impatience Ft. sendflowrs

LYRICS:

You wanna come and tell me that you’re different, no
You couldn't understand your delusional,
I take a knife straight to the gut again
I wish I could just be normal, man

You wanna come and tell me that you get me, no
Your vapid appetite consumes your soul
Waking up again to feel disgusted
The one I hate’s myself again

With eyes shut and everything's frozen
Your tongue stumbles up as you burn in motion
Everyone’s still and just stops and stares
Shows no one will help you as no one will care

Gravity stalls as I float up gently
Please just stop cus you know I'm empty
Feeling this pressure inside of my head
My skull it cracks as I burden the share

Cus I know, this misery comes in waves
Sink a bit lower as I try to betray
A painting of emotions on fire decayed
Living in the back of a car we changed

Hold up, I need a break
From the, tears raining pain
And then you dissect me, it's all the same
Living in a world where the mind’s a maze

Wearing that necklace around your neck
Yeah isn't it a noose that's carving debt
Spending all the money you have 
On frivolous things that didn't amount to anything

I tried to be someone that just cared
But there was only so much that I could bear
It's like I was living in a house 
Where the wires were blown and the fire just started

Somedays I think I didn't make it out alive
My skin’s still charred and burning up inside
They’re breaking through the walls of my room
They're getting closer and they'll consume

Everything I've dreamt to be
As anxiety boils inside me
See depression lives here yeah and he's messed up
I'm gonna crack his skull to leave

You wanna come and tell me that you’re different, no
You couldn't understand your delusional,
I take a knife straight to the gut again
I wish I could just be normal, man

You wanna come and tell me that you get me, no
Your vapid appetite consumes your soul
Waking up again to feel disgusted
The one I hate’s myself again

The Call

LYRICS:

cus I don't wanna be the one 
that comes to you just to pick up the pieces
when the drugs enter your veins the face I love starts to change
desperation comes with the withdrawals, cold shakes

it's like the person that I loved isn't there now 
the void came through and consumed all that was found
rearrange my spine constant pain now
you hang me up in the light I'm a letdown

cause I'm just a mess bathing in stress, everything I tried to be to you
the god in the clouds doesn't exist we make our own hell from living in bliss
at least we just thought the drugs would just come take away the pain and just leave u all numb
that wasn't the case, I watched you fade out strung on the couch and then living in doubt

an empty shell of who you used to be you know that it wasn't fair to me
huffing on gas watch you collapse bathroom chemicals start a relapse
remember the time I broke through the door to see you’re wrists cut with blood on the floor
torment inside torment around I wish I didn't stay as your body was found

Sorry I'm Late

LYRICS:

Put a collar on my neck for me to explode
You don't trust a single thing I say so I hold
Hands over ears just to block out the noise
My world is fucking painted red, triple vision watch the time go

Feel my fucking bones start to stretch out my skin
A fucking loner he can't communicate from within
So he's awkward and shy, doesn't have any friends
Until they fucking see him suffer feel so sorry for him and pretend

That  everything is alright, no you will be just fine
Fucking sick of hearing words of delusion it's like you’re in my mind
The world that I love floating straight up above
I'm watching hells jaw under as you give me a shove

And I fall, it didn't take long just to hit the bottom
Of the bottle on the side a cigarette to chase the lie
So nicotine a day keeps the hunger at bay
So I'll just starve myself alone in the anguish I'll fade

It's just head pain we feel 
that keeps us alive
yeah we ache to serve a god that doesn't give a flying fuck
watch the anguish of a lover it's like he wants us just to suffer so

So why do we care
about who we are
If I could find a way to finally just say that I'm coping
Watch the ones who say they're hoping but your hopes just left me choking

Yeah, Yeah

Watch the world around me swallow me whole
The sky cracks open blood tears flood the empty hall
Screams of a lover as she’s sucked in the void
Panic attacks take over when I'm stuck with a choice

Do I stay here or swim
I guess I'll never know 
Life’s a fucking joke when wake up and you just suffer
Getting jealous of another whose normal, so wounds we cover 

So the world doesn't see confusion comes from a lover
Who knows your not fine you're breaking, you struggle to get up
And you just smother out any tiny bit of her doubt
She hasn't got the strength to help so you just wait all this out

Until you make friends with the person down in your chest
They try to make you feel so better but they know you cave to stress
So a little bit of hate comes again with the waves
You starve your own body out just to block out the pain

It's just head pain we feel 
that keeps us alive
yeah we ache to serve a god that doesn't give a flying fuck
watch the anguish of a lover it's like he wants us just to suffer so

So why do we care
about who we are
If I could find a way to finally just say that I'm coping
Watch the ones who say they're hoping but your hopes just left me choking

It's Inside

LYRICS:

You know I can't be someone that you depend on
Cus you know when you hit me up I will not answer
The consequences of separation are never easy
And when you’re all alone you hit me up, say that you need me

But I'm sick of that, I don't wanna be used to the grave
Panic attacks hit the stage open up I'm in a state
Dont wanna talk about feelings why can't I be left alone
I'm not coping, I’m not good, I didn't think that it would show

Yeah cus, I didn't want to be someone that you depend on
I didn't want to be the one that didn't answer
You said "Hold your tongue cus I don't want to hear you ever speak,
You just stay inside, haven't had a reply in a week."

"I hope you suffer in the bed that you have made for yourself
Are you happy all alone, in this hell are you content?"
"Yeah I don't care about you, I guess this is goodbye,
Cus I still don't understand the reasons why you wanna die."

Cus I hate you, when you break me, you choose
It was always us two back then I was confused
It's always when I see you falter I slip up to
I see that you are amused by the fact I need you

You know I couldn't help you when you just suffered
You know I couldn't be something that you wanted
Always getting up at me like I made a mistake
Push us back and then we break, constant fighting, say we’re fake

You wanna reprimand me for times when I didn't understand
Don't want to explain it to me so you give me the backhand
You say that I'm selfish for trying to be someone that just cares
But you run away, ignore me then just give me a blank stare

So what the fuck is up with it, I get it yeah you hate
Everyone who doesn't understand the pain that you create
You say you wanna tear them down in hopes that they never exist
I guess we all just have opinions and to you they don't mean shit

I see, "You suffer in the bed that you made for yourself
Are you happy, all alone in this hell are you content?"
"Yeah you know I care about you, I guess this is goodbye
And I still don't understand the reasons why you wanna die."

Cus I hate you, when you break me, you choose
It was always us two back then I was confused
It's always when I see you falter I slip up to
I see that you are amused by the fact I need you

Cautious

I’m not suicidal I just hate to exist
a pessimistic piece of shit doesn’t care if he’s missed
it don’t matter, what you say anymore 
I’ve reached the point of fucking breaking screaming out through the door
 
what if I stay, would you tell me I’m ok and just stray 
further down that path until we just break
you start to tell me that it’s just too much to fake
you need to focus on yourself so stay away
 
yeah, so tell me why I never see the bright side of life
I’m barley hanging by my fingertips they’re burning with fire
the ground below is way too far if I fall I won’t be fine
and when my face impacts on rocks they’ll probably say that I died
 
but I didn’t, I’m still here, 
the cracks in my skull have appeared
I scream out, to nowhere
I see death, make me disappear
 
I never, I never thought I be stuck forever
together, together, take my hand face the pressure.
get better, get better, on your knees for their pleasure
we sever, we sever, emotions like what ever 
 
the rain falls down 24 hours a day
it never stops, see it rising as it starts to decay
the walls around, warping floorboards with age
it’s like I’m stuck in the place; there’s no time here so just stay away
 
cus everything brings back the memories, 
sometimes I wish I died in that car crash just let me be
but I can’t change the fact from fiction if I can’t tell what is real
like who am I, I don’t know I can’t feel
 
I know I’m trapped behind the glass of crt monitors
the static breathes inside my conscious, built upon promises
notice my head just starts to turn and looks me straight in the eye
I see someone who isn’t me turn back and give me a smile
 
well, that’s it, I’m still here
the one who breathes is the one that I fear
I scream out to nowhere
the glass cracks as I disappear

Coal Mine

In my dreams, in my dreams I’m framed for murder
Run away a bit further, they say I did it cus they hurt her
You pushed him through the window,
watched him splatter hit the girder
 
You through your phone its just a burner,
Your face is up and, on the server,
They pushed you into limbo watched you scatter,
need some nurture
 
but you didn’t get that though
you’re running down alley ways that foreshadowed
your demise and the end of this
and as the sun creeps in I feel the skin just burn
 
and as you hit me in the face I freeze,
slow static to the ptsd,
and the shakes start to come with this
and you feel like yeah, you’ve just lost everything
 
When will I be free, I wanna be just me
But I get no rest from nightmares plaguing me in my dreams
Yeah, I just want them to leave
 
Theres no time to grieve,
 As my mind deceives
I beg to the ones above that I have some reprieve
 
As I go further down, it surrounds me
The doubt in my mind it gets so cloudy
Yeah, to the point where they don’t allow me
Just to be and live alone
 
Cus they’re scared ill hurt me
If I was serious, I wouldn’t be lurking
But instead, they just don’t understand
They all point and stare.

Murder

I dance with the ghost as a child drawn out
screaming in my dreams I doubt
that anyone can hear me now
with a voice that's scraped with a razor, I'm just a stargazer
 
who wanted to reach heights that no one saw,
the thing about that once you fall you’re gone
hang me out with the noose that's made of your lies
meeting you makes me wish I wasn't alive.
 
cus, I don't wanna hear it when it’s just all about you
now you're flicking out your razor saying that you wanna cut through
 
yeah, you're putting pressure on my mind, and it makes me wanna die
yeah, I’m scared of the public, I think I’ll stay inside
cus, I don't wanna hear it when it’s just all about you
 
Wake up, cold feet, get out of bed to yesterday’s static
pass out, don't think, scratched out eyes of the photo that you just
don't want to keep, will I find a place to mend but I just can’t
get on my feet, so I’ll just stay in the house where I am high
 
Hey, that's me, by the tree line of the cul-de-sac where I grew up
hands over ears, don't want to hear an argument from my father
years pass in a blink, still end up crying to my mother
a fuck up, that's me, so what if I take drugs to cope.

Hey, that's me

a little spooky song since i rewatched TVD & TO so i felt like making a werewolf song enjoy 

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
we travel in a pack
we hunger for blood and hearts
half wolf half man howling at the moon and stars
haunted by something in the dark
i wear this mark
because its all i got

i know im stuck in this mud
i know i look better with his guts and blood
as i sip on my rum i dont even get drunk
but i can still there blood on my tongue
i hear gun shots
i guess im on the run 
i had a chance that no one had
but who would of thought id turn bad
ive been having nightmares of there screams when i sleep at night
it all changed with one bite
it all changed one night
when the moon shined so bright
and i didn't feel alright
thats the sametime i took his life
i cant look at anyone in the eyes
theyre too bright 
i hear your heart beat a mile away
i taste human meat and im not okay
why does it feel like somebodys after me
i just wanna leave


we travel in a pack
we hunger for blood and hearts
half wolf half man howling at the moon and stars
haunted by something in the dark
i wear this mark
because its all i got

mark of the pack

I got the message that's for sure
You threw me overboard to the waves
I started sinking to the bottom
Cause you tangled me in your chains
When you watched me fall
Did you feel any pain
As I sink out of sight, will you remember my name
I feel the weight crushing down on me
As I hold on tight to my memories
I try to fight; but I don't got the energy
Cause this chain weighs down my extremities
I have to shed my skin
You are not part of my identity
Hit the bottom where I found some clarity
God this whole time I was my own enemy

I left my past in the ocean as I wash up on the shore
Love you left me broken got me bruised down to my core
I'm just a corpse of who I once was
The ocean water filled up my lungs

chains [neverforever]

[HOOK]
I hope these drugs gone work
and it don't go worse
matt black nails ooh yeah I'm a curse
and I need you now but I'm too fucked up
suppressing all my thoughts yeah i call it tough love
and I'm living out a bag tryna make a bag
backwoods fill it with the loud out the pack
Girl take this pill I know you will
Druggie Romance the type of love to kill
I hope these drugs gone work
and it don't go worse
matt black nails ooh yeah I'm a curse
and I need you now but I'm too fucked up
suppressing all my thoughts yeah i call it tough love

[VERSE / WeepingWolf]
Call it Tough Love 
Call it Tough Love
She asked for the white
like girl take a bump
Fucked off the drugs
yeah I'm fucked off the drugs
Worst day of my life but
I don't give a fuck ah yeah

[BRIDGE]
Todays the worst day but it will be alright (x4)

[HOOK]
I hope these drugs gone work
and it don't go worse
matt black nails ooh yeah I'm a curse
and I need you now but I'm too fucked up
suppressing all my thoughts yeah i call it tough love
and I'm living out a bag tryna make a bag
backwoods fill it with the loud out the pack
Girl take this pill I know you will
Druggie Romance the type of love to kill

[VERSE / Anton Golden @antongxldn]
All these dark thoughts tryna mess with me
So I put them on a beat with a melody
Recently I've been looking for the remedy
Cooking up every day found the recipe

Eventually you'll leave but the drugs won't
Baby I'ma get high till my lungs blow
I've been looking at the sky now I'm so close
Tryna find my way call me Nemo... Nemo

Bitch I've been smoking
my heart is broken
Shes off that coke and
numbing emotions

[HOOK]
I hope these drugs gone work
and it dont go worse
matt black nails ooh yeah im a curse
and i need you now but im too fucked up
suppressing all my thoughts yeah i call it tough love
and im living out a bag tryna make bag
backwoods fill it with the loud out the pack
Girl take this pill I know you will
Druggie Romance the type of love to kill

Druggie Romance Ft. Anton Golden (Prod By. CRCL)

23 | vox / songwriter & engineer 
i make what i want my music isnt for everyone
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email - m@scars.online

mark of the pack

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