thank you to everyone that had a hand in this and for everyone who has been listening and showing support. I didnt know what to put for the genre since its a bunch of different ones so i chose pop idffk lol.

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i hate myself & i hate that i hate myself

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i hate myself & i hate that i hate myself [p. back2thapast+sor]

original song
https://soundcloud.com/heylog/oblivious

lyrics:
still oblivious to what u like
took my head cut away for life
hoping you'll see, maybe notice the time
ur wasting, face it, i wanna make u mine
still oblivious to what u like
took my head cut away for life
hoping you'll see, maybe notice the time
ur wasting, face it, i wanna make u mine

fiending for love, don't know if i'll get it
my heart is growing numb, i can never feel it
and if u are the one, doubt i would know it
cause i'm too dumb to know what ur feelin
REMEMBER WHEN YOU SAID YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE ME
WERE YOU JUST SAYING THAT CAUSE I TOOK IT HONESTLY
NO POINT IN FEELING BAD I'M JUST HAPPY YOU COULD SEE
HOW HARD I'M BOUTTA CRASH AND YOU SAY YOU'RE HERE FOR ME

still healing to be whole
don't know what's inside
guess i could explore
the sun sets west as i pedal on my bike
the rain falls best in a vertical line
still fallin inna hole
let's see what i find
cus i need somethin more
the sun sets west if the horizons behind
the rain falls best in a vertical line

fiending for love
don't know if i'll get
my heart is growing numb
i can never feel it
n if you are the one
doubt i would know it
cause i'm too dumb
to know what ur feelin
remember when u said u would like to see me
were u just saying that cause i took it honestly
no point in feeling bad im just happy u could see
how hard i'm boutta crash

THE THUNDER IS APPROACHING FROM MY HOME TO YOU
CAUSE EVERYTIME I DROVE BACK THE SKY WAS NEVER BLUE
AND THAT HAD TO MEAN SOMETHING BABE
CAUSE IT HAPPENED EVERYTIME I LEFT YOUR PLACE
NOW EVERYTIME IT RAINS I ALWAYS THINK OF YOU
CAUSE WE COULD BE KISSING, DANCING UNDER THE MOON
NOW I WONDER IF YOU THINK THE SAME THINGS
I DOUBT IT, PROBABLY JUST ME
SO KILL ME NOW CAUSE I KNOW I'M LOSING YOU
IT'S SO HARD TO BREATH IF WE'LL NEVER UNDO
I STILL LOVE YOU WITH EVERYTHING
IT'S BEEN A WHILE LAYING EYES ON YOUR FACE
I'M WRITING THESE SONGS N BABY THEY'RE ALL FOR YOU
HOPING THAT YOU SEE AND COME IN TO PURSUE
SO BABY TELL ME WE'RE OK
IS THIS LIFE? CAUSE I'M HOPING IT'S A PHASE

heylog - oblivious (slowed)

pick up the fuckin phone
yeh yeh yeh
ya we turned him 2 a painting
no one does wat i do so i paid him
fuc naw i didnt do jack shit
i learned dis on my own now i dont owe shit
im damn near the best
ya we turned him 2 a painting
no one does wat i do so i paid him
fuc naw i didnt do jack shit
learned dis on my own now i dont owe shit

high tide get me an my soul fried
i dont wana good night
i jst wanna stay up and contemplate my whole liii-
huh :p
boy thot he was nice he was runnin up a dub
uh
bitch im 2 high to ever give a fuck!
ur nothin special 
eck >:(
ur just a test wound
it was alright
BLAH!
till it wasnt!
yeh
im a zombie
bae!
do u copy?
word.
do u see me in tha cemetary late at night
walking round tryna find some fuckin spite 
i dont wanna kill u but i gotta jst to make it right
try to act cool but u know u got Formaldehyde
poisin x_x
its pointless shit u know ull cry for quite a while
but dont do shit about it
pull up in a brand new whip
gtr4s or a corvette
yep
ill whoop u in like any game, call it life
yep
enough of all the talk shit
lets just fuckin talk shit

im a monolithic mommy 
corrupting the thoughts above me 
and i cant get away from this
why u try to love me man?
why u try and hate me
why u try to say the words that cant help but tame me
i cant write the story
but i can on my face
ill put ur name on my hand
and make it somethin like "grace"
four eyed motherfuckin fuck up
four eyed motherfuckin fuck up

aries

follow guda

aries (guda x baz309)

I don't know myself
What if I choose the wrong path in life
Putting on my belt
Got to keep moving
Losings alright
Despite everything I did
I am just a fucking kid
Trying to find my place
In this hell we call life
Don't get it twisted I'm no bitch
I got problems, rather ditch
Still I must face them at the end of the night

At the end of a knife
Blood drips down from my eyes
As I stare out the window
Questioning why
Always felt like the weirdo
Drop my disguise
Now my vision is clearer and the mirror I like

I don't know myself
What if I choose the wrong path in life
Putting on my belt
Got to keep moving
Losings alright
Despite everything I did
I am just a fucking kid
Trying to find my place
In this hell we call life
Don't get it twisted I'm no bitch
I got problems, rather ditch
Still I must face them at the end of the night

End of the night
End of
Problems; Problems
Still I must face them at the end of the night
End of the night
End of
Problems; Problems
Still I must face them at the end of the night

IDK Myself

when the highway ends i hope that you’ll remember me
no life but a bottle of memories
cant die cuz you drive by me constantly 
flooded mind with your broken apologies 

rough times when id go gome and ik that ur not there
dumb crimes got me thinkin that nobody aware
well trust me im aware
trust me im aware

aware of the things that ive done
Nobody can hide under the sun
gimme closure so that i dont wanna run
i need you to say that i wasnt the one

fun times used to lay back 
dumb lies made me back track
cold eyes all that you had
when i
 really fell back

wanted life to feel like an adventure 
come back I apologize for my temper
one job and i really put it in the blender
no wood for the fire in the winter

somehow life goes on
drive home with the windows down
find out what tbeyre talking about
eyes focused on the shapes of the clouds

when the highway ends i hope that you’ll remember me
no life but a bottle of memories
cant die cuz you drive by me constantly 
flooded mind with my broken apologies 

no chance
broekn heart in advance
green vans no belt for my pants no glam
they all so judgy nowdays its like a scam
got no drip got no fans got no chance

thats cap
ima run it up and run it back
yea ima get my money up and get some fans
might catch me in a bentley truck in japan

no matter what it takes
if your hearts at the bottom of the lake
dont stay cuz i promise theres a way
dont cave cuz i know you wanna say
what you never thought youd ever get to say
take a run if you been outta shape
Thats love if you push through the pain
no drugs could ever maintain
the love that you couldn’t bring 

enough with all of the things
stuck up inside of my head
time to push them down the drain
and finally get me some rest

when the highway ends i hope that we could somhow be friends
i wonder if ur listening
to everything that’s happening 

but if you are then you know that i been wrong
wrongly torn apart 
so i wrote another song
you said that wed go far
maybe thats just what i want
Life isn’t too hard if you just look up to god

tell me that i could do better tban this
you look at my heart and say better than that
i dont know what the best medicine is

look up and you will find that

heartbreak on the highway (cxrter x yunnygoldz)

produced by jacob vallen

lyrics

i havent been myself and im sorry
but i could never hurt you because doing so would kill me
i could write a damn book bout all the shit i had to learn the hard way
but i will lift you up until my arms and my bones break

i was so surprised when you told me im the one that you love the most
and i never cry but lately i feel like im coming close
i got a habit of killing all my plants before they get the chance to grow
its a metaphor
what are we fighting for

well i often think of those nights-
well really early morning when id lay on the beach with you
i took one hell of a beating since then but i made it out
im just as surprised as you
i still think true love is a silly word
but its what were closest too
protect me cause im losing myself and my senses
but im coming to
baby ive been praying for you and your family
october really fucked me up, but december killed me
i could write a damn book bout all the shit i had to learn the hard way
ill lift you up
until my arms and my bones break

i was so surprised when you told me im the one that you love the most
and i never cry but lately i feel like im coming close
i got a habit of killing all my plants before they get the chance to grow
its a metaphor
what are we fighting for

plants (jacob vallen)

@baltic-sea-records

lyrics

If you want to pretend
Guess it's ok if we’re friends
Could you try love me?
Could you love me again?
One last chance

Know you said this was the end
This is the message I’ll send
To get you and I back

I’m here for your doubts
I’m here when you frown
I’ll answer all of your calls
My energy is your mound

You're the talk of the town
I know you’ll come around
But when you’re moping like that
I wanna leave this shit town

It’s hard for me, I know it's hard for you
Gotta overwork the brain to repair all these wounds
But it’s not always easy when you live a life in constant blue
Sometimes I don’t fucking know why I get this attitude

Hold me down for the last time
I’ll still pull a runner in the limelight
20 greys, 50 shades, I’ll still love you in this place
But could you let me love you when the time's right

If you want to pretend
Guess it's ok if we’re friends
Could you try love me?
Could you love me again?
One last chance

Know you said this was the end
This is the message I’ll send
To get you and I back

I’m here for your doubts
I’m here when you frown
I’ll answer all of your calls
My energy is your mound

You're the talk of the town
I know you’ll come around
But when you’re moping like that
I wanna leave this shit town

pretend

pretend (shxdy)

lyrics


think it thru
its in my head
but im still scared
im scared to death
im so sick of being terrified
horrified, fearful
now im paralyzed 

followed thru the woods by a pair of eyes
im betting my life on a pair of dice
wish i didnt have such a fragile mind
bb hold my hand till we’re in paradise
i know how it goes
its a paradigm
bb
i just ruin it
every single time
lately
its not ur fault
i promise we’ll be fine
hate me
even when ur gone i see u in my mind


ripped apart
but still i breath
and im not shocked
its all on me
i cry in your arms
but still i bleed
i try too hard
from underneath

pulling down
from under me
take me back
to summer eves
i miss the nights
i spent alright
and now i hardly
even think

followed thru the woods by a pair of eyes
im betting my life on a pair of dice
wish i didnt have such a fragile mind
bb hold my hand till we’re in paradise
i know how it goes
its a paradigm
bb
i just ruin it
every single time
lately
its not ur fault
i promise we’ll be fine
hate me
even when ur gone i see u in my mind

paradise lost

first little joke song (cover) as a group, ofc as an early lil christmas gift we had to hop on the tradition!! love and creds to the ogs: osquinn, brakence, ericdoa, glaive, and kmoe <333

@witheredrosesfall
i don't know what is wrong
can't keep track of my mind
hopin' that i die
can't keep crying away

@wyfydisconnected
Losin' it
Lately, I've been losin' it
They say, "You'll get used to it"
They say, "You'll get used to it"
Lately, I've been losin' it
Lately, I've been losin' it
They say, "You'll get used to it"
They say, "You'll get used to it"

@daywxtch
Wait, I don't know where I'm at
I done lost my way, even lookin' at the map
I was tryna live my life, then I fell into a trap
But that's how shit is, I can't argue with that
I was walkin' the way that they wanted me to
And they still didn't like me, so fuck all them too
Do what I want with whoever I want and whenever I want
But lately, I've been losin' it
With life, I've just been cruisin' it
I got people who do what I say to do
So, obviously, I don't need you
How many times should I tell you, "I hate you"
'Til you get it? I don't get you
Fuck me? Then, fuck you
You don't know me? I don't know you 

@wyfydisconnected
(Oh, oh, oh)
That's why I ghosted you
What the fuck was I supposed to do? (Supposed to do?)
Where're my social cues?
Funny thing, I've been avoidin' you
'Cause I don't know me either
Thought takin' that tab would delete it
Now I'm on a one-way track to my demons
And ever since that
I've been losin' composure
Feeling shoulder-to-shoulder
Summer's never been colder
Don't wanna die when I'm older
And get a routine, so I'm letting go
I've never been a bad guy
December I'll be home, 'cause I'm—

Losin' it
Lately, I've been losin' it
They say, "You'll get used to it"
They say, "You'll get used to it"
Lately, I've been losin' it
Lately, I've been losin' it
They say, "You'll get used to it"
They say, "You'll get used to it"

@shine_xvii
Take my hand and run away
I wouldn't have this any other way
Don't need your love, I suffocate
So I'll get drunk, man, what a waste
Expensive clothes, designer drugs
You think it's not enough
No else's does, you tweetin' sucks
You need to tighten up

@lycoraaa
And he has a wife, but he loves his mistress
If you blink twice, you might fuckin' miss it
I cross my enemies off my hit list
It's worthless to try and fix this
I slam my head against the wall
And I know you don't care at all
And I can't seem to brush it off
Need ego-death and Adderall

@wyfydisconnected
Ooh, never thought it'd hurt to try
You hurt me when you looked in my eyes
Like, "Hurry, we ain't got no time"
And you, keep shootin' all my birds from the air
Cl—clueless to the fact that I don't care
'Cause when the world's ending
I can't be fendin' for myself

Losin' it
Lately, I've been losin' it
They say, "You'll get used to it"
They say, "You'll get used to it"
Lately, I've been losin' it
Lately, I've been losin' it
They say, "You'll get used to it"
They say, "You'll get used to it"

pretend (shxdy)

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