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Malxcxous Intent

Lyrics: 

Sitting here in fear of myself
Thinking back I can’t deal with my health
I been dying for a long time
I Can’t remember when I smiled 
Where’s the sunshine

Been feeling sick lately
I quit the drugs 
But I want them to save me 
I’m running out of ways to end the pain 
I know it’s temporary 
But it’s better than to escape 
Permanently
That feeling alone 
Is eating at me 
Hurting me 
When I’m alone 
By myself 
No one to call for help 
Kicking back thinking who the fuck can help
Stuck in a trance staring at the ceiling 
Waiting for a way to advance 
MOVE FORWARD 

But I keep looking back
All the smoke around me 
Make me wanna relapse 
Fall back into habits 
Ruin my life 
Yeah I might crashhhhhh out 
Go from doing small time drugs 
To getting promoted now 
I’m moving up
Along the way meet H 
Put her in my arm 
Maybe fuckin escape
Pain is un-wavered  
I’m Sinking deeper 
No taper
I don’t wanna save myself
And I ain’t weaning off 
I’m going head first 
No bitch you can’t save me 
from myself 
I know I can’t backtrack 
from the road to hell
I can’t even stick around 
long enough 
To start feeling well again
I can’t fucking understand 
It’s like I’ve been fated from the beginning 
To fast track to the end 
Now It’s all I think about 
And I know myself too well
But this time there’s no way out
Only one path to walk 
And I gotta move forward
Maybe it’ll get better 
But I fuckin Doubt it 
But I don’t wanna be 
stuck in my head 
Any longer 
No more 
No more

Relapse

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Lyrics:

It seems like every fear 
I have becomes personified 
I bring my demons to life 
Manifesting shit I never want 
With ease
Still doing as I please 
But I’m on my knees 
Begging and pleading 
Still searching for another reason
Waiting for the last straw
Knowing that will 
Be the one thing 
To make me end it all
Been waiting for a while 
Yet all I can do is smile
That’s why I’m malicious 
And I can claim that 
for a while I was happy
Seeing all the bridges built 
Just to see em all collapsing 
Seeing everything crumble 
around me
Wonder if I should’ve 
Stopped the world 
I see my destination 
Got failure all around me 
Nothing but sorrow and grief 
surrounds me
But to release some pain
Anger fueled 
I’m rowdy 
Looking for my 13th reason
Writing this song 
Like it’s the finale of the season
Waiting for every bit of treason 
Seeing the snakes around me 
Recognizing everything 
It seems so profound 
Yet always simplistic 
Bitches call me sadistic 
But I say I’m Malxcxous
That’s why I named myself 
This shit 
Take me deeper into the mist 
Drown me in the depths of every pit
Bitch

Spawn

11th Track as well as the final for the album.

This one is my favorite💜

{P.S. I’ve already started working on a new album and it’s way different from what you normally would expect.. stay ready, be waiting.}

Lyrics:

I’m saying fuck it
I’m saying fuck it 
I’m saying fuck it 
I’m saying fuck it

Fuck it all 
I been tryna put a cease and desist to my feelings 
Think daily about the art 
I could create on the ceiling 
I feel like I’m bleeding constantly on the inside
I been tryna burn my ties
I got this slow burning candle 
And it’s consuming all of your lies
I had a big heart 
But I think you have destroyed it 
I’m either tired of feeling 
Or sitting in the void and
Feeling avoided
Must destroy myself 
It’s the only way out to this hell 
Fuck everything 
Let me just decay
I gotta let go 
completely 
to really let go 
If ya know what I mean…

It ain’t just a fuckin dream
Because I live through it all daily 
Stuck in reality 
Couple bottles may save me
Or they may increase my problems 
Only one way to solve em..
Order more bottles
Order more bottles
Order more bottles

Fuck It/Order More Bottles

Glitchcore Baby💜

Lyrics:

It all makes sense now
Put a filter over my eyes
Let me be obsessed wow
Pure beauty baby
I got hearts up in my eyes
Pink and blue sky 
Cotton candy dreams 
Come and see me 
tonight when I dream

I’m trying to get over you
But every time I see you 
I fall back into the same old trance
It’s like I’m skydiving in my heart 
But I can’t land 
I know how I’m going to suffer 
when I see the end

Tell me it isn’t fucking true
I don’t think in this lifetime 
I’ll ever get over you
Even if only get one text
Makes My heart go a flutter 
Butterflies in my body 
Make my mind wonder off

I think I’m stuck in this
Love paradise
I can’t even see you tonight 
Maybe it’s paralysis 
Babe I must be dreaming 
Every thought of you 
Got my mind screaming 

Why oh why
Can’t I make up my mind 
Why oh why 
Am I wasting my time
Why oh why
Am I still in love 
It’s been so much shit 
But I’m praying to the heavens above

Maybe I’m naive 
Maybe I’m feeling nothing 
Maybe it’s a lie 
And maybe I’m made for no one
Maybe it’s a lie 
And I’m made for no one

My Heart (Is Broken)

More Glitchcore!!! 💜

Lyrics:

I been fading fast
You been running through 
my mind like the flash 
Still trying 
To keep it together

Still striving to do better
But my mind been under the weather

Got dark clouds surrounding me 
Feel the darkness taking hold of my heart
Recently I got a spark 
But it died so fast
Now I’m low key falling apart
I know you see the hurt in my eyes 
I’m kind of waiting for someone to save my life
I don’t know where I’m going now
Thinking bout putting myself down

I’m hanging on the edge 
Gripping on life 
Struggling everyday 
Just to sleep at night 
Put a film over my eyes
Tell me it’ll be okay 
If the worst thing happens 
Please just don’t hate me
Don’t hate me

I been fading fast
You been running through 
my mind like the flash 
Still trying 
To keep it together

Still striving to do better
But my mind been under the weather

Got dark clouds surrounding me 
Feel the darkness taking hold of my heart
Recently I got a spark 
But it died so fast
Now I’m low key falling apart

I’m low key falling apart 
Low key falling 

I’m hanging on the edge 
Gripping on life 
Struggling everyday 
Just to sleep at night 
Put a film over my eyes
Tell me it’ll be okay 
Tell me it’ll be okay

Fading

Song chosen at random for the “Malxcxous Intent” Album

Lyrics:

Days go by
I’m struggling 
between death and life
Gun to my head 
too many times
I’ve thought about pulling the trigger
Been so close I felt the lights flicker

Yea baby I been tryna die
Nothing ever going right
Seen a text from my ex 
Felt like shit a thousand times

And I know you want me out of your life
But I’m feeling like erasing myself tonight

appearance of my persona
Matches the hurt behind my eyes
Heart been feeling dead 
This one’s different from the other times

And I’m just tryna drown it all out for a day
Don’t want to show you any of my pain no

Days go by
I’m struggling 
between death and life
Gun to my head 
too many times
I’ve thought about pulling the trigger
Been so close I felt the lights flicker

(Right Ambient)
Been so close I felt the lights flicker

(Left Ambient)
Been so close I felt the lights flicker

Days go by
I’m struggling 
between death and life
Gun to my head 
too many times
I’ve thought about pulling the trigger
Been so close-
Been so close-
Been so-
Days go by
I’m struggling 
between death and life
Gun to my head

Days Gone

Lyrics: 

Tired of reaching out so now I stay low key
Living in a ghost town in my mind 
God telling me to take my time 
Devil inside tryna take my eyes 
So I only see pitch black

But I don’t want to have suicidal thoughts in the Cadillac 
Mood switching like you been flipping a light
When I travel a to b I stay out of sight 
Cause there isn’t a night 
where I don’t wanna be alone
Inside been feeling like I have to atone 
For they way I’m being treated
That’s why I’m grippin’ the chrome
Mistake my silence for patience
But I’ve just kind of been waiting 
I can see that everything’s about to implode 
Just waiting for the fuse to light 
So I can explode 
Cause I ain’t going out without no damage
I’m going catastrophic no healing 

Don’t worry for me anymore 
Cause there’s no saving me 
Life’s been on a tight rope 
And I swear it’s getting thinner

You ain’t ever heard me talk about anything realer
Then this shit, why do I have to be stuck in place feeling like shit
While she gets to reap the benefits of her own destruction 
Meanwhile I’m sitting at home plotting on myself 
With my smith and Wesson 

I’m only getting closer to the edge 
Only getting closer to the edge 
Only getting closer to the edge (edge)

And I’m Getting Closer To…

Lyrics:

Stuck in my ways 
Stuck in illusions 
Been fighting for days
It’s been abusive

Been hiding my pain 
Been acting clueless
Fight through the day
Just to be reclusive

And I’ve been stuck 
Going round and round 
Round and round 
Round and round 
Used to say that
Nothing could ever 
Hold me down
Hold me down
But things have changed 
While I’ve been writing down 
Words from my mind 
Decipher the code 
Just to make a song 
That they’ll never find  
That they’ll never find
That they’ll never find

Lately I’ve been out of control
Telling people that I sold my soul
But I just want them to leave me alone 
Cause no one’s there at night 
when I’m gripping chrome
No one there to save me 
And I’ve been stuck 
Going round and round 
Cycling through the chamber 
Hoping to fire a round 
Through my fuckin brain 
They saying I’m insane 
But put simply 
It’s just that some things have changed 
I used to have love but I lost it all
Used to beg for attention 
While she tore me apart
Every waking minute 
I put everything on hold 
Just to see if she even loved me anymore

I’m spiraling 
Going round and round 
Wonder if in the end 
I’ll just start to sink down 
Straight to hell never go to heaven 
Wondering if it’s cause I shot myself 
With the Smith and Wesson 
Guess I should’ve watched the clock 
Cause I knew my time was running out 
Didn’t realize 
That I had to fight a bout with myself 
Didn’t see the pure destruction 
Say she wanted change 
But confused me straight to corruption
Confused me straight to corruption

I’m Spiraling. (Round & Round)

Lyrics: 

Sit on the edge of tomorrow 
Constantly live in my sorrow
Sink in the ground
While I’m coming down
Accepting everything 
I’ve been blessed 
Now it’s gone away
I know that I’m okay
Now

Don’t know why you forsake me
My brains been erasing 
Everything inside
I know you want to see me suffer 
Well I want you to hop on for the ride
Cause I’m done holding back 
If you want to attack 
I’ll match every figment of your energy 
But the catch is 
I won’t bounce back.



I wanna fly free
No more suffering
Spread my fucking wings 
White or black
Heaven or hell
Either way I’ll be okay
No more pain
No more stress
All it’ll take is my death
I’ve heard the screams
I’ve heard the cries
But it doesn’t even scare me on the inside
I hear voices
I see things 
Slowly becoming crazed
Now I’m only
On the verge of death
on the edge of tomorrow 
-
On the verge of death
on the edge of tomorrow 
-
On the verge of death
on the edge of tomorrow

The Edge of Tomorrow

Lyrics: 

Depression it ain’t getting better
Found clarity in stormy weather 
Fuck change ain’t nothing wrong with me 
I’ll just continue to sever 
My fucking bonds 
That hold me to this life
Scars down my arm
I’ll make a couple more tonight
Fear in my heart 
I’m going too deep now
Feel the tidal waves crashing 
While I sink down

Too many different things up on my mind 
going supersonic
Drugs don’t hit the same anymore 
unless it’s that chronic 
I don’t have no shame anymore 
No I fucking own it 
Turn myself into a demon 
Cause I know y’all see me bleeding
No one helping me pick up the pieces 
Damage everywhere my ears are still ringing 

Heart broken and I’m speechless 
Can’t find reason to conversate 
Lot of y’all left me in my darkest times 
Maybe it’s cause you’re wondering when I’ll die 

It’s not a surprise 
When it’s all I idolize 
Any figment of my imagination 
Usually includes suicide

Why do I smile when I know I’m fucking hurting 
Why do I lie when I see it isn’t working 
Why do I hide when it could fucking save me 
Why do I cry when my feelings 
always enslave me
always enslave me
always enslave me
always enslave me

Depression it ain’t getting better
Found clarity in stormy weather 
Fuck change ain’t nothing wrong with me 
I’ll just continue to sever 
My fucking bonds 
That hold me to this life
Scars down my arm
I’ll make a couple more tonight
Fear in my heart 
I’m going too deep now
Feel the tidal waves crashing 
While I sink down

Deeper & Deeper

Lyrics:

Mr. nicotine
Liquor fiend
Soul searching 
Behind the scenes
Tryna find the light 
Where the silence leans
Shadows speakin’ loud 
In my daily routine
Mind playin’ chess
Every thought a guillotine
Watch me burn 
In the gasoline
Fire activate me 
Like demonic fiends 
Spit infernos daily
I’m burnin’ through your dreams
Smoke in your reality
nothing’s what it seems
No
Nothing’s what it seems
No
——
Hell’s my playground
chaos in my laughs
Darkness in my veins
light flickers past
Gravitate to fire
but I’m born from the ash
Eyes on the throne
but I’m destined to crash
Riding the storm
but I’m tethered to wrath
See I’ve been riding the wave 
For a fucking while
Dreams been falling hard 
So still I run that trial
Hoping for a mental win
but I’m still stuck in the wild 
Bitch I’ll never win no
NO
NO-NO-NO
——-
(Ad-lib {Conversation})
——
{Malxcxous}
I AIN’T FUCKING DONE
——
Been hiding behind my past
If I let go of the masquerade 
I might as well crash 
Bitch I’m pulling guns and knives 
Got ’em paralyzed
every move’s a twisted design
Of my mental arbiter vice
My Heart be cold as ice
but I’m burnin’ through the sky
Feelin’ like a legend
watch me rise and never die
Always advertise 
My fucking mental health
One day it’s hey look I’m alive 
Then the next it’s always farewell 
Fighting demons inside 
but they ain’t never left me well 
No
Let me out of my cage tonight 
Actually let’s make it a cell
You don’t ever wanna cross me..
Why? 
You’ll find out in hell… Woah

Infernal Entity

This is the legacy I’m leaving behind. 

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