writing in your diary and i know that you're gna read it <3

a song 4 my lovely girlfriend, miki ^_^
love her so much Oh yeahhghh

OKAY ENJOY THX


how i feel about you;;;;
writing in your diary and i know that you're gna read it <3
missing everything about you love the touch i love the feeling
didnt know how i was livin gave my life a brand new meanin
and im cravin all of you, for your love you know im feenin
and you never do me wrong and i know that you'll never mean it
tell me anything you need i promise i can keep a secret
give me everything you can cos u know that i need it
and if you fall i'll pick u up and ill learn how to treat it

give you everything i can please tell me what you want
and i know that you need it so i promise i wont stop
and you're always in my head you're consumin every thought
wouldn't want it every different im in love with what i got
and im lookin at the time, never lookin wasted
give my all because ur mine, till the end i know we'll make it
if you ever needed time i promise id be waiting
every day by my side, yeah it feels amazin

i let you in on how i feel i let my guard down
i lay with you under the sky look at the stars now
and we can get what we want, the world is ours now
and i can tell just what you want and what you like so now im

writing in your diary and i know that you're gna read it <3
missing everything about you love the touch i love the feeling
didnt know how i was livin gave my life a brand new meanin
and im cravin all of you, for your love you know im feenin
and you never do me wrong and i know that you'll never mean it
tell me anything you need i promise i can keep a secret
give me everything you can cos u know that i need it
and if you fall i'll pick u up and ill learn how to treat it

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love letter

performed & written by me @mental
produced by @lilac @winter

lyrics:

i keep on thinking im better off dead
wake up to sleep hanging on by a thread
i cant exist without you in my bed
said every word that i shouldnt have said
heartbreak and anger my only two friends
if i died, what would you do then?
i don't know how long i can pretend
it's not enough just to feel this regret

can't trust cause they lie every single time
fake love feels so cold like the wintertime
and i tried, it don't matter i can't get it right
heart in my hands offered to the sky

never been the best at letting go
tell me things i don't wanna know
take my heart made my heart froze
that's the way that my heart goes
you're the place that my heart needs
i'm just tryna say sorry
i'm just tryna say i want it
if you love me i got it

yeah i got it
hate myself being honest
if you love me then stop it
stop it
if you love me i'll make it right
i don't really wanna say goodbye
take my heart then i'll take my life
take my heart then i'll take my life

#Nightcore

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cant trust :( prod lilac & winter

produced by negativecreeper & guardiangel
art by @cryinggsilence

@i9bonsai
@kggn
@negativecreeper
@guardiangelll

[blx]
no no
im at my brink im like no no
i been sinking im like no no
i dont know where to go go
im like waves ya im one with the fluid
i dont wanna do it anymore i cant do it
i do what i want ya dont look at me stupid
i tell them to move it well they're going to fucking move it
i told them to love me well they're going to fucking love me
how am i gonna get my point across ur acting like a dummy
oh he acting funny wrap him up justt like a mummy
and i said she looking stunning when im with her it is sunny
go go (go go)
said she wanna love me i told her that i dont need that
go go (go go)
she told me she love me i told her that she dont mean that.

[i9bonsai]
leave me in the cold i dont wanna go out。。
anymore but i know that i dont want to stay around,, anymore
n i dont want to b bound by the chains n the words n the sounds ::
yh its time t forget it then (・・;)ゞ
i dnt wna pretend:: i cant let u in

goin t to the road。。 can u let it end?
if i stay around its a never ending mess
its not enough,, we just needa c it less
its a mess 2much with tht excess

cut tht off,, :: (・人・)

[ku]
go go
go go
wipe my tears as u leave me in the cold
im on some stuff that u aint heard of movin slow
whts the big deal im messed up dont u know
this
hopeless
focus
on my eyes
we’re almost there
psychosis
i did evrything i cld but its all bogus
all tht stuff u put on me w/o a notice
feel the addy in my stomach got me so sick
its clear u rnt tht so tell me why im homesick
feel the walls theyre closin in im claustrophobic

no no ft. i9bonsai & kuru

performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

can i tell you a lie?
or some sh*t that i can't hide anymore
i told her i was fine
i kept it all inside of my core
you send shivers down my spine
howd i make it out alive? i don't know
act like you don't see me cry
things can't be the way they were before

if i could turn back time
id tell another lie

"we never loved eachother"
so why'd you pull me closer?
i made it through the summer
remember last october?
told me we'd be forever
but that won't give me closure
i had to crop you out the picture
i know that it's over
so why can't you accept it?
i told you that i get it
i don't know your intentions
so bring me to my senses
you knew that once it ended
you couldn't have my friendship
its just part of acceptance
i thought that you would get it

i should've known love is expensive
i'm tired of all the f*cking screaming i get it i know
and i think i'll leave a message
man everything that she says it just hits hard at home
told you that i am sorry
I am not, girl my heart's just rot
so my head's just thoughts of you and i cant think
i cant breath i cant sleep

another lie feat blxty

performed, written, and produced by me @mental

i dont know what ima dream about 2nite
i dont rly wanna leave without a fight
and i rly cant believe that thats my life
every single time i breathe im boutta die
i cant ever even see the reason why
ur even in love with me, but thats alright
ill just hold onto belief until i die
and then i cry and say goodbye

know u wanna leave me
stay up cuz im bleeding
it dont matter what im feeling
but its nothing, im eating

Love me, hate me, wannakill me

I h8 me so badd wanna end it

im so mad @ me im so mad @ me

im mad @ me

why do you hate me? /_ \
art @mental

@pw4prez
@prod1audii

i can't feel my arms
i can't feel my legs
i can't feel your warmth
i can't feel my head
watching the sunset
how i make you upset?
act like i'm nothing
toy me like puppet

omo- i stab me in my chest and i'm like oh no 
getting voices in my head just like a fucking dono
in the end i'm chillin with my friends just like domo
what you said to me has me breaking in slo-mo
motion sickness i- hate this distance cus-
you said you'd love me forever but you just went ghost
and i hate that the most
please come back when ur cold
No Caller ID's hit my phone and i fold

plus ur hurting me
please stop hurting me
someone murder me
this aint no break it's been 6 months
and ur urging me..
to take every single pill that's alerting me-
i feel stupid
i been shot by an arrow but this aint no cupid
all i feel is sorrow can you guess where that's rooted
start to feel better,, come back say you dream of me
to love i'm alergic when i feel it my sinus screams
my throat is sore, my body aches and my hearts dispersed
say that you hate me,, well can it get worse?
well i still love you... feels like it's a curse i have :/

i can't feel (sochi x audii)

ily @twikipedia
first beat prod delta
second beat prod me

i told myself i'm fine i'm not
i thought that you would've forgot me
sometimes i think that i should rot
if i tried would you even stop me
i thought that you would feel some type of way
i can't tell if you even like me
i'm anxious i want it to go away
i'm paranoid nobody's got me
with you i feel safe
still wanna run away
you can't be replaced
it won't be the same

i used to wanna give up
i had nobody to trust
i lied still wanna give up
i can't feel nothing but lust
nobody gets how i love
i'm sick of falling in love
i'm sick of feeling this shit
sometimes i wanna exist
sometimes i wish i was dust
i hate that everyone lies
i don't know who to believe
wish i was a ghost
i try to say how i'm feeling
i try but nothing comes out i think i might choke
lost me inside of your soul
i should go choke, you're happy when i'm at my low
no one likes seeing that shit ill go and suffer in silence so nobody knows
sorry you'll never be sorry
i can't feel my body
i wish i could not breathe
am i dead prolly
i miss every time you called me
i know that it's not me

paranoid prod twikipedia & mental

drop feb 9th

prod @rpsu 
i also added a little lead to hook XD

again again again
youre stuck up in my head
idk where you went my friend
but i know i wont see you again

you played your cards right
i never got to say good bye
before i met my bro
i didnt care if i would die

oh well
i guess im here again
i guess ill try to pretend
pretend i dont even care
ill never forget you 
i solemnly swear
i lose you again
cause lifes never fair
and its never the same

cause nothing can change me like you did
you taught me how good real friendship is
thats something i do still miss

to you, friend (adrien)

closer ft. whyhaze

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