lyrics 

u don't know me why u hating
never met me whatchu thinking?
shouldn't listen to opinions
but it's hard when everyone shares em

cigarette black out, waiting for the tap out
too late now but u think u wanna back out
running from the past now, moving too fast now
getting in my head and I think that ima pass out
ur alone now, where ur friends at
calling on ur phone, they don't wanna text back 
I wonder whys that 
could it be that 
everybody's sick waiting for u to change back 
passed out face down on the asphalt 
lotta nerve telling me that it's my fault 
attitude that u give kinda seems old
doesn't help that u always gotta take more 
phones off and I'm never gonna call back
Best bet like maybe get a text back 
no way did I ever wanna hear that 
"it's okay cause we haven't had sex yet"

never met (jody)

loop from looperman
self produced

loveless4life

lyrics 

if ur hearing this I'm sorry for the things I've said and done
sometimes I get so angry
my seems become undone
tell myself I
tell myself I wouldn't cry
tell myself i
tell myself I wouldn't lie
tell myself i
tell myself I wouldn't cry over u again
but I

I cry when I think about the two of u
entwined at night, when he's inbetween ur thighs
gouge out my eyes 
just to keep myself from breaking down these walls that I built to keep u out
I'm cryin' but it's gucci
blood stains on my shirts sleeve 
let me know if ur listening
if ur still listening 
 

if ur still listening

lyrics

sorry, the number u have called is unavailable at the moment, 
please leave a message at the tone

hey uh, so
I'm calling cus I
I saw what u posted today
and I can't just can't do this at all anymore
I don't know what made you think it's okay to just
fuck my best friend like that but
we're done
n uh, you're not gonna see me anymore
bye

I've got a feeling that sits in my soul
to fight thru the pain
to let it all go
of all the blood I bled
I know there's more to give
n I can't taste the ash
I know u slept with him
if I could I would forget u
here's a list of everything u said that wasn't tru
God damn I'm gonna miss u
but I wish I never met u

I wish that this could be
one of the last songs I write about u
but we can both see
that this is gonna take a bit of time 

I remember freaking out cus I got sober 
I remember dates we set for late October
but we had to wait till it was over
where u at?
I'm smoking out the back
two packs and friends wanna get a bag
ride fast, crash a car n fuck the relapse
fuck the relapse
fuck the relapse, yeah
lock myself inside my house
I keep it down
cus I'm trying not to cry loud
it's all ash, but I gotta clean the bong out
two hits n I'm gonna put the knife down
yeah

does it cut u when i say that i don't want u around?
ur in my head but I still tend to keep my ear to the ground
n I swear
it gets so overwhelming 
time flying past 
but it feels like last week

n what do I say when I can't breathe?
what do I say to make this pain cease?
I'm all choked up n I can't think
what can I say to make this okay?
I hope u hear one of my songs
but u don't know so u sing along 
till u look down, see my name so
u say: "oh shit, what have I done?"

we're sorry, u have reached a number that has been disconnected, or is no longer in service
go fuck urself

Salem Pt. 2 (5head)

originally performed by nothing, nowhere
reprod by caves
non profit cover

lyrics

I'm a 20 something 
somethings running thru my veins
I'm feeling quite alone
used to say I gave a fuck about a shit
but now that shit that I dismiss gets in my bones
and u can tell ur friends that ima mess and that I always stay at home 
but ur alcohol will fade away
those local bars and glory days are gone

how about that?
still stuck in the past
did u think it would last?
this too shall pass

passed out slow, yeah 
and it's all in my head
or its all too real
either way I'm fucked
either way I've had enough
and I did this to myself 

_twenty_something_(nothing, nowhere cover; caves)

originally performed by sewerperson and killedmyself

mastered by cherryrizla who killed it as always

lyrics

isolated, take me out back for some fresh air
contemplated, she could never kill me but she'd contemplate it, fun
baby im just tryna have a little fun, run
she squeeze out my breath until my throat go numb
come into my house I'm in the underground 
I'm close too mother earth my lover look around
how I'm sposed to feel when u burn it to a mound
she get way too mad u should mediate it

girl it's just a party and I'd rather not be here
these r ur friends I got noone I wanna see here
cold, it's so cold
I can't walk thru this alone
take me home
I know I'm horrible

I wish u could see it thru my bloodshot eyes
cuz baby girl we're rlly not that different u nd I
everything ur feeling is the usual
but everything ur feeling I just hide
I gave her my heart do u got one I could borrow 
u don't gotta give it back I'm already hollow
broken bodies buried in a grotto
let me see the face that look like someone that I used to know
every time we sin we sin again in don't wanna
I don't wanna go I just gotta 
dark pelt coat in octobers like a sauna
I live in a forest off the fauna 

isolated - sewerperson (betweentheveinsandi x jolst cover)

written, recorded, engineered and produced by me

lyrics:

i get this feeling every evening
why the fuck do the ghouls wanna eat me
why do my friends not wanna meet me
because im insane
my brain is way to far gone
so ill speak about it on this song
i take 3 or 4 bowls out my bong
than i zone i record it wont take to long
dont wanna talk to anyone 
cant even answer a text from my mom
going to work tomorrow
but i dont even wanna get out of bed at all

people dont like my new rap stuff
even tho this is what i wanna make
i feel trapped 
they talk about your acoustic stuff slapped
but that shit was wack
i wanna rap
i wanna speak my mind on this beat
i wanna produce my own music
i wanna write my songs about me 
im not stupid
but im a litte clueless

open up the curtains
keep trying man
itll start working
i dont need anyone
im always hurting 
im not a god
but all these ppl "worship" me

stupid (mars)

deadwood collective

Lyrics
-=-=-=-
I don’t even wanna go outside
I just wanna stay right here in my room
A thousand chemicals
Consuming everything I do
I try to show it’s all for you
But these intentions never prove
I have my back up to the wall
And I can feel it falling through

Into the quick sand
Feel it like a sixth sense
I’ve been feeling sick since
You said that you miss me
Plucking the six string
I’m feeling misery
Tryna find a melody
To show you what you did to me
Anxiousness a tendency
That tends to get the best of me
I bite this fucking tongue until it splits upon my bloodied teeth

I don’t even wanna go outside

Nah I’ma keep that shit right here
Stabbing my back u don’t fight fair
No time shared
Like why care
Flippin the script and I’m taking a rip from
I don’t know
I don’t care
You don’t even care when I’m right here
Like right here
I’m right here
Girl can’t you hear me I’m right here

I'll die in this room (prod. wraithontheporch)

leave me right here 
leave me in dust 
I don’t like ur ways
you always seem to lack the time to trust 
so now I gotta wait 

you don’t wanna sit right here with us
I guess this is my fate 
ride around like I got so much guts,
and I can’t tolerate 
the way they act around eachother 
no they cant cooperate 
you don’t wanna see me at my worst
so I’ll just runaway 

my feelings running round in fucking circles can u help me please
You don’t wanna be around me cuz I got some new disease 
everyone I love just gets hurt and it’s all on me,

I’ve been in the rain,
I’m looking for the answer 
I won’t stop hunting 
like black panther 
had a real soulmate 
she a dancer 
all I feel is weight up on my shoulder 

all I fear is fear is fear is getting older 
I could do so much more with life, I need closure 
I wish I could go back in time just to hold her

fate [jewelryboy]

ᴅᴇᴀᴅᴡᴏᴏᴅ

prod. web

yeah i blame it on the drugs but it must be something else
writing lyrics bout my life with a gun on top my shelf
i dont got no one talk to man i really need some help
i just dont wanna put my feelings all on top of someone else

everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i just wanna fucking die let me slit my wrist
need to clear my mind need to reload quick
got the high beams on 110 in the whip
blocked your number because 
everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i really hate to wake up and just feel like this
i dont really miss you but i still reminisce
when i would hit your phone and every shot was a miss

I guess I’ll sit up in my car
Puffing loud in rerolled cigars
When you look back, is it ever fondly?
I get cold and nights just get long
I get sick of making these songs
When nothing hits the way that I want
Nothing feels the way that it was
I don’t think I’m fit for the part

everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i just wanna fucking die let me slit my wrist
need to clear my mind need to reload quick
got the high beams on 110 in the whip
blocked your number because 
everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i really hate to wake up and just feel like this
i dont really miss you but i still reminisce
when i would hit your phone and every shot was a miss

You know
Everything about me
And you pick me
All apart
I’ll go
Everywhere that you go
Until you burn it
All to tar


everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i just wanna fucking die let me slit my wrist
need to clear my mind need to reload quick
got the high beams on 110 in the whip
blocked your number because 
everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i really hate to wake up and just feel like this
i dont really miss you but i still reminisce
when i would hit your phone and every shot was a miss
(2x)

I said to stay away because I can’t give what u take
I’m compressing and my head thinks maybe we just need a break
Okay?
I gave it all away
I tend to face the flames
I never bend, I break
So say it’s all okay
I guess you found the fucking cracks up in this armor
I harbor all the hatred you have given for a whole year straight
Yet you negotiate
The price upon my fate
I’d trade it all for heaven
But you will never take


clearing my head

gateway(prod. M4RSHALL)

Shout out calypso for the art she’s the goat🫶🏼
           
Lyrics

And I know 
That I’m done
I won’t run, I won’t run

And I know 
That I’m done
I won’t run, I won’t run

Reminded of the past every time I look down, I can’t change what I’ve done now
Might as well let it all come back around and change me
When I’m done I wonder what my corpse will feed
All the bugs around me, I think they’ll feed
And they look hungry and I’m not mean 
so I’ll let them feed

And when they’re done, I can go and be no one 
I can go and be no one 
I’m already no one

I’m already no one, and I can’t fix what’s already been done 
Can’t redo a race that’s already been won
But I’ll race to my death cause that just seems fun
Yeah, I’ll race to my death cause that just seems fun
Redo what I’ve already done
No past changes 
I’ll make it, then pretend I’m famous 
Can’t change it

Can’t Change it, I hate it
This feeling, I won’t make it
Yeah I hate it 

Yeah I hate it

I know…(freestyle)(prodbyecho1)

22 | vox/songwriter & engineer 

i make what i want my music isnt for everyone

email - m@scars.online

stupid (mars)

marsmal

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