Lost and Found

Flow

Acoustic Playlist

All at No 19

Plans made, unfulfilled
For a life not lived
We dared to believe it was real
But it wasn’t to be for us
What we grasped for a moment turned to dust
Fleeting perfection, swiftly crushed
Now I survive, because I must

What do I do with the pain
To live life again
To remember is hard
To forget is even harder
We’re together alone
I cry but you won’t
I’m weak and you’re strong 
But who will fall the hardest?

Do you remember before
The darkness came to call
And took away the dream
Now I yearn for those days
To not know, not feel this way
To be ignorant, to be free
To unsee what I have seen

What do I do with the pain
To live life again
To remember is hard
To forget is even harder
We’re together alone
I cry but you won’t
I’m weak and you’re strong 
But who will fall the hardest?

Please listen to me
I’m here and I need you 
We’re different I know
Let me in and I’ll show you
Love can exist with pain
And weakness is a strength
Together we’ll find
I’ll ease your hurt and you’ll ease mine

What do I do with the pain
To live life again
To remember is hard
To forget is even harder
We’re together alone
I cry but you won’t
I’m weak and you’re strong 
But who will fall the hardest?

Who Will Fall?

Retour aux Aiguilles de Port-Coton (piano)

Dollar General

Room With a View

Tempus Fugit

Eggshells and rollercoasters
I don’t know which I fear the most
Just waiting for the explosion
It comes even when not provoked
You sidle up to me
And bury your head in my chest
Your arms, they pull me
Even sleeping, you’re not at rest

Rollercoasters, the highs and lows
Confounding what you think and what you know
Nurture the spark, let it grow
You are my soul

Your laughter flows through me
Makes me happy like nothing else
Those who know, those who knew me
See a softness I never possessed
You’re the blinding sunlight
That peeps through the hole in the fence
Your light you like to keep hidden 
A perfect line of defence 

Rollercoasters, the highs and lows
Confounding what you think and what you know
Nurture the spark, let it grow
You are my soul

Hold tight, hang tough
You are enough
Hold tight, hang tough
You are enough

Rollercoasters, the highs and lows
Confounding what you think and what you know
Nurture the spark, let it grow
You are my soul

Eggshells & Rollercoasters

I am Nobody

Verse 1
As I touch your trembling shoulder
I say love shouldn’t be this hard
You’re afraid to look at me
Scared I'll start
To make you talk, to make you think
Join the dots, find the link
You know that I won’t rest.. until I…

Chorus
Heal You, separate reality from myth
Heal you, be your rock, erase your sins
Heal you, starve the loss, and feed the wins
Heal you, heal you…

Verse 2
It’s not the nail, that’s all you see
So hand that hammer straight to me
You think that you've all the answers
But I know that you are wrong
So I will fight you, I will bite
I will find a way to prove what’s right
You know that I won’t rest…..until I…

Chorus
Heal You, separate reality from myth
Heal you, be your rock, erase your sins
Heal you, starve the loss, and feed the wins
Heal you, heal you...

Verse 3
I know you turn onto yourself
Silence every cry for help
Let darkness kill the pain
It did before, it will again
But I am here to disabuse you
Of that notion, of that cure
And my kindness might feel cruel
Because it’s new to you and I will….

Chorus
Heal You, separate reality from myth
Heal you, be your rock, erase your sins
Heal you, starve the loss, and feed the wins
Heal you, heal you…

Bridge
I know it’s hard to surrender
It’s hard to be helped
But sometimes you have to accept
That you can’t fix yourself

Chorus
Heal You, separate reality from myth
Heal you, be your rock, erase your sins
Heal you, starve the loss, and feed the wins
Heal you, heal you…

Heal You

I see your silver hair and your smile
So proud yet all the while
Pleased to lead from behind
You always took the time
To let us speak our minds 
So sure that we’d shine

Like glowing embers, I still remember
Love warm and tender
Home was to be near you
That twinkle, that mischievous wink
But gone in a blink
I miss you, I miss you

So many nights, by the phone
You said never walk alone
So you ferried us home
Not a harsh word from your lips
Just the same sound script
And a hug and a kiss

Like glowing embers, I still remember
Love warm and tender
Home was to be near you
That twinkle, that mischievous wink
But gone in a blink
I miss you, I miss you

Now I’ve kids of my own
I see them through your eyes as they grow
You’d have loved them, I know
So I bring you to them instead
An extra kiss to the head
As I put them to bed

Like glowing embers, I still remember
Love warm and tender
Home was to be near you
That twinkle, that mischievous wink
But gone in a blink
I miss you, I miss you

Glowing Embers

I call to talk but I have nothing to say
I just want to hear your voice
I act like I don’t have a care in the world
And that not being yours was my choice
I wanted to tell you that I can’t stop thinking
Of you, your face, and your ways
But words once spoken can’t be reclaimed
So I play the role of friend instead

False friend, there’s no end to my deception
False friend, better longing than rejection
False friend, in the order of what matters
Better dreams untapped than shattered

Your touch is accidental
But it hits like an lightening bolt
My face is a mask, I’ll never show
The feelings you evoke
Are you really not aware
Of the chaos you create
When you’re not here, I’m clear of mind
But one look and I can't think straight

False friend, there’s no end to my deception
False friend, better longing than rejection
False friend, in the order of what matters
Better dreams untapped than shattered

I rest my hand on your seat
When I travel alone
You’re a ghost in my days
Presence felt, never shown
Not a chill, but a warmth in my bones
Like a secret, comforting shawl

False friend, there’s no end to my deception
False friend, better longing than rejection
False friend, in the order of what matters
Better dreams untapped than shattered

False Friend

Feel that pain it happens when you care
Lean right in, embrace it if you dare
Dangerous days, perilous nights
I’ll take the reins, hold on tight

Life has taught you to protect yourself
To not take the fall, stay back from the edge
But love might be right within your reach
If you risk falling for me
Risk the fall for me

One step first, my love is all you need
Soon your thirst for more will set you free
Joyful days, blissful nights  
 Sit with me, hold me tight

Life has taught you to protect yourself
To not take the fall, stay back from the edge
But love might be right within your reach
If you risk falling for me
Risk the fall for me
  
Nothing ventured, nothing gained
Don’t hold back cos life won’t wait
If there’s never love, there’ll never be loss              
We’ll all be shielded but at what cost

Life has taught you to protect yourself
To not take the fall, stay back from the edge
But love might be right within your reach
If you risk falling for me
Risk the fall for me

Risk the Fall

All fab guitar and bass tracks provided by @rosarius (guitar) and Bruce (bass). 

Verse 1:
Not deep and meaningful just real
A chance is lost to tell you how I feel
As I cover up the gaping hole you miss
My smile is just a curving of my lips

Pre-chorus:
The great pretence
My last defence
You see I'm hiding
And every day
Is a chance to say
Please come and find me

Chorus:
And I'll open up a crack
Let a little sadness out
Not enough to push you back
Just enough to show you what I'm all about
Look in my eyes
And you will see this time
You knew me only half as well as I knew you

Verse 2:
As I carry out my daily work by rote
The date passes yearly without note
A testament to being in control
You assume the loss it, took so little toll

Pre-chorus:
So bloody hard
Not to discard
What won't define me
And every day 
Is a chance to say
Please try and find me

Chorus:
And I'll open up a crack
Let a little sadness out
Not enough to push you back
Just enough to show you what I'm all about
Look in my eyes
And you will see this time
You knew me only half as well as I knew you

Open Up a Crack

I heard your news today
Felt your world peel away
And your heart was crumbling fast
I wish I could tell you it won't last

I was there 
Right between darkness and despair
And everywhere I looked, I saw what I'd lost
Taken for granted at so little cost

Chorus 
Hold those memories close
That they're all you have hurts the most
Specks of time, magnified, playing like a movie
Inside your mind
Playing like a movie, inside your mind

I can tell you this my friend
Slowly the pain becomes a little less
It never leaves, it deserves to stay
You won't give her rightful place away

Chorus 
Hold those memories close
That they're all you have hurts the most
Specks of time, magnified, playing like a movie
Inside your mind
Playing like a movie, inside your mind

Step by step by step by little step
Every day you grieve leaves one day less
Lean on me, and I'll lean on you
And maybe together, we'll both get through

Hold those memories close....

Hold Those Memories Close

BVs by the lovely Emma J

How could you do it right in front of me
You told me I was special that you'd never leave
You took her hand so gently as you dropped mine like a stone
You promised me forever yet I'm sitting here alone

Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
I never saw the change in you until we were already apart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart

What changed in me for you to see me differently
To dull the wonder in your eyes when you look at me
To silence all the compliments that came so easily
Are the promises you keep for her the ones you broke on me

Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
I never saw the change in you until we were already apart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart

The shock has faded now at last
You're a feature of my past
I wouldn't believe it
If I hadn't seen it
The person you've become is one you swore you'd never be 

Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
I never saw the change in you until we were already apart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart

Cold Hands

Not fair, I shout inside my head
As I hear your news and sense your dread
The harder you try to fake the ease
With which you throw your words at me
The stronger my muscles tighten

The battle ground was laid before
You took your stance with ever more
Than the dignity that I can find
I'm mute of words, blank of mind
Cos I am really frightened 

We are here, we are here
We are everywhere you want us
Anytime you need we'll take your lead
We are here, we are here
We are everywhere you want us
Anytime you need we'll take your lead
We are here

Every path will be paved
With all our love that we can save
For every encounter, every day
We get to hold your hand and say
We'll walk this road beside you

But that won't help to ease the pain
That grows in force as it turns again
To ravage you and all you've built 
While those who thrive are wracked with guilt
Cos only luck divides us

We are here, we are here
We are everywhere you want us
Anytime you need we'll take your lead
We are here, we are here
We are everywhere you want us
Anytime you need we'll take your lead
We are here

Every Path

I am numb
I’ve forgotten how to feel
I have become
An impenetrable shell of steel
I won’t succumb
To their appeals
They beat their drums
But I will not reveal

What goes on inside my head
I won’t be drawn, I can’t be read
And I have no more tears to shed 
My oath is etched upon your grave
I won’t let go, I won’t be saved

I am alone
It’s best that way
I ignore the phone
I have no words today
If they think that I’m not home
Maybe they’ll go away
Cos they just want to know
What I cannot say 'bout

What goes on inside my head
I won’t be drawn, I can’t be read
And I have no more tears to shed 
My oath is etched upon your grave
I won’t let go, I won’t be saved

My words are only mine to hear
I made a promise I will keep
I close my eyes and you’re with me
For now I've everything I need

What goes on inside my head
My vision’s dull, my passion’s dead
I have no heart, I’ve stone instead
My oath is etched upon your grave
I won’t let go, I won’t be saved

No More Tears

There are no words that I can say
To take the pain away
I write a phrase and hit delete
I write again, and then repeat

What do you say to someone who's lost everything
What do you say when there's nothing left to fight
I want to scream but there's no one to scream at
There must be someone to blame, right?

You turn to me for comfort and strength 
And I fail to give you what you expect
Soothing words turn to dust on my lips
Consolation I cannot give

What do you say to someone who's lost everything
What do you say when there's nothing left to fight
I want to scream but there's no one to scream at
There must be someone to blame, right?

Those who say everything happens for a reason
Should stay the hell away from me
Cos in a world full of madmen and villains
Why take the gentle and let the monsters run free

What do you say to someone who's lost everything
What do you say when there's nothing left to fight
I want to scream but there's no one to scream at
There must be someone to blame, right?

What Do You Say?

I'd go anywhere in the world for you
I'd abandon best laid plans for you
Maybe do the things I thought I couldn't do
To be with you

I'm like putty in your hands
I relish your demands
And welcome every feeling you invite 
I'm enthralled and I'm transfixed
Love never felt like this
So maybe this time we got it right

I'd go anywhere in the world for you
I'd abandon best laid plans for you
Maybe do the things I thought I couldn't do
To be with you

I told you once in a flash of truth
I love the bones of you
With such intensity it almost hurts
And I still feel the same
I'm like a moth to your flame
And I don't care if I burn

I'd go anywhere in the world for you
I'd abandon best laid plans for you
Maybe do the things I thought I couldn't do
To be with you

Be With You

All songs on channel are original and copyright of Karen O'Mahony (c). 

You'll find me also here in my collaboration project with Johan Alm https://soundcloud.com/ashesfordreams

Be With You

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