep taking their life

and I just cannot believe you're done with this,
I thought I meant a little more than a drunken kiss,
I been in my feelings since I was a kid,
got no money in my pocket but I still wanna live,

and I just cant let you leave, ill grab my gun,
I thought I meant a little more than some drunken fun,
ill run away from the cops into the sun,
baby ill be okay im used to smoke in my lungs

scythe (yunny goldz)

i think that its time to change my ways.........

Change My Ways (prod. NICKISGONENOW)

Carlby is an alternative pop artist from the Midwest. Working alongside producer, @horoshavibes, his music is a blend of pop, emo rock and hip-hop.

Contact - carlbymusic.com/contact

Mess w/ decks (Prod. Shiki XO & Jolst)

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