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u don't know me why u hating
never met me whatchu thinking?
shouldn't listen to opinions
but it's hard when everyone shares em

cigarette black out, waiting for the tap out
too late now but u think u wanna back out
running from the past now, moving too fast now
getting in my head and I think that ima pass out
ur alone now, where ur friends at
calling on ur phone, they don't wanna text back 
I wonder whys that 
could it be that 
everybody's sick waiting for u to change back 
passed out face down on the asphalt 
lotta nerve telling me that it's my fault 
attitude that u give kinda seems old
doesn't help that u always gotta take more 
phones off and I'm never gonna call back
Best bet like maybe get a text back 
no way did I ever wanna hear that 
"it's okay cause we haven't had sex yet"

never met (jody)

loop from looperman
self produced

loveless4life

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if ur hearing this I'm sorry for the things I've said and done
sometimes I get so angry
my seems become undone
tell myself I
tell myself I wouldn't cry
tell myself i
tell myself I wouldn't lie
tell myself i
tell myself I wouldn't cry over u again
but I

I cry when I think about the two of u
entwined at night, when he's inbetween ur thighs
gouge out my eyes 
just to keep myself from breaking down these walls that I built to keep u out
I'm cryin' but it's gucci
blood stains on my shirts sleeve 
let me know if ur listening
if ur still listening 
 

if ur still listening

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sorry, the number u have called is unavailable at the moment, 
please leave a message at the tone

hey uh, so
I'm calling cus I
I saw what u posted today
and I can't just can't do this at all anymore
I don't know what made you think it's okay to just
fuck my best friend like that but
we're done
n uh, you're not gonna see me anymore
bye

I've got a feeling that sits in my soul
to fight thru the pain
to let it all go
of all the blood I bled
I know there's more to give
n I can't taste the ash
I know u slept with him
if I could I would forget u
here's a list of everything u said that wasn't tru
God damn I'm gonna miss u
but I wish I never met u

I wish that this could be
one of the last songs I write about u
but we can both see
that this is gonna take a bit of time 

I remember freaking out cus I got sober 
I remember dates we set for late October
but we had to wait till it was over
where u at?
I'm smoking out the back
two packs and friends wanna get a bag
ride fast, crash a car n fuck the relapse
fuck the relapse
fuck the relapse, yeah
lock myself inside my house
I keep it down
cus I'm trying not to cry loud
it's all ash, but I gotta clean the bong out
two hits n I'm gonna put the knife down
yeah

does it cut u when i say that i don't want u around?
ur in my head but I still tend to keep my ear to the ground
n I swear
it gets so overwhelming 
time flying past 
but it feels like last week

n what do I say when I can't breathe?
what do I say to make this pain cease?
I'm all choked up n I can't think
what can I say to make this okay?
I hope u hear one of my songs
but u don't know so u sing along 
till u look down, see my name so
u say: "oh shit, what have I done?"

we're sorry, u have reached a number that has been disconnected, or is no longer in service
go fuck urself

Salem Pt. 2 (5head)

prod by me and vee (legend also mixed everything from a rough demo I made)

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i only see u in my nightmares
and then i wake and then ur not there
i wasted time and that is not fair
cause i still see u in my nightmares
i only see u in my nightmares
i lay awake and that is not fair
i think about u and ur long hair
cause i still see u in my nightmares

every night i have the same dream
u walk up and say u miss me
and now im crying in the back seat
the world around me starts dissolving
these are just dreams ik
what do u think they mean?
im cold
keeping all the memories inside ill hold
no matter what the card in my hand ima fold
thats all im good for
2am talks when we drunk on the floor
i cannot give more
hanging my head as i walk to the door

momento mori (betweentheveinsandi x viera)

originally performed by nothing, nowhere
reprod by caves
non profit cover

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I'm a 20 something 
somethings running thru my veins
I'm feeling quite alone
used to say I gave a fuck about a shit
but now that shit that I dismiss gets in my bones
and u can tell ur friends that ima mess and that I always stay at home 
but ur alcohol will fade away
those local bars and glory days are gone

how about that?
still stuck in the past
did u think it would last?
this too shall pass

passed out slow, yeah 
and it's all in my head
or its all too real
either way I'm fucked
either way I've had enough
and I did this to myself 

_twenty_something_(nothing, nowhere cover; caves)

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if i could i back to the past god forbid
id strangle the fuck out of that little kid
the damage hed cause to all those around him
tho hurting inside all those sins were still his
his temper and cold words could cut like a blade
to ask for forgiveness would not be okay
when he was called out he would promise hed change
but progress was slow, and it still felt the same
a victim complex was inbuilt in his brain
toxic in nature with poisonous veins
mutual destruction was something he craved
enabled by rights that he placed on his faith
but he never listened, he always knew best
and then with a blade he pierced everyones chest
as he lay there bleeding, well u know the rest
something inside him would not let him rest
his body was broken and hollow inside
eased by the substances fueling his mind
and he blamed his father and slights to his kind
and took from his flesh as to punish his pride
but they saw no difference, and thats fair enough
twas just superficial, it wasnt enough
with that reputation words stuck to his name
whispers and lies would become commonplace
when he fell again's when he started to change
said fuck it, im done, ill admit my mistakes
and it may be the cause, but no justification
ill learn how to deal with my pent up frustration
but it seems that my time and my effort was wasted
tears falling down as the train leaves the station
all of these things that u do on a whim
i bet u hate waking up next to him

he, him, and i (pekarot)

full volume, headphones on is the intended listening experience
fuck up your ears :)

inspired by sleep by citizen
you will fail to see the resemblance 

lyrics
you've been digging for a while and u wont take a break
n ive been falling for a while, still i lay awake
in the eyes of my reflection u can watch the light fade
and everyday become th - cu - FUCK

and for a moment, i believe that the blame fell on me
and when i spoke i heard ur voice, it was fuckin with me
it took too long to realise all ur games and deciet
and now i lay awake, i havent slept in weeks

whats ur definition of love?
someone u can trust or just someone that u fuck?
such a pretty rose laying wilted on the floor
stained from all the blood and the writing on the wall
got that silk n' lace wrapped around a rotten core
lying to my face but u got me screaming more

playing the blame game (switch x ashen)

originally performed by sewerperson and killedmyself

mastered by cherryrizla who killed it as always

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isolated, take me out back for some fresh air
contemplated, she could never kill me but she'd contemplate it, fun
baby im just tryna have a little fun, run
she squeeze out my breath until my throat go numb
come into my house I'm in the underground 
I'm close too mother earth my lover look around
how I'm sposed to feel when u burn it to a mound
she get way too mad u should mediate it

girl it's just a party and I'd rather not be here
these r ur friends I got noone I wanna see here
cold, it's so cold
I can't walk thru this alone
take me home
I know I'm horrible

I wish u could see it thru my bloodshot eyes
cuz baby girl we're rlly not that different u nd I
everything ur feeling is the usual
but everything ur feeling I just hide
I gave her my heart do u got one I could borrow 
u don't gotta give it back I'm already hollow
broken bodies buried in a grotto
let me see the face that look like someone that I used to know
every time we sin we sin again in don't wanna
I don't wanna go I just gotta 
dark pelt coat in octobers like a sauna
I live in a forest off the fauna 

isolated - sewerperson (betweentheveinsandi x jolst cover)


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I drifted somberely into the trees
disappeared suddenly took all the memories
Doused us in kerosene
I started pulling out my rotted teeth

cope with it, smoke thru it
break my fucking spine, do it
tear up my insides, spewin 
tryna take my time, knew it
nothing but a pawn
killed a night, took his horse
Rode up to the castle and came knocking at his door
welcome to the nightshift 
sleep was never that inviting
all these dogs have took to fighting
why was bloodshed so inviting to u 
blood falls down, drips from my nose
it's a stark contrast, dark red in the snow
hands worn down, right down to bone
u can hear my pain in the things that I damn wrote

decks

so they pulled out their knives and they want me to run
I couldn't live with the web I had spun
danger is my best friend
I wasn't ready for the end

take my life, all the words that I have spoken 
I have sacrificed time for people that are broken
and I no longer want to be here
pressure resulted in fear
and now I sleep and I wake and I fall back down 
how the fuck do I say how I'm feeling now?

so conscious of what I've done 
this life is awful and fades to nothing. 

chess ft. decks (jolst)

produced by wraithontheporch

lyrics;
i cant heal these toxins
u make me feel like im trapped
you got me boxed in
u said im toxic well then ill just rest in my coffin
i take a pill n i go clock in
song after song im locked in
i can see the future brighten
than i take the shit i found in my pocket
thinking to myself i should stop it

life falls apart
all the walls fall down
in this space station
i was happy
now that i inch closer to the ground
i just hope every one was proud
n girl u dont got explain yourself
u honestly just where prolly protecting urself
we should really take care of our mental health
10 days no rest
10 days no text
and i only got like 2 days left
i crashed on this planet
and everyone i loved thought i was dead


i cant heal these toxins
u make me feel like im trapped
you got me boxed in
u said im toxic well then ill just rest in my coffin
i take a pill n i go clock in
song after song im locked in
i can see the future brighten
than i take the shit i found in my pocket
thinking to myself i should stop it


toxins

my lil shootah

22 | vox/songwriter & engineer 

i make what i want my music isnt for everyone

email - m@scars.online

toxins

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