track 2 off of my upcoming tape "if i sit down"

shoutout aj

old habits die hard (feat adjacen7) [prod stoic]

i currently have a cold [prod eeryskies/ashton mccreight]

prod by melon @melonsly <333

i think its wise
to let it go unsaid
theres words that dont sit right
dont know if id regret em
but youve been so unkind 
were signs i just misread em
these feelings tucked inside 
only show through if i let em

why do i
feel so replaceable 
wonder why
thought i could wait for anyone
this might come back to bite me
if u listen at all
at every step know youl fight me
wont get far at all

u dont understand
i cant talk to u
say it all in ur absense
if i wrote a letter id find it in half 
i thought it'd be better when i got attached
u dont understand
i cant talk to u
say it all in ur absense
if i wrote a letter id find it in half 
i thought it'd be better when i got attached

i think its wise
to let it go unsaid
theres words that dont sit right
dont know if id regret em
but youve been so unkind 
were signs i just misread em
these feelings tucked inside 
only show through if i let em

unkind

fun song about complacency and aimlessness

lyrics:

cold war martyr know they pray over my grave 
if only i had ever learned how to behave
two steps farther than i should’ve took took up
betting cause i never learned that fate is something you cannot escape
i’m stubborn it’s relentless how i skipped when i should listen
since it’s recently been a little less than great
but it’s essential that I flip into the rhythm of Ascension
so i’m pitching the delusion that i’ve built up isn’t fake

okay i admit it
my obituary forged and i been living
on the fringe a mental monastery
high up in the mountains
and the altitude is secondary
only to the things that I’ve been feeling 
and now i wait 2/4 in my place
for a rush gust of wind to carry me far away
and I’m impatient but satiation the old way is ancient
is it really my fault if i’m now complacent 

i know im okay
but what i see and what they say isn’t matching 
just survive the day
then imma get it and get it and get it and go

talking the sound and the sight of it got me nauseous
it’s chronic been living with it in a catatonic
lethargic sense of stability if i’m lying and saying i’m fine
inside of my mind at what point do i start to believe it as well
been going through hell
all nine circles been circling round
under buzzards that hover and hope that a buzzer beater
isn’t near in my future
take time at the right time not to lose it

i’m Lazarus back track habits been adamant
i’ll bounce back but what’s passion in the face of lack of action
i’m attached to it
could never break free at all
fate set in stone pride cometh before the fall
but i’ve been falling for a minute 
what’s the difference 
if i feel the pull of gravity and say that i enjoy it
cause i feel it either way

but in the end will i be satisfied
in life will i react to what’ll happen around me
a specter in spectator mode
or take action a reclamation of control
a designation of the path of my soul
or rather auto-condemnation to the shackles and bolts
or rather some degeneration of my flesh and my bones
cause i rather would establish that i know what i know
and i know that i know nothing i got room i could grow
so imma take that

cold war martyr for the cause i think i hate that
old wars fought became a symbol for the movement
harder battles have been won but lost the ones i really shouldn’t
need to relax i need to kick back
i need that kick drum snare clap boom bap in my pulse 
i need that blood pump first jump off the ledge and im gone
i need to cross that threshold event horizon in sight
i need my turn to prove im gonna move at least im gonna fight
pull my shoulders back stand tall
hold my weight up
breaking out of stasis lately need a minute to wake up
shaking off the frost reintegrating the salient
space that i need to succeed can be seen
i just needed a second to breathe
cause the weeks of the season seem to be blending
acrylics i’m mixing to different hues of blue
till im in too deep

cold war martyr [prod stoic]

lyrics

im outside
i’m like where the hell you been
i’ll slide
wondering how the hell you been
are you alright
buckle up and put your head back
i’ll play you my new song
i hope that you like it

blunt something like my therapist start talking when i light it
i act like i don’t care about it but then i get to writing
just cuz i lost your spark don’t mean that i can’t reignite it
love you too much to leave so imma stay and try to fight it
love you too much to hurt you so i fuck around and lie
but i’m not tryna burden you from what’s burning me inside
it’s okay tho
it’s alright
baby i’m outside
baby where the hell you been can you tell me what’s on your mind

i ain’t see you in so long
but i promise i been working hard stack money on my phone
i don’t talk that much so i barf up words on top these songs
im quiet in the back of the party sipping white claw and patron
just stay with me for a few days help me figure out what the fuck i’m on
baby this big boy shit
i can’t rest im too grown
my back breaking and i can’t find my eyes cuz they too low
my demons like rubrics cube lately
id figure it out but i don’t know

blunt something like my therapist start talking when i light it
i act like i don’t care about it but then i get to writing
just cuz i lost your spark don’t mean that i can’t reignite it
love you too much to leave so imma stay and try to fight it
love you too much to hurt you so i fuck around and lie
but i’m not tryna burden you from what’s burning me inside
it’s okay tho
it’s alright
baby i’m outside
baby where the hell you been can you tell me what’s on your mind

she love me too much to remind me that this happens every time
u know i been having trouble staying inside the lines
a little swervy i been drinking every night
it’s like im celebrating not wanting to be alive
my body a temple i can’t turn into a shrine
can’t snuff my flame out before i even find the light
i don’t know how the hell i been am i alright
a couple drinks and autotune and call it a night

blunt something like my therapist start talking when i light it
i act like i don’t care about it but then i get to writing
just cuz i lost your spark don’t mean that i can’t reignite it
love you too much to leave so imma stay and try to fight it
love you too much to hurt you so i fuck around and lie
but i’m not tryna burden you from what’s burning me inside
it’s okay tho
it’s alright
baby i’m outside
baby where the hell you been can you tell me what’s on your mind

shrine (under the maple tree)

"...part of me felt that the world should have taken better care of Molina. And yet, what was the alternative? A Jason Molina who was broadly embraced? That wouldn’t have been Molina at all. He occupied the margins because the center was abhorrent."

lyrics:

crawling towards disintegration growing apathetic
and disinterested ditch the session shoot forward forget it
what’s excitement haven’t felt it in a minute
cycle habits crest epiphanies and ditch it
since remission i been seeing things a little different
more objective no complexity at all it’s rather simple now
my fears abandoned for acceptance steadily replacing
how i function now unfocus eyes obscurity is comfort
switch to living in the margins since the center is abhorrent
i can’t face it force to fit in where i know i don’t belong
replace the motivation grow complacent
drown in sepia reliving what ive lost
i occupy as little space as possible
target locked fake martyr

automotive atrophy snowed in philosophy
welcome isolation try to shut down the empathy
cryostatic state of mind a frozen over casualty
irrational release of raw emotion building up for weeks
can only see me physically could never share what’s underneath
no communication think i lost the ability to speak
condemnation surface level what’s shed is cursed to repeat
it’s all fine it’s all fine it’s all fine release

onlyfriend:

i hold my hands over my ears
let the grief control my fears
do you even want me here?

marginal (feat onlyfriend) [prod horosha]

Track 3 on my new EP 'You'll Never Figure It Out'

Guitars & Additional Production by BennyKaay

Lyrics:
no more sitting on the outside looking in
now i’m standing in the moment wondering 
if this is worth it 
kinda nervous 
through surface 
isn’t workin out as perfect 
as i made it seem in my head 
oh there’s something unrewarding 
from what i see as the right choice 
attention frozen in the moment 
logic stranded out with no voice 

so if we’re already too far
lets see how far we can go 
i’ll be here waiting on your call 
we’ll let the chaos unfold 

now i’m stuck here as the dust is settling 
and lies of heart rate start to quit 
still moment, hear my own thoughts 
i’m wishing that i could not 
back and fourth 
would it be same now 
adrenaline 
starts sneaking back out 
are you by yourself 
would it be a bad idea 
run it back again 
cuz we haven’t crashed yet

i never meant to get to this point 
am i too far, am i too far

Too Far

prod me n @dawsin

lyrics:

I wade through the rubble
Feeling like a true rebel
And no one else is around
And i do not hear a sound
The birds all died
But they'll come back with time
I've never once prayed in my life
But im hoping hes on my side

Day 1 cant believe it
(Not a soul came to help)
Middle of nowhere cant leave it
(Left my bestfriend on the wall)
That place is in ruins
(I have no one left to call)
The rest believe what theyre spewing

Oooo its the season no ones lived through 
Theres a rumor locals wonder if its true
And i wonder too 
So i'll head out tonight
Dont know if ill die
But im sure ill be alright 
Yeah im sure ill be 
Yeah im sure ill be just fine

Darlene could care less  
Rylee wished the best
My brothers strong i know that he can take care of the rest 
Step into foliage  
And raise my head
(Dont go)
I hear something unsheathe my sword it comes closer 
Impale its chest

(Blood on my hands
And blood on my face
Dive into the river and cleanse my new faith)

@dawsin:
I'm yearning to hear someones voice
The only reply I get back is white noise
The weight of my backpack is breaking my poise
No nutrition within me stomachs a void
and im
CONSTANTLY LOOKING OVER TO SEE 
THE CREATURE OR BEING THATS FOLLOWING ME
(It's right behind you)
AND MY RIFLE STRAPPED TO ME IM READY TO FLEE
HEARD THE STEPS
SLOWLY TRYING TO CREEP
(huh what?)
CREEP
SWING IT OVER MY SHOULDER INHALE AND I BREATHE
BREATHE
STEADY MY SHOT SHOOT A HOLE IN ITS SPLEEN

lycora:
What is that I hear in the woods
Got the feeling it is not something good
But in there 
Lies the answers

I just wanna run and hide
I dont know what this is
Should i give up should i try
Someone tell me im homesick
But theres nothing to go back to

rumor

rumor feat. dawsin

produced by mix
enjoy <3

lyrics-
woah, where u goin?
lookin at me like boy u know it
its about time lets get to goin
steppin up to fight lets get this show in
like bitch where u tryna go?
g- on my way no i dont fold
like sit and plant ya toes
t- left hook betta go wipe ya nose
im on my shit no i dont quit
and boy u betta know what time it is
like go ahead strike and miss
knee to ya face start blockin quick
got my armor you like the fit?
well to bad u aint havin it 
got my helmet on, sword equipped
mix boutta make u look like a bitch

yea-
AY, LEAVE HIM OUT ON THE FLOOR
GOIN UP EAST I AINT GOIN NO MORE
LIKE SHIT, CAN YOU HANDLE MORE?
YA PUSSY ASS BITCH GOT BE HELLA BORED
CANT QUIT, IM THE KNIGHT WIT THE SWORD
BLOOD ON THIS ARMOR THAT U CANT AFFORD
LIKE BITCH, QUIT TALKIN DAT SHIT
ME AND MY BROS FINNA HANDLE ALL IT

G- GOLD ON MY CHAIN
AND YA DOGS HELLA TAME
B- BOY STEADY RIDIN MY DIH
H- HE GOT A LITTLE OF FAME
BUT HE PLAYIN MY GAME
B- BOY STILL THROWIN DEM FITS
I- IM TAKIN MY AIM
AND WRITIN BROS NAME
B- BROS BOUTTA GET HIS SHIT CLIPPED
G- GOT HIS SHIT MAIMED
AND HES LOST IN THE FLAMES
A- ALL OF HIS BROS DUN DIPPED I- I-

I- I-

like hold on
i be countin dough long
bitches wanna see me
thats just way to easy
gotta give a bitch a freebie
bitch, believe me
youll see me
out there doing shows
buying new clothes
chillin with my bros
i always stay close
so close-
like
bitch believe me
be there if u need me
but im out in the city
like its so pretty

im a home town boy
town so small west side it boy, ah yeah
ima dome that boy
knight wit a sword like it destroys

like damn i am the man
i did dat shit it was part of the plan, ah yeah
drank in can? im not fan, gettin this tan
im free, like sam, two shots, like bam, ah yeah

im a knight wit this armor
sword in my hand
and im out for da slaughter
like boy, you just sit there and ponder
get back on yo feet and go out with some honor

ah- ah-
out with some honor
death
ah- ah-
out with some honor
ah- ah-
out with some honor
ah- ah-

yea-
AY, LEAVE HIM OUT ON THE FLOOR
GOIN UP EAST I AINT GOIN NO MORE
LIKE SHIT, CAN YOU HANDLE MORE?
YA PUSSY ASS BITCH GOT BE HELLA BORED
CANT QUIT, IM THE KNIGHT WIT THE SWORD
BLOOD ON THIS ARMOR THAT U CANT AFFORD
LIKE BITCH, QUIT TALKIN DAT SHIT
ME AND MY BROS FINNA HANDLE ALL IT

G- GOLD ON MY CHAIN
AND YA DOGS HELLA TAME
B- BOY STEADY RIDIN MY DIH
H- HE GOT A LITTLE OF FAME
BUT HE PLAYIN MY GAME
B- BOY STILL THROWIN DEM FITS
I- IM TAKIN MY AIM
AND WRITIN BROS NAME
B- BROS BOUTTA GET HIS SHIT CLIPPED
G- GOT HIS SHIT MAIMED
AND HES LOST IN THE FLAMES
A- ALL OF HIS BROS DUN DIPPED I- I-

knight with the sword
knight with the sword
knight with the sword
knight with the sword
knight with the sword
knight with the sword
knight with the sword
knight with the sword

ye
yeah
ye
death-
yeah
ye

old habits die hard (feat adjacen7) [prod stoic]

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