did u get the red flowers beside ur wardrobe?

ghost town w/ brecken

Production + being an awesome af person - @whos-that-clown
Production - @Prod5head
Lyrics + Vocals + Mixing/Mastering - Alexis LeVay(HeyLee Manzeron)

I wrote this song as a spritual successor/sequel to a song I dropped many years ago. This one is about looking back at life when you're running out of time, and regretting how cruel the life experience was, but also being thankful for just still being alive at all.
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Lyrics:

I’m thinking ‘bout the wasted years
And I’ll watch my life just disappear 

I’m a golden fish in contaminated water
I’m sorry to my Mom, I was not a better daughter
I’ve been shouting at the sky, but I never got an answer
Crippled and decayed from the aggravated cancer
No
I don’t need this toxic bullshit
No
I’ll will live to forget this moment

You’ll never go through what I’ve been through
And it’s something I’d never hope for you
These nightmares I behold are true
Like Christchurch, I will crumble too
Like the hindenburg disaster, I’ll be falling faster
Flatlined, 29, staring down the casket
Imma go down smooth like Primo in a glass(uh)
You’re six feet deep, can’t fix it with a plaster

You think that you’re safe, but you’ll never get a pass(uh)
Life is a skill that’s impossible to master
Death is relaxing, it hits you with that blaster
One moment you’re here, then you’re breathing in your last one
Well, ain’t life a bastard? Ticking down faster
Every single thing you grow to love with never last(uh)
Every single day just gets harder
But I’m still here, poppin’ ass to Nova Garden

I’m a golden fish in contaminated water
I’m sorry to my Mom, I was not a better daughter
I’ve been shouting at the sky, but I never got an answer
Crippled and decayed from the aggravated cancer
No
I don’t need this toxic bullshit
No
I’ll will live to forget this moment

I WILL FORGET THIS MOMENT! | Prod. The Sound Clown + 5head

prod fats'e 

lyrics: 

hit me with the combo then
grieving while it's burning and
madness piles up again
bracing for a triple up
hiding for another month
running from the mourning dove
your paintings hanging on my wall
remembering when i was young
wish i could've said farewell
bracing for a triple up
hiding for another month
running from the mourning dove

i've been searching for the remedy
stuck inside my memories 
stuck inside for weeks 
i'm in my room just pacing endlessly
thought that i'd get wiser but i still feel like i'm 23
my eyes have gotten drier 
now i think i'm numb to everything
colors bleed right off the tapestry
embrace another tragedy 
circling above there's hidden messages i'm yet to see
embrace the raven calling me and pull me close 'till i can't breathe
losing you is proof that maybe i'm not numb to everything

mourning dove

secre x maesk 2025

lyrics 

describe me what you’re looking at baby
‘coz the pushing and the pulling just crazy
im just kinda glad that i’ve been chasing
the clouds to be our bed with what we’re chasing 

‘coz what we’re chasing, it ain’t cheap
i’ve got mud and bloody feet
taking shots and crossing deep
where on earth u taking me?

i know a place in my dreams if you wait patiently 
avoiding the steaks with the screams
and we can sail the seas

i’ve never been on rocky water but its all make believe
tell me what you’ve been thinking about and i can set you free
i can set u free
yeah i wrote the story but gave u the key

i gave u the key
yeah i made the story but gave u the key
i gave u the key
yeah i made the story but gave u the key

i made it up
it’s based on luck
i swear u get what u deserve and thats enough
look, chasing what’s inside is not a rush
u might think its fucked thats when u trust

fuck it, lets wipe all the pages clean
just put all the pressure on me
oh, i love it we’re roaming the fields like they’re streets
just put it in place then release

girl u safe in my dreams
washed in the sewer like a secre beat
see the odd thing, it’s not working out
and hen it come to working out
u can create that shift
u can- u can create that shift

something dark holding on?
u can create that shift
something u assume is gone?
u can create that shift
maybe you’ve never been wrong
u can create that shift
u can create that- u can create that shift

the shift

the shift (secre x ryan kelly)

// verse 1 
watch as you’re breaking their hearts 
can’t touch without leaving a scar oh no 
know what you do after dark 
leave everyone torn into parts oh 

oh babe  
walk to the bed 
lays me right down 
and gives me the best head 
oh babe 
got my sheets all red 
say that it’s not love 
till we’re bleeding out  

// chorus 
fuck like we fight 
and you kiss then you start to go down 
talk with your tongue 
oh talk to me 
hands on your thighs 
and you move like you can’t slow down 
fuck till you’re numb 

hands round your neck 
rolling your eyes  
like i’m the best you’ve had 
and i know tomorrow 
that you’ll turn your back  

fuck like we fight 
and you kiss then you start to go down 
talk with your tongue 
oh talk to me 

// verse 2 
watch as you’re stealing their spark 
just to feed your ego, oh darling don’t
and leave them all covered in marks 
let everyone know what is yours oh 

oh babe  
walk to the bed 
lays me right down 
and gives me the best head 
oh babe 
wanting me dead 
choking me out 
but she knows i like it 

// bridge 
watch as you rip out their hearts
it’s no secret
i see you inching for their soul 
oh baby when it all gets dark
i hope you know that your name’s not the one i’d call anymore 

it’s all turned red
the movement 
the bed 
the money 
the power
the cancer
devours 
we’re all dead 
our brain’s full with lead 
so don’t be so shy now
come show us what you came to do

talk with your tongue

Spotify

talk with your tongue [tnvr]

hiatus

hiatus (noah808 x ryan kelly)

produced by @rainyd4ys

lyrics:
burn the bridges with this pack of matches
smoke the pack down till its ashes
s-s-self destructive, motherfucker stay out my mentions
i act out for a-a-attention, hoping for a reaction

working my hardest
writing these songs trying to live lavish
but this was just a survival tactic
its all i wanted, i made it happen
and it wasn't magic, it was hardwork & dedication
i put in the hours since i started
im not even a artist
but im still working my hardest
watching everything i care about turn to dust
and than i start to rust
look at my cuts, theres a lot of blood
and im trying to be okay
but i know no one gives a fuck
lost all my friends again
i guess im out of luck
i got the words but they wont come out
theyre on the tip of my tongue
if u where my friend why would have a smoking gun


im codependent to my all my friends
fake friends switch up now im defenseless 
none the less off the record, but i digress
i know i made this mess, but idk if i can clean it
so im smoking another cigarette 
jus trying to impress
because i dont nothing left 
let me go
i got no where left to go
no im not coming home

burn the bridges with this pack of matches
smoke the pack down till its ashes
s-s-self destructive, motherfucker stay out my mentions
i act out for a-a-attention, hoping for a reaction

self destructive and codependant

lyrics

hammer in it
hammerin it
can u try to visit
damage in it
hoe i lived it
you could try to listen
if i went missing
i went missing
would u look for me
try to fix me
u cant fix it
can u try to fix it
hammer in it
hammerin it
can u try to visit
damage in it
hoe i lived it
you could try to listen
if i went missing
i went missing
would u look for me
try to fix me
u cant fix it
can u try to fix it

im chopped into spare parts
is it possible that u could lend a spare heart
i got half a mind to leave it to the deep dark
i got half a mind to burn it with a quick spark

can u hold me back 
while i detox
could there be another road
ion see one
its impossible to live in the deep end
its impossible to see when cash in

hammer in it
hammerin it
can u try to visit
damage in it
hoe i lived it
you could try to listen
if i went missing
i went missing
would u look for me
try to fix me
u cant fix it
can u try to fix it

its never been more over (sorrowbringer)

the toolbox (s0ftskelet0ns + hollowprpl)

❤️
you tell me everything that you go through 
i try to stay strong for you like im goku 
but idk boo do i do a good job 
cuz im in the dark with myself as well

i been wanting to die too but i wanna write too
i know i don’t talk much anymore and im sorry
don’t like to compare but that’s all i been doin
got my eyes closed thinkin bout your hair

strawberry blonde 
your my best friend your my best friend 
you make me the best me and girl yeah you test me you’re one of a kind
and i’m so greatful that your mine mine mine mine

strawberry blonde (what would i do without you?)
i wouldn’t wanna find another fish in the sea 
i feel like wraith i might die in this room 
you might be a widow soon with how i fucked i feel 
my self esteem so far from the roof

shoutout skelly this help me get out my mental 
my mind is clear im feelin presidential 
wish it would last forever but its more like rental 
thank god i got my baby to ground my when it hurts
strawberry blondeeeeeeeeee

strawberry blonde (s0ftskelet0ns)

No more favours
No more favours
I had done way too much these guys still shit like I cant save em
U gotta prove u hot before I cut my split and pay em
Its not shit on me he playing that game we bound to flame him
No more favours
No more favours
I put the big guy on him this guy tall as a Florida gator
I cant do no 50/50 bitch im not a skater
Purple inside the banana wood my Kush look like a laker

I put money on top her back she arch so deep its breaking physics
These guys get so bitchy they think we friends cause we in business
I had done held my tongue like way too long these guys some minions
Too much fake love here in this game I think I hit my limit
Bari sent thru some beats im tryna blow right past my limits
I put numbers up on the board u not gonna see me in the scrimmage
Really its fuck these guys they only online to get some gash
How u not embarrassed when u crying and pushing trash
I see u right now I promise that beak is getting bashed
Now its no more favours sorry my love its not gon happen
I take care of myself I couldnt take care of fucking bad friends
We used to be family but this money got him acting
We used to be family but that shit had turned to past tense
Ok now im locked in
She ask me if I geek up I said often
And right now
I avoid the come down
I need more thrills
I dont even go out
My house full of blue pills
My house full of cracked seals
This shit surplus here like tylenols and Advils
Baby u know u stressed kills
Im just tryna curb the graph
This Molly hit my head and get my spinning like a laundromat

No more favours
No more favours
I had done way too much these guys still shit like I cant save em
U gotta prove u hot before I cut my split and pay em
Its not shit on me he playing that game we bound to flame him
No more favours
No more favours
I put the big guy on him this guy tall as a Florida gator
I cant do no 50/50 bitch im not a skater
Purple inside the banana wood my Kush look like a laker

no more favours (jabarionthebeat x haze x yakree)

22 | vox/songwriter & engineer 

i make what i want my music isnt for everyone

email - m@scars.online

self destructive and codependant

marsmal

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