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Wait Until I Fall

prod. 2001

shoutout the homie skrwd <3

woah
in the silence i will drown
tonight 

i wish i knew it all before
how much it would’ve hurt when i hit the floor
but knowing me i would’ve just ignored 
everything the signs were pointing towards
i search around but i’m abandoned
everyone is gone and i don’t understand it 
i wasn’t needed around 
guess i’ll shut myself out
in the silence i’ll drown

in the silence i’ll drown tonight 
no one can save my life (save my life)
all i needed was a friend 
to come and pull me out of the quicksand 

SKRWD:

its been a while and i still feel abandoned
it comes to mind all the time, i cant stand it
every night i lie awake to reminders of the sound
maybe i wont feel a thing on the way down 
i dont get it
you never meant it
so whyd you wanna be the one who said it?
i dont get it
i dont get it
why say it if you never meant it?


i wish i knew it all before
how much it would’ve hurt when i hit the floor
but knowing me i would’ve just ignored 
everything the signs were pointing towards
i search around but i’m abandoned
everyone is gone and i don’t understand it 
i wasn’t needed around 
guess i’ll shut myself out
in the silence i’ll drown

(in the silence i’ll drown tonight no one can save my life)

in the silence i’ll drown w/ skrwd (2001)

I Don't Wanna Be That Guy (prod. kiranaito)

lyrics~

Ring your line knowing damn well you’re not picking up when im calling 
feel myself grow attached to you, tryna stay up but im falling
i just cant fucking wait for the days i see your face in the morning
wrap my arms round your waist, im still in awe you’re
heaven fallen.

Can you believe it all happened so fast?
Few months back still stuck in the past
now im just eager tryn’ find out whats next
vivid dreams of me kissing your neck
uh
I dont wanna fall back
in love with our story
i dont wanna revert to,
What it was before that

Oh If you could see me..

If i told you my secret..

Would that stop you from leaving..

Or would you still go
far away from this place in the snow
Stuck in mud i cant move anymore
Say you fucked up
So am i
Oh noo

I just wanna be the best for you 
Dont know if im up to the task
i was a drug addict, it surely wont be that long till i relapse
Can you handle it ?
Cos if you can, lemme know fast
I just want that guarantee that you’ll be there for me when i crash

Ring your line knowing damn well you’re not picking up when im calling 
feel myself grow attached to you, tryna stay up but im falling
i just cant fucking wait for the days i see your face in the morning
wrap my arms round your waist, im still in awe your heaven fallen.

Can you believe it all happened so fast?
Few months back still stuck in the past
now im just eager tryn’ find out whats next
vivid dreams of me kissing your neck
uh
I dont wanna fall back
in love with our story
i dont wanna revert to,
What it was before that

angel (autrioly)

i need to breathe
look, me in the eyes as you, grid your teeth
i am, not the monster i want to be

wait for it all
to come to an end
your shawdow is lost
im out here again

i dont talk a lot
yet dont ever say
i dont have no friends
stay by the moon, and dont have defence

loosen your grip babe, im dying again
open ur arms
open ur eyes
watch what your doing, your taking a life

lost all the words for a gentle disguse
im trying to change, so dont walk away

i need to breathe
look, me in the eyes as you, grid your teeth
i am, not the monster i want to be

i am by the water in the forest
lookin 9 to 5, so you can make a little money, on the side
while playing with ur life
party every day, until ur dying 25

and the moon youll watch, yeah youll really stay
and all your friends are gone, with some guys they just  met
ur life is tragic and gone, and ur frail all the same
you'll keep on staring out ur window till ur gone, forgotten name!

Forgotten name (Moon VI) (prod. acey x navyxower)

some of yall are a joke.
cover w/ liz & mini cooper
----
lyrics.

life is spinning round in my head
i dont wanna wait till im dead
screaming out your name i do depend
on your presence, here we are once again

but i was doing better, than i had ever been 
until you locked me out, guess it was better than it seemed
no i was so confused, you keep on pushing this agenda its okay
but its not, theres something wrong with your brain

cold days, long, nights in the morning
saying in, bed late, i kept snoring
theres a lot, my mental really kept on going
i dont wanna stay up late, wanna wake up in the morning

why does everything need to be a sad song
i dunno, honestly, what the hells wrong
my own mind tells me everything's a mess
but at times i need to understand, and just deal with the stress

fuck you and everyone, who left me
i dont care about ur problems, u just hate me
never forgetting all the things and what you said to me
i feel like throwing up, almost every day

now why'd you do that at my show
you knew my friend died, and you didnt even know
that would ruin the whole you fuckin stupid hoe
we grew up and you keep bringing up that shit you shoulda known

i just, wanted to be friends
but just like all the others you just went and dipped
i coulda told you all the stories that you probably missed
when being gone for all those years, i guess it was never meant-

its always the same
never trust a girl with mental issues is what they said
but thats the only kind people who ever understand me
i got a few guys left, but they're always so busy

and to the guy who got my car with me
buddy yeah you gotta problem, i just let it be
off the drugs you were so special, couldn't've almost seemed
like we were homies meant for life, but life aint what it seem, so i just let it be

why, as humans, do we do this
day, after, day i keep moving
on, its hard for me, to really know that
i, am gonna loose, more, as im older

a story to all of those who left me behind (prod. jake hxllywood)

written during the time of meeting @sewerperson

lyrics

i’m wasted force
spent time in the sewers but i wanted more
coz when i left back to reality i felt lost i just needed merly discourse

tell me ur story 
tell me where’s home
show me the future
ik it’s cold but

if i hit 40
u need 2 know
that this was ur doing to which i owe my soul

been here since day 1
i wish it showed
where was this love at 
where did it go omg

u see we’re bonded
but different holes 
that we climbed out of 
i hope ur proud of me

5 yrs of listening 
th dust has settled yeh things r so different
that shit was splifferent
taught me to write my own book and spot out the fiction
put a purpose in som of these bad chapters 
gave me a mission

the track was rusted now tunnel vision 
things r so clear when im zoned in and listening 
life is worth living 
found from within but without u
its missing
especiilay when i miss home

ik ur lost
this wrld can be cruel but u haven’t yet lost…

i saw the bridges then the fire
id stroll so peaceful in the mire
i’ve been so many destinations but no scenes compare to this. i’m not a cryer

but i can’t help but shed a tear
a lot past brought out tnite
to keep it tight th_heavy beers
to stay surreal i kept it light

i’ve put a body 2 a voice
and i wish that i could stop time
i dont know how i got here 
but im not gonna question why
ima live this fuckin moment when u hand me that old mic
sing our fucking lungs out 
forget our sorrowed lives

sewers

_sewers (secre x javiifontan)

RAHHHHHHHH!!

lyrics

a fuckin waster
hiding in broad daylight 
every risk i take feels like a tazer
help me meet my maker
just please give me a taster 
the reflection to ur face 
know that u cannot be replaced

again yeah ive been thinking about my lake life
i just wanna hold u so tight
and stay up these late nights
fate dies every time im with u but i hate lies 
snake eyes stare at me they push and pull to break ties

a beaten stowaway no im not going back
to that cold place but know that im back on track 
to my old ways vision fades to black
its those dark days im not going back

im a wastrrr
im a waste of life 
im a waster
im a waste of life

im a wastrrr
im a waste of life 
im a waste of breathe
im a waste of time

a waster
just me and my ego oh it push and pulls
face it 
u had never been responsible

list of own rules
this drink so toxic ima cave
tonight i dont wanna be saved
jus feel love, 
love the pain

lights r out its dark
mayb its just me
id o my best to carry weight but this shit aint normal

fucking waster im just fucking wasting time
wasting breathe
i been here, been on 10
somehow almost 25
thought by then wouldnt be alive 
so ima just take it night by night
just wanna feel love tonight
baby its jus me and u tonight 
i want u to take my breathe tonight

a story to all of those who left me behind (prod. jake hxllywood)

NAVYXOWER