i dont think u understand
what i meant when i said that theres parts i want to fix
i was talking bout myself cuz i saw me turning out different than this
kiss ur lips
fight for the hell of it
be content for a little bit
shes an angel
she fell from the sky
n ur arms feel like heaven where i lie
its a beautiful place to die

all these sand traps slowing down my grind
she concerned for my health n my life
i feel the fel energy inside
im either high on my shame or my pride

i dont think u understand 
give in to ur every demand 
i dont think u understand 
give it all the energy i have 
i feel it inside
cast it aside
our feet in the grass
think i turned to a ghost
i would stay by you when it hurt most
a swing n a miss
man was i ever close?
been on my mind i dont know if it shows
i dont think u understand
give in to ur every demand
i dont think u understand

all these sand traps slowing down my grind
she concerned for my health n my life
i feel the fel energy inside
im either high on my shame or my pride

fel w/ evergarden (nathan p)

i was sad now i’m up i was paid right
started messing w the right ones now i’m alright
got to paving my own way 
went from darkness to the light
went from staying up late
to sleeping at night 

had my heart strings to having them break
fuck that
is it too late?
i think i need a break
so i got one today
i’m on my way
got my money up
so i say what i say 
had people hate on me for anything
for being me but i still sing
i stopped caring bout what u think
i’m doing me fuck what you think 

i’m better than your average chart singer
got bored of holding in the truth so i had to switch up
the whole scene is gonna take over
we out casts to the normies
but that makes us better than you all
we gotta stand tall
making hits in my bedroom
while your in the studio
do this by myself making my own beats
using some producers 
showing love to the scene

alrightalright (bended)

prod. kaydo

lyrics

(wont you leave me alone
dont you leave me alone)

(there’s blood on my coat
blood on my shoes
blood on my shirt
blood on my heart)

(no, no, i’m notahero)

on this sidewalk i lay down and throw up
i’ll sacrifice
i want you to be happy even if i’m not
carry me to my house like i’m afraid to walk
i reach out to help
and you try to chop my hands off
baby just try to see beauty in the little things
i know there’s plenty evil in the world
but i got good in me
she know what to say to make me stay up
i wanna achieve my dreams
but i can never get them till i wake up

but it’s so hard to let go
i’m finally happy i’ll seal this memory in a photo
you say ur sick of me and it makes my stomach hurt
but i tried my best for what it’s worth
feel like all my songs get boring by the 2nd verse
you said it goes from bad to good
but i feel bad to worse
don’t feel bad
i felt this way, way before you
but i’ll make sure your life is good cuz i adore you
sipping it slow
i will not walk with crow
how can you tell me what’s good for me
like you would know
i told you the answer a long time ago
real life’s gonna hit you like a cannonball
and that fall, feels like yesterday
and when you told me, i hope that you know that i prayed
your mind can do wonders if you take control
everyone i’ve met has tried to kill my soul

on this sidewalk i lay down and throw up
i’ll sacrifice
i want you to be happy even if i’m not
carry me to my house like i’m afraid to walk
i reach out to help
and you try to chop my hands off
baby just try to see beauty in the little things
i know there’s plenty evil in the world
but i got good in me
she know what to say to make me stay up
i wanna achieve my dreams
but i can never get them till i wake up

chop my hands off (prod. kaydo)

lyrics 

No more fires it dont go well
But In this silence its so swell
The raindrops fall apart on the surface
And here we are just sighing an oh well

These late afternoons go circles
These light orange tones giving purpose
All these sticks and stones
All our cries and moans 
In hopes of screaming songs for one person

Its written to be 50/50
Its not looking pretty pretty
My eyes starting to close  
But my mouth stay sipping sipping

Losing out on events like really
Our grasps dont feel that dearly
Long way away from home
The air is thin and cold
Don't feel comfortable getting teary

Hold my head till the thing collapse
No remorse in this mud filled land
Wishes and burdens 
Gifted me curses 
I Hope it breaks before the world ends now

Turmoil reached 
I learn not teach
My emotions speak
But expressions sleep

The remains of mind wanders back to you
The sun passes by quickly 
But that one soul is missing
I thought I listened
But my heart just dreams of us 2

Hear me out, I'm different now
I've assembled all this pain
I'll tell you now this evergreen was always going to change

My mind resides by horns and flames
But wait for me to wear the cape
I'll love you in anyway
But I'll wait for you to call my name

Don't start
Baby you live in the dark
I know you tell me you listen but I analyse things very hard
Just tell me who your missing 
And tell me who healed all those scars
I know you tell me that you're living 
But I assume you're just talking about Mars

evergreen

Evergreen (Sleepy fish)

Sad chill - https://youtu.be/D5nlv64abY0?si=AyfLKLpZt0bGqaF2

lyrics ⬇️

crashin in a whole nother land
maybe this was not part of the plan
baby i just wanna hold your hand
way too long for me to even wanna let go

oh i wish you could understand 
but nothing that i do could make you really understand how

every person after you is worse off
and they wish they never met me in the first place

knock down
everysingle picture frame that im in
what about
all of those big diamonds and the necklaces
time out
cant you look at all those messages?
shy now
how could you become my nemesis 

no dont go
blue flowers remind me of you
yea i wish now days you didnt think i was rude

yea well ever since i left you, you dont want anything to do
with me
never got to even really see
our full potential could be
nothing cuz you had to leave me

why you always up in my mind
so long i bet you don’t recognize 
who i became when you had left
im barley the same but you wont check

Long nights i was locked up in my room
Like prom night, thought i had nothing i could lose
then i lost it all the second that you walked away
so now i hold my breath every songle other day

i wish that we got to go to the beach
let down never got to see the sea
never rest now
our love is lost like a receit
youre not nothing to me
but i hope one day we could work out

shy now (yunny goldz)

Thank u for sticking around <333

lyrics

Schoolgrounds
Always got ur rules, never play ‘round
New scene, fruit trees
Never spend too long on the playground
Always took granted what I see now

Old days, old ways
I know ur a product of that ol’ place
Wash away ur habits, with a cold case
Of every truth that u hadn’t even realised 
But like “no way”

I wont love u, just to let u go
I wont love u just to let u go
Ima love u, jus to help u grow
Ima love u jus to help u grow

Pick me up, put me down
Take a few steps back and you won't have to drown
Once u find that space youll prevent the drown
Pick me up but then just put me down

I dont wanna take it
I dont wanna fake it
I've had this view for so long that I’d just never make it
I've had to break thru my reality and face it

But ig that its different when it comes to you
The worlds that create only fits us 2
But I know with this world things dont always break through
Me and u jus gotta push to put out the fumes

In my name I still write for you
Even with that attitude I still expect some gratitude 
Carrying around a heavy heart
With a smile on my face
Don't want these feelings erased
I just want us both ok

I just got my soul detached 
Any moment heart attack
You tell me that my love is fake
But ig I was made for that

I feel like a space cadet
I'm heading to my worlds and back
I just saw my life flash 
I just need my life back

Ik that you told me that I need to change my outlook and
Everything that comes with that
Baggage heavy overpacked

I wish we could run it back to all the times I'd tell you stories 
Now my pages all collapse
All my words in bold and caps

I just spent the last two nights
In the background of your mind
Perfect person, wrong time
I wish we were kids for life
Coz then I'd make you happy easy
Ik you believe me 
But with what we know

It's just left us freezing 
It's just left us cold 
Baby take me home 
The thought of you leaving 
It's fucking up my breathing 

I don't want you alone 
But I hope when you're leaving 
That you have a purpose known
Coz I don't want to let you go

angelina outro

Angelina_Outro (Sleepy fish)

Lyrics 

Oh I miss you 
Oh I love you 
Oh I’m sorry 
Oh I want you here

So, I’m right here
Oh why don’t u care
No more like u used to
It’s no way near

030
Look at the past thru the rear view
Live in a lie, I don’t mean to
hurt but in the long run this gon 
Burn the both of us so let me take it out right now, I’ve got some tools but ima need u

I guess I was right that u fear truth 
But the same goes for me I just wear 2
layers of skin to protect myself 
When the air gets too thin

It’s, hard breathing
The tightness overwhelming 
See my life turning shit, silent screaming
No route reason but I still gotta push on so the guilt won’t build up and then crush on me

It’s, Hard feeling 
No hard feelings for the ones that I spend my energy on but I’m burden the worst kind where everything is uncertain
Words wind up getting lost in translation 
So we just touch the fucking surface

Times been hard been hard but I won't give up
No amount
Of hurt will get me changing thoughts 
I’m home bound
I’m home bound, im not getting lost

We spoke to oceans and trees 
And we took the world by storm on the seas
And I know that how I love isn’t me
Durable but in the end pressure makes sure to seize

Dusk Dreams, a lot of Dusk Dreams
A lot of things I work on to make all my worlds seen
No means, the end has no means 
But in these very moments I show what itmeans

Look at the past thru the rear view
Live in a lie, I don’t mean to
hurt but in the long run this gon 
Burn the both of us so let me take it out right now, I’ve got some tools but ima need u

I guess I was right that u fear truth 
But the same goes for me I just wear 2
layers of skin to protect myself 
When the air gets too thin

cats at sea

Cats at Sea (Sleepy fish)

Lyrics

Made it through the storm
I'm looking back and I can't help but mourne
A different view and I found love right after quarantine 
You saved me from the gust that was about to hit me

I never loved, I never cared
I always trust, I never bluff
And that's just all of me 
No love, no change
Hard to view, my face

Baby I can't look at you the same
"But I aml tryna change
Why can't you see me that way
Are you just filled with hate?"
Don't think I can live today
She says you better stay
I try to sip through this high 
But I'm still wide awake, baby

Way too much honesty
You watch the falling leaves
Trickle to the dirt as you desert to falling on your knees
Still all this loves come pouring out 
She said that's not love it's just a dream

And through these walls, see through walls I've hidden stuff
Drifted through days and all these days been building up
But I kept it going, I kept it going for the ones I loved

I learned to love, I learned to hate and all da above and all the reasons I had musts
And all the days I was coming up
Through the stages of one of us 
Of one of them, relate to guts 
But in the brain theres’ never touch 
And in a heart there isn’t much
Maybe a maze, grass isn’t cut
Throw in the haze and flow the blood 
Then maybe paint and let it flood

I know that you dont know me when I go cold
But that version of me is more than once told
I can’t seem to hold in no more
I'm tryna live a life and somehow grow

I hope that your happy 
And I'm happy if you are
But you still put that sinking feeling in my heart
It runs so deep I feel it circling my scars
I lived a life where I would only experience hard-ship

I'm tryna reminisce 
But I seem to just look downwards
Even the bliss would have a glimpse
But I'd just be sitting there for hours

But now I know
That I’m just not your home
I try to make u happy but emotions won't control

Am I too much?

same old story

Same old Story (Sleepy fish)

Lyrics 

Maybe I spoke too soon on the feature
Try change up to a different domineer
I cant help myself but to tease her
Ik its wrong how I act but sometimes I dont mean 
It in the wrong way, but I believe her 
when she says sorry for the same things
That I do so I teach her it dont matter
Bout who’s least hurt both needs to understand.
If u kno me, well im not jus a leaver

Deeper ohhh
Keep taking dives much more deeper, we go
The deeper we go the weaker we grow
Its good things aint surface level in this storm 
But you know
That this paths also cold
Dark, like a hole 
How we gonna take a breath if we want to coz we will 
Coz eventually it will snow
At least with a leash we can cope

Ik that its hard its different
Ik kno how much of me ur missing 
But time moves forward it changes distance
We both know this story not finished

With you it's warmer
The waters still water just larger
From all of these tears 
That I wept in your summer

Pardon im feeling fine 
It's not like u check in on me from time

I've survived
Many many blue moons in the winter time
Now, I have clear sight 
Prepared for the colder months and any signs

Baby I just wanna tell you 
That im sorry
For the way I loved you 
It might not mean much but 
I just wish I told you
How much u really mean to me 
And what u sold me
Which wasn't
Short of anything spectacular 
You let my heart breathe when I was living through a massacre 

Pardon I'm feeling fine 
It's not like u check in on me from time
You told me that our love was divine 
Just talking to myself in the night

In the core of my mind u rest
And in all the sunsets
At least I can say this with my chest
I'd rather die than regret

your summer my winter

Your summer, my Winter (Sleepy fish)

Lyrics

Away with the fairies
Up in the clouds
Don’t comprehend scary
Till I’m coming back down

I live in the now, now
Right now its a state of bliss
Our minds are racing lets hit the breaks and make a wish

Talking bout our favourite shit
But its just what we make of it 
My heart is both burning and melting 
Go on take a pic
Watching deterioration like we didnt share a kiss
The blizzard came and it purpose with its place-e-ment

away with the fairies

Away w/th_Fairies (Sleepy fish)

It was a pleasure to work with cray on this, love this song.
(prod. sadface)

**lyrics**
(me)
You can hate me
You can hate me
You can hate me all you want, I'll still give you my heart

I gave you all that I had
Been like 6 months but im grieving the past
I know where you're going, you know where i'm at
Pretend I don't see it, I can't face the facts

Now every song just been sounding the same
They're all about you or describing the pain
Sifting through letters & needless to say, I'm mentally prone to these kinds of mistakes

Looking into all my thoughts & my actions
Hella reminiscent i've been living in the past tense
Well at least I had my fun while it lasted
Screaming in the mirror, pick out everything i'm lacking 

Back then you remember we were laughing?
Every time I gotta mess it up its automatic
Tragic, I witnessed everything that happened
Hate the way I cope 'cause its been getting problematic

(yungcray)
Girl I don't like this, woke up in my room I'm the highest
I said I'm so weak but bro I'm trying
everyday's the same but you don't mind it
i don't like this though

lets take a step back can we go back to what we was
lets let the time pass, think about all the things we could
i cant help but cry when I'm stuck up in this dark maze
you were the drug, now here comes all the heartache

(me)
I gave you all that I had
Been like 6 months but im grieving the past
I know where you're going, you know where i'm at
Pretend I don't see it, I can't face the facts

Now every song just been sounding the same
They're all about you or describing the pain
Sifting through letters & needless to say, I'm mentally prone to these kinds of mistakes

Same old Story (Sleepy fish)

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