anybody else. (w/ casperrr)

LAST WEEKLY TRACK
NEW ERA SOON
NV4L
https://linktr.ee/swainesworld

feelin on myself (prod, jakobe)

Mixed/Mastered by me
Prod. Red Eyez

Lyrics: 
oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

uhh feelin the covenant pressure
7am filled wit longing 
inescapable terror
let her fight back, what a frightening
sight it must be to see
oh i'll yearn for the chest feeling we used to hold so deeply
learn to breathe on my own
take this coat from my arm
trade the cuts for complex sedatives
we both suck for sentiment
call for several syllables, i only need three
baby tell me that you need me

oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

oh cut deep, we'll make new scars 
baby what's that tone for 
but every sentence that spills out your mouth makes me feel the resentment a little bit more
cut from the cloth but your more like a feather
every second we're spending apart puts us closer and closer to never
uh and honestly, maybe, been feeling it lately, i wish that i never had met her
you still got my sweater don't you?
lately you been cold like weather, so cruel
let me stay inside, i hope we get some snow soon 

oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

fragments

well i found a little bit of comfort
you showed me something in a new light
that it didn't have to hurt
but im so grateful, and your so graceful 
i really do appreciate you 

what a vicious fuckin cycle
hung by the neck from a tight rope
my cells divide in odd ways when im next to you
i can't find a way to catch my breathe when you're in view
it's like i'm asthmatic 
hope we won't be back trackin
and i would carve it on my skin if it'd convice you that you're pretty
i found a comfort in the loneliness
i found in you a certain type of bliss

lay your head on my lap
let it down and let me brush your hair
take a breathe, you deserve it
baby when i die, i'll be holdin your hand

i've spent a lifetime with you in my head 
i found a sense of love i never coulda guessed
people spend their lives tryna find what we made
i think i fell for you after first names 

i've spent a lifetime with you in my head 
i found a sense of love i never coulda guessed
people spend their lives tryna find what we made
i think i fell for you after first names 
won't you hold me close, it gets cold in the night time
for several moments i could get lost in your light eyes

rest your head on my chest
take a series of deep, controlled breathes
whisper softly, your words on my neck 
tell me love, tell me what you want next

comfort in spring

Water ft. Flesh Golem

produced by me
guitars/etc by rjpasin

what am i doing with my life
stay at home
couldnt shed no light
coz i dont know how to feel no
i dont know myself at all
everyone knows me better than myself

put a smile on my face
to give the facade you need
take off the mask to feel so free
i can be me around you
i can be me around you
i dont have to be fake for you to see
do you see me

i tell her i scared
she said what about 
im scared of losing you
and im lose myself in doubt
and i dont know what to do with myself
im lost in my head im wandering about
i refuse to get out coz i feel safe here
maybe it'd be better without me
i just know its heaven what i see 
maybe it'd be better without me
i just know its heaven what i see 

what am i doing with my life
stay at home
couldnt shed no light

what am i doing with my life
stay at home
couldnt shed no light
coz i dont know how to feel no
i dont know myself at all
everyone knows me better than myself

what am i doing with my life?

produced by me
guitars/etc by rjpasin

i dont know where my heads at no more
i dont know where to go no more
coz im rotting in my brain
im going insane
this weight that i feel
went distant again
cant cope with this pain
what is my deal
will this feeling subside
im sick of always lying to your face
i see in your eyes in the starry skies in everyway

im floating up
can touch the sun

i dont know where my heads at no more
i dont know where to go no more

(synth/saxophone solo)

there's something wrong with my head

prod SHADE08 + prod.bycian

we back

ur precious
in every way i can imagine
i'm anxious
everything ends tragic

ur precious
in every way i can imagine
i'm anxious
everything ends tragic
i'm wasted
in the terms of my talent
it's dangerous
but everything that i imagined

(i can't fall in love again)
i can't lie
you're on my mind a thousand times i swear
can't take this
i can't take this 
can't take this shit i'm damaged
(i won't see a happy end)
watch me cry
take my life but you won't ever care
won't take no more, i can't
sing along to the words i chant

every time i try to fall 
again i fail
every time i gave my all 
i chased my tail

so baby won't you hold me back
i know i told you
i would never fall that bad 
but that was not true
living with a heart attack
when i can't hold you
i just need to take it back
maybe i love you

ur precious
in every way i can imagine
i'm anxious
everything ends tragic
i'm wasted
in the terms of my talent
it's dangerous
but everything that i imagined

can't take this
i can't take this 
can't take this shit i'm damaged
won't take no more, i can't
sing along to the words i chant

precious

written and performed by backyard beetle
produced, mixed, and mastered by hitsomni

backyard beetle - the beginning w/ hitsomni

[Title: GRANVILLE SINS – GoolZan]


[Intro]
[pads]
City hum in the blood, blue sirens on chrome
I taste the night before it’s home
[pause]

Breath on glass, your name in smoke
high on sin, breathing you like dope 

[Verse 1]

Boulevard—city night and lights
Running with your thoughts, running wild
Neon signs and Granville sins
I see you, then get lost in sighs

Crosswalk flash, your hand in mine
Meter red, but we steal the time
Backstreet kiss, my pulse offline
You laugh—then say “tonight you’re mine”

[Pre-Chorus]
We don’t wait, we accelerate
Two ghosts in a rental, out the gate
Your eyes say “stay,” my pride says “late”
[drop]
I fold… you take the wheel and aim

[Chorus]

Run me through your Granville sins
Paint me in your neon skin
If this is wrong, then let it win
I want every midnight you’re in

Call it mercy, call it crime
Either way, I’m crossing lines
Run me through your Granville sins
’Til the city forgives our shine
[echo]

[Post-Chorus]
[vox]
Ne-on… Gra-nville… sin-s…
We burn, then breathe again
[pause]

[Verse 2]

Payphone glow on your cheekbone gold
Uber lane, windows low, don’t fold
Card maxed out on a room with a view
But all I see in the glass is you

Elevator drag—06 to 10
Lipstick note on my wrist “amen”
You say “own me like you own this night”
I swear in hush, then kill the lights

[Pre-Chorus]

We don’t heal—just decorate
Glitter on the bruise we make
You say “jump,” my veins obey
[rise]
I fall… and love the break

[Chorus]

Run me through your Granville sins
Paint me in your neon skin
If this is wrong, then let it win
I want every midnight you’re in
Call it mercy, call it crime
Either way, I’m crossing lines
Run me through your Granville sins
’Til the city forgives our shine

[Instrumental]
[solo]

[Bridge – double-time trap]

Northbound lights like a barcode stream
You the glitch in my dopamine
Say my name with a gasoline grin
I strike the match—let the movie begin

If dawn interrogates our skin
Tell the sun we plead the sin

[Chorus – final]

Run me through your Granville sins
Paint me in your neon skin
If this is wrong, then let it win
I want every midnight you’re in
Call it mercy, call it crime
Either way, I’m crossing lines
Run me through your Granville sins
’Til the city forgives our shine
[echo]

[Outro]
[fade]
Boulevard, city night and lights…
Running with your thoughts—still wild
Neon on my tongue, your breath like wine
Granville keeps our secrets… for a while
[tape]

[screen drops] 
[end]

anybody else. (w/ casperrr)

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