Inbred

Unpunishable

Two-Headed Mother

made w michael ollin ♡

lyrics:

how do you do it all on your own
i want to be you, you always want to be alone 
starved for touch, you’re always off
i’ve been touched too much, now touch is all i’ve got
you keep a piece of everyone who’s died
so when you say you hurt, they can’t say you lied 
when you’re afraid, you put your fist through walls
you’ve got a hole for every time yesterday calls
cradle your face, ask is it worth it 
you say “i survived”, taping up your curtains 
“yeah it hurts but you wanna know what’s worse is 
they’ll all forget me on purpose”
i’m not like you, i’m more afraid 
spending every hour counting down my days
if i was you maybe i’d be taller
but you just rage til you get smaller
cause they don’t love you, rather what you give to them

i wish they knew you
how bad it threw you
talk about bad juju
but now you’re like them too
i loved you and i watched you
someone that i knew
you’re ruined and it’s cool
but i am not like you
i am not like you
i am not like you
you’re ruined and it’s cool
but i am not you

tentillforever

i fell in love again
september tends to be so cruel
he says my name and then
blah blah, so embarrassing 
but then he came and leaned in
and asks have i seen how it rains
in the plains
says he could take me there
he’s handsome as the day is long
all the while, inching his way in
like summer stumbling to a fall 
we sink into the carpet 
already wet with november’s rain 


i only bleed for him
mascara running like a champion
he says my name and then
i come so hard, i’d marry him
but then nirvana leaned in
and i lost myself again
to the rain
he asks not if but when 
blah blah, something meaningful
i don’t weave the thread
just run my hands along it
but if i did, then hell
i’d spar with death to skip your name


i can see the end
in the beginning of everything
so i just play pretend
like i don’t watch you leaving 
but you were never there
doctors blame the lead poisoning

Lead Poisoning

Gibson Girl

Strangers

American Teenager

Preacher’s Daughter

Sun Bleached Flies

Televangelism

Ptolemaea

Family Tree

Family Tree (Intro)

Western Nights

Hard Times

A House In Nebraska

August Underground

Thoroughfare

Instrumental recorded by Vvya Melinkolya on December 27th, 2021 as an early version of Hard Times.

hard times (demo)

open mouthed, she bit you
“you can’t hurt me if i never loved you”
i was wrong when i met you
about who i thought would save who

chose to be alone 
and walk the whole way home
soaked to the bone
hid your face
said i don’t wanna play
but you were born game

bambi

من النهر إلى البحر

are you watching
there is nowhere left to go 
would i matter if i looked like someone you know 
all your money and good deeds 
will not return my blood to me
from the river to the sea 
please do not forget me

#freepalestine

من النهر

Punish

Perverts

Etienne

Vacillator

Onanist

Amber Waves

started writing this in february 2024, i think for perverts. 

lyrics:

i saw go before me, a great impossible thing
sensual and concrete
splitting me open
renders me obsolete

i’ve slain greater
and moved on

make room in hell
make room in hell
make room in hell

they cry, you don’t have to go
they cry, you don’t have to go
my love
i know
i know
i know
i know
i know
i know
i know
i know


make room in hell (demo)

punish (demo III)

drums and additional guitars by matthew tomasi

v1:

each time that i think of you
i push another through
and recall how the bullet flew
each time that i think of you
i barricade the room
one more wound


v2: 

i was an angel, though plummeting
i watched it get dark
i’m playing it tough
the worst that could happen
is happening to me
another round of shots
for the boys on tv
i was an angel, but they made me leave
with stars in my eyes
crying as i wheel 
as i hit the lake
i prayed it’d be green
it’s all that i need
i deserve it, i think

i loved an angel, and it made me weak

refrain:

i am punished by love
i am punished by love
i am punished by love
i am punished by love

outtro: 

i loved an angel, and it made me weak
i loved an angel, and it made me weak

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