now this part right here fuckin hits good job bro!

Kev’s 10/10’s

tired (+xmichaelwarren)

mommas boutta go to war, if ion come back, i love you.
autumn: https://soundcloud.com/skullergamez
v v v
[emptychest]
talk talk 
thats all i hear
bangkok
got two broads in my ear
brain rot
thats the shit that wont cure
sorry babe
i couldnt help but overhear
whats it like when ur living off the deep end?
spending every day getting high till the week end
living life slo mo but the dream steady beaming
in my mind its all im feigning 
have u reached the ceiling yet?
spoke ur feelings yet?
gonna be okay, or are you gonna end up dead baby..?
lemme know if u simply need some rest baby
ill be the shelter when the hails pouring real heavy
but im boutta go to war and ion know if imma come back
hug me while im here so if i die you wont get flashbacks
keep that pretty lil face posted up beside my nightstand
rewind to the days when u were cradled in my right hand
now im stationed up, boutta ship off
my hands are shaking and im scared but ion got no option
you can always text me if your awake and u miss me
mommas boutta go to war, if ion come back, i love you..

[autumndropsdead]
yeah i’m anxious to hit a wall
hoping you carry on
do you care at all?
you don’t care at all

oh to be a little taller
look a little better
ally once said to die whenever; 
it’s the weather 
self encouragement is something 
i need to endeavor
girl i never meant the bond between us 
to be severed 

now fuck i’m sitting here alone
i ain’t got a message at the tone
the light in my heart that once shone
is dimmer than i’ve ever known 

swearing that i know 
i’ve been a bitch baby 
ion wanna talk abt shit i wanna live maybe whatever i’m feeling got caught up in a wind is he all you ever wanted could you count it as a win baby yeah yeah yeah

[emptychest & autumn]
yuh!
talk talk
its all i hear
bangkok
got two broads in my ear
brain rot 
thats the shit that wont cure
sorry babe
i couldnt help but overhear 
whats it like when ur living off the deep end?
spending everyday getting high till the week end
living life slo mo but the dreams steady beaming
in my mind its all im feigning.

im stationed up
boutta ship off
my hands are shaking 
and im scared
but ion got no option
you can always text me 
if your awake and you miss me
mommas boutta go to war
if ion come back,
i love you..

war w/ autumndropsdead (jabarionthebeat x deephartt)

when you fall, when you fall don't give it up
you know the fall is coming, sing a song of lust
runnin from, runnin from ur love that's done
and ur insensitive, its getting kina hot

say ur done, fuckin done, its not up
to the people in ur life, ur loosing trust
in all these other fuckin people make you run
runnin from, runnin from what is done

when u calling me anxitey'll rise
to the ends of all the planets in the sky
but its done, said and done, fuck it up
running from, what you said before the sun

before the suns comin up, in the night
its okay, if your never feelin right
runnin from, runnin from, fall in love
runnin from, all the shit that's said and done

but its too late, no its too late, no its too late, ey
im runnin to the gate, no I'm not loosing fate, its the one, ur the one, ur the one
its lost, in my mind
its lost, in my mind

put a gun up to the light
and if you make it, youll be alright
put a gun up to the sky
and if you shoot, it might end ur life

when u callin me anxitey'll rise
to the ends of all the planets in the sky
but its done, said and done, fuck it up
runnin from, what you said before the sun

before the suns comin up, in the night
its okay, if your never feelin right
runnin from, runnin from, fall for love
runnin from, all the shit that's said and done


*put a gun up to the light
and if you make it, you'll be alright
put a gun up to the sky
and if you shoot, it might end ur life*

Song of lust_  (prod. venus)

// chorus
such a cost to pay
watch it all go in flames
if i could explain
would it all end the same?
but I can’t convey,
simple thoughts in my brain
well I guess, checkmate
yeah I lost, what a shame

// verse (envy)
everything will fall apart if you just give it time, oh no
and I'm not fine and you're not far
my pieces too misaligned, oh yea
and im not trying to waste your time
so there's no need to put on a show
and i might call you once or twice
cause i have a hard time letting go

the queen always corners the king
her shadows lingering
i feel my heart skip a beat as she sings
this is the end for me

// verse (geist)
this is the end for me
you’re getting close, i start to freeze
i’ll hold on to the memories
of times when we both had a dream

and i’ve been sick of overthinking
make your move i’ve lost my patience
there’s no way that I can make it
I’ll take the loss but,

// chorus
such a cost to pay
watch it all go in flames
and if i could explain
would it all end the same?
but I can’t convey,
simple thoughts in my brain
well I guess, checkmate
yeah I lost, what a shame

Spotify

checkmate w/ notenvy

Lyrics:

I just need to break down
dont make me do it out here
yea i cry ugly i swear
its not for ur eye i rip and tear
i used to follow certain morals
and never asked why first
does she give u mercy
when u beg her that it hurts

do no harm yea she preaches 
while she looks me in the eyes
and her pupils dialate 
as we read eachothers minds
memories flood back thru an air filled brain
she's the only one aware when she dish out pain
she wants to
bash me with a pipe wrench
wreak out fucking havoc
and i promise she would if we weren't at this party

yet the kiss comes easily
and the clothes follow and she's feeling me
yet the kiss comes easily
and the clothes follow and she's feeling me
she could never concentrate thru her rolled back eyes
physicalities distract us from our lust to die

i told her xpect the worst n u cant get hurt
but she’s an optimist and only heeds signs from the earth
u shouldve listened and detached urself as i do 
i'm not an oracle but i know how to survive here
on this foreign planet
and if i'm left here unattended i might cause some damage
they shoulda known i wasn't human when their virus didn't phase me
shoulda seen how i don't click with human beings as of lately

I just need to break down
dont make me do it out here
yea i cry ugly i swear
its not for ur eye i rip and tear
i used to follow certain morals
and never asked why first
does she give u mercy
when u beg her that it hurts

I just need to break down
dont make me do it out here
yea i cry ugly i swear
its not for ur eye i rip and tear
i used to follow certain morals
and never asked why first
does she give u mercy
when u beg her that it hurts

parking lot breakdown (branwen)

im sorry if i seem distracted
im really tryna live but im distracted
i know i said it twice atleast im aware
i always say things twice cause i know im not there
i know im not there
i know im not there
i know im not
ay my ghost has seen these trees all the time
and it'll see em baby, one more time
ay i cannot heal from this
oh
god 
no
its like a family that had planned out
but it never worked out 
i would try a thousand years
i would cry a thousand tears
its like a girl that gave you her heart
but you tore it apart
my life has never been in my hands 
and now i gotta pay the price
and fucking change it right
before i fuckin die
i wanna live
i wanna see what the world has to give
to me 
i gotta have hope
and i gotta be me 
i gotta see the brighter side
sweep me off my feet :(
am i gone today?
will i be okay?
i dont got no one asking me if ill be okay
aye aye
im tryna find the one for me
maybe lookin's not good for me
but i know if ion try imma never be alright
damn.

ay my ghost has seen these trees all the time
and it'll see em baby, one more time
ay i cannot heal from this
oh 
god 
no
its like a family that had planned out
but it never worked out 
i would try a thousand years
i would cry a thousand tears
its like a girl that gave you her heart
but you tore it apart.

i would try a thousand times..
i would stay a thousand nights..
you were gone but i was here..
i would never disappear.. 

im gone but aint disappear <3

sweep me off my feet (wisssery x jolst)

nothing is enough

(intro)

i know it’s hard
when your life just falls apart
i know it’s hard
when your body’s covered in scars

(chorus)

i know it’s hard
when your life just falls apart
i know it’s hard
when your body’s covered in scars

and theres nothing you can do except stare at the ceiling 
and wonder if your life has lost any meaning 
nothing but a disgrace from the very start
but would you be surprised if i was hanging in the dark

(bridge)

it has been centuries since i gazed into your eyes
you were perfection and i miss you in my life

(verse)

there should be nothing to hide
but you still keep feeding me lies
into my head
do you want me to end up dead?
every night i’m staring at the lead 
at the end of my bed
one bullet is all it should take
to put me inside my grave

(chorus)

i know it’s hard
when your life just falls apart
i know it’s hard
when your body’s covered in scars

and theres nothing you can do except stare at the ceiling 
and wonder if your life has lost any meaning

(outro)

i know it’s hard

(it has been centuries since i gazed into your eyes)
(you were perfection and i miss you in my life)

one shot from the grave (sorrow bringer)

prod me
@imnotenvy
@victmolina

(casperrr)
lay down once again
in my bed 
staring at the ceilling
im getting lost inside my of my own head 
in between all of these feelings 

the days go by 
and im getting weaker 
i hate my life 
but i can't leave her
the days go by 
and im getting weaker 
i hate my life 
but i can't leave her

(NotEnvy)
it's a little foggy
in my head~
hold on to all the things u told me
and im so tied
between feeling love and lust again
so don't give up yet ur helping
and you know that it's hard sometimes
but i can do this myself, you know~
i've been ignoring my health 
oh again for the last time
and im beggin u please dont go

(vict molina)
there's something about
the way u look at me 
it makes me want to cry
cause neve in my life
have i ever gotten so close 
to some1s heart 
believe me when i say
ur the only thing that 
makes me stay
around 
will you belive the things
that i said to you 
i mean all of them
i want all of you with me 

(casperrr)
lay down once again
in my bed 
staring at the ceilling
im getting lost inside my of my own head 
in between all of these feelings

staring at the ceiling w/NotEnvy & vict molina

~2300~

This song is raw and true to the place I was in mentally when I recorded it. A few months ago I left my long-term relationship as well as my home and first attempt at a better life for myself. I returned to New York and lost myself in substances and self-medication. This song came from an evening of blackout substance abuse which was part of an even longer span of time that I do not recollect. When I found this song in my macbook I felt it would be too personal to ever share publicly but as i've grown and overcame these obstacles I decided it would be a necessary part in the process of healing and moving on. This one is self-produced and I don't remember making any of it. Thanks for sharing this with me.

jumpedtoosoon

produced by soloft
mixed and mastered by me

time is a blessing but cursed all the time
what i would give to rewind 
all of the nights where it felt so right 
they hit like a brick every time 
i still hate going outside 
sometimes I wish I was blind 
still choose to ignore it, but never forget it, and yeah I regret it 

tell me right now
tell me right now
is it nice on the other side of this hell?
i know calling at the worst time’s suicide
let me find out and I’ll tell you what it feels like 



i got a problem with spending my money before it deposits
that is an easy one, i have a thousand, don’t know how to solve them 
please do not tell me you love me if you’re always busy
no ring when im calling 
yeah, not gonna lie, a lot of my dreams involve bridges and falling 
i walk around with my anger a lot 
know it’s not healthy, im learning to stop
i been working OT
chasin a check tryna figure it out 
don’t really feel in control of my life 
and that shit don’t sound right 
only my best in the cover of night
kill every beat and I don’t even try 
on my mind in the middle of the night 
wanna die at the thought, can we go for a drive?
catch a vibe, smoke in the sky
nowhere near great but im feeling alright
all out of time
still gotta try
nothing to lose
so here goes the dive

i'll tell you what it feels like (prod. soloft)

lryics -

sky dark blue i’m all alone
why can’t we talk like before
wish u were there when i fell to the floor
but u were snug behind his door

everything’s over, it happened fast
now i’m just wishin that’d would text me back
u said we’d still talk what happened to that
cant keep holding to nothing i’m losing grasp

i close the hatch
seems like she good at getting detached
well maybe she never was
guess i’m good at being dun
and being tossed to the side every month

zbee.
I guess that l have to learn every month
Hurting me now I swear that is enough
I get attached and I start to bluff
Saying that we’ll make it through the rough

I knew that we couldn’t even really make it
I dunno why I even decided to go off in spaceships
Maybe because you were next to me
Maybe aliens will help us truly, woah

everything’s over, it happened fast
now i’m just wishin that’d would text me back
u said we’d still talk what happened to that
cant keep holding to nothing i’m losing grasp

put up more defense
cause ever time i love i get hurt in the end
i’ll tell u fine guess i love to pretend
told u the a millions times, but this time i’ll avoid lament

alone with moon and the stars
id scream my lung out my body but they never talk
at least they’re not ripping my heart
into a million parts

into a millions pieces 
i’m just so tired of feeling these feelings 
but like u ever cared 
into this dark blue sky i will stare 

sky dark blue i’m all alone ( into nothing )
why can’t we talk like before ( into nothing )
wish u were there when i fell to the floor ( into nothing )
but u were snug behind his door ( into nothing )

into nothing
into nothing
behing his door

hatch ft. zbee (prod. metlast)

~2300~

@daystowaste
Guitar by 2FLOORSUP

Lyrics:

[VERSE1]
I can’t take the steps in this process And I fight the help that i’m promised; With myself lately I’ve been dishonest Will you treat me less like your project I’ve been holding on too tight
Honest open gone tonight

[HOOK]
Bags packed up
One last cup
To look back on everybody grows up
I’ll write a sad song just for you to show love
You’ll find resolve from it whenever the time comes Bags packed up
One last cup
To look back on everybody grows up
I’ll write a sad song just for you to show love
You’ll find resolve from it whenever the time comes

[DAYS TO WASTE]
You were something
Cigarettes in my lungs you were toxic
Light a match leave it all to assumption
That’s okay baby i’m going numb anyway
Don’t call back i’m leaving and that’s that Driving away to a place I can relax
Cause I can’t escape this
I made you a playlist
Of every song that convinced me I hate this Say goodbye to distant lies
The pain you dealt a thousand times
Cause i’ve been staying up all night
To wash away the wasted time
But i’m so tired
Sick of the lies and the miles I drove back home Cause i’ve been someone else for a long time

[HOOK]
Bags packed up
One last cup
To look back on everybody grows up
I’ll write a sad song just for you to show love
You’ll find resolve from it whenever the time comes Bags packed up
One last cup
To look back on everybody grows up
I’ll write a sad song just for you to show love
You’ll find resolve from it whenever the time comes

Resolve w/ Days To Waste

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

trust the process
you'll be fine there
trust the process
ill be right here
YOU GOTTA LIVE A LITTLE BIT!
trust the process
your hearts right there
trust the process
i know you're scared
relatable kind of pain
let the day wash away
i know you'd like to say it stays the same
but every single day you learn to change   
and ill be the first to say 
"its been a little different without you here"
and ill be the last one 
to say that "I'm okay with how we turned out"
cause I'm not
were burned out in a knot
6 days in a cycle
and i think love is vital
i guess lifes a movie but I'm clearly not the main part
fly, fly by, time really flies by
die whenever
just the weather
say its alright 
but its always whatever

trust the process

follow jolst

trust the process (jolst x splashgvng)

STAGES OF LOVE & HEARTBREAK

LOVE SUX

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Song of lust_ (prod. venus)

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