Blame Myself

Maybe I should just paint myself a fool that's been and gone.
I’m just embarrassed to be myself.

Why do I feel like casting the blame on myself when the hope dies?
Whenever I believe it, the blame weighs down against my soul in the night.
Why do I feel like casting the blame on myself when the hope dies?
Whenever I believe it, the blame weighs down against my soul in the night.

I know I said I’d build from a field, uh-huh.
I know I said I’d climb to the sky, oh.
I know I said I’d jump when it’s high, uh-huh.
But sometimes I get carried away, oh.

In reality, I dream 'cause I wish that
My life was different in every way.
I’m at this point where I think I’m
Hidden away to not realise real eyes.

Why do I feel like casting the blame on myself when the hope dies?
Whenever I believe it, the blame weighs down against my soul in the night.
Why do I feel like casting the blame on myself when the hope dies?
Whenever I believe it, the blame weighs down against my soul in the night.

Whenever I say I’d do, I don’t.
I push it down and away, ahh.
I see the end playing one way,
But it’s hard to acclaim, ahh.

Will I ever take the step, ahh?
A fearless foe that’s unknown.
And do away with my best attempt,
To make it a heartless reload.

Why do I feel like casting the blame on myself when the hope dies?
Whenever I believe it, the blame weighs down against my soul in the night.
Why do I feel like casting the blame on myself when the hope dies?
Whenever I believe it, the blame weighs down against my soul in the night.



Blame Myself

My Meaning
Lyrics:

Na na na na na
Na na na
Hmm

The town lights are full on lately,
It's playing with my mind.
They're too tame to go on,
All that I seek is pages,
Turning with the times,
To keep me sane with this weight on.

Where am I going?
Hmm
Where am I going?
This train's not long enough.
The way it's moving
Hmm
Feels like I’m choosing,
That I’m closing all the doors I opened and judged.

I wanna reset,
Run amongst the dark.
Either way,
Leave the world in dust and
Delete it.
Oh woah woah woah,
Oh woah woah woah,
Oh woah woah woah woah.
Leave them in the dust so I don’t show,
No no no.

A secret feeling,
To want to leave.
A hidden feeling that you won’t believe,
No.
It’s something that won’t go away,
Haunted by the coming days,
Where I know I can’t retrace my meaning.

I’m not looking back,
Even if I feel like,
Feel like,
Feel like
It won’t make me sad,
Because I see signs,
But on what side,
Do they feel right?

Where am I going?
Hmm
Where am I going?
This train's not long enough.
The way it's moving
Hmm
Feels like I’m choosing,
That I’m closing all the doors I opened and judged.

I wanna reset,
Run amongst the dark.
Either way,
Leave the world in dust and
Delete it.
Oh woah woah woah,
Oh woah woah woah,
Oh woah woah woah woah.
Leave them in the dust so I don’t show,
No.

A secret feeling,
To want to leave.
A hidden feeling that you won’t believe,
No.
It’s something that won’t go away,
Haunted by the coming days,
Where I know I can’t retrace my meaning.

Where am I going?
Hmm
Where am I going?
This train's not long enough.
The way it's moving
Hmm
Feels like I’m choosing,
That I’m closing all the doors I opened and judged.

I wanna reset,
Run amongst the dark.
Either way,
Leave the world in dust and
Delete it.
Oh woah woah woah,
Oh woah woah woah,
Oh woah woah woah woah.
Leave them in the dust so I don’t show,
No.

A secret feeling,
To want to leave.
A hidden feeling that you won’t believe,
No.
It’s something that won’t go away,
Haunted by the coming days,
Where I know I can’t retrace my meaning.



My Meaning

Setting all the blocks to fence
A runaway, to run away again to show how I
Keep living in the sounds
And repeat again and again and again
Just to hold my
Feeling for it
The more I’m sure of it
Marking up a land for tomorrow to keep lit
Why would I leave it
When I need it
Living in the sound to know that I paved it

Weighed down
I’m ready to set myself aside just to let go now
Never silently
Freeing from this life before me
Swayed round
Accepting all gifts with ease just to keep us bound
Where it’s turning into nightfall
Together joining in to unite all

I don’t ever want this night to slow
I don’t wanna go home
I don’t wanna go no
Even if I’m by myself
I’ll always keep it going
'Cause I never wanna leave, no
Special oK for me to take
I know it wants to rinse myself to live through the night
'Cause it’ll never be the same
When the man starts to play
Even if you try to bottle it up
A glimpse into the past
Worries leaving you with a lost flare
Hoping it will last
Always showing tracks how to get there
A glimpse into the past
Worries leaving you with a lost flare
Hoping it will last
Always showing tracks how to get there

The light always shakes my mind
Into another day, into another day
It hints what’s to come inside
But I’m still laced
Can I speed off to sleep? No
Why does it end?
I’m unsure
It leaves quicker than it flares up
When you try to look away it goes
I seem to let myself out
But moving on from keeping it, I won’t

Weighed down
I’m ready to set myself aside just to let go now
Never silently
Freeing from this life before me
Swayed round
Accepting all gifts with ease just to keep us bound
Where it’s turning into nightfall
Together joining in to unite all

I don’t ever want this night to slow
I don’t wanna go home
I don’t wanna go no
Even if I’m by myself
I’ll always keep it going
'Cause I never wanna leave, no
Special oK for me to take
I know it wants to rinse myself to live through the night
'Cause it’ll never be the same
When the man starts to play
Even if you try to bottle it up
A glimpse into the past
Worries leaving you with a lost flare
Hoping it will last
Always showing tracks how to get there
A glimpse into the past
Worries leaving you with a lost flare
Hoping it will last
Always showing tracks how to get there

Never Slow

End At The Start

Never thought my main
Focus would ultimately sway
I recall a screaming past
Leading to me holding back
I’ve seen it fall to waste
Something so close just ends in days
I relived a lover’s last
For it to end just like that

Heyyyyy
I've been looking for a star to find my heart
But lies fill my mind
Awaiting every second for the doubts to depart
Heyyyyy
And I've been waiting for the one to reach my core
But I'm in my mind
Wishing for a change but I end at the start
Where I see myself I know I won’t be
Handing out clues for you to try to find my heart
Wishing for a change but I end at the start

Explain to me this unresolved
Fate I consume through
Ripped apart and bled in two
It's what I’ve grown into, unarmed
I didn’t have the choice to
Change the cast I was bred into
I’ve seen the teardrops
Before the raindrops
Arguing and leaving, is how I’ve seen it
Remembering the worst outweighing the good

Heyyyyy
I've been looking for a star to find my heart
But lies fill my mind
Awaiting every second for the doubts to depart
Heyyyyy
I've been waiting for the one to reach my core
But I'm in my mind
Wishing for a change but I end at the start
Where I see myself I know I won’t be
Handing out clues for you to try to find my heart
Wishing for a change but I end at the start
Heyyyy
I've been looking for a star to find my heart
I've been waiting for the one to reach my core

End At The Start

Thieves

It ain’t her fault I’d narrow it down to thieves
Her start misled her too far then stolen with ease
A pattern she filled, she turned to a life of thieves
With wounds they mould turning her cold, not letting her be

So precise, to want to go and dress so nice
Keeping limits on nothing to try and hold on
But in ways I feel I let her turn, how selfish it was so hard
But in lust I fell to a trust that crushed
The image of something I couldn’t hold on
Now the truth feels real
The damage was already done, she was too far gone

She outweighed my mind enough
I couldn’t put her down to let her leave

It ain’t her fault I’d narrow it down to thieves
Her start misled her too far then stolen with ease
A pattern she filled, she turned to a life of thieves
With wounds they mould turning her cold, not letting her be
Now she’s running with thieves
Running with thieves
Running with thieves
Losing sight of her dreams
With no way to retrieve
As bad as it seems
Taken over by thieves
Over by thieves
Over by thieves
Losing sight of her dreams
With no way to retrieve
As bad as it seems

She never looked ahead
Giving it a care
No focus to a thread
’Cause she only wanted to bury a lost soul,
A lonely soldier
Screaming to be someone
Her radar conveyed a door opening to impede
Into an arena to see her, where before you hadn’t seen
So she lent to fall
With default
Thinking spectators wouldn’t leave — but wasn’t she wrong
So wrong
They ate her and spat her out, out, out

It ain’t her fault I’d narrow it down to thieves
Her start misled her too far then stolen with ease
A pattern she filled, she turned to a life of thieves
With wounds they mould turning her cold, not letting her be
Now she’s running with thieves
Running with thieves
Running with thieves
Losing sight of her dreams
With no way to retrieve
As bad as it seems
Taken over by thieves
Over by thieves
Over by thieves
Losing sight of her dreams
With no way to retrieve
As bad as it seems

It ain’t her fault I’d narrow it down to thieves
Her start misled her too far then stolen with ease
A pattern she filled, she filled turning in her life to thieves
With wounds they mould turning her cold, not letting her be
Now she’s running with thieves

Now she’s running amongst the thieves
Running amongst the thieves
Now she’s running amongst the thieves
Running amongst the thieves
Now she’s running amongst the thieves
Running amongst the thieves

Now she’s running with the
Now she’s running with the
Now she’s running with the thieves

Thieves

Silent Dreams

I'll count up my endless chrome eyes
And exercise
The hardened tears I’ve cried
Till it’s too close to nuanced
And where it shows is hidden within the lines

Never looking for a kite to follow
Even if I built the frame tomorrow
It tangles with the one I have chained
I’ve never had the time to cut off
Learning how the metal was made
Afraid at how the time remains
Looking for the one I have saved

That’s one of my silent
That’s one of my silent dreams
To kill them with kindness
But
Do it ever so silently
That’s one of my silent
It’s one of my silent dreams
To kill them with kindness
But
Only when the time is seen

The sign beneath my path has two ways
Founded by the feeling where I hide and then take
But I only have time to realise
Down
Down when I have nothing to say

Never looking for a kite to follow
Even if I built the frame tomorrow
It tangles with the one I have chained
I’ve never had the time to cut off
Learning how the metal was made
Afraid at how the time remains
Looking for the one I have saved

That’s one of my silent
That’s one of my silent dreams
To kill them with kindness
But
Do it ever so silently
That’s one of my silent
It’s one of my silent dreams
To kill them with kindness
But
Only when the time is seen

Only when the time is seen
Only when the time is seen
Only when the time is seen

That’s one of my silent
That’s one of my silent dreams
To kill them with kindness
But
Do it ever so silently



Silent Dreams

Reasons To Let You Go

The way it heals it never sets the way it was
Am I learning way too old
Reasons why I should let you go

Forever broken glasses, I’m through with you
With every shard, a memory’s born
Broken in pieces I haven’t seen in so long
We’re at different phases
The falling of the ashes is cruel to lose
But it may save the way we loathe
If we stop and learn to grow

It wasn’t always bad, but it never seemed to end good
Reasons I’m amazed, ‘cause the flying had a passion base
To lay, so far away
Changing with the days let it flow to waste, oh
The way it heals, it never sets the way it was
Am I learning way too old
Reasons why I should let you go

Thinking about our actions, and I’m ashamed to share the pain
Maybe we’re really just one and the same
A feeling too strong it explodes to reclaim

It wasn’t always bad, but it never seemed to end good
Reasons I’m amazed, ‘cause the flying had a passion base
To lay, so far away
Changing with the days let it flow to waste, oh
The way it heals, it never sets the way it was
Am I learning way too old
Reasons why I should let you go

And if we bleed, it’s only signs for both to know
If our hearts have closed the flow
Then it’s a reason to let it go


Reasons To Let You Go

Light years

Moving on, in a different place
Hiding but feeling safe
A simple love
A foreign state
Where days aren’t filled to wait
Never signed and sealed a date
To relive that golden haze
But later
I’ll decide, when far away,
To step where signs were laid

The thing is, the time was right
I exceeded my lasting share
The place that gave me life was slowly pulling hair
I tried to resolve the issue, but violence leaves no care
It was best to leave with no fears
It was best to leave than shed tears

I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years

As the time drives on by
The memories are turning fake
In essence, it doesn’t mean it’s a waste
It’s exactly what I’m away for
A nuisance, a glimpse of something, where it leaves a ray
A place where I left myself to lighten up the grey

I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years

Light years

Sticks & Stones

All my fears are pierced, are pierced

I’m afraid to almost say
I’m throwing all the sticks and stones
The words are taking
Leaving a romantic groan

Be, let it be
Deceived, into grief

What was there to take
From throwing all the sticks and stones
The words are shaken
Leaving a romantic moan

All my fears are pierced, are pierced

I’m afraid to almost say
I’m throwing all the sticks and stones
The words are taking
Leaving a romantic groan

Be, let it be
Deceived, into grief

What was there to take
From throwing all the sticks and stones
The words are shaken
Leaving a romantic moan

I’m throwing, I’m going
Barely into appraised
Where you won’t find it in days
I'm wondering what you have saved

I’m afraid to almost say
I’m throwing all the sticks and stones
The words are taking
Leaving a romantic moan

What was there to take
From throwing all the sticks and stones
To sell the sticks and stones
Is that not how that goes
To relieve from being shown
The words are taking
Words are taking
Words are taking
Can barely let it go
Can barely let It go



Thieves

Mattias

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