prod. cxrter

surprise surprise;)
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don't usually do a surprise release, so take this as a gift lmao
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lyrics:
damn im talking to the moon again,
he's been there all my life but now he's become like a guardian,
my knight in shining armor, shielding me from pain,
but he's not overprotective, i'm still cruisin in my lane,
and maybe i got training wheels,
and maybe i'm up in my feels,
but never will i let that come between my love that's real,
and the person i embody, someone that has always smiled,
but now its painted on my face, i should've made it stretch for miles,

cause maybe then people will not take it for granted,
all the roots that i've planted
have drowned from all the rain that never seems to stop,
and my music seems to flop whenever i put in some thought,
but when i write them in 2 minutes, seems like gold that i have brought,

i promise you i'm not a king with a cave worth of his riches,
just a boy who likes his kisses, and the girl that he misses,
all my tears have collected in the ridges, and my attitude i switch it,
cause i'm bound to find an outfit that won't leave me in the ditches,

yea i hate that place, the anger plastered on my face,
i guess it's time that i replace, my face that's breaking at a pace,
it's got cracks like its a drought, and they are laced with doubt,
held together by the hope that i will make it out


(chorus)


the demons, they're all midgets,
the minutes, i've spent reflecting,
the hardships of comprehending,
the help they've been recommending,
reality i've been bending,
has stopped me from just pretending,
that i'm really fine, when my funeral ive been attending,

in a black suit, black coffin, black world, hope they care,
hope they show some color that they never seem to share,
in a world full of rainbows, im looking pretty gray,
that's probably why she left, i just had boring displays,


(chorus)

talking to the moon again (prod. cxrter)

Huge shout out to carter metro for the fire beats as always

Lyrics

If we weren't so far apart
id let you bloom into my heart baby
but you never give me the time of day
yeah you never look my way
im just another background character in your day to day
i dont think you want me

so help me breathe
yeah help me see
whats wrong with me
please baby

i hate it when you're mad at me 
for things that i cant even see
i swear you're lying right through your teeth
everytime you talk to me

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

these games aren't fun anymore baby
and im getting fed up of the way you treat me
so brutally so brutally

so

why dont you come back down to me
you knew we were fine before you kicked off at me 
for some bullshit last week

now im just asking her..

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

give it 2 me str8 (cxrter)

shout out to Carter Metro for the beat,  Julia Alexa for the beat vocals

Lyrics

ponder on my pains and which to consider worse
the pain you gave to me or the pain i inflicted first
feelings like a burden to those that i love the most
these demons got an airtight grip round my throat

i cant seem to ease my pain
every fucking day plays out the exact same 
i wake up, breathe air and leave my place
i get home, i starve myself and i fade away

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

I think im outta luck, when it comes to life
i make the same mistakes almost every night
i dont wanna fight this feeling no more
suicidal tendancies knock at my door
and i swear im this close, to just letting them in
i find solace in death, its so calm in the end
finally find some peace from within
some peace from within

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and...

burden (cxrter)

Old Me (prod. Cxrter x Stafford Beats)

share this song, i hope you enjoy :) 
feature: lil softie // beat maker: cxrter // mix: xsus

why did you leave me? (ft. lil softie) prod. cxrter & xsus

Lyrics:

lavender my skies, piece together a sliver 
of imagination, make my skin shiver 
under the rain that i once was
blooms a seed inside my lungs
dandelions in my soul forever, forever
i need you, i need you, i need you forever
ohhh ohhhh ohhhhh ohhhhh ohhh ohh oh
melting, melting, melting from the beauty in my soul

higher, higher than the sky, i don't wanna cry
but i had to let it out
all the days i didn't know what love was about
you took my hand and saved me, from all the trauma that haunts me
everyone needs to breathe, to breathe, to breathe
you're my everything

hold me close under the water, we're drowning, we're drowning, we're drowning
i'm praying a savior, i'm praying for a savior

bright lights shining through the window, as we drive on the highway
i don't wanna let you go, i just wanna die this way
hold my hand through the darkness
i don't wanna let death be my last kiss
i want you to be mine, mine, mine
hold my heart to your chest, hold me close, hold me

Credits:

Art: messy
Production: cxrter
Mix/Master: messy

bloom prod. cxrter

luv2messy