Will my heart still beat
After my mind has admitted defeat
Will my legs still hold 
After breaking over and over

When will it stop or will it at all
When will it stop or will it at all

Is it enough that I stayed 
Or is it more if I stay away 

Laying you down 
but I'm not left with enough time 
(Laying you down, laying you down)
Why see it now understand that the words are 
(Letting you down, letting you down)

If I stray away 
Will I even carry on
After all that I said
After all that I said

Is it enough that I stayed 
Or is it more if I stay away

Laying you down 
but I'm not left with enough time 
(Laying you down, laying you down)
Why see it now understand that the words are 
(Letting you down, letting you down

Laying You Down

It's doesn't take a great mind 
To realize it will take more then
Time to get over this

so many times i've tried
to pound these thoughts out of my head
but the hardest part is knowing
that the more i dig
the more i see the problem

i know i always keep wishing
but things will never change
and i'll always be searching
for the answers 
at the bottom of this bottle


and its hard to believe but  i still lay in deep thoughts
of times when you said everything would be just fine

once i get over my pride

Things Will Never Change

i would give anything just to get this right
instead i fall and land as a fucking mess

im sick of waiting
crossing my fingers
living in this false comfort 
i want more i need more
but i don't even know what it is i want anymore

the days are changing
but i feel the same
im mislead 
from all these nervous thoughts
im constantly 
falling back in this hole
and losing my grip on the people i love the most

the only question is
how much more of this can i take

False Comfort

~~~Reeds shall not be bruised, because Christ is near,
Thy flax be stayed, mercy ever near
Lord thy fields crave thee, thine pastures are yours!
Thy reeds and thy flax, ever we are yours! 

Patient Father hear!
Patient Father hear!
Our pleading amens!
Our pleading amens!
Mercy trickled wax!
(We are) Delicate candles!

Regeneration , ever-candles burning
Sanctification, ever reeds-trusting
Joyful redemption, your pastures of cheer ! 
Patient affliction, heaven draweth near!

Judgement day coming !, washed in your blood!
Lamb of sacrifice, bowed in your nearness!
Judgement day coming! Washed in your blood!

Unbruised Reeds

This is a song by The Smashing Pumpkins from the album Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness. 
I found a cd single of thirty-three from a record shop in Toronto. I was super pumped. Then I recorded a cover of the song with my friends.
Timo Pehkonen - acoustic guitar, lead vox, egg shaker
Aj Astle - electric bass
Sam Migliazza - backup vox
I hope you like it. 

Thirty-Three (Smashing Pumpkins cover)

Here's another cover. 
Timo Pehkonen - ukulele, acoustic guitar, egg shaker, vocals
This one goes out to my good friend Josh T. He texted me a Killers lyric that i thought was in this song so i recorded it. Turns out the song Josh was referring was actually The World That We Live In. I think i had a little wine that night or something. ...the vocals are pretty bad. I chose a bad key. whatever. it was fun to do. 

This Is Your Life (Killers cover)

This is a worship song i just wrote and recorded. It came out of nowhere. Well, i guess somewhere. 

Your Love (original)

Here's a little diddy.  ....probably the happiest song i ever wrote. haha :)

Summer (original)

I'm just happy where you are
drawing circles on your arms
could I have an open mind?
letting go of what I left behind

keep the tea from getting cold
i'll have to drink it really fast before I go
leaving me with drifting thoughts
of a life that leads you back into my arms

seem to catch this everytime
that you come back and it's like everything is fine
is it saying something else?
are we losing our last chance to ever tell?

it seems easy but it's not

Released October 2020

Tea Song

Produced by Jean-Paul De Roover
Recorded/Mixed/Mastered by Jean-Paul De Roover at Blueprints

All music written and performed by Jean-Paul De Roover including:
Piano
Electric Piano
Harp
String Arrangements
Choral Arrangement
Drums
Seaboard
Synths
Waterphone

Lone

Night

Renaissance-Music Minstrel,
Christian, Storyteller ,Sonnet/haiku/tankawriter,
Adventurer

Unbruised Reeds

Lloyd Claridge

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