love song 4 the ghost i see in my room sometimes 

original beat by killedmyself (chopped and pitched)
additional violin by my good friend Mohini 

its not somethin else
its exactly whats the most obvious
its so easy to tell
and im no good at hiding it
its rly not that hard to figure out
the obsessions not mutual 
i know u like me but not as much
i wanna be what you think about
i cant help but fall in one sided love 

and im stuck in it  
i get so dumb in it 
there might be something
to make me feel more whole 
somehow 
your touch that feels like home 
but then u cast me off and i end up more alone
strung up
im just a puppet
u can make me dance 
im happy to perform 
in ur bed
im nestled up and warm
hoping 
the night can last more long 

ive been numbed up i dont feel it 
i dont feel the touch im too hollow
can u help me get more human 
maybe some emotions to borrow 
i think im the worlds best escapist 
back then i just didnt wanna exist
so i buried my head in the sand
look at all the time i wasted

. . . . .

when im in your arms it felt so warm like home

produced by scottyplash

lyrics;
ive never felt so hollow
i wish i believed there is always tomorrow
i wanna believe it, but im drowning in my sorrow
im trapped in this box and i can feel the walls narrow
i feel like i could die today 
sometimes i wonder if anyone would even care though.

wanna escape this life
maybe ill end up in hell or ill find my paradise
maybe that would be nice
i try todo everything right
everything's slowly turning dark again
im falling a path leading me to light

tomorrow (interlude)

the life of a lofi boy

fake my death

some days I be waking up
and idk why I try no more
some days I just fake this love 
cuz lately I been feeling bored 
not I cannot get enough 
like give me something a little more 
don’t know what I took but it got me feeling good 

i been on some different shit
im stuffing 3 grams in that wood 
no they never high like this,
not high like me they wish they could 

I said ah shit it’s crashing down on me again
and I don’t like it 
back in school I hated that shit 
I said fuck it 

way too ahead of myself I thought I had u in my pocket
I don’t believe in god but it feels like there is someone watching 

some days I be waking up
and idk why I try no more
some days I just fake this love 
cuz lately I been feeling bored 
not I cannot get enough 
like give me something a little more 
don’t know what I took but it got me feeling good 

but i know that someday if i go
like you will think about the past
walking down a lonely road
like thius aint good for my head
i been stuck on auto mode
tryna fix the bad things


but i pray soem day when we are up
may the angels follow us
shit, a couple people left me now 
but they’ll be back so quick
can’t wait o to get up out this town
I fucking hate this shit
my bad it I don’t text u back im 2 busy working

angels [tiresss]

wrote this about the struggles my best friend went through

rotting with the moon (neverforever)

f*#kedup (prod. kubsy)

hop on a beat and i go nuts
we broke up
heart torn up
bad bitch fucking on a tour bus 
bad bitch fucking on a tour bus
bad bitch fucking on a tour bus

drop the cellphone drinks poured up
every song drop go enormous aye
deadwood drops cant ignore us

time been moving different
think my vision started spinning
i been getting lost in thought staring out the window 
annoying ass bitch throw her out like dispo
i got a bad bitch imma turn into a widow

hop on a beat and i go nuts
we broke up
heart torn up
bad bitch fucking on a tour bus 
bad bitch fucking on a tour bus
bad bitch fucking on a tour bus
hop on a beat and i go nuts
we broke up
heart torn up
bad bitch fucking on a tour bus 
bad bitch fucking on a tour bus
bad bitch fucking on a tour bus

tour bus (prod. mxtthxw)

lyrics
lock me in the studio, ill be fine 
every time i sleep she hears my teeth grind
ill give u my heart girl ion need mine
ill just let it go but can we rewind
this shit way too fancy, i got red wine
[REDACTED]
when im in the booth i feel my tears dryin
ill just chalk it up to some bad timing

i just wanna go back to my home , do u understand 
body parts enclosed inside this frozen land
i got a sixth sense the ghosts try grab my hands 
shawty u can see me thru the grains of sand
sands of time have fallen like the ottoman
i sit in these leaves , im the autumn man
i sit in these flames like im the fireman
oh ontop my desk u can see plenty cans

lock me in the studio, ill be fine 
every time i sleep she hears my teeth grind
ill give u my heart girl ion need mine
ill just let it go but can we rewind
this shit way too fancy, i got red wine
[REDACTED]
when im in the booth i feel my tears dryin
ill just chalk it up to some bad timing

the autumn man (branwen)

useful (acoustic version)

lyrics:

Its Tough luck tough love

How many people i try to become I been stuffing inside of my body
Some of them pieces of shit well probably
I keep so many in here its an army
And If they could hurt u, theyd probably harm me
Already on purpose they emotionally carved me
So I kept all the shit inside me
And it just keep ulcering out of my body

Animal masks step foot in the lobby
I had cast spells thats banned and they got me im fucked
Oh but Peeling back skin is my hobby
I pull the skin from my pinky to palm 
So What is the problem in here whats the qualm
80 bpm my heart I am calm
I killed a man in the winter 06 
And I had been wearing the same clothes since
But Its too hard lie now
I knew someone’d find out
I kept all his things and
I dress up and play house
That saran wrap body
Its my only friend now
Hes got strong opinions
Ones I aim to shut out
When the smell is fucked up
And my neighbours riled
Ill just blow his skull back
And wear him a while
All this blood had filled the eye holes
Im so out of style
I just Fit my feet in his feet
Now I wear his smile
And What do you do all night while im up at work
I see you sit back tongue tied tryna find the words
To try and ask me why exactly im not home at dusk
Girl just ask me cause ive spent years just carrying on for us

How many people i try to become I been stuffing inside of my body
Some of them pieces of shit well probably
I keep so many in here its an army
And If they could hurt u, theyd probably harm me
Already on purpose they emotionally carved me
So I kept all the shit inside me
And it just keep ulcering out of my body

Tough luck and tough love
Tough luck tough love

tomorrow (interlude)

marsmal